1/28/2009 10:31:39 PM: hey there, well since this is supposed to be about the lifestyle, i guess i will keep it at that. Why are men so confusing? why is it so difficult to follow three little rules that i have? How difficult is it for a man to use a condom? How difficult is it for a man to pull out before he ejaculates? how difficult is it to get to know someone before a woman jumps into bed with a man? Are these days gone? is it now acceptable to have sex on the first date? WTF! If you can't follow these rules then get out of my life. period. am i being cruel? am i being a bitch? a first date for me if all went well would be this scenerio: go to dinner, eat, have a cup of coffee, and talk some more, walk out to the car either holding hands or when you get to the kiss the girl and ask for another date. i don't know maybe i'm just old fashion when it comes to dating but that is what i would think would be a good first date. well i got past all that with someone recently. Except now He doesn't want to follow my rules. WTF! So i've gotten to know him pretty well and by this i mean i know his first and last name, date of birth, and where he lives, plus some of his likes and dislikes too. To me that is getting to know someone not this oh i know his first name and lets jump him at the first site. no no no that's not how dating works in my world. But then again how many people actually do all this? peace pup.

12/17/2008 11:57:40 AM: after all that yeah we split up. oh well such is life. peace pup.

12/15/2008 4:33:37 PM: hey all, Well i know He is reading this. and i don't care if He admits it or not that He is. i had an awesome weekend and that is all i know. i have been having trouble centering myself as a sub so this weekend my Domme side of me came out for a Christmas party that my friend and i went too. I used a flogger for the first that was given to me by Him and a few other toys that i have collected along the way too. For some reason all these years i have had no desire to learn anything about a flogger, whip or toy for that matter. Now my Domme side of me comes out and i want to learn everything there is to know about whips and such. WTF! Some people know what they want in this lifestyle and others do not know at all. i am one of those other people that do not know what i want or seek. i get asked that a lot. What do u seek in this lifestyle? my answer: i have no clue yet. i suppose if i find a strong enough Dom that is able to center me or take control of me; i would be more then willing to be a sub again. Right now the Person that i have is having trouble centering me as a sub and therefore i gave up on it. i have concluded i want him as a friend or someone that can teach me the ropes of whip play since that is His favorite thing. Other then that i have no new news except that i gave up on Him. peace pup.

12/3/2008 11:03:21 AM: hey, i just don't understand it, i guess. One minute we are not doing a bdsm relationship and the next he wants to be friends. Yes i want him around me as a friend. and yes i have a lot of problems in my life right now that need to be straightened out. But one thing gets worked out at a time. Oh gee oh my, it's called the stressors of life! And sometimes you just need to step back and reevaluate your path that you have chosen. Oh well in time we will both figure it out i suppose. peace, pup.

12/3/2008 6:00:13 AM: well it's 12/3/08 and my Owner and i have ended what little we had to begin with. i will not bad mouth him because he is well known in the lifestyle and i am not that type of person to do that unless they deserve it. we are still friends and talk with each other throughout our stresses in life. i will have to update my profile and let people know what i am looking for in Dom now that he is gone. Peace pup.