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No more nursing its been over 2 weeks. I still keep it covered so my dog doesng pop the new skin when lays on the stub.
Had a very. pleasant visit from my sissy submissive. Gave him peace that I am on the mend. No quite where I need to be to take him back on but working t I wards that goal.
I love the Q&A moment after wild sex.
My new guest pulling out his cigerette in my bed and asking thoose tender questions.
Why are you into asphyxiation?
You don't look the type to enjoy anal play?
Is there a type - is always my response.
Appreciating that this guest brought properly fitting condoms and wine but cared to bring another bottle as a gift is in fact a gift, makes a change from the Greek.
This one cooks, appreicates I live in a small space but he orientates very quickly and enjoys sticking on the radio to hear the football but tender enough to ask what else do I sexually enjoy.
Will be spending the day removing the santorum stain off my duvet cover, thank god for baking soda.
Openly dating is very fun. What has the new year brought you?
Sprinkled in with the despair (if you're paying attention) has there also been joy?
I think I just may want something female led.
I may be tired of men being in charge, when often times, women are so much more capable.
I know, that rubs lots of you the wrong way, to say the least.
But, you want want what you want.
And, you want us to know what we want.
Maybe I do. I've been lurking on this site, wondering whether to contact anyone and realising that I'm not sure what I'm looking for in many ways. I'm torn between wanting a committed 24/7 D/s relationship with a wonderful Domme, or osmething more casual because I'm conscious that I'm looking at transitioning, that I want to do a PhD, and that I have a load of books I want to write. I don't want to present myself as something I'm not, and I don't want to be with someone who seems intent on denigrating me from the off (and so a lot of Dommes' profiles have me backing away because of their tone).
I must admit too, that even though I think of myself as a decent writer, I'm coming up short with what to actually say to people. A simple introductory message feels like it could be fraught with danger, and yes that does seem incredibly stupid to say.
Anyway, I thought I would put something here just because "I ain't dead" as Granny Weatherwax from the Discworld books would put it. If your mom is still here, don’t wait. Send the flowers. Spend the day. She matters more than anything else.
Hugs, bumps and grinds... Ok, here goes another journal entry, another step down this path…
As always, I am subMeghan, and as required, as I type this this, I am completely nude, except for my dog collar and glasses…
First things first. My Dom got a new toy for me. It’s called a “cheek retractor dental mouth gag”. Here’s a link to what they are:
https://www.extremerestraints.com/cheek-retractor-dental-mouth-gag.html
We’ve been trying it out this weekend and so far we are both really liking it… a lot! My Dom just loves, loves, loves how I look when I wear it. I knew right away that he’d like it from the perspective of fucking my mouth, but he also is obsessed with me just wearing it. In fact I am wearing it right now as I type. In fact, I’ve been wearing it around the house most of the weekend.
As far as gags go, all in all, it’s really comfortable. Compared to some other types of gags, breathing is not an issue at all. Drooling of course is unavoidable. And yes, I’ve got drool all over my chest. (My Dom loves to see me drool.) I just need to make sure I don’t drool on the keyboard. lol
This has all been part of a puppygirl weekend, which is something we do from time to time. In a nutshell, I spend the entire weekend as a nude puppygirl, doing any number of puppygirl activities. I get off on it which only makes the sex all the better. (Perhaps I’ll elaborate of that in a future journal entry.)
Enunciating while trying to talk while wearing this gag is extremely difficult. So I haven’t been saying much this weekend. However, I can still make barking-like noises. Lol You literally cannot say “woof” or “bark” while wearing this gag. I ended up going with an “arf” like noise...
We ended the session about an hour ago and now I’m human again. This will give me enough time to take care of all the weekend chores around the house.
That’s about it for now. I’ve got chores to do. So, this is naked, drooling subMeghan signing off.
Until next time... I know this sounds harsh but due to all the players it has to be said...
dont bother to message me if you are here for a quick hook up, mind games, players, people that have no idea what BDSM is and even ones that think you may know ...first I am in a monagamous relationship and it will stay that way. Ive been here for years. i know all the games and the attempts at control and topping from the bottom or pretending to be whatever to get what you need ...i am real and i have real friends. I also have great knowledge about bdsm in all ects and have experience. I am not seeking to partake in the lifestyle with anyone else other than who I am already in a relationship with. Im not here because i need anything other than just to be here. my reasons for being here have nothing to do with trying to be with anyone else. REAL convo is hard to find and most people pretend and as soon as they find out they cant get anything from me that they need they stop talking. Im here im not leaving the site . I want to be here .
what really gets my attention is honesty and real ...no masks... just real honest open people who are not trying to get what they can out of another person with no care about them what so ever ...
Today, I’m open to something a bit more direct.
A few of you may have the opportunity to speak with me on the phone.
Understand this clearly, this is not casual conversation, and it’s not open access.
If you approach, you do so with intention.
The rules:
You request—never assume.You ask for the opportunity. You don’t demand it, hint at it, or try to casually slide into it.
You introduce yourself properly.Name, location, and what you’re seeking clearly and without filler.
You respect my time.Be available, be prepared, and be concise. I’m not here for rambling or nervous energy.
You maintain composure.No over-talking. No interrupting. You listen as much as you speak.
You understand this is a privilege, not a right.Not everyone will be chosen. Most won’t.
This is about presence.
How you approach me before the call tells me everything I need to know about how you’ll carry yourself during it.
Choose your words carefully.
— Mistress Nikki Vixen Since I seem to get the same questions over and over I will answer them here and save me and anyone asking time and effort:
Q: Would you consider a male slave?/Do you ever play with a male sub?
A: Not really. My style of BDSM is very sexual and since males doesn't attract me sexually I wouldn't enjoy a male slave. I might consider a male slave as part of a submissive couple, but then again he couldn't expect much sexual interaction between him and me.
Q: Would you consider a CD/TV/Sissy as your slave?
A: I might consider it if you are part of a couple where the other party is a sub female, or if you are very feminine, very young and very submissive.
Q: Would you train my wife if I send her to you for a limited time and send me photos and films of you training and using her?
A: Yes I would if you really send her AND if she is in on it. The problem with the couples and men asking for this is they disappear and erase their profile after 20 - 30 messages and sometimes the same number of mails. Most probably they were roleplaying and there was no wife OR she wasn't in on it and they din't dare to suggest it to her, or if they did she wouldn't play along.
Q: Would you train me on-line?/Would you claim me as your on-line slave?
A: Probably not. I used to say no way, but during the pandemic I did have a few sexual relationships with submissive girls in several countries using telephone and/or various chat apps. We shared our dirty fantasies, we shared orgasms and I had some of them do painful and perverse things on themselves on my command. Now when the pandemic seems to be over and IRL contact is possible again on-line relationships seems less attractive. I live the lifestyle IRL and even an on-line slave girl takes time and effort. It's not a definite no, but you would have to be very special and very devoted for me to consider an on-line slave. Tree of life and tree of knowledge were not actually trees. The tree of life was God and the tree of knowledge was the devil. The devil was actively talking to Eve in the garden about how he felt towards God. Eve was believing him and started talking to Adam about it who wasn't sure but eventually sided with his wife Eve. They wanted the devil to rule over them instead of God. It was the devil who told them they were naked. It was the devil who said they weren't getting what they truly needed from God. When God came to the garden they hid from him thinking he was the bad guy that the devil made them to believe. They were clothed with leaves. God questioned this and asked who told them they were naked and they told them the devil did. God then asked them what else the devil said. God then gave them a choice to worship him or follow under the devil's care. They chose the devil. God kicked them out of the garden and explained to them they would die one day because they were leaving the tree of life behind and they would no longer have access to it. They would have to learn from their choices. You know what’s exhausting?
Trying to find a cuck who doesn’t think this whole thing is just porn with extra steps.
I say I want a cuckold dynamic, and suddenly it’s like a casting call for some low-budget fantasy film—every message is dripping in desperation, humiliation scripts, and requests to be called a “worthless beta” before we’ve even exchanged actual names. Sir, I don’t even know if you can hold a conversation, let alone your composure.
I’m not here to be your fetish vending machine. I want a cuck. Not a walking orgasm who calls me “Goddess” and short circuits the minute I say I’ve slept with someone else. I want the real power dynamic. The psychological play. The emotional tension. The devotion. The surrender that goes deeper than a dick pic and a dream.
I want a man who’s secure enough to be insecure in front of me—who can handle the ache and arousal of knowing I’ll take what I want, with or without his permission. Someone who craves the emotional weight of being left out, not just the messy details.
Where are the men who want to serve and surrender without turning the entire experience into a script from some recycled femdom clip? Can you be still? Can you be present? Can you feel it instead of just stroking to it?
That’s what I want,But until then, I guess I’ll keep sifting through the inbox circus. At this rate, I’ll find a real cuck after I find Bigfoot and a man who reads full profiles.
one can dream right
Experienced as a dominant but have not had a full time submissive in my life for a long time. The desires to find a slave wife that enjoys dollification and rough play have become stronger over the last few years. A submissive that I can build a life with and that will connect with me in many different ways and in all the aspects of my life. Desire a full time situation within a 24/7 connection and desire. Very interested in age gaps, interracial relationships, small women, and deep levels of submission/devotion.
Some vanilla interests:Ren FairsMedieval Combat Groups (SCA, Dagorhir, and similar)Role-playing GamesGaming Conventions (GenCon, Origins, and Gamehole Con)AnimeCosplayScience FictionPhilosophyPsychology (I have a bachelors in Psych)
Live a fairly average life outside of my Kink areas. Desire a fulltime situation where kink and dominance is an inherent part of our day to day lives. Would enjoy a submissive that wants to be the stay at home domestic in a 1950s style relationship. As well as being a sweet little one that I can spoil and take care of in many different ways. Open as well to different dynamics depending on what fits our needs.
Feel that play is for good times and obedient slave girls. Punishment is not being allowed to play.
There is more information on my profile and please feel free to contact me if you are interested in seeing if we match. Ok, surprisingly the profile is still fairly accurate!!
I have discovered pain really isn't my thing. Some exceptions to that, but overall no.
Cuckolding is horribly frustrating, cruel and nasty. So more please lol
I cannot do anything sexual to another guy.
I LOVE "private" and consenting humiliation and degredations. Bit of a list there.
Chastity devices are NOT as good as advertised, and desperate to find one that is.
Crossdressing and being shown off is fun
Hoping to find a gf for FLR. I'd say I'm sub more than slave as I have a few limits and a vanilla life..but close lol i realize the intense magnitude to serve has only increased over the years for me, personally, but i cannot just serve anyone just for the sake of servitude. There has to be substance, depth, attraction, bond and connection. These are ALL important qualities to share for a 1:1 relationship. Please don't insult my intelligence by stating that you are into older women or that you travel to the area frequently. This is not the foundation i hope to build on. i am 60! i wish to grow older with Him and take care of Him as We go through both ups and downs in life together; not to bail when life is difficult to deal with. Even at my age, I seem to be surrounded by players. One would think maturity might thin the herd, but no—apparently nonsense has no age limit. Be it any website, platform, or so-called “community,” they’re all there, lined up confidently with impressive titles and very little substance.
