6/22/2012 9:49:24 AM: Back in Chastity: On Memorial Day I was locked back into chastity. It came as a bit of a surprise. The person who holds the key is someone whom I have had a long relationship to. It is the personal I had my first true D/s relationship with 18 years ago. The formal D/s part of our relationship ended after 5 years, but, we always remained close and have been best friends for many years. Although not in a formal D/s relationship there has always been a defernence which I have paid towards her. Amanda was seeking to reinvigorate her dominant side and we have a very natural positive D/s energetic that we have always shared. It is a win-win proposition in that she has a poisitive focus to regenerate her dominance and I gain a guiding hand and focus for my submissive self. It is not without some risks. I had done some service with a woman whom I was friends with first. This really didn't work out well as it was hard to try submit to someone who I really had an egalitarian relationship to. In all of my successful D/s interactions the realtionship had been build on a D/s foundation rather than an egalitarian one. This has always made the submission natural and real. A D/s overlay of an egalitarian realtionship had always felt more like role-play than reality. With Amanda it had always been a little different as we had a friendship which overlay a D/s foundation. Only time will tell how this reversal will work out. One thing I have not been keeping up on is donating blood. The one way I can gain release is to now donate blood. This will allow me to earn a release every 6 weeks. This creates a powerful incentive for me to keep up on my donations. The chastity itself is a CB3000. I have a lock through my Prince Albert piercing which keep me firmly in place (no pulling out with this lock in place). The lock itself is one I purchased from Lustschloss. Amanda also has personalized padlocks she uses. They have her initials engraved on them and No Escape engraved on the other side. Together the chastity is truly escape proof.

