9/28/2017 1:20:42 PM: I started my hormones today. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. Hopefully it will have the changes on me that they should but me being older who knows. I've always known on the inside I was a girl but was never really into men. Last year i let a man fuck me and it was like a water fall of emotions. I never felt more like a girl heck even a slut. I loved it. Started having a couple different men use me like a bitch. It changed me so much. I look at women now and think of how they are dressed or wishing I had their body. I look at men now and wounded what their cocks look like or how hot they are. I wonder if they are dominate and would they treat me like a slave or object. I wish I had spent my whole life with these thoughts but I'll make up for it now.

9/25/2017 1:12:40 PM: I'm slowly transforming myself into the gurl I am on the inside. I've order hormones but havnt started talking them yet, why I don't know. Maybe I'm looking for a relationship were I'm told what to do, when to do it, and how. I'm constantly thinking of being a sex pet and my only job is to look feminine and please whoever I'm told. I feel empty and sad not being able to be that pet.