Everyone is a “Master” now. Capital M, of course. Profiles full of rules, expectations, and declarations of authority, yet curiously light on patience, consistency, or basic courtesy. It’s rather like browsing for a decent cup of tea and being offered only energy drinks. Loud, stimulating, and ultimately unsatisfying.
What I notice most is the hurry. The rush to claim ownership, demand obedience, or shortcut trust. It’s all very enthusiastic, but enthusiasm without discipline is just noise. A proper Master, I’ve learned, doesn’t need to announce himself repeatedly. He shows up, stays present, and understands that submission isn’t collected like badges.
There’s also a particular type who mistakes control for confidence and silence for depth. They talk endlessly about what they want, rarely about what they can hold. When questions arise—real ones about boundaries, stability, or responsibility—they tend to vanish faster than manners at a buffet.
Still, I find myself more amused than discouraged. Experience has sharpened my eye. I know the difference between someone performing a role and someone capable of carrying one. If that means more waiting and fewer conversations worth having, so be it. I’d rather be selective than entertained.
So I continue looking, calmly, with standards intact and expectations realistic. The players can keep playing. I’m not here for a game—I’m here for something that lasts, and I’m quite content to wait for it, tea in hand i often fantasize about being subjected to harsh play until i am a squirming, blubbering, whimpering mess, and then being allowed to orally serve my Goddess as my tears dry on my cheeks. i have long believed that i will find this thrilling and beguiling and liberating and emotionally enthralling. How delighted i would be to learn that i am correct! If you do not live in the US, you are not local.
If you do not live in Texas, you are not local.
If it takes you more than 4 hours of driving in normal traffic to get to my door, you are not local.
Much as I love exchanging emails and getting to know you, if you are not local you are not a potential service oriented submissive.
I will not play games of what it would be like if you were here. I will not provide fap fodder. I am not looking to spin an elaborate fantasy of what might have been, if only.
I am looking for a local service oriented submissive and play partner.
Respect that.
E To those who don't know (and some who do) I am very to the point and come across as harsh and rude. I know the ones I seek, am specific about that and won't settle for less than that just as I dont expect anyone else to settle for less than what makes them content as well.
So to those who send messages saying they want to serve Me, aren't local to Me, tell Me nothing about themselves, as well as how and when they can serve Me, as well as reading what My specifics are ... keep on going. Sending Me unsolicited photos will just get your message deleted. Intentional Inequality
Every so often I come across an image, video, a passage that strikes me a certain way or fascinates me. Often times it conceptualizes a broad concept I've had in my head. I found one recently that has stuck with me.
"Consensual romantic inequality" or as I prefer it "Consensual intimate inequality"
Dominance based upon the myth of your own superiority is simply uncritical, a zero sum game that you can never actually win. This is separate of course from the synergistic idea that if you wish to dominate you should strive to become the best version of yourself even if it takes you a lifetime. My dominance is about having a vision and a will to pursue it, it is based upon a hunger inside me, and simply what is the reality in which everything in me aligns. I do not convince, pursue, coerce, or force.
Likewise I do not subscribe to the concept of submission as a form of weakness or incapability. You are not inferior simply because submission calls to you. It takes a considerable amount of personal fortitude to engage in authentic submission, of course I'm not including submission that isn't submission. Many times submissives can be incredibly put together and competent of course once you move past their defenses you realize how empty and lost they actually are inside. Not because of incapability but because they are not living the reality in which everything aligns.
There is a certain refinement to restraint. I practice it daily. One learns, with time, that composure is far more unsettling than complaint. I am, by inclination, a devoted soul—selectively so. Devotion is not the frantic offering of attention; it is a measured gift, bestowed where presence, consistency, and intention actually reside. Anything less feels dreadfully untidy. I have spent enough years in these spaces to recognize patterns without needing a diagram. Experience has sharpened my eye and dulled my patience for theatrical ambiguity. One doesn’t hunt red flags anymore—they appear on their own, waving politely, hoping to be mistaken for décor. I am not troubled by silence. Silence can be deliberate, even powerful. What does amuse me—quietly, of course—is absence paired with conspicuous visibility elsewhere. One can only be “otherwise occupied” for so long before the choreography gives itself away. Multitasking is admirable, but clarity remains preferable. A submissive observes. She does not rush. She does not plead for coherence. She notes, she assesses, and—when necessary—she withdraws her attention with impeccable manners. Confusion is not mystique. It is merely poor communication wearing a better outfit. If I kneel, it will be with certainty. If I offer devotion, it will be to steadiness, not spectacle. Until then, I remain poised, discerning, and faintly entertained. Devoted, yes. Naïve, no. Using the journal instead of updating my profile itself because CS just takes forever to approve any updates.
What I am looking for is a dominant playmate. Open to something casual or serious. At least something ongoing even if a FWB would be great since this lifestyle does require a degree of familiarity and trust. I am married but poly, so someone who is also poly would be ideal knowing they can't be the center of my world at all times as I don't expect to be the center of theirs. My spouse knows everything about me and knows Im looking. She has a boyfriend of her own, and we arent looking together. She will not be involved, and if you ask the conversation ends. The banner that still greets me:
Your profile is in line to be reviewed and will become visible to other community members if it is approved.
The profile text is the same that has been approved for donkey years.
Profile is seemingly invisible without intervention from myself.
Profile invisibility from 20th Match 2024;
Profile Pending Review from 21st March 2024;
Journal entries Pending Approval from 22nd March 2024, 28th March 2024, 30th March 2024, and 1st April 2024;
Support request: 30th March 2024;
No response: 5th April 2024;
Fortnight in pending review. 5th April 2024. I don't think I am being a snob but I really don't want to date the following:
PE Teachers
Married men
Amazon drivers
Delivery drivers
Uncertified psychologists but claim to be life coaches (sad bunch)
Boring IT guys (you guys are lazy as fuck)
Men in prison usin the computers to go on CS and telling me about the wrongful rape convictions and think they can support my sexual needs online (Jesus can't even save you).
I am nothing special but come on someone with a flavour for life and traveling the world or going for a long walk in Thetford Forest (with camping gear and compass).
Someone who likes DX biking or countryside biking or hanging out in Norfolk going for a walk and drinking hot chocolate and coffee.
Come on! I am not going to allow any deviant to spank me I've been getting a lot of messages that I need to work on my self esteem. It seems odd to me cuz I feel like I'm too cocky but I'm not projecting that. Funnily enough was doom scrolling tik Tok and cane across a video about bipolar and bipolar in black women..I thought we didn't have anybody FBI listening on out phones but I guess mine isn't gonna retire because they reminded me that I was diagnosed with bipolar like 4 years ago abd couldn't find a psychiatrist. I'm taking to a therapist (we all should get help) but a psychiatrist can prescribe medication to help you. I honestly don't think I need it and since I'm already talking to someone... Anyways if I come off a lil crazy I guess I have to remember I'm just wired differently.
Or I do need the meds. Lol 3 death anniversaries of people I love today and some cunt had to message me regarding my journals about my Sir saying they're exhausting to read. Bitch, don't read them then, duh. Fuck outta my inbox with your bullshit. This is why you were unfriended to begin with. 64 and doesn't know how to keep scrolling, is just sad and pathetic. I'm sorry but if my journals are exhausting for you to read, DON'T READ THEM. Nobody is making you. But I'm glad I live rent free in your head lol So i'm starting to figure out how to better use this site, and discover it has advantages over Fetlife, where i usually go and waste time. One has to be on it every day to make it work. Logging on and doing things refreshes where one appears in the feeds to other people. Contextual searches are also more possible here than on Fetlife, where browsing for people is an almost hopeless and wearying task because a Boolean search only works on names there. So, i need to leave that one alone and keep coming here often. Still very happy journals are back. If I don't respond to your multiple messages, there's probably a reason and continuing to blow up my inbox isn't going to get me to change my mind.
Also, just because I am submissive does NOT mean I am YOUR submissive. Don't come at me acting like I'm your property, or trying to demand anything of me. Until the day I decide to commit to being with someone, please speak to me as an equal, or don't bother trying to speak to me at all. So much love to give
I have to love its a part of me
i don't get truly attached easy
but I have to love
Its a part of me
The only way to keep it
is by giving it away
by being of service to others
by taking care of those in need
sometimes I have to love them until they can love themselves
Today I stood And looked around the room
every single person knew me by name
they Smiled and waved
and In that moment
with a smile on my face
i felt the most horrific pain
my heart, it hurt
my soul being ripped apart
i smiled back and said hello
i gave them my love
its part of me
but in that moment i knew
it wasn't enough to give my love away
my soul was crying
my heart too
i am incomplete
i also need to be loved too Hey everone
I'm looking for a coffee partner here in NYC to talk about life , the world and kink. This does not have to be sexual get together , I would rather someone in the lifestyle who wants to hang. It can be or turn physical but that would be a happy coincidence.
I will repeat a few things just to be clear , I'm recently out of an M/s , S&M relationships and I'm still adjusting to that.
fews things :
1) not seeking one offs ( guys you know who you are ) , nor am I looking for someth permanent. 2) I'm queer folk, I like everyone and will talk to adivse and befriend almost anyone, but if I tell you I don't want to talk take a hint .
3) no kids, no scart , no diapers.
4) please have the courage and means to make a meeting happen; don't waste our time .
I suppose I need to update this along with my profile. As I said in my new profile, I am currently living in Virginia and owned as part of a household so I’m no longer looking. I only come here occasionally to chat with a few people I’ve come to know.
A lot changed for me at the end of last year when I moved here. This is only the second ownership situation I’ve ever been in. I have a scattered history with the couple who now own me so they aren’t a complete unknown but much of what is expected of me is very new. I am their new alpha and expected to manage the general household as well as some aspects of others that are brought in, either short term or long term. Their prior long-term slave left the household last month and they have taken on a new one, at least on a trial basis. I’m not sure if she’ll last but the mistress has faith in her becoming a permanent part of the household so time will tell I guess.
For those who were curious about my tech gig work, I took a couple months off and I’m starting some new work next month. It’ll be tricky balancing that with my household duties so I’m not putting much on my plate at first. On the plus side, since I don’t have any expenses here, all of what I take in can go toward investing my future. I guess that’ll be yet another new situation for me.. lol
Youngens pass them by but I’m here to set you straight on a few things. First of all mature subs are not in a rush you I like a chefs choice at an exclusive restaurant where only a few are allowed to dine. They savor You as if you were a ridiculously expensive champagne. They can sense your reactions much faster as they’re concerned about your pleasure and in doing so they receive pleasure. So I don’t miss out on a tongue fest because it’s not the dick you want Humor is a very, very important part of our life. It's not just laughing at a joke, it's an attitude towards life. And as the world gets crazier, it's more important to laugh at it. It's a survival technigue...
I could not agree more with the words from Bob Newhart...
I don't care about your political views. If you're a decent, ethical person, that's all that matters. If you express that anyone elses views would stop you from even talking to them, then you are not the open minded intellect you believe you are.
I don't exist to comply with arbitrary standards, I have My own standards I live up to with the understanding family and friends are always first. Requirements of Female Slave:1. Be open-minded and Be willing2. Be a female/woman/girl3. Be real and serious4. Be willing to learn and grow/change5. Be curious and adventurous6. Be honest and useful7. Be loyal and obedient8. Be willing to trust and love Master9. Be submissive and smart and sweet10. Be pretty and playful11. Be sexy and seductive12. Be willing to submit and obey Since updating profiles takes so long, I will do journals instead.
