Collarspace

My profile has changed recently. The pictures of me have been removed, all replaced by web finds. My profile picture is of a rose that used to be in my garden that I messed around with on Photoshop. My tats are still up, as well as the time I pierced my thigh, but otherwise, theyre all gone. Blame the assholes who seek to hurt because of anonymity.... its easy to put people down on the internet.

LIMITS

First off, I do not share my private ination very easily. I do not give out my phone number, my skype id, I do not have kik or snapchat, and if I did, I wouldnt be giving them out. I want to get to know a person before these things are exchanged. Ive had some *VERY* bad experiences and have learned my lessons in this regard.

My limits are the word cunt, cutting and knife play, anal, illegal activity, ageplay, animal play, toilet play (including watersports and roman showers vomit and scat), children, animals, other subbies MastersMistresses (if you own someone, we cant play), those who are owned (same category as the last), idiots, assholes, fake Doms, anyone who is married (my limits are reflective of my past and my morals.. please dont take them personally)

Well... lets start at the beginning...Ive only had one rl Ds relationship, which was a couple of years ago now. I was the sub, collared, for about a year and a half. Besides that, Ive had one other BDSM scene, which I was the sub. Ive been interested in the lifestyle since before I should have known what it was. I love EVERYTHING about body art... the look of ink on skin, the meaning behind it, the glistening of steel... mmmmmm love it! I have four of my own tattoos, and 10 current piercings... but I consider myself a pin cushion with the amount of piercings that have failed on me... I used to have small crosses in each nipple, but sadly, those never healed correctly... yes I have pics... NO I dont send them or any of my nudes out... if thats what youre looking for... look elsewhere... Im not a person who really sends out my nudes. They were done for a specific purpose and not to send out to every tom, dick and harry on the net. I love love love hockey. Im a true blue islanders fan and go to mostly every home game, and record the away games. Im sort of new to the sport... but Im learning more and more. I got hit by the puck TWICE now... and while I enjoy pain, being hit by a puck fucking SUCKS! I dont recommend it! This might seem like an odd stream of consciousness to some... but I really dont understand why hot, sparkly vampires cant exist!! A couple of years ago, I bought the twilight books, and went to see all the movies (honestly the movies cant hold a candle to the books, but that usually the case). Ive always been into vamp movies, vamp shows, and vamp books - this started with the original Buffy the Vampire Slayer movie, with Kristy Swanson. Its so fascinating to me. How one person can live off of anothers life essence... that the idea of a vampire is in every single religion and culture.... the whole sexual innuendos... and the fact of penetration and pulling of someones life force... simply remarkable! I really wish that they werent just folklore. I wish that Edward Cullen really existed... and I wish that Vishous (from J.R. Wards Black Dagger Brotherhood series) was real. Call me crazy... but its just a hot idea in every way. Want to discuss vampire books with me? Go for it! Its one of my favorite subjects and Ive read quite a few series. And, if anyone who is curious... I dont do the blood drinking thing in real life, but dont judge anyone if they choose to do it themselves. I might be a pain slut that really enjoys getting choked, but I also really love to cuddle... that sounds so odd, but its true. I think a great scene can only be made better by a good snuggling after it. Anal is a big limit of mine... based on some bad experiences... so dont push the subject. I have found out in life that I am who I am... and shouldnt let anyone else change that. So... if you dont like something about me, and I feel it shouldnt change, it wont change. Im an Aries ram, and can be VERY stubborn... I know who I am and like the person Ive become... if I feel the need to change, I will. With this, I tend to be honest to a fault... I only expect the same for anyone I come in contact with. Since people seem to be so adamant about how long theyve been into the lifestyle, let me say this - Ive known Ive been into this since I was 14. Started exploring it in real life when I was 18. So - thats over 10 years.

Ive been getting a lot of messages from older men... and honestly... I really dont see how someone who has 20 year difference in age can really connect... that is my personal opinion, and shouldnt be taken personally... if you are more than about 10 or so years older than me, I really doubt anything real will come of it... sorry. Also, if you are looking for a slave, please look elsewhere. Nothing in me has the ability to obey without question, without limits. I need the right to say no, I need the right to have limits. I will not compromise about this. I am submissive, and sometimes switch online, **NOT** a slave! If you currently own someone, or are married, or otherwise in another relationship, NO THANK YOU!!! Im not really into that... and no... I dont want to join a poly house. Honestly... if you need to be a bully to make yourself feel better... you need to get a life and look inward to why you feel the need to put people down. Putting someone else down doesnt make you dominant... it makes you AN AHOLE! Enough of my ranting.... if you want to pm me to start up an argument or insult me... you honestly dont need to bother. Ill probably end up blocking you

Angel

Full profile on a different site... that starts with an F. Has life in it. You should know about it if youre here.

p.s. Yes... I know I make my smiles the wrong way... but Ive been doing it for years and Im not really going to stop anytime soon.

Non-Negotiable Limits

Anal (a couple of really bad past experiences, as well as a recent panic attack while trying to work past it has landed this here)
Cutting (I am a reed cutter while I am not ashamed of my past, this is something that I still struggle with, and is, therefore, a limit)
Poly (while I do not judge those who are poly, it is not something I can do personally)
Emotional Sadism (vie had quite a few really bad relationships in the past where a master has turned out to be an emotional sadist. while I am a painslut, emotional sadism is almost, to me, like mental abuse and I will not accept this kind of torture)

Quotes and such

I never wanted to be different I just wanted to be me!

But then words were the most powerful thing in the universe. Cuts and bruises always healed, but words spoken in anger were most often permanent. They didnt damage the body, they destroyed the spirit.

People who think theyre happy just havent thought about it enough. People who think theyre happy are actually just stupid.

Lies dont fix things. They dont even make things easier, at least not in the long run. Best to tell the truth and then clean up an honest mess.

That was the true terror of love, that you could love with your whole heart, your whole soul, and lose both.

He thought about all the holes in him, the blank places, the voids where others felt things. When it came down to it, he was really just a screen, more empty than solid, his emotions blowing through him, only the anger catching and holding.

But every once in a while, from out of the blue, someone reaches the quiet place where you spend your private time and changes the way you see yourself.