I am not really a masochist, I don't want the pain, but her whips and crop excite me. Her occasional use of painful lessons and correction is like a datum reference point that helps define our relationship roles. It is not that she does use an occasinal painful punishment that excites me. It is the mere fact that she can and will if she wants to. That's the thing. It's her prerogative, her choice. She is the head of household with the power here. I have chosen to obey and to serve. It feels good and comfortable to accept that. |