I could have died last week. I spent 5 days in the hospital and the doctors told me if I hadn't gone in as quickly as I did, it would have been a lot worse. Maybe too late. It gave me a lot of time to think and a lot to think about. It really brought home that I am 66 years old, and people my age die all the time and that life expectancy for men in the USA is only 72. Of course there are a lot of factors that go into that and that is an average of all male babies born, and when I factored in all my personal info it came out to 95 years. And I take good care of myself and eat mostly the right foods and watch my weight. Still, this last week made me truly think about my own mortality and that for all that I don't think of myself as old, shit happens. And the older you get, the more likely it is to happen.
So I thought a lot about what I truly wanted to do with the rest of my life. I have already achieved a lot of my goals. Nice house. White picket fence, well it's red brick wall, but still counts. My kids are grown and independent. I have friends, hobbies, plenty to keep me busy. My retirement is funded and I can live comfortable for well past those 95 years. The real question is what do I want to do with those years. And being a slave isn't it. Well it is, but not all of it. I want to live those years. Travel, go to events, experience. And I don't want to do it alone.
I want to do it with you. I just don't know who you are yet. I know you are wickedly smart, have an engaging sense of humor and value integrity as much as I do. Trust has to be 100 percent in both directions. 99.99 percent isn't good enough. And you have to be a total perv. I mean make the average perv blush. And yes, of course with informed, consenting adults only. I'm perverted, not evil. You should enjoy geekery. An old girlfriend used to call me the elder geek. I was a geek before it became pop culture. You should have ambition. I am not a sugar daddy. Though if you are still on your way up, continuing your education or just starting your career or business, I can shoulder the load until you can hold your own.
I acomplished more before my 27th birthday than most people do in a lifetime. I deserve the best. At least the best for me, and I won't settle for less. And I seek a woman who also seeks the best for herself and won't settle for less. Remember the first Rocky movie? Rockie talking to Paulie about himself and Adrian? “She's got gaps, I've got gaps, together we fill gaps.” Let's fill each other's gaps. No match is perfect. Every relationship requires work for all involved. Both to build and to maintain. I'm willing to put in the time and energy if you are.
You say You are concernedwhen i say i am corneredin my thoughts, craftedby cornerstones of my sinsand demons and shadows.You say it is cold in herewhen i say the fire still claimsthe corners of our house.You say You are going for a walkwhen i can't even find a door.You say i need to be tucked inwhen i am concerned about Younever returning, taking myheart with You tucked awayand forgotten in Your pocket.You say that time will heal mewhen i say that this time wasmy last time, for this life time.You say i will be just finewhen i say you are my world.-dirtydarling Above all else, I’d like my ideal M/s dynamic to be established on and occupied with love. Mutual respect is a must. W/we would foremost seek to meet each other’s needs completely in a monogamous relationship. He would be in charge, make the decisions, rules and protocols; but seek my input where appropriate and value my opinion. I would like to wear His collar (and leash when appropriate) as a reminder of O/our commitment.
Shared interests, in both vanilla and kink activities, should be present. Shared values would also be helpful, in both social, religious and financial concerns. I would hope, after some time, that this type of relationship might lead to a union of marriage or long term cohabitation / commitment.
Broadly, I’d like the power exchange dynamic to permeate the relationship both in and out of the bedroom 24/7, but that W/we both have our lives and lead them together and apart. I do not seek to be a “kept” slave, but I do want to know He is in control at all times. This can take the form of rules, protocols, and expectations / goals.
I would expect that full discussion of limits (hard and soft) would be discussed thoroughly, and that safe words wouldn’t be necessary or allowed once trust was established. This would aid in the vast possibility of CNC activities (within the confines of the pre-established limits). I would hope He would also push my limits over time.
While W/we are together, He would exert His dominance in whatever way He chooses. I would attempt to anticipate His needs, but obey His requests as made. These requests could be sexual, domestic, or kink in nature. As a masochist, it would be helpful if He were a Sadist. I want to know He is getting as much out of the impact play as I am. This Sadistic predilection would also aid in intensifying the play and intensifying the benefit W/we both receive from it.
I would expect that protocols would be established to help define the power exchange dynamic. These would be different when W/we were together alone, or together in public (or with family and vanilla friends). Public protocols would be known to us, but invisible to those around us such as waiting until He takes a bite until beginning to eat, sitting on a specific side, looking for a head nod to get up from a meal, wearing an insertable while out, etc. In private, protocols might include clothing restrictions, eye contact restrictions, greeting positions, speaking, bedtime rituals, distance, etc.
Protocols would also assist Him in maintaining control when W/we weren’t together. These might include communication requirements, requesting permission (i.e. to do things or go places), journaling, maturbation, bedtimes, curfews, and the like. The concept of “protect His property” would be an overarching protocol that would manifest as rules / protocols when apart, but when in doubt “protect His property”. The idea that when W/we are together, He is looking out for my best interest and safety, but when apart, that job falls to me.
I would expect that He would want me to grow and better myself. He would help me establish goals and hold me accountable to reaching them. These goals could be educational, health, career, kink, etc in nature. Periodic oversight and/or establishing benchmarks would be useful in ensuring progress.
Punishment or negative reinforcement would need to be outlined so expectations are clear. I always strive to be the “good girl”, however, I would expect punishment if deserved. While I wouldn’t never fail or disobey to get a punishment, I would need to believe that followthrough on punishment would be made if I deserved it. Punishment would be warranted when protocols were broken or if progress toward goals hadn’t been met. I realize that punishment is hard to define for a masochist, but not impossible. I'm a masochist and only interested in play with sadists.
Into spanking of all kind, domestic discipline, cage and leash play, degradation, humiliation, and more.
I have a desire to be controlled. I want to be told what to do and how to do it every step of the way. And I need to be severely punished for any disobedience or imperfection.
I find it fun to fear of anyone that I play with. I respond well to doms that get off on making me make me obey ignoring my comfort. I try not to be bratty, but if I do, and proper correction quickly silences me.
I also sometimes serve as a hir .ed house maid for short trips. I clean and do any chores required.
I'm happy to travel anywhere for the right person. Tell me how I could serve you. I'm not one to rant ....but...this site has really gone downhill.
To call it 50 shades of bullshit is giving too much credit. There are only the same few tired shades.
"I have no experience BUT I know what I like."
"I know you wouldn't give me the time of day on the street, but here I get to reject you"
"Don't contact me if you want sex"
"I don't respond without a pic...but I don't have one."
"I'm taken, so don't offend me with your interest."
"If you mention sex you don't understand BDSM."
"I want an experienced dom, so I can tell him how it SHOULD be."
Where have all the real freaks gone ?
Need someone to care . . . about me . .and give love 1st and build that . . .not only care about sex . . . so down and hurting and more bad just keeps coming in life . . .so need someone to be here The meal
The table was laid. It was an important dinner party, but the table wasn’t overly fussy. It was going to be a simple meal: the steak already in place on warm plates at either end of the six-seater table, wine in the goblets and terrines of buttered vegetables in the middle. One plate was set between the other two chairs. Chairs which stood, side by side, along one of the longer sides of the oblong table. Next to the plate were two glasses of water, a plate of small cubes of fresh bread and crudites and a dish of oily, dark balsamic dressing. The lighting came mainly from the open door to the kitchen and the two tall candles on the table.
Two women stood, close but not touching, each behind one of the chairs. They were dressed the same: black heels, black stockings, black suspender belt, but they looked different. One was significantly taller than the other, and much curvier. The curvier sub had dark blonde hair which fell in a straight curtain down her back, the other had shiny brown hair which fell in soft curls just past her shoulders. The brown-haired sub had pubic hair, neatly trimmed very short. The blonde-haired sub was completely bare. Both wore a narrow black leather collar around their necks with a metal ring centre front. And both wore leather cuffs with a similar metal ring around their wrists.
Two men entered the room and both women stiffened. Each one cling their elbows tighter behind their back pulling their shoulders back and pushing their breasts out; nipples already erect from anticipation and from being exposed. The older man walked towards the blonde haired sub and turned her collar so that the ring was at the back. He threaded a chain through the ring and attached it to her cuffs; holding her wrists in place behind her waist. Each man pulled out a chair and motioned for the women to sit.
Suctioned to the bare wood of each chair seat was a dildo, glistening with a thin coating of lube. It wasn’t very long, maybe only 4” but it was a little thicker than a standard dildo. Both subs placed themselves over the dildos and slowly eased themselves into their chairs. The blonde sub could feel it slowly stretching and invading her cunt and she felt heat spread up her belly. She turned to the older man and gave a barely noticeable smile. The older Dom said “You are not to speak unless spoken to.” “Yes sir,” replied his sub recognising the smile in his eyes behind his stern words.
When both women were seated the two men took a moment to check the state of their sub. The older Dom placed his hands on his sub’s shoulders. He gently ran his fingernail down her back. He heard the intake of breath, saw her breasts rise and felt her rock slightly forward – dildo inside her and clit bumping onto the hard surface of the wooden chair. He let his hands glide down the swell of her breasts, pinching each nipple between his fingers and using them to lift her heavy breasts; feeling their weight and seeing his sub rock forwards on the seat again. He gave each nipple a playful, sharp flick and the second Dom said to his sub, “Feed her first.” Both men sat down and began eating as the brown-haired sub, with her hands still free, turned to the blonde-haired sub and smiled.
The meal continued. The men and women talked normally to each other. The shorter sub fed the blonde sub bread and vegetables, dipped into the balsamic dressing. Whenever a small drop fell onto the lip, chin or breast of the blonde sub, she kissed or licked it off. After a while the blonde sub began to squirm noticeably in her seat. When the next drop fell onto the top of her breast the brown-haired sub leaned forward and grazed her tongue over her nipple before catching the drip. The blonde sub squirmed again and moaned aloud, the dildo deep in her cunt, her clit swollen from constant bumping and squirming on the seat. “I told you not to speak sub. Are you such a slut that you can’t eat a meal at the table without moaning?” the older Dom spoke sharply but quietly. “Over the table now.”
The blonde sub eased herself off the dildo, ging again as it left her cunt. She walked, wrists still bound, to the empty edge of the table, opposite the other sub, and leaned her body over it, feet shoulder width apart. Her Dom could see her slightly gaping, wet cunt. Without warning he stuck two fingers into it and everyone at the table heard how wet it was. Removing his fingers, he rubbed her juices over her swollen clit and gave a quiet chuckle at the low moans his sub made. “I think she needs more tonight,” he said to the younger Dom. From out of his pocket he took a metal butt plug with a flared base. The blonde sub could see that it was her medium sized one; the one she had been wearing recently for periods of time outside the house. Her Dom applied a little lube and then she felt it pushing gently but insistently against her arsehole. As she felt her arse open and suck the metal bulb in, her Dom grabbed her hair, turned her face towards the other Dom and delivered six sharp smacks to her arse. She felt the heavy metal plug jolt inside her and she closed her eyes and moaned with arousal and embarrassment. After the sixth smack he pulled her upright by her hair and delivered another six slaps to her breasts, three on each. She felt them bounce and her hard nipples screamed in pain, making her g and cry out. “Sit back down and finish your meal,” her Dom said.
