5/2/2011 6:58:25 PM: THERE I’m loud as hell, and barely there!You have me screaming your name, through the dark of my solitude. My body trembles with the thought of my mouth being filled by your fingers.I can feel this heat growing till I’m burning inside.  This fire is consuming my flesh.I’m louder, Louder, LOUDER still. You have me feeling everything that I am. This desire I feel for you is driving me insane…And I’m barely there!I can pretend you are all around me, guiding my dancing shell.,Giving me the beat…The beat to move to.Don’t stop this music, don’t stop this beat.I’m but an instrument in your hands.An instrument, screeching its tune. And I’m barely there! I’m gasping for breath and blowing out pleasuring sounds.Your lyrics soaring…In and Out, In and Out Your eyes upon me,Up and Down, Up And DownAnd I’m….!This power I feel is so close upon release. You have me screaming your name at the top of my lungs.The fire escaping through each reaching gasp.I’m grasping at parts… I’m grasping…at your hands to lead them in further.Leading them to the burning puddles betweenI’m….My blood boiling over, Your name being heard by everyone around…Though they don't see what I see. ….I’m…My heart pounding In my chest, slowing…My mouth gasping for air..My fire, slowly...Slowing as your existence fades…I’m fucking there!

4/16/2011 10:21:20 PM: 'I think I fell in love with her, a little bit. Isn't that dumb? But it was like I knew her. Like she was my oldest, dearest friend. The kind of person you can tell anything to, no matter how bad, and they'll still love you, because they know you. I wanted to go with her. I wanted her to notice me. And then she stopped walking. Under the moon, she stopped. And looked at us. She looked at me. Maybe she was trying to tell me something; I don't know. She probably didn't even know I was there. But I'll always love her. All my life.' -Neil Gaiman

3/6/2011 11:59:36 AM: I'm screaming this loudly,And you better hear it from where you are.You've wanted something posed for you,You better hear me. I don't need to start from the beginning,You know my past.You know why I shy away,You know why I hate.You placed armor on, and said pleasing things. You made me feel safe. You made me feel like I could trust YOUR kind. You saw my bed, you held me in a world of comfort. Well Prince, that bubble has popped.You tell me now you lost trust in me, over something you knew I would never do.My world of us came crashing down.Fires began in my eyes, and the narrower they becameafter each blow to my chest. You tell me you lost trust in me?Where is my trust for you, knowing you had evil brewing in your head. Telling me I've done wrong by stating small fantasy's. Never of us, but as in jest over small peon's, and possible memoribilia. But you,You blew them up in your sick thought of us. I can't trust those arms around me now. They will become ice, They will become hard.How long will it take for that warmth to come back? You are no different from YOUR kind. You lied to me. You pretended like you were.My walls are up, Prince.I am now that Wicked Witch, holding captivea small and delicate Princess. If you dare climb,Be farwarned...The thorns will cut, Words may sting. Do not tell me you lost trust, and notexpect the same back.

2/26/2011 12:28:23 PM: I can see I'm dreaming again. And it's you... Were standing in a living room. I grin from the look on your face. The look in your eyes. The marks on my body, I feel them... I love them. Just a slight memory of what happened. I want more. Theres but one change, and I like it. Your the one under my hand. Just for a moment, you let me. You let me... I sit myself down on your couch and your the one over my knee. Your hair covering your face. My left hand around your mouth and my right, sending blow after blow on that wonderful ass of yours. So wonderful you feel underneath me. Though I dare not do it hard. I just beged to feel you. Know you. My hand tingled with every smack. I could feel the heat. I could feel you tense. I could only imagine what was going through your head. Though that turn you gave me was taken away only to soon. For you had me on your lap in seconds. Oh I had just a taste. My hands still felt you. Your skin. I bit my lip till I bled... Till I woke up. It's sad that this was but a dream. My body wanted what my dream had given me. You are constantly what I dream about. I crave everthing that you had given me. Though it was brief...It was heaven for me. I wish to dream again, and again. But the dreams are only a tease... I want the real thing... I want you...

2/10/2011 6:43:43 PM:   I'm standing on her street again. I fnd myself here from time to time. The wind chill is almost to much to bear. But I get easly distracted. There... The kitchen light is on and if I inch forward I can hear the radio. She's soon seen standing there. Staring out at something. Though it's not me that she sees. I wonder what she's thinking as those moments pass by. How do I let her know I'm here thinking of her? I'm here... One particular night I remember so well. I'm standing where she is now, her body pressed up against my back. Her fingers trailing my skin. Her smell, oh I will never forget the way se smelled. Intoxacated me. It was unearthly. The time, that night I remember drew on forever. So slow everything felt. It didn't help that she was drugging me. I swear it was she who had controll over time. My body was heavy from her influence, and her's was light as a feather. Pushing up against eachother, I was afraid she would float away. Though she moved in an encanting dance as if to reasure me she wouldn't. I don't remember how, but our clothes found the floor,and time froze us in place. Our lips locked. Our bodies entangled. Our hands ad fingers in wonderous places. Her taste was like no other. Compaired to a forbidden fruit, but in reach. Her drug going deeper through my being. Bringing me into a state of excasty. Her taste would throw me over the edge, over and over again. Her body hummed as I brought her down with me. We filled the frozen time stream with  unrehearshed music. We drowned eachoter out. I don't know how but we slipped through time again and again till everything seemed to catch up to us. Ticking, a ticking noise became aware to me. Time had started again. I knew at that moment, we were one. We gained controll of time. And we would strive to do it again. I would lose myself to her, as she to me. We were the time keepers. I blink, and there I see her smile. Did she just join me in that time rift? Dos she know she still holds that power between us? With my distace I supose I will never know. She'll remove herself from te kitchen and everything will turn dark. I'll stand here for a bit longer to imagine myself following her where ever she may be going. My imaginaton will fly in every which way untill the bitter winds hit me once again. I will retreat again for now. But I'll be back to love you once again.