7/20/2014 5:46:16 PM: I just wanted to let yall know that I use my cell to come on here n I don't log out when I leave so if u write to me n u don't recieve a reply most likely I'm not on n u will receive ur reply as soon as I get to ur name...

7/14/2013 1:20:22 PM: It amazes me on how people see me as a totally different person than I see myself. I like the person they see me as so why cant I view myself in such a manner?!? Technically I have it all... looks, smarts, personality, humor, a paid for house, a paid for jeep, a loving dog that means the world to me along with my awesome daughter n her lil family that is going thru life with love n happiness... she is so lucky to have it all at such a young age... im happy for them but it brings me back to writing this... why cant I find happiness why am I going thru so much hell with my health... why am I alone especially when I hate being alone n why are there no answers to all my questions why why why???

5/28/2013 4:20:42 PM: I love my little house and hopefully one day I'll get to finish remodeling it so I can live in it the master of my dreams if that goal is ever reached... I don't ask for much in life just looking for happiness but here lately I feel like I've been through hell and back... Im to the point right now that I want to collect my things and my dog Lilymae and just leave... Im not sure how far id get before i got to sick to continue but at least id be living the dream... I hate being tied down to one place (unless its by a dom*master lol) I miss my gypsy life... So many places to see n people to meet n yet im stuck here... Family n close friends want me back home but yet even tho i love them all so much its not where i want to be... Problem is if i was to get in my jeep i really have no destination in mind... Damn i hate this... any ideas?!?!?

5/25/2013 2:33:37 PM: Its been a while since ive written so this time im writing to get some advice or comments. This year i have been thru hell n back as i had to have a toe amputated which technically does make me less of a person but does it interfere with me being a sub?... i dont think so but im still walking around in this stupid boot n told no more heels which is a problem since thats all i have for shoes... lol. The advice that im needing is can i still find the owner i want n need while being on kidney dialysis?!?!? I started that in March n have been going thru hell with it since... Im dealing with this alone n it would be nice to have a shoulder to cry on or a dom to help me make the decisions that i need to make... In my head im suppose to be there for him to make him happy n take care of him. is he to be there for me? Or is it up to the dom on whether he wants to go thru this with me? I still want to go riding as i donr want to give that up... I dint ask for this to happen to me but it has so i have no other choice but to accept it n live or deny it n die...So with all this said is it possible that i can be owned again or should i delete my profile n deal with this on my own?!?!?

1/27/2013 12:46:21 PM: Its bad enough being a fake Dom but trying to be a fake biker too come on people GET REAL