On wobbly legs, she returned to her seat. As she lowered herself back onto the dildo she felt an exquisite fullness as the dildo rubbed past the plug in her arse. The brown-haired sub had been eating but, at a motion from her Dom, she began to lick and suck the blonde-haired sub’s sore, engorged nipples. The sensation was arousing and soothing but, desperate to make no sound, the blonde-haired sub closed her eyes and tilted her head back. Focused on allowing the soothing attention. She didn’t notice that she was already rocking her clit against the wooden chair seat again, but the two men did…
Mar 28, 2020
For some people it’s all about degradation, but for others is about being loved, cherished, and adored.
Yet some people have a full on kink for proper, deep and complete degradation. So much so that they actively seek it out knowing they will be dragged through hell to the ends of the earth.
I'm curious about this.
What about it feels good or drives the return for more?
Why does it feel a need?
Is there a cause or reason that has prompted this need?
Let's get Cosmic Cunt out in the open, shall we?
Cosmic -
a. of or relating to the cosmos, the extraterrestrial vastness, or the universe in contrast to the earth alone. b. of, relating to, or concerned with abstract spiritual or metaphysical ideas.
characterized by greatness especaillyin context, intensity or comprehensiveness.
Cunt - the femle genital organs. Cunny, Cunty, What a beautiful cunt is she! I've reclaimed the word! My cunt is lovely! lol A Brief History of the C-Word - The Establishment. The etymology of cunt: a very delicate monosyllable. Cunt - Old English.
No, I do not fall into sexting, virtual relationships (really?), or any form of online sex.
I am here for REAL and move fast to confirm if I am talking to a REAL person.
So, if one tells me something about dirty fantasies, I will reply with a "cool", or "I am also into it" and that's it. Do NOT expect me to simulate or fantasize.
If I approach you because you seem to be a fit and registered as relocatable, I expect you to wish for having voice and video calls for knowing each other. No camsex, no phonesex or any other stupid poor real-life replacement. Update January 2024Since I have been contacted from several subs or wannabe slaves, I like to clarify few things:A) I am not available for online domination, period. I want to feel the smell of flash and the noise of breathing...B) I do not intend to become your Daddy or mentor. Period.C) Yes, I am available to consider LTR with the right person. Who knows...maybe you are in somewhere out thereD) Yes, I am bisexual/pansexual or whatever you want to call somebody who simply has no problem with his open sexuality. E) I disregard one line messages suche as "Hello Sir"Be curious, be open minded, respectful of others and...enjoy life! ¡Nueva publicación en mi blog! No olviden: ¡Suscribir, compartir, comentar y darle "Like"!¡Provecho!
https://amaasht.art.blog/2022/10/10/de-premios-y-castigos/ MY EXPERIENCE and WHAT FRUSTRATES ME ABOUT MANY ON THIS SITE
IF YOUR GOAL IS A RELATIONSHIP, PLEASE READ THIS IN ITS ENTIRETY PRIOR TO MESSAGING
A recent encounter prompted me to share this.
When I engage in conversation (messaging) with men on this site. They often comment on how refreshing to find a real woman. A woman who understands D/s and BDSM focused relationships are not sustainable, they are just for play.
A woman who understands vanilla compatibilty is essential for anything real. If you are living your everyday life, involving your professional obligations, and social commitments, familial obligations, and other activities you enjoy. You need to know that person can fit into that part of your life. She needs to know the same of you.
Presumably you have already discussed and determined an alternative lifestyle, or kink compatibility. Now its time to determine cerebral, physical chemistry and the sustainability of a real relationship
That begins with the mutual sharing of information about our vanilla lives. You can still maintain anonymity, until you are ready to share who you really are out in the world.
THIS IS WHERE MY FRUSTRATIONS BEGIN.
Our most valuable commodity in life is our time. Of which we dont have an infinite amount. When we intentionally choose to gift some of our time towards a person of interest. We are saying to you I value you and want to vest my time in getting to know you. That is an act of respect.
When there is an exchange of information, its communication, sometimes people are busy, that's when you communicate to the other, it may be a few days before I reply which sets expectations regarding the response and is respectul of the other. Sometimes one party determines, maybe this isn't what i want. The respectful thing to do, is to simply say, I have decided we are not compatible after all. Thank you for your willingness to engage and share. I will continue my search and wish you luck with yours.
But...this is Collarspace where many people hide who they are, and their faces behind a blank profile, or one this that is seeking the fantasy...or a very few like me..seeking something real
We are all adults here. Presumably we were raised by someone, and we were taught exceptable behavior and manners. Most of us have either currently, or at some point had a career of some kind. During that career whatever it is or was, you had to engage with other people. There were/are certain expectations of behavior, manners, and always expected to be on time To be respectful of others time, as you would want them to be respectful of yours. These are lessons we are taught from kindergarden..
But..on this site more often than not...men will engage with you, there will be a mutual exchange of imformation. Then when you start asking about their life, which is a story that should be easy to put to words...no reply next day (but you see they are online), no reply the second day (but again you see they are online)...and then a third, fourth, etc.
Why these men can't just 'grow a pair', and be honest is beyond me. Because of the randomness of profile circulation. They, make it hard for the real men and real gentlemen to be recognized and appreciated by real women like me.
Now, I find myself spending my time writing this.. to say
IF YOU DONT HAVE THE CAPACITY TO BE RESPECTFUL OF MY TIME....IF YOU ARE INCAPABLE OF ENGAGING IN AN OPEN AND HONEST WAY TO SEE IF WE ARE COMPATIBLE....IF YOU ARE NOT SEEKING A REAL RELATIONSHIP WITH A REAL WOMAN....IF YOU ARE NOT EMOTIONALLY INTELLIGENT....IF YOU ARE NOT TRULY ABLE TO RELOCATE OR CO-LOCATE, OR DON'T HAVE THE RESOURCES TO TRAVEL....IF YOU ARE NOT SEEKING YOUR LIFE PARTNER.....IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE 'TIME' TO PUT IN THE WORK TO NURTURE & DEVELOP A SUSTAINABLE COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP....IF YOU HABITUALLY OVER PROMISE & UNDER DELIVER....IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE BALLS" OR GOOD MANNERS TO REPLY TO OUR MESSAGE EXCHANGE PURSUANT TO OUR CONVERSATION......
BYPASS MY PROFILE...DO NOT SEND ME A MESSAGE!
For all you fellows out there griping about not getting replies, "even if it's just to say no thanks", understand that we (women) often get tons of messages on these sites, many or most from guys who are sending out copypasta to every woman on the site, without bothering to read a profile first.
Yes, it only takes a minute or so to reply to ONE message, but multiply that by dozens of messages per day, per site.
And then there is the fact that the majority of our, "No thank you", messages result in then being insulted, harassed, going from being beautiful and desireable to being a fat, old, ugly bitch, whore, cunt, and worse, and often threatened with being beaten, raped, killed, doxxed, etc... All for the crime of a polite rejection to some random dude in our inbox.
So, instead of assuming that you are ENTITLED to a woman's time and attention simply because you messaged her, how about you read profiles before messaging, only send a message if it does not violate any boundaries listed in said profile, and is not asking for or offering things she does not specifically say she is looking for in said profile, and makes an effort to treat her as a human being, rather than a sex or fetish dispenser.
And then, if you don't get a reply, take that as she is either busy and will get back to you when she has time, or she is not interested, without getting all pissy because she did not reply to your unsolicited message.
Also, unless you reply to EVERY unsolicited email, phone call, junk mail, etc. that you receive, with at least a polite, "no thank you", then you are a hypocrite for expecting such of others who did not ask you to contact them.
I have been on this site for years and see the same profile of ladies seeking a someone like myself. Contact is made, profiles viewed yet nothing. occassionally someone says hi and we exchange messages, and then nothing and i find that often times the dead air is asking for verification on where they live or interest that they have already posted in their profiles.
So many ladies want to be in charge, they advertise they are dominant seeking a male sub/slave, thye want to take the lead, yet nearly all wait for the guy to make first contact and when it happens they ghost or get upset that an I was not dotted or T not crossed. I realize the ladies may get slammed by a lot of players espcially on a freee site like this one. But if you reallyh want to be in control, ignore the players and seek out us real guys, make the first move and follow through. You seek perfectionn from the first hello but that is impossible for anyone including the ladies making contact.
We are two adults seeking to meet connect and build a relationship, if the only connection is BDSM the connection will be lost quickly. So my request is to stop searching for the ideal submssive and instead focus on building a relationship with said person and through your guideance and training help us /me to be perfct for you I will probably be getting a kidney transplant by the end of the year. I have a PD catheter in right now. But that doesn't mean i cant play. I don't want to be seen as weak and fragile. I'm young and horny and enjoy being played with. It's just been so hard finding someone to connect with that is at least close by. I still live with my over baring mother who knows shit about kink BDSM. Can't host here. Working on building an addition on sid of house for myself can have roommate latter on or full time relationship is dream goal. I just want a true partner that likes what i like and understands. Live a normal couple life but with BDSM to enhance the relationship. I need love, i need dicipline, they go hand in hand. I have had several recent offers FROM submissive girls that want to travel to Me for something long term on a trial weekend from the US to Germany and start things off by doing a Our laundry naked and cooking for Us TO slave girls and couples where they want to be My property and the hubby of the couple offers the wife to Me and for public use at a club also as My property.
I encourage this and I know where the local clubs are near Me. girls and couples keep in mind I also have a bi sub that also needs to be served so We want girls that are or will be trained to be bi. And then, We would want a couple with the hubby is straight and the wife is up for anything bi, straight, or doesn't matter to her. I'm updating here as I just found out CollarChat is up and running again and it's my main reason for being on this site. But I realize some may look at my profile.
I still have the same thoughts I had put down in my profile years ago but there have been changes in my life. I'm no longer in Hawai'i. Might I go back? Possibly. I'm back in Canada and with all the insanity south of the border I'm unlikely to head back there soon. As I posted on CollarChat earlier today, my life is a shit show right now so my presence is purely for entertainment and a distraction from my reality. Obedience is a strange thing.
My Master told me a couple of weeks ago that I was no longer allowed to give myself pleasure. Up to this point I had been very badly disciplines and spent far too much time doing exactly that in front of my computer.
But since He told me to stop I have.
He instructed me not to wear a chastity device - He wanted me to learn to exercise obedience to His commands.
And it's worked.
It's not that every now and again I don't feel really in the mood - I do. But I wouldn't dream of doinf anything about it by actually playing with myself.
Isn't obedience a funny thing? This stranger, whom I have ever met, says 'no', and so I stop.
Surrender control of the mind and thus its body to find the space that quells the noise
Standards vs Micromanaging
I've pondered the question of control for years. Early on I had the notion in my head that the more controlling you were the more dominant you were. Like a badge of achievement that you got to claim, a contest you won if you were the most controlling. I still see that basic frame of thought all over the place. I also see the thinking that the more intense the dynamic the more controlling/micro managey it is.
I've tried various levels and forms of control with women over the years and whenever I've strived for micromanagement it's been entirely unsatisfying. I've also found that the men who seem most interested in micromanagement are trying to fill some sort of hole within themselves. I remember one woman I met who wanted complete micromanagement and frankly it was the emptiest and most robotic experience of my life.
