4/2/2016 9:29:34 PM: I am orphaned again.

2/12/2015 6:21:10 PM: I was watching a show .. some show set in the Victorian times. They always talk so delightfully desriptive and seem to have a different way of saying things .. especially in a British accent lol. She said to him ... 'when alone with my thoughts, they are always governed with reason. When with you they are governed with desperate thoughts of you.' I had a sudden 'AhhhHaaa' moment. For me it has always been the opposite. When with Someone ... controlled, belonging to Someone .. have felt like my thoughts were governed with that person. Smooth, Focused. Without that person or away from that Someone, they have felt scrambled. It's like a scribble on the page ... a mess, tangle with no focus. Frenzied ink scribble on the page with no direction, everything out of control and jittering. Thoughts with no direction, chitter chatting without sensibility and coming out with odd and unreasonable things. That only seem ridiculous when the He sheds light on them. When belonging to Someone ... in their presence ... it is more like a lightly wobbled line. Because no one is totally smooth ever. I become a person of purpose ... reason and direction.

5/22/2014 10:56:41 AM:  I dont want to be your entire world, your every thought, in every breathe. I would be happy being your morning coffee, your hanging car keys, your wallet. Something that belongs to you .. Something part of your normal everyday life .. but if lost, throws off your whole day.

9/22/2013 3:09:58 PM: Dominants i have run accross .. seem to be in a hurry for things. They com off as wanting to pass over the get to know you part and straight onto the goodies my 2 cents.i am not an athority on girls and how to get one, by any means, so what i say is just a supposed possibility .. another option to try. what about maybe letting her come to you? i used to know a Man that would go about it this way and it worked for him. He would just be around her .. talked alot .. without sexual overtones or any feel that there is an 'ulterior motive'. just being friends. no pressure. making her feel comfortable with him .. making her feel important and smart .. boosting her ego a bit (just a bit). seizing the oportunity if possible to defend her .. protect her. tease her a little .. make her laugh. always talking together .. always friends and nothing else. after a little time .. the girl he had his eyes on started to wonder where he was when he didnt come around like normal. which he did once in a while to make that feeling come up in her. after a while she would become attached to him ... and he would then start testing the water a bit slowly. maybe if she said she was tired he would say 'go to bed then' and see if she did. gradualy things would change and one day when he was pretty sure he was in her mind (which is very important) .. he would push her a bit. and he knew how by then because he knew Everything about her from talking all the time. and one time he would push her untill she was fighting with herself to do what he wanted and please him even though it was hard for her. THEN he knew he had her .. that is when he would talk to her about being his and claim her. it would take maybe a few months for this to come to fruition ... but it created a foundation that lasted. And in that course of time ... He knew if she was the right one ... because he knew her. And if it turned out that for him she was not 'the one' then it just stayed friends and didnt go farther and no one got hurt. It is a good way to make a friend ... and a good way to start a solid relationship. With patience and self control.Take what you find is valuable in this .. and forget the rest. It is only a supposed possibility. my 2 cents.

9/16/2013 4:18:28 PM: Randomness ... 'you are cuter than a puppy napping with a kitten. Both dreaming of cupcakes'