I used to be a dominant male and was quite comfortable in that role. However, in my last relationship I was turned into something different. I guess you would say I was made into a bottom by the very woman I used to dominate sexually. It was a very uncomfortable process for me, to be made to realize that I could allow a woman to dominate and control me in the ways she did. After six years she found she no longer  needed a male partner. Since that time, I find that I still need a woman, a woman who is capable of being controlling, sadistic, and sexually demanding. I need a woman who would enjoy knocking me down a peg or two, who would like to dig into my psyche, who is not afraid to push me, a woman who has appetites she demands to be met. She enjoys being the owner of my masculinity and is excited from infliction physical and emotional pain. It is still uncomfortable for me to admit this but I am compelled by something in me to do so. You will find me to be very fit, attractive, intelligent, energetic, open minded, accommodating and capable of much, both in the realm of sex as well as everyday life. I don’t know how to label myself, because I was told to be dominant at times, but essentially I was whatever was needed/wanted at the time. I am  a sort of masochist in the sense that I enjoy pain, I need pain for a sense of well being, just as I need humiliation and degradation. I am not talking about role play but the creation of real feelings. I need the emotional and physical sensation. I need to feel controlled/restrained, to have my will broken and new bonds created both emotional and physical. I don’t wish to drone on, but if you find any of this interesting I would be happy to elaborate in a more specific manner. Feel free to test my sincerity in any way or ask me whatever you will. This is something I have tried to live without for some time now, but I now realize I need it more than I thought.