Hence the internal struggle in trying to understand the controlling impulses I have, the need for power and ownership, while also not really having the patience or desire to stand over someone's shoulder minute by minute.
I finally found some phrasing that I think helps to express what I actually think and desire.
Went to the doctor,s yesterday and once i got home, i was not feeling good. Did a lot of sleeping. Got ACTUALLY sick on the way to the washroom and ended up having to take a shower to get it all off me.. YUCK!! So, New Year,s Eve Day.. i slept all morning, missed my morning meds, and slept half of the afternoon. i finally woke up around 2 PM, but stayed in bed with an upset stomach and a headache. i did end up having two small bowls of homemade chicken noodle soup, a sleeve and a half of saltines, two glasses of Vernors ginger ale and lots of water. Hoping this bug is gone by tomorrow morning! Old profile removed July 6, 2025
All initial emails with less than three sentences, or missing capitalization and punctuation, are deleted and the sender blocked. Yes, I know Collarspace's filters remove some punctuation. That's not what I am talking about. Three sentences, not one long run-on sentence.
I am a switch. I have not bottomed or submitted since 2016, but if you cannot handle your dominant or top taking the bottom side I am not the one for you.
I am NOT looking for a dominant or top, hence identifying my profile as a domme. I do not reply to dominants or tops looking to dominate or top me.
I am polyamorous. I live with my wife Raine. She is aware of this profile and what I am looking for. She and I are play partners working back toward a power exchange that ended during the worst of the isolation because of COVID.
I am not looking for an Ms relationship or an Op relationship. If you self identify as a slave we are not compatible. I am not a female supremacist and I do not practice TPE.
If you are younger than 25 please do not apply.
What I AM looking for are local play partners, lovers, and or submissives. Local means in or around San Antonio. I am not looking for someone to relocate, move in with me, or play with me while they are visiting San Antonio.
My ideal submissive is service oriented and open to a variety of play styles and techniques, and open to trying new things. My ideal play partner has interest in multiple kinds of play and enjoys intense play and receiving pain.
Giving cunnilingus is a soft limit. Receiving cunnilingus is not high on my priorities list, although it can be lovely. I LOVE dildo play and fisting. I have reservations about strap-on harnesses.
If you are not in the San Antonio, TX area regularly, don't contact me as a potential submissive or play partner. I don't "play" online and I have no interest in choreographing elaborate scenes for you to act out on webcam to fulfill your fetishes. I am living my flesh life and I don't have time for an online life. Friendship and conversation are welcome, but no leading questions trying to get me to provide fap fodder.
My dance card is sometimes (over)full but that's the way I like it. There IS room in my life for a full time submissive should I come across one who is compatible with me.
The remainder of my profile remains intact from before:
I find minds sexy more often than I find bodies sexy, though I can certainly appreciate a sexy body! I love intelligence and learning, enjoy teaching what I know and learning from others, be they friend, lover, submissive, Dominant, switch, or myriad role identities.
I'm open to finding kinky friends who can hang out at home with or without play, play partners who share my interests, lovers, or submissives. Or all of the above. A poly pansexual service oriented submissive who likes edgy as well as everyday play, can take intense pain and get satisfaction from it, and wants to serve a BBW Domme would be great. ~Santa, here's my list, no, I'm not holding my breath.~
Micro e-mails are a pet peeve of mine. Write an e-mail with at least three sentences. But don't send me a novella either - it takes getting to know someone before I'm motivated to read something overly long. One or two paragraphs is great. You could tell me what you liked about my profile, why you are writing (friendship, submission, playing, learning?), tell me a little bit about yourself.
I'm looking for a submissive that gets fulfillment from both service and play. I'd like to find one whose mind and body both attract me. I want to find a submissive and/or play partner who loves to explore, who loves lots of kinds of play, who finds intensity and connection sexy and hot and gets a lot from the connection in a scene not just what type of play is being done. I want to find someone who is up for light spanking and tickle play one day, and a wicked caning another, who can handle flames licking across their skin and delight in it just as much as a tongue's caress. I want someone who can play light and silly as well as deep and intense, who can enjoy something as mundane as a spanking while still being open to trying hot, sexy, edgy, rough shit.
But it's not all about play. I want a submissive who gets along well with me, who is a delightful conversational partner, who is intelligent and sometimes witty. I would love to find a submissive who helps me with my flaws and supports me in my own goals as much as they work to improve themselves and make me proud they are mine, to be in my service. I want a submissive who is willing to help out, whether it is helping me fold laundry and dry dishes or brainstorming a website design. Gimme gimme! A submissive who loves to learn! A submissive who loves to serve! A submissive who loves to play! A submissive who loves letting go of control! A submissive who is self aware, practices self honesty, and communicates clearly! I'm not interested in someone whose ONLY interaction with me is for BDSM, or for play, or for sex. I want to find someone who can become a part of my life, who feels comfortable joining me for vanilla hangout time, sexy snuggle time, as well as kinky dress up and play time.
But that doesn't fully describe it either. I want to find someone who feels that submission is about more than doing chores or taking a good beating. Where is that mind hiding that WANTS to be told to do something disagreeable, because submitting is sometimes about doing what you DON'T like. A submissive who knows saying "I don't like that" is a way of giving me more control. That it doesn't mean I won't do it any more, it just means when I do it I will do it DELIBERATELY!! Are you out there, craving someone who isn't afraid to deny the things you like just to watch you squirm and make you beg for them? Where is the submissive who loves high protocol as well as casual time? Where is the submissive who can make offering to take my plate into the kitchen touch my heart? Where is the submissive who isn't ashamed to kiss my feet in front of friends, who wants to be the best they can be so that I can be proud to own them? Are you out there, unready to give everything to a stranger, but wanting to let go and give up control, incrementally, as trust develops?
Read my journal entries to learn a bit about me. This is long already, so I won't start trying to describe who I am, but if you'd like to know, ask and I'll probably answer. Be local, because I want to touch you
I get that there’s a desire for online play, and that a lot of people are into it. That’s fine. People want what they want, and there’s nothing wrong with that: it’s how they go about getting it that’s the issue.
I specifically request that my potential suitors be local because I’m not interested in online relationships. I want to meet you, get coffee or something, go for a walk, see your expressions while I hear your voice, evaluate your demeanor, feel if there’s any spark between us. If that spark exists, I want to touch you. I can’t do that online.
Appreciation from afar is okay - I suppose, but unless you’re local or at least have already booked a visit to Seattle, I’m not interested. Visiting the Seattle for business or pleasure? Great. Hinting that it might happen if I give you enough online attention first? Nope.
There are people here who are looking for online relationships. Feel free to talk to them, as they’re who you’re looking for. If that’s what you’re interested in, you’re not looking for me.
Lots of shopping going on by the masses. I'm not interested in shoppers. Im interested in those who are ready to serve Me under the conditions I present. Not tough.
You want to be of service or you don't.
If you are at a distance and do not address your distance in our initial discussions, I shall assume you are not serious.
I'm a reader and a writer.
It's words, typed, hand written, or whispered, that stir me.
I understand the limitations of this site, so I can forgive a typo, but if you use simple, crass, and ugly words, or cannot put a sentence together, I'm not interested.
If you say 'hello' or "hi how are you" or some variation, I'm not interested.
I delete those messages and block their senders.
I get to choose who I surrender to.
If you get ghosted it might not be what you think.
Did you realise that this site does not store your password any more. If you log out as a new member you can't ever log back in. I found this out by trying to log in on a different machine. Not possible.
I don't know if this is a cynical move to get more numbers by the owners of the site, but I think they just broke it and are too stupid to fix it.
Oh my sadism !!
Today im creating another thinking.
Why ?
Because im litterally and profundly agitated, someone activated my mind, giving me a pleasure more than an orgasm, creativity !
And into this universe, its delightfull.
Im a psychological person you know.
Mind transcend all pleasure.
Its addictive and soo rare to find people like me, maybe theyre just hidden, or ephemeral.
Thats why i taste every part of my discussion.
Ironically, i have all my tasty favorite toys for suffering but i dont have anybody to play...
Sadly i will sleep today with a little frustration into my little warm heart.
Sincerely
Madness 2/24/2023
Soo where to start. I have a friend who said with everything I went through last year something amazing was coming this year.
With that being said I got a new job that is freaking amazing. It allows me to work anywhere in the United States as long as I maintain certain licenses here in the state of Florida. And I'll finally be able to buy and build the house and I've been dreaming about forever. Still need land but I'm working on it.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for with the lifestyle but I'm leaving Florida first of May. I just need to figure out where I am going.
Life's a dance you learn as you go.
Well another Kinkfest is upon us. I am so very excited to attend. This year, like all the other years, there are a lot of classes I look forward to going to. I am doing things different for next year, however. I am going to start my search for a sub/slave to go with me very early. They will be my slave friday, for lack of a better diion. I doubt I will find one but hey, maybe I will get lucky.
I am going to be stricter on my dealings with people here. I expect photos. I will give a person a task to do and I expect proof that they do it. I am SO VERY tired of flakes here. The one thing, bar none, I will expect someone to do is write a journal. They will buy a new journal and start writing in it every day. Every 3 days they will send me photos of what they have written. If someone can't or won't do something so simple they have no place in my life. I want real time. Online is fun but it can NOT take place of real life. Men and male presenting people might find it helpful to understand that women are not just inundated with messages, we are verbally assaulted for simply saying "No, thank you." While I understand that it would be nice to receive a return message, perhaps even polite. My mental health and simply my well being are not worth that. Until this isn't a crapshoot, please understand, quite simply...No answer IS an answer.This has been a PSA. Not a debate. Since I'm always laid-back and accommodating I'm ridiculously easy for a strong-willed, kind woman to manage. Unfortunately that's not ideal for that lady who prefers a contest of wills and wanting the challenge of a sub who pushes limits just to test her control.
Competition in various forms can be healthy and fun but at other times not so much.
Oh well, my search continues. So, I got this in an email today as a reason for someone refusing to read a profile... "
Ive noticed people dont always write true facts and their profilesSo I replied with pictures of my dying husband to prove I am a widow. Anyone else want to question it?
== Results from bdsmtest.org == 98% Rope bunny 98% Voyeur 94% Submissive 85% Degradee 83% Experimentalist 82% Primal (Prey) 78% Masochist 77% Brat 62% Slave 51% Exhibitionist 49% Switch 47% Rigger 45% Pet 38% Primal (Hunter) 36% Sadist 33% Vanilla 29% Boy/Girl 26% Dominant 26% Ageplayer 25% Daddy/Mommy 25% Master/Mistress 24% Non-monogamist 14% Owner 13% Degrader 12% Brat tamer In shadows cast by candle's glow,
A whispered bond begins to grow,
With chains and ties and soft-spoken word,
A tale of devotion silently heard.
She stands, a figure stern and fair,
A queen in her dominion there.
He kneels with eyes of deepened trust,
In her strength, his surrender a must.
Her hand, a guide, firm yet kind,
In her will, his peace of mind.
He worships at her altar, so sweet,
Where pain and pleasure often meet.
Commands she issues, soft yet clear,
To which he listens, holds dear.
Each task a token of his love,
Under her gaze, he rises above.
Chains that bind him set him free,
In her control, she holds his key.
