7/4/2011 6:30:24 PM: Well. Truth be told.  I gave 3 Dom men a rope to my heart and watched two hang their own neck and the other one just kept pulling me closer.  I am meeting him for the first time soon. I am in awe in how he broke down the walls of trust with his desire never to push me, never to demand anything of me, and his own desire for me to succeed. With that I want him to push, demand, and succeed for HIM! SCDELV , Sir_Charles You deserve my all i have to give-my life.

6/4/2011 9:53:43 AM: i'm scared. i see a path infront of me and i am too scared to continue down it. He has such grand plans and He wants me. me. i feel He is worth what i have give but still i linger-hesitant of the next step. There is no going back once i choose this direction. i am done with drama and have faith in the poly household He wants and is creating. i want to be again embraced in a 24/7 BDSM Lifestyle... i am torn. Its just almost impossible to wrap my thoughts around leaving my job, my home state and my apartment. my security. He does not push me because He know's i am a scared lil rabbit about to jet away at any second...

4/22/2011 3:53:41 PM: Been spending a lot of time tie-dying for friends. This Spring weather has been medication to my soul. >PEACE<

4/5/2011 4:40:39 AM: A thought just popped into my head  'What does everyone think of me?' Then wondering if they knew how utterly nice I am would their own insecurities would just drop.    Oh well.. ofta' work I head.  Glad I work with children instead of adults! LOL

4/3/2011 7:42:47 PM: .... has a thunderstorm to enjoy before bed. Natures song to rock me to bed. Wish i could share this with a big man.