11/24/2021 10:48:19 PM: Started down this road 4yrs ago at the exact same time that I was caving after years of no boom-boom at home in an otherwise great relationship. In the background, I had played with myself in 'other ways' for years before being attached even. So when it came time to nervously try to save my sexual sanity, I reasoned that sites like this one would scratch two itches at once. Had some cool times, and found that almost 100% of the duds were either a result of my own early fears, etc or just pure scheduling problems. Found out in the last year much of the problem at home was physical and unbeknown to either of us. In the interim boom-boom has come back and is greeeeat, and maybe the frequency will pick up in time (we're only talking a few months here at this point), but there's still the need. A primal need that no matter how hard I try to get away from, deep down I can't. I finally have a schedule now that allows me time in the late evenings, out of Market Commons area. OK first journal entry, I'll see if I like it and enter more or not later. Later.