A dance of power, the roles they play,
With concrete walls, he finds his way.
With every strike a story told,
Of lessons learned and disipline so bold.
In her hands, his world complete,
At her feet, the journey sweet.
So in the quiet of the night,
His thoughts alone he knows his plight.
In the realm where she is queen,
His souls devotion is felt and seen.
When it comes to phallic worship I am the altar and the sacrament. I begin by washing thoroughly and I cover my body around my phallus leaving the phallus and the testicles exposed after the person who is to worship bathes, perfumes his body and approaches slowly with the sight on the vision I am offering him. He kneels, and anoints the phallus with honey, almond oils, sweet oil, (all edible) and prays. No touching at this moment just gazing. Slowly he extends the offerings to the testicle, the reservoir of universal power and caress them requesting permission to approach the phallus. At this moment there is no touching, kissing or tasting the phallus, just caressing and enjoying the testicles as the source of power. Eventually I allow him to caress the phallus and anoint it thoroughly but not to masturbate. This phase is a phase of discovery and joy. Since I am uncut this is the time to begin retracting the skin to reveal the glans and to taste whatever comes from it. This process will take time and no sexual play is allow, its prayer time. The session can end there and after a while it while after washing the phallus and anointing it with oils and essences the worshipper is allow to commune with the phallus orally. If the ministrations are right and he deserves, I will allow the climax for both of us. If not he must come back until he is worthy of the nectar that creates the universe. Now I have my own rituals to initiate those who worship before allowing them to approach the altar and the sacrament. I'm so happy to be back on Collarspace. This is where it all started for me....about 10-ish years ago when I was just finding out about BDSM and really exploring my kinks (which is currently still evolving)...With that being said... being here is so nostalgic because I've met some amazing people here over the course of years. I'm especially excited to run into some old friends here. So a quick story time....years ago when I was here one of my friends from MIDDLE school found me on this site (not really sure HOW) but we had really good conversations and he talked about the way I use to treat him in middle school as far as being very bossy, dragging him around, TELLING him that he was my boyfriend made him KNOW that he was meant to be a sub/slave. It really put a lopt in perspective for me too because it showed me that this was in fact a n inherent part of my personality....to dominate...to take control...to be the boss...and it came to me so easily...so long short, I'm hoping that i run into this guy here again that would be amazingggg... either way I'm looking forward to the connections I foster this time around. I walked in, saw her, sat down and was pleased when she lowered her eyes from mine. The munch suddenly didn't smother like usual.
I took her home, got down to skivvies, but she wouldn't lower them for her spanking, which earned her an introduction to Earnie. Rhino Hide thudds so soundly. She kept begging for more.
After I came all over her back, I got her dressed and we sat down over coffee, and talked. She was slightly annoyed when the subject of her masculine gender taped up under those skivvies had not been her giveaway. I had spotted her as the CrossDresser she was, in the same breath that I spotted her deeply seated masochism. We spent the summer bruising her. I did insist on silk panties for the rest of our sessions. It does a wonderful job of administering a bruise from the cane or batt that cotton tiddy-whities cannot. I built stocks, hoisting timbers, made leather suspension cuffs that broke when we tried them. I was crushed, darn it. Stuck to shibari after that.
i tried to put this in my main profile but, for some reason, the system would not let me so i am putting it here.
i am BiSexSubBurl which sums up my BDSM life in a nutshell.
To be a Domme
This ideology (that you have to peg someone to dominate them) is everything that is wrong with femdom porn.
I don’t need to penetrate anything other than your mind to dominate you.
Dominance is not about penetration.
Exchanging power is not about penetration.
I assert my dominance by being dominant.
I can lay back, have you penetrate me, and I am still in control simply because I am dominant.
I can suck your cock, have your cock penetrate my mouth, and I am still in control simply because I am dominant.
I can go on all fours, have your cock penetrate my ass, and I am still in control simply because I am dominant.
No act is inherently dominant or submissive. Most especially penetration.
BDSM and D/s is not about the things that you can do - it is how you love. So, I got a message today because someone was offended by my responce to their message to me... They felt my profile was too long to bother reading and wanted me to cut to the chase... was I still married. The opening of my profile explaines that I am a WIDOW! So, yes, the message ticked me off a bit and they got the full brunt of my anger. Instead of going back and looking to see why I had called them an idiot, to see what they had missed that made them look so stupid and foolish, they wrote me again, trying to insult me this time, making themselves look dumber still! Like guys, seriously, it is a special kind of stupid that writes someone who opens their profile saying they are a widow, and asks if they are still married. Try, just try to send messages that don't totally insult someone if you are attempting to start a relationship that requires massive amounts of trust! Just spend a minute and read the stupid profile people! Dinning Out with slave
I expect My slave was excited. At least I was hoping it would generate expectations in its little brain. it had not been fed solid food in the last ten days. it was being treated to My lose weight regime. Yes, it had lost a little, but, far from the goal I had determined for it.
Outside its cage I had enjoyed leaving pizza fresh from the oven in order that it might enjoy its denial. Actually, I doubt it was ‘enjoying’ smelling the pizza while slowly starving. What it enjoys is not an issue of My particular concern. Needless to say, I enjoyed its discomfort. In its journal it was recording dreams of gorging itself on delicious pizza. So, I offered a torture by way of tantalus for My pleasure.
In any case I watched its face closely as I announced it would be accompanying Me out to dinner. it had just finished its required ten miles on the tread mill and was sweating profusely. I let it catch its breath and cool down to the point of an onset of chill. I took a bight of a large corn-beef sandwich while its eyes devoured the sight of My pleasure. I slowly chewed the sandwich while My slave involuntarily chewed nothing but saliva.
When it seemed to be at the point of crying with the frustration of dental and hunger, I swallowed to clear My mouth and, negligently dropping the half eaten sandwich on the floor, I began to speak.
“Slave, tonight it will accompany Me to dinner out. I will allow it to wear ladies panties, the tight little boy shorts and a T-shirt. it will play chauffeur to the restaurant. it will sit on its hands and not speak without a nod of approval from Me. Before I go out to eat, I will beat it in order that it might keep its servile position in life firmly in its mind. I grant it the opportunity ask a question now about tonight’s adventure. Remember, any answer including punishment for any impertinence I perceive must elicit profound gratitude from it. Ask now, slave.”
Poor thing, it could not resist the crying need it felt for, at a minimum, the prospect of receiving food. “Master will it be fed tonight?” To which I responded with a series of face slaps. At each it did as it had been trained and forced its face up to face slapping position with its eyes firmly fixed on mine. No matter how hard I struck its impertinent cheeks it thanked Me profusely for a number of things. The ‘things’ included that it was receiving attention from a Better, it had the opportunity to serve, that it was learning etc.
Later that day, still wondering if it would be fed, the slave although in advanced years of age was dressed much like a little boy included Buster Brown shoes was kneeling by the front door waiting to drive Me to My repast.
As I approached the door ready to leave My residence, I thought I heard My slave properties stomach growl its protest at the lack of something to digest. Darn if I thought I heard the same little growl as I passed it through the door it held open to the interior of My car. I gave it the destination from My comfortable seat. I suspect the slave was pleased to be driving rather than locked in the trunk of the car as it usually was.
It did a competent job of driving, holding the door for me at the entrance of the restaurant and then parking the car. I enjoyed the sight of it running back to me to open the door of the eating establishment. When I announced My name we were conducted to a both. My slave used a handkerchief it carried for just such occasions to wipe down the seat I was about to occupy. As I sat, it waited at the ready should I require anything else in the moment.
When I was comfortable, I took a moment to survey the table. The linen tablecloth was spotless and was not overly starched. The flatware was sterling, the plates were all porcelain and the glass all crystal. It pleased Me to see such an elegant setting before me. All the while My slave property maintained a standing posture ramrod straight with eyes focused on My face waiting for instructions.
I casually looked at My adoring chattel and nodded slightly. At this indication from Me it took its seat on its hands.
The reader may skip the following digression. Sitting on one’s hands sounds simple enough. However, hand sitting is far from comfortable. The reader might like to try a little experiment and spend some time sitting on hands for a while. The longe one sits in that fashion the less comfort afforded. Further, there is the question of palms up or down. Up or down question in My realm depends on the surface the ass is to rest on. A hard surface with palms up leaves discomfort to mount slowly to the ass while the back of the hands almost immediately suffer from the weight of the sitter and the hard surface the knuckles and back of hand are pressed into. A soft cushion, such as the current eatery provided would receive the back of the hand with grace and ease. However, if the hands are palm down, the soft surface causes the hands to bend backward and over time gain certain agony to the sitter. Guess which way My slave property had been trained to orient its palms?
Water was in each of the crystal water glasses provided. There was a carafe of H2O on the table as well. I sipped My water while I perused the menu. My slave property kept its eyes on My face should I require anything, even as its thirst remained unquenched. I discarded the wine list. My drinking days are long past. However, I was aware My slave was a drinker (the reader should note the past tense.)
The waitress arrived to collect the order. She enquired about drink preference. Noting My decline and nothing by way of speech from My companion, went on to the food question. My order was rather simple, a crab cocktail, followed by a caesar salad, main course of prime rib.
“And for the gentleman?” enquired the wait person after turning to face it.
I watched as My slave’s face reddened ever so slightly. I looked forward to reading its journal entry regarding this whole dinner, especially, its reaction to the “for the gentleman” inquiry. I sadistically savored its quandary of imperative sustenance need and secure knowledge it was to have only what I allowed.
“You may bring one dry piece of toasted white bread, please.”
With a very well, Sir, she turned to place the order with the cook.
“it may have a sip of water, slave.” Of course My slave property could not resist taking more than a sip. It even allowed some liquid to dribble down its chin as it downed half a glass. “Remind Me, slave, to beat it severally for taking more than a sip and for removing hands from under its ass without permission.”
Helpful hints: I am poly. This means I may have other subs or lovers. Or none. According to my desires.You don't have to be poly but I will not change who I am to be with anyone.
I enjoy men and women and the full spectrum in between. My interests aren't about what's between your legs so much as what is in your mind, heart and soul. I do enjoy naughty bits but I prefer to get to know you first. See if we are a good match.
I host local kink events. I have a busy and fulfilling life. In order to get my attentions you will have to be interesting and should put your best foot forward. I enjoy intelligent people, no matter if they are verbose or quiet. If you're too verbose, I do have a ball gag. :)
I live in Alaska. Yes it's cold here. Yes it's dark here. Yes I see the aurora's outside my house. Yes it's full of wildlife and quite amazing. Yes it's a bucket list destination. I'm happy to talk about it but if that's all you want to know then watch the discovery channel.
Good luck.
I've been on and off this site for a long time, and last time I tried, getting a profile write-up changed - was impossible.
Rather than go through that process, I'm writing a Journal Entry. I've attempted a couple of relationships the past five years and I have to say that I'm exhausted by emotionally unavailable Doms who only want to play on the internet.
If that's all you want, I'm not interested.
Yes, I can relocate. That part of my life has changed.No, I'm not going to redo my entire profile write-up. If you want to know about me, ask. I need someone in my life who is a good communicator and this is a great place to let me know you are willing to fill that need.
As of 2026-03-13 I am 65 years old. I'm in pretty good shape for my age and I have some arthritis issues that can be worked around.That's what I have for today. Who are you?
