10/28/2008 4:08:54 PM: So, I have the chance to move to Vancouver, BC for a job in 7 months...  I got a lot of thinking to do.  I'm thinking of MAYBE taking the job, work it for 2 years or so to get my own style down, then move to Seattle or Portland to do my own thing...  We'll see...

10/12/2008 11:39:08 PM: I've been exploring my submissive side lately, and it has me more and more confused.  I think part of it that has me confused is I do like topping.  i enjoy it a LOT.  And I do worry at times that in exploring this side of me, some might not ever see my dominant side.  Also, I freely admit I've had some VERY bad experiences in experimenting with it in the past...The clincher was being at the recent hairplay workshop.  I was watching it all, and I was on the edge of my seat picturing myself in many of the demos.  The Lady Love kiddingly ribbed me asking if maybe i was accepting my submissive side.  I told her flat out that if I'd have been called up to be a part of the workshop as a demo, I'd have gone up without batting an eye.So, I've decided that once life settled down a little, I'm likely going to start looking for a Dom or a Domme I can TRUST to help me learn more about my submissive side.  I know a lot of D's have a long process of screening prospective subs, but i am likely to have my OWN screening process.  I mean, this person would have me at their mercy.  They could seriously injure or KILL me, if they don't know WTF they're doing.  I think it only right that I make sure to screen them as much as they'd likely screen me.Anyhow, enough rambling, I got work in the morning.  Peace, all...

7/8/2008 5:42:28 PM: Posted this in the humor section, but I liked it enough... It'll also be a journal entry!My Favorite Things - Collarme styleSubbies in bondage and brats in punishment mittens Lashing and thrashing and confessions written Marvelous leathermen and the pleasures they bring! These are a few of my favorite things... Writhing in passion and whippings with leather. 'Little girl' ageplayers that are held on a tether Gag-silenced promises, hard biting stings. These are a few of my favorite things! When the paddle bites, when the whip stings, When I'm feeling down... I simply remember the collarme folks, and then I can't hold, a frown!

6/9/2008 7:42:56 PM: So, I've been thinking a lot about what exactally I am.  Thinking about the traditional roles and the like.  Been having really good talks with some people far more experienced than me, and have come to the conclusion that I'm going to just ride the flow for a bit.  I identify as a Dominant, but there are a few I wouldn't mind subbing or bottoming to.  Does this make me any less a Dom?  Not really, in my thoughts.  So, I'm going to let that side out to play with VERY trusted people, and fuck you to anyone who doesn't like it. ;)  In the end, once that subbie side has been sated, it should hopefully make me all the better Gentleman's Dominant.  because, in the end, we all need more of us sensation players out there!

5/26/2008 1:57:18 PM: So the social went phenominally well!  It was really, really fun, and I can't wait for ext month!  All in all, this was a wonderful idea!