7/4/2017 7:53:13 AM: Hi there.Thanks for clicking on my entirely anonymous and unremarkable profile.  You'll find me more on the message boards these days.  If you are here, you probably found me because I said something you liked, or more likely did not like on Collarchat.Submissive, socially self-confident and approachable.  Not worthless or wormlike even in a D/s relationship.Interested in the mental and more esoteric aspects of BDSM and kink (especially since, let's face it, we're unlikely to meet) but no so far up my own arse that I can't speak to people or have fun.No do-me lists, no hitting on people.  Not chasing tail or anything else for that matter.Happy to discuss kink, relationships, culture, music, politics and much more.  Like you I have a life and am not a kink shaped parody.Not into moaning about 'fakes' and pro-dommes.  People should know how to look after themselves on the net by now.  If you want a service, do your research and go for it.Don't send many messages but if I do send you one feel free to ignore it.  I promise not to spam your mailbox if you upset me.  I've got better things to do with my life.

5/9/2017 8:01:49 PM: Hi there. My journal is full of random thoughts - some serious, some less so. Please feel free to read or not read any of it. If you get in touch I won't assume anything about your intentions. After all when I get in touch with people, I am just sending a message, not hitting on them. I am also on the Boards. If you don't post there already, you should drop in. There's some good stuff if you look for it.

5/9/2017 7:49:10 PM: What is it all about? I'm a submissive, not a caricature. I have opinions, beliefs, passions and a job which requires me to be anything but submissive. Submission may be a strong underlying drive that I need to be happy; to want to do what another person needs whether or not it is what you want. To gain fulfillment from another's fulfillment. To feel complete through the satisfaction of another person's desires and to be willing to go to dark and scary places with them. To be tested, challenged and stretched. What it is not is something I do because I lack the social skills or ability to be assertive when I need to be. I am not submissive to everybody. It is something that I choose in personal relationships. So I'm not going to tell you how worthless I am. That's not too say that the right sort of D/s dynamic wouldn't make me more complete. It's just that I am a capable person. As with anyone there is much I can learn and much I can do to improve my life but there is no sense of desperation about what I do. Desire is a different thing however. With desire I can completely belong to another. Surely it is better to have someone who truly desire you rather than having someone who desires what you represent. So I don't just bow down to anyone who is dominant. A bit of objectification is fine in the right place but who really wants someone to fall for a fantasy version of them, rather than the real person. How much better to become someone's fantasy once they really know you?

2/23/2017 12:33:54 PM: I hardly know what to say.So much self-promotion, so many passive-aggressive demands, such exaggerated feelings of entitlement that the world owes you the lover you want, the kink you want and a meeting of minds even if you just can't be bothered putting in the work to get to know or care about someone else.I'm not making demands or laying down expectations.I write these journals because I enjoy doing it.  Hopefully they are occasionally interesting.  If I'm lucky you will get something from them but honestly I'm just not that presumptuous.  Maybe if you read them they will tell you something about me, but I'm not selling myself like an advert for a new car.Anyway, I am genuinely interested in you, what makes you tick and what gets you going.  I don't have to want to play with you or marry you, and I'm not trying to make a good impression.As a submissive I love to please and I can hold down a conversation without being disrespectful or screaming abuse at you.  That's a selling point at least.Come over an say hi.  It might be worth it.  It might not.  But you are here anyway on a BDSM website full of adverts.  You must be wasting at least some of your time.  You could choose to waste some of your time over here.  Or I could come over to your 'place', whatever that means.See - not a good sales pitch but that's because, as I have said before, I am not selling.

8/31/2016 12:18:19 AM: Sometimes the unexpected is delicious, warm, tingly and bitter.  It shoots straight to your consciousness and changes the way you see the world.  A glimpse of the forbidden so tantalising you almost believe and lose yourself in the dark space.  You know it will destroy you or come very close, but maybe the shred that is left will be so addicted to a wonderful elixir that will let you see exquisite pain and beauty.  It will heighten your desire with a super-aware sense that the world that once mattered and your former reality is just a pale reflection of a wonderful waking dream, which tears you apart never to be the same again.There is a guide.  She is at once cruel and understanding.  She doesn't want you to be swallowed by the abyss but she needs to see you falling, somehow maintaining the thread that holds you together just enough for her to taste the sweetness of your tortured soul.  You are at once alone and with her on a terrible ride, where the demons finally break their chains, ravage your mind and give you absolution.  Your need to feel these forces and her desire to inflict the maelstrom and drink in its effects make you strange entwined companions.  The very act of taking you there, pulling you back and letting you know that it is at her hand that you travel completes her, just as exploding your certainties in the void almost fills the deeper void in your dark soul.Almost.Almost.But dare you even touch the flame?  Exchange the shallow crust of your everyday life for the slightest glance at the terrible wonder of universe.  The one who unleashes the darkness is also the one that holds the slim chance of your redemption.  There are no guarantees and the safety net is a cruel illusion.  Your faith in her ability to recover what is left of you and her faith in your fortitude to survive the fall is all that you have.  This strange bond between you and the one who would cause you pain is an elemental force, strong as spider's silk but delicate like a butterfly's wings.You can never be sure but you know what burns you and what burns within you.What price a life less ordinary - greater than you can imagine and less than you think?If not now, then when?