J
Hedonist:
I am an explorer, in search of adventure, within a vast ocean of possibility. I take a versatile approach to opportunities that present themselves, chemistry is everything, but safety is paramount. In that regard, I am definitely more RACK than SSC.. It has been said, slave girl gone rogue.
"I hold a beast, an angel, and a madman in me" ~ Dylan Thomas
Primal:
I have a strong primal side. I identify as wolf and am heavily instinct driven, often basing my decisions in life on what sniffs right or wrong. I am also arguably feral when my need calls for it. The beast inside me has teeth and provoking her is a game that you are unlikely to win. And yes.. for the relevant humans our there, if you are reading this, that is a challenge 😉 If nothing else, a chew toy is always welcome.
"Woman's destiny is to be wanton, like the bitch, the she-wolf; she must belong to all who claim her. - Marquis de Sade - Philosophy in the Bedroom
Sub-Leaning:
Nature VS nurture is a complex argument, all journeys are unique, my needs are constantly evolving and often flex based on who I am interacting with moment to moment.
"There are two kinds of strengths: the strength to lead, and the strength to follow; the strength to control, and the strength yield. There are two kinds of power: the power to strip away another’s soul bare, and the power to stand naked." ~ Yaldah Tovah
Submissive me: I have had the privilege of serving some truly wonderful Men along my journey, and whilst the submissive inside me still craves release, it takes a very strong hand and a unique kind of strength to draw her out and inspire her to stay. As such, it is rare for her to put in an appearance.
Not-Submissive me: With other women, I am an Alpha bitch, or a soft / pleasure Domme when the chemistry presents itself. Submissive men can expect very much the opposite, worms will know their place, obey without question and not speak to me unless invited to or fuck off and do not waste my time.
Sadomasochist:
I love pain. Certainly a smart arsed sadomasochist, as my mouth is all too skilled at writing cheques for my (insert body part here) to cash. Aside from that - I have a sadistic streak a mile wide.. I love to Top and take a lot of pleasure from leaving my mark, with kisses, teeth, toys, the possibilities are endless and a body is a beautiful, blessed, canvas.
Everything Else:
As my profile and fetish list suggests, I've met very few kinks that haven't made my pulse quicken and I wouldn't want to do again. Life is a rainbow and there's so much to explore, ideas and inspiration are always welcome! I was "the other woman" once. I didn't know. I didn't know because I trusted that he was being as honest with me as I was with him. When I put the pieces together, because he didn't tell me, of course, I broke it off immediately. I grew up in a family held together by Scotch tape and broken promises about the other woman. Women. The nuclear heartache settled into every crevice of every person adjacent to the problem. No, I would rather be alone. What I truly seek is a submissive or slave partner that is settled in her place, is proud, certain of the girl she is meant to be, the life she is meant for, preferably experienced in the lifestyle enough to know this is the only way to be and live a life filled with meaning. Naturally living this life 24/7, enjoying all aspects together! I am using you boys again. I have been with My beloved subby hubby for 6 years now. Surprisingly, daily life has taken over and I require fresh inspiration to pique My dominance and libido.So, I am using you boys again. Just reading your messages and profiles is sparking My libido. My appetite for My subby hubby's service is increased. I am just using you. But I thank you and share this information in case it gives you a little thrill. You are such good boys, you deserve a little reward.
LadyD look, you want me to be interested in you? here are a few pro tips.
1. actually read my profile.
2. you misgender me, it's done. do not collect go, do not collect two hundred dollars.
3. no, I will not call you sir. I do not know you and you have not earned it.
4. you must have experience with littles. no I'm not a slave. stop trying to treat me like one.
5. making demands right off the bat is just going to get you laughed at.
6. if you are 50 or older, you're too old for me. stop fucking messaging me as if you're going to be the magical exception.
thanks for coming to my TED talk. Woo-hoo approved. I kept it fairly safe cause I've heard of so many others having issues.
As stated I was around when it was collarme. Probably 2005 until it went poof. So thrilled to see this new site.
I did in fact meet quite a few men from that site over the years. Some were one offs. Some were play partners for a while. Some we just weren't as compatible in person.
I do my best to avoid the latter issue by getting to know someone enough prior to meeting. Ensuring our wants and needs are both going to be met and that expectations are realistic. If someone cannot engage my mind prior to meeting I already know that won't happen magically just because we do meet.
I am genuinely a kind person. I can come across bitchy because of my writing style and bluntness. I also do not have much patience for those who will not read and are here due to boredom or for me to entertain them via writing and pics. I am looking for real time meets. That is all.
I do lean submissive. I love being used. I am not an idiot or a brainless child. I am a slut first who also happens to be submissive. If "training" is in your repertoire move on. That's a game I'm not into. I'm also not into submissive men or switches. I am simply not attracted to them.
I want people to reach out but please be interested in real time and local. If men would respect what women want I think both our experiences on this site would be so much better.
I will post more and get into the good stuff. Take care for now! Still looking but not impatient, actually rather grateful plenty of me time and busy with work.
I have to admit I have had a few people show an interest and I have had to admit I am not attracted to them.
You can tell by a picture, eve if you tried it would not last.
Still looking for someone outdoorsy.
Still looking for someone in London but I travel a lot so flexible.
Finally planning a little annual leave and Ireland is happening.
I kind of would like to meet someone interesting, avoiding PE teachers, men who work in ICT (snore) there has got to be some pleasure seeking interesting specimens so I will wait but will not hold my breath, will explore the world and my own potential and if you happen to pass by great if not, I was not holding my breath. Twisted Cheshir Madness 2.0
Let the One true Twisted cheshir Lead you into the darkness and down the rabbit hole.... Here we goooolooking for friends and whatever more may come with is this this world .. my name is cheshir i am the one and only .. So come and join me in this journyava name TwistedCheshirLet Madness Guide you into the ever lasting peace that come with it
Things have been very rough this last few years. In the middle of the horror I discovered my exact needs and desires.
All are leaning to 24/7. A TRUE EXPERIENCED Dominant. One compatible of course.
One with similar interests as we need time together outside of just bdsm.
I need fully trained. Supervised. Someone who pays attention when I think I can get away with something though I try my best to be a good girl.
Someone to nurture me. Guide me. Ensure I hydrate and eat properly.
I need the rules. The punishments. The after care and the sincere love.
I am in a vanilla relationship and beyond unhappy. I have had limited human contact in years. The vanilla is too old. Impotent and zero desire. We live separate lives. I am more of a care giver.
I am willing to move almost anywhere but as a full time submissive. I'm too poor to use what little I have to move in and find out we aren't compatible. So meeting 1st is a must. I am fine with a hotel or cabin or even fly to you but trust must be established.
I will accept nothing other than EXPERIENCED. I am not switch. I'm fully submissive.
I want 24/7 but also would like a little loosening on my chain to feel semi normal. Yes I expect completely your knowing my comings and goings at all time. Mutual interests are time well spent.
What are you looking for in a submissive?
For everyone asking, yes i am still in training and have been collared. i have been in chastity for over six months i am only allowed out to clean myself and the device under the watchful eye of my owner. i have purchased a shock collar and it is locked on me now waiting for punishment, it is worn whenever i am home and is charging when i am out of the house. The shock is very powerful when turned up it will make me obey every command given to me, i regret buying this as i have no way to resist. When i see her grab the remote i start to shake a little and waste no time completing the task given to me. And I will always be a martyr, I will fill your life with songs
I'll be a wind chime in the window, catching life you throw around
And I will tear apart your bedroom, I'll call you in the night
I will exist in every second just to decorate your life
And when you're done, you can discard me like the others always do
And I will nurse my wounds until another artist stains me new
I will always reassemble to fit perfectly in you
For anybody that decides that I'm of use
Lonely is the muse...
But would I talk about my need for your attention?
Talk about my desires for naked intimacy, so close and nearly breathless, kisses sweet and juicy, long and short, tongues and fingers intertwining as I try to lick and suck every square inch of your body, the honorarium of your gift and my reception, the stoke of your cock into my opening mouth, hungry to be fed, to be filled, to be possessed by you, penetrated, taken, lust smeared over my uplifted breasts, over my mound, rubbed against my clit, hands pulling it aside with eager participation, equally wanting to lay back, but also to lay you back, concentrate on your growling desire now being swirled with my saliva, my love wetness, stoking you into my mouth, your hips thrusting, your words spoken of being your slut, the one that will get to be used, our passion exalted between us, like a plug into an electrical outlet of my holes....my chant of yes Daddy, yes Daddy...both silent, murmured, coming out loud in my head as I join you on the edge of our orgasm...ride it, babe, ride it...
That's what I would talk about. Hello All,
Just wanted to stop in and say apologies for suddenly disappearing a few months ago. A verify close family member passed away unexpectedly and I withdrew for a little while to process, help friends and family adjust, and overall just work through the impact.
I apologize for leaving conversations unanswered and unread, but I do appreciate your understanding. I'll probably still not be very active here, at least for a little while, but wanted to leave a quick note for those I may have left in the dark.
Again, thanks for your patience and understanding! If you're not someone's preference don't get mad about it, we don't.
We have talked with several people, some we weren't what they were looking for, others took the cowardly route and just ghosted us, either way it didn't make us send angry messages. If you have kids that live with you congrats, be we can't do anything with you. If you don't have a pussy, again nothing we can do with you. Don't get pissy and send ignorant messages, just accept that and move on as most of us with decency do. I have reached a point in my life where I can now fully live the bdsm lifestyle. I have no problem introducing my slaves to friends, family and strangers as my slaves. I will have no problem having them leashed in public. They will use slave speak. They will wear collars and cuffs and anything else I give them to wear. When we go out in the vanilla world and people ask questions they will get direct answers. I firmly believe that a BDSM lifestyle is better and more advanced than vanilla and I am proud to display it.
Not wanting a Daddy.
Don't need a Trainer.
Not interested in a Protector either. I'm not a damsel in distress here...Eyeroll
I desire a Leader, a Leader that I can trust in and put my faith in to FOLLOW...Werewolves make fabulous Leaders, I hear. Lol
Just saying!
Hey Doms!
Just a short note to say I'm a high energy, extremely intelligent, high libido alpha sub with a lifetime
of experience in BDSM and dynamic relationships. I expect you to be the same! Well, a Dom version, that is!
You think you're hot shit and well, so am I! Won't we be an electric combination?
I can't wait to meet the Dominant I can reverve and respect, one to whom I can give my emotional
sexual and mental submission.
Let's make it happen! I was reminded of My father tonight. Soon to be the tenth anniversary of his passing. I miss him. I miss his laughter and his guidance and his honesty. I never did meet a more honest person and he is responsible for teaching Me what not lying, cheating or stealing means. I remember when I was young, he said, "when someone takes from someone else, they are in essence saying that they deserve that thing more than the person whom they took it from." Once put into that light, I realized I never deserved something more than another person. I will work for it, I will fight for it, I will not deny another in order to have it for Myself.
He was full of wisdom. He lived in the fast lane and caught fire. When it burned it burned it all. From the ashes, he resurrected himself and lived an honest life. He loved Me enormously and told Me there was nothing I could not do.
I was born ready.
Thank you daddy for giving Me the strength to be bold and to love deeply and for never EVER settling. RIP 2026 - What will you bring?