10/13/2009 9:18:22 AM: Two Years of ChastityThis is a little bit about my experience with chastity.  My service to Miss B in Oregon recently ended (August 31) after nearly two years and I have had a little time to reflect on my experiences.  I loved being in service to her and adored her and her family.  I had hoped to be able to serve her a long time but some changes in her personal life made her decide to release me from my obligation to her.I served her over a 20 month period, visited her 10 times for a total of 84 days.  These are mere numbers as her control my connection to her was something I felt everyday.  It does provide a glimpse of what I think can be a sustained relationship with someone who lives a great distance away (Minnesota to Oregon).  I contacted her daily as was her direction.  This gave me a touchstone and anchor to our connection.My time with Miss in Oregon came shortly (10 weeks) after serving Ms Lesa for 4 month over the summer of 2007.  I had visited her 6 times for 40 days.  This too was a wonderful experience but one I did not feel was sustainable for me.There are many aspect of my service I would be happy to share.  Both pretty much say me as their femme slave and I was to present myself as diane 24/7 while with them.  My primary function was domestic and I spent the day taking care of the home.  Most days I would get up in the morning shower and get myself made up and dress.  I would begin cleaning up the house by mid morning and work pretty steadily though the day.  I purchased several utilitarian maid uniforms for performing my daily duties of cleaning, cooking, laundry and such. I was allowed to slip into more comfy clothes in the evening and relax when my cleaning duties were complete (usually after cleaning all the dinner dishes around 7 or 8 pm).  During the evening Miss would have me massage her feet while watching a movie or reading a book.  At night I was usually locked in the cage each had for their slave.One thing both these wonderful woman had in common was a desire that I be in chastity.  They both used it in a similar fashion.  I was locked up in chastity when I would leave their home.  In general I was released again when I returned; sometime right away and other time after a day or two.  Ms Lesa once kept me in chastity nearly the whole visit releasing me to clean on my last day.  I spent 622 days in chastity of the 714 days I served them.  My time out of chastity was when at their home when they had more direct control.    Miss told me she like the chastity to provide a reward and inducement for a speedy return.Although I have long had a fascination with chastity I never imagined getting into such a situation where I would endure it for such long periods of time.  Being in chastity was a constant reminder of their control and my belonging to them.  The firm grasp of the chastity made sure they were never far from my thoughts.  Every time I sit I would have to account for the chastity.  I had to sit to use the bathroom and make sure it was wiped clean.  The chastity always focus my thoughts as I was going to bed.  It was the one time of day when my mind was not filled with all the things to do and I could ponder my condition.  Before being in chastity it is the time I would most often masturbate.  I like how it made me feel connected and in their control.I am active in the local community and the chastity was seen by other that I was owned.  Although Miss allowed me to serve and interact with other in the community most were uncomfortable with the fact I was locked in chastity.I was not quite prepared for the overhang of unfulfilled need after 6-8 weeks of being away.  I tend to be happiest when I have balance in my life.  Long periods of deprivation tend to make me anxious.  I am not able to give my best service when in this state.  I think there is mythology around a male being unruly or unresponsive to the Mistress desires after they have orgasm.  This may be true for a non-submissive male who is just trying to “get some”.  For me, being allowed to feel pleasure or an orgasm makes me want to return this pleasure 10 fold.  When I am happy and satisfied I want nothing more than to serve for the pleasure of Miss.  It energizes my service when I have found some physical fulfillment.When this long period of denial was balance with a period of plenty while visiting things worked really well.  I enjoyed surrendering the control and enduring for Miss.  The long denial makes that moment of fulfillment all the more sweet.  The release focuses and energizes my whole being to serve.  It feels like coming into the sun after a long period of darkness.  It warms you to your very core.From time to time things would be busy and we would not engage in any BDSM until the very end.   These were the hardest visits as the overhang of denial would permeate service.  I am never one to make any demands or even requests for relief.  It is Miss’s alone to decide.  I always perform my duties as best as I am able.  I only communicate this as a way to inform someone of how to get the best from me.Being in chastity while 1000 miles away does present some challenges.  We did create a system of managing keys.  Miss had one set and another was sent with me in a sealed envelope.  I was not permitted to every control the keys.  If I was to be gone for a long time, Miss provided that I may be released by means of a friend.  I have had a long association Dominant (who I served as a slave for 5 years when I first come into the lifestyle and now someone I consider my best friend).  Being a lifestyle person she is happy to assist with my chastity predicament and unlock me so I may clean do a good cleaning of the chastity when needed.  Usually this is best after 3-4 weeks of constant wear.  She will then reseal and sign the envelope.  I must return a signed envelop to Miss.  The only emergency I have had in this time is when the CB 3000 started to split along its seam and was pinch the tender bits badly.  Luckily I had a back up CB to change into.  I receive Miss’s permission to unlock it and change the CB.  My housemate Michael was more than happy to sign the envelop once resealed (complete with date and time…  its nice living in a lifestyle friend house where they are overly enthusiastic to put you in a predicament).  I also got a relater lock box which I used with Ms Lesa but Miss didn’t feel was necessary.  She knew I would be obedient and honor the system.  She would have clear evidence if I hadn’t and that would break our trust. 

9/23/2009 3:50:57 PM: I had a very good trip in July.  There had been some recent changes in Miss's household which have prevented her from being the owner she desires to be.  She released me at the end of August.  One of the things I cherished about her was her integrety.  It came through when she decided to act in a manner she though best for me.  I truly loved serving and visiting her.  I hope things might work out yet must honor her decision as I always have. 

7/4/2009 2:42:46 PM: I just made it back to Oregon.  It has been 64 days since I departed from my last visit.  One of the longer stretches locked up in chastity away from Miss.  This time was the most challenge stretches.  It was unclear when I would get out here early on.  I usually have a trip set by the time I am finishing my previous one.  There were some things going on which made it a bit up in the air as to when I may be able to return.  I worried I may to get back until September which was depressing.   Miss had to move during my absence which was hard.  I was not able to schedule a return to help which I would like to have been able to do and it put us out of communication for a while. 

4/24/2009 2:22:00 PM: On my way to visit Miss for ten days.  I am looking forward to being there as part of the household again.  Serving there for many days allows me to immerse myself in the service lifestyle.  Miss is a wonderful Dominant to serve and doing so makes me feel complete.  I am sure the time will fly by.