somehow,  my most recent journal entry got added as an edit to one from 2oo7.  I am so computer illeterate.  LOL

Well,  it has been quite a while since my last journal entry.  Not much has changed with my wife.  Over the past few weeks,  I had been talking to a local couple about getting together and exploring the lifestyle a bit.  She was luke warm to the idea and downright cold to the idea of exploring it further within our relationship.  Not sure what to do at this point.  But,  due to health issues,  the lifestyle must take a back seat right now anyway.  Thanks to all of you have given me so much support over the last couple of weeks.  Hugs to you allI have decided to start using some journal entries to express some feelings and ask some questions that either don't seem appropriate for the boards,  or that I feel would not be well recieved there.I will start out by describing  the type of relationship that I have with my wife.  She is a straight bbw.  Not  realy  'into'  the lifestyle,  but does like to participate in some bedroom games  etc.I consider my self to be submissive by nature.  I am a bisexual male  who prefers to bottom with a man,  but am versetile.I would like to get her into  at least a little of the life style.  As it stands right now,  I do most of the cooking  etc. but this is  primarily because she does not like to cook  and I kind of do.I would like to get into more personal servicing for her.  I give her messages etc.  Would like to do more things like that for her  and would love to have her ask for them or even order them.  I would also love for her to impliment regular discipline,  ie-  monthly or weekly  spankings,  whippings  etc.  Perhaps  some further exploration of the cbt she seems to be so fond of.Well,  I will end my ramblings for now.