i had a wonderful time last sat at freds birthday party.  it was a great tim to socilize with all the local folks  even got to play a little and i enjoyed it alot. i do hope to be able to get to more functions in the near future as i enjoy being out and about with my Owner

as fall is again upon us my thoughts again go to those who I love. I as always wish I had not tried to help the way I had for that I am truly sorry and apologize for that I will always as I promised I will always answer any call to aid those that I love know I will surmount any obstacle to give aid I answer all calls to my phone 7752509338.I hope that you go to many parties and all the social fun, just remember when all the gifts are exchanged and the lights all turned off and the last candle is extinguished and the darkness surrounds you and you feel like there is nothing left there is always  a candle burning for you giving light in the darkness warmth in the cold and company when alone 

as fall again is upon up my thoughts again to those i love.  i know the days are getting shorter and the nights longer and  the darkness encroaches on the light of summers happiness. there will always be a light to guide you one that you can call to you anytime. i will answer to the call giving any aid .i  promised to be there  for you no matter what  

i have been busy lately I got a new job part time but a start. my owner is getting around without a cane now, and best of all is going with me to burningman this year yaay. I got a big project done the trailer I turned into a flatbed is done now. I am glad the boys are back in school more time to fix the things they have broken. I got a used car for my next oldest boy, working on the motor. I do miss the abundanc eof dungons on the east coast I want to go down to san fran and visit the citadel once. 

it happened again i was in the store doing some shopping and i witnesed a husband belittling his wife. it sent me right back to that tiny kitchen in ak i had just got the regal plumb pudding finished and i was so proud of my baking. whe he came and placing his arm behind her blocking her in and while looking at me started to bellitle her and seeing her cower  from just the words i was frozen wanting to defend her but not able to as there was no physical threat and i had no directions to do anything to stop it. evry word struck like a blow to me seing the tear start down her cheek when he was done felt like fire in my gut. i felt like i was the one hurt like i was the failure for not protecting her some how. i was so distraught that i was not able to eat and lost nearly 40 lbs. i would sit up and relive that moment again and again. no matter how long it has been the scars of the abuse i witnessed still show up and the pain is just as bad as it was then. i can only hope that this never happens again. i have only tried to do pain play once it made me ill, i have been to several group meetings i hope i can enjoy the play i one enjoyed so much. little_clipalways here