4/7/2013 8:02:50 PM: I just wanted to say I added a few new pics of myself on here so others can get an idea of what I am like in real life, other than what was already here. Just maybe that one special person will see that I am what he is looking for as a Dominant partner to be over other subs together. Of course, if he doesn't see it then it will be his loss and someone else's gain, but I am not rushing into finding anyone to replace him as he has a few months yet to decide what he wants for sure. Don't forget though I am always looking for subs to play with and if the right cuckold comes along that may change many things. I have realized here in the past couple of weeks while doing some soul searching that I know what I want in this lifestyle, what I want from the person that is my partner, and what I want from any submissive beneath me. I don't want to change anyone, but rather enhance who they are and make them better than they are now. Anyone with me has to accept me as a person and not try to change me, but rather enhance me as well. I know with the right Dominant person the fun is almost limitless with us as a team with other subs. I just know I've always been a country girl with good values and ethics and nobody can ever take that away from me. I believe in honesty, trust, and respect for all who are in my life. If someone can't respect me enough to be honest then the trust will never be there and it will go nowhere fast. That person I am awaiting a response from made me see how others were bringing drama into my life, which I absolutely despise drama, and that made me make changes on my own and push some people back just a bit until they can get their lives straight and leave the drama outside of my area. I hope you all enjoy the new photos. Feel free to let me know your thoughts on the photos or any of my journal entries.

1/19/2013 12:21:15 AM: I am going to make a few commitments so maybe that special someone can see how special he really is to me and how much I desire being with only him. (Read the last journal entry for this to make complete sense.) I vow to do my best to keep these commitments while he figures out if he is going to let distance determine our happiness together. Then if he chooses me I will do my best to continue keeping these commitments and any others he decides to add to the list. 1. I vow to not be with anyone other than him, whether it be a dominant, submissive, or vanilla in any type of sexual play without his permission! 2. I vow to not allow anyone to become attached to me or me becoming attached to them until he has figured out what he wants to do. Even if he decides not to allow me to be his forever, then if we part ways I vow to not be with anyone until I have had full time to heal from losing him in my life!! 3. I vow to not allow another man to have my heart, mind, body, or soul as he already rightfully owns them. These are not things I easily give away to just anyone, but once that someone special has them I will not allow another to have them until I am well over that person. 4. I vow to do my best to care for my mind and body so that I can be the best possible girl for him!! 5. I vow to try to eat healthier and try to workout when possible to get my energy levels up more to always please him when he desires!! 6. I vow to not let what others do or say affect me too much as I do not want my mind to get off track from the positives in my life, which he is definitely one of those positives!! 7. I vow to try not to let my emotions get the best of me and will not openly display my emotions unless it may better our relationship or help others around me in some way!! 8. I vow to always strive to do my best in school and other aspects of my life to always make him proud of me, show him I can do what I set my mind to doing, and to help reflect better on him!! 9. I vow to try to learn to not be so mouthy and bratty so we can have more love than punishment in our relationship!! That will take a bit more work though!!! If I can do that we will have more love and fun in our relationship and less punishment for me and less stress for him!! And we all know it is not good to have a Dominant person continually stressed!!!! 10. I vow to always think of what he would say or do about different situations and act accordingly to reflect the type of man he is and wants me to be as his girl!! 11. I vow to try to start journaling and continue doing so in order for him to be able to read it anytime he wants to better understand how I feel or what I think about certain situations. If he wants the journal to be public I have no problem journaling on here!! 12. I vow to stay in touch with him often so he knows I am thinking about him and to try to make him happy!! I will always strive for his happiness more than my own happiness!!! Making him happy makes me even happier than I already am!!!! 13. I vow to always be open and honest with him so he can know me better inside and out and to get to know him better as well!! 14. I vow to strive to do what I can so I can go visit him often and even move closer to him if need be so he can spend more time with me!!! 15. Above all, I am going to vow to be celibate and not have any orgasm without his permission until he tells me otherwise!! That does not mean I will not tease and torment a submissive I may play with from time to time nor does it mean I will not play a bit with myself at times. However, if I choose to play with what is rightfully already his I will only bring myself to the edge and not allow myself to reach full orgasm until he has said that is what he desires for me to do.

1/18/2013 11:53:35 PM: I am slowly learning all over again how much some people need to be shown how serious a person is when they commit to something. Many seem to think just because I am a switch it means I cannot make a commitment to being just a sub or just a Domme. That is where they are dead wrong. When I find someone worthy of my time and commitment I can do either role for that person and not be with others just to have the other side of me if that person can understand there are going to be times where if I have committed to being a submissive I'm going to be mouthy, bratty, and quite sassy. If I am being a Domme the person may get a softer more sensual side of me with more caring as sometimes it just comes out even towards a submissive serving me if I have committed to only that side of me to that person. Then some get scared of distance between them in the beginning and start to slowly back off even if they are not meaning to do so or don't even really want to. The subconscious mind will make a person show such actions more than he or she realizes until it is brought to their attention. Sometimes the best person for you does not live around the corner or even in the closest city to you. Why let distance destroy what could be the best possible thing in your life? I know I sure won't as it takes time to be ready to live with your partner even if the partner lives near you. Yes, distance does making seeing one another often hard, but at the same time distance allows you to get to know the person in-depth more and know things about the person you may not learn if you are in person right from the start. Some of the best relationships I have seen have been built from a distance in the beginning and when the time was right one partner or the other moved to the other or they found a meeting point in the middle. I just know that once I commit to a person I am fully committed to him no matter how near or far he may be. Maybe I am too loyal, honest, and caring for my own good sometimes. But if it means I get my heart broke again oh well so be it he is well worth the effort to at least try. I know in time the distance will be overcome, but now it is up to him to figure out if he wants to find the one who is right at the moment or the one who can be the right one for the rest of his life!! I know if he will give me that chance I can and will show him I can be the one who is right for him for the rest of his life and not just for a few play dates!!!!

12/31/2012 10:55:03 AM: I hope everyone has a safe and happy New Years Eve! Drink responsibly! Drive carefully, especially if you are in an area like me where it is snowing!! Have a designated driver to keep you and others safe! I may not be bringing in the New Year with that one person I would like to be spending it with, but I will know I am on his mind just as he is on mine! May the new year bring everyone peace, love, happiness, prosperity, and all that each wishes for. Just make sure your new year's resolutions are reasonable so you will stick to them!! Happy New Years to everyone!!

9/23/2012 8:08:45 PM: Manners.... When approaching someone make sure to spell properly and speak in a nice manner as that will get you further than you may think. I am so tired of people approaching me and not being able to write proper English. If one cannot write proper English what makes me think the person will speak it. If a person cannot speak properly then how educated is that person? I would say not as educated enough to hold my attention or at least smart enough to hold a decent conversation. How much will I want to take that person around others? I doubt I will want to take someone out much who cannot speak properly unless doing so for humiliation factors. Also, if you want to know something personal about a person wait a few messages to ask such things. I am so tired of people wanting to know personal information about me in the first message. I do not know you so why would I want to divulge personal information about myself? I probably will not give you personal information about myself until I feel the time is right to do so. I am not saying it is wrong to ask, but at least wait until the person has spoken to you at least a few times. If you cannot hold a decent and proper conversation with me or have such communications then to do not bother wasting my time or yours. I want proper English without personal questions in the first few messages. If you want to know about the lifestyle interests ask away, but do not ask for personal information that is not lifestyle related, including questions about my body, until we have messaged at least a couple of times. Thank you!