It is a while since I developed a contact here into a rewarding encounter or relationship. But as you can see I am still here.
Why, you may well ask? Why suffer the frustration?
Well, simply because I know how good it can be.....when the connection is there. I have been extremely lucky a handful of times in my life, with special ladies - I cherish the memories of every one. A couple are no longer with us, a couple wanted more than I could give at the time and others just ran their course, parting as friends rather than partners. So I know!!!
In late 2025, I encountered a soul that brought out the Dom in me, the best of me. If you like, she awakened the beast within or the dark passenger I carry. It was not perfect. I misjudged an early element. She is hesitant to make any "move" or say anything - waiting for the Dom ( ie me ) to orchestrate everything. I prefer and am used to a more balanced partnership, but neither could deny the primal connection.
During 2026 I tried to recover from my early faux pas and build a stronger bond. I knew and understood that she really wanted a full-time, 24/7/365 relationship, but hoped we could find a middle ground. While she stayed resistant to my charms and I harboured hopes, I could cope with the ambiguity - but that was lost in early December. I am not the jealous sort, but I don't share well - just the way I am. She has now visited and stayed with another single Dom at least twice, so backed off.
I miss her. I miss our interaction. But I respect her choice. Submission is a gift that she holds in her hands until she trusts it to another. It is something I would treasure, but it is not something I could or would demand.
I wish her will and hope that I may find another muse in 2026. Recently most interest in my profile has come from submissive men. I am not sure why, other than the number of men on this site? I don't judge, but it is not my thing. The interaction does not reach that beast within.
Well this is John no this is February I'm sorry yeah 2022 I haven't put a journal entry in a couple years now I really upset with the collar space people because I continue to write probably two different people everyday just let him know what's going on in my life and let him know that yeah I made this purchase of a house to use for people that have a hard time transitioning and giving them a place to come stay you know I I first ask him if they have a job if they have a car they have transportation otherwise what will you know we'll try to help some people if we can but I expect the people to come and you know make an effort and it doesn't matter to me you know what's your fantasies are a lot of people just want to talk to you and probably talk about their fantasies and get all horny and get off and then you never hear from him for months I'm not into all that people I mean you know I understand your your needs I've been there I've I've probably done the very same thing.
There's people out here that have written to that I've never heard back and probably a couple years it shows if they haven't even been online in a couple years they're very cute very young very naive and I'm hoping that they're still alive that didn't get hooked up with a serial killer I mean that happens anyway so I wish people would just tell me to you know go to hell or yeah hey I'm interested in talking to you and hear when can you talk back to me I mean like stuff like that I'm not looking to fulfill your fantasies I'm looking for friendships lasting friendships just like in the real world folks so I'm transgender yeah I'm kind of a little and I'm real so I mean if I don't understand what's going on with covid here my God people yeah I'm all alone I hardly have contact with any of my friends because they're afraid to come outside their houses well I'm safe I I wear my mask I'm inoculated I've done everything I possibly can and yeah it's my freedom to do so so anyway with that said I'm done with this entity so as I always say it's ciao for now
A Perfect Circle: "The Thirteenth Step".
Alex Fleming: The baby monitor. South Park Studios.
Lloyd Ahlquist: Microsoft Office. Chas T. Main.
David Charlebois. The World Wide Web. The Adult Video Awards.
Kara Williamson: America's Funniest Home Videos. Fox News.
Roshay Reddy: The stun gun. Judge Rotenberg Center.
Daniel Monahan: The drum machine. Death Row Records.
Jenna Williamson: The terminal process. MUSH Park.
Cody Keiser: The duct tape wallet. Tool.
Mathilda Gagnon: The collectible card game. MoveOn.
Peter Tsaptsaris: The Tamagotchi. Persel.
Allison Haimes: Arabica blend. Starbucks Coffee.
Pat Ware: The Quake engine. The Respite Center. Hello everyone!
I'm glad the journal function is back, although sad that I keep getting the same messages. If your message is a laundry list of the stuff you're into, don't bother. If it's an ode to what a lowly, pathetic worm you are, don't bother. If you think you're an alpha and want to try to "turn me", don't bother. I will not reply to messages unless they are respectful, thoughtful, and show that you're a real person and not a mindless, submissive drone.
In other news, I'm starting a new venture selling all sorts of personal goodies and experiences. Wish me luck! And if you're interested message me with a joke! Maybe I'll share the link with you. COMMUNICATION engenders
RESPECT building
TRUST.
COMMUNICATION engenders
TRUST building
RESPECT.
COMMUNICATION is the key to laying a solid foundation. !IMPORTANT CLARIFICATION
I'm looking for someone initially to come in as a cleaner / domestic drudge for a few hours either weekly or fortnightly and then go away again. I have no intention of putting anyone up overnight, nor am I initially looking for any more than stated above although whoever is chosen will be subjected to strict oversight by myself and be suitably punished should they not perform to the required standard.
With that in mind, you MUST be based in South East UK, either in Kent or able to asily get to mid Kent from where you live, so SE London, Essex, Surrey or Kent itself.
I would have amended my profile to reflect this but as that then means my profile disappears for up to a week I've been compelled to add it here.
Goddess Abyssia Had some (full of his own envisioned self importance) guy, try to tell me i was using the site wrong and to 'please' leave. Guess my little self, offended him enough (somehow?) for him to take time out of his life to try and tell me what to do. Good luck with that, ~dear~.
Unless you own me, i will do what i want, how i want. So keep scrolling. Unless you're just trying to give me a good laugh with your gall. The “Honest” secret to a truly happy life
I came to this epitome recently which felt as if I found a jigsaw piece that I didn’t even know I had loss. I have always known that I do not think the same as most people but never thought about why. As a young kid I was exposed to motivational speakers and realized that the affirmations, meditation and even the music I listened to affected my mood. I grew up confident in my abilities and became a natural leader but never questioned why.
I watched an interview where the topic of honesty and lying came up. The interview prompted me to research the physical and mental effects of lying and I was surprised. What resulted caused me to self-evaluate my some of my deepest personality traits.
I felt as if I had been bumping into things in a dark room my whole life without even knowing it and a light was turned on. Nothing in my life is any different today but I can now clearly see how being completely honest has had a major impact in my life.
It has affected me physically, mentally in amazing ways that I had not considered until now. When I was successful at something I took credit and if I failed, I accepted the responsibility. There were no participation trophies, if I screwed up I learned to accept the consequences. As a result, I develop strong mental and social connections with those close to me because people inherently understood that I had integrity and they could trust me.
While still in high school I recognized that most of my peers were interested in sex but few knew anything about it. I was experienced which high school girls found very attractive so I took advantage of it.
As an athlete I used affirmations that I was going to be successful it was uplifting and positive. My success with girls gave me confidence and it became self-fulfilling the more experience I gained the more they were interested in me.
Self-deception shapes our reality, influencing choices and beliefs both negatively and positively.
Many types of ‘lying’ also involve self-deception, in Aesop's fable "The Fox and the Grapes". The fox in the end, gives up and walks away, saying the grapes weren't that good anyway. The fox demonstrates how self-deception can be useful for avoiding the discomfort of unmet desires.
When I was not successful with a girl, I would chalk it up to it was her loss not mine. It was because of that attitude that I never let failure slow me down.
I have shared a story many times that, I honestly thought everyone was having sex when I was in high school because I was. Several years after high school I met a friend and we talked about the girls we dated. I was amazed that he never had sex with any of them, he was a virgin until he was in college. I screwed every girl I dated, if fact I flat out told them if I was going to go out and spend money on them, I would require at least a blow job. A few were offended but most were intrigued some even enough to pay for the date.
That story always meant something to me because all of my guy friends were talking about getting laid but come to find out they were all full of shit. It has proven to reinforce my confidence and success with women.
It turns out that studies have shown, those who believe lying will give them monetary or social recognition are more likely to continue being dishonest. Those who tend to be insecure or have an anxious, avoidant or attachment issues are more likely to be dishonest to avoid being criticized, rejected.
Lying affects self-esteem, emotions and can lead to psychological consequences.
Dishonesty puts the brain in a state of heightened alert, and this stress increases with the magnitude of the lie. There are very real symptoms of anxiety like increased respiratory and heart rates, sweating, dry mouth. That is how a lie detector works it measures your anxiety but there is a reason it does not work on everyone and I will get to that.
The gut-brain axis refers to the two-way communication between the two systems, and explains why people describe feeling butterflies in their stomach under extreme stress.
Research has shown the act of lying stimulates the neocortex, limbic system the temporal lobe and other areas of the brain.
When we deceive someone the Amygdala, the part of the brain that regulates emotion, is activated, and we tend to feel shame or guilt.
Brain imaging experiments have shown the limbic system in a dishonest brain lighting up like a fireworks display. Unfortunately, they also show that the brain can adapt to dishonest behavior.
Studies have found that habitual lying can desensitize our amygdala and may even encourage people to tell bigger lies to get the same rush in the future. Those that lie all the time about little things tend to pass a lie detector because their body does not respond normally.
A 2002 study performed found that 60 percent of people lied at least once during a 10-minute conversation, telling an average of two to three lies.
A 2010 study have shown that the average American tells one to two lies a day.
Many people find deception essential for survival and social interaction to avoid hurting someone’s feelings. I will do my best to avoid confrontations and avoid topics where I anticipate difficulties but I will not lie to protect feelings or keep someone’s secret.
I have always told people, do not lie to protect me because I will tell the truth no matter the consequences and you will get burned.
At least to me being honest about everything is not a moral choice, I just find it a lot less stressful. If you have nothing to hide, there is nothing be worry about. If you fuck something up own it and get past it.
The facts prove that I am right, if you are in a small group you have to keep track of what you told each person so not to create a confusion. A liar has to steer conversations to avoid tripping over lies which will create the need for more lies or blend, bend lies to make the fit.
I am sure that some enjoy the mental gymnastics and get a rush out of deceiving people and they become pathological liars. For most, it just creates anxiety, depression, high blood pressure and all kinds of other stresses.
I take the time each day to appreciate what I have achieved. I try to meditate, say affirmations, practice yoga in order to center myself. Life is good….
I have always known I look at life different than most people but never questioned why.
I now have a better understanding why a lot of women I correspond with eventually ghost me. My actual life is their fantasy world and they either assume that I am lying. When it becomes clear that I am serious it can scare the shit out of them.
I have found that when faced with everything they say they want, their reality kicks them in the ass. They have family obligations, children, career or other considerations that will prevent them from leaving the world they know. In the end they are just looking for a masturbation partner.
There a few adventurous enough, that when provided an opportunity to recreate their life, step out of their comfort zone and make the changes necessary to make their fantasies come true. Choosing to live your life before it is too late can be scary.
Imagine your life six months from now not having to worry about going to work, paying rent or other bills and everything you need like food, clothing, shelter is provided. The perfect 1950’s homemaker that spends her time taking care of the Master of the home. I have been active in the kink community for my entire life and can make fantasies come true. I won a successful business, multiple vehicles, my home, a bar that hosts monthly BDSM lifestyle events and have organized the Key West kink community for over ten years.
I now realize that when I share my reality, the truth about what I have accomplished and what I have to offer it sounds like a lie.
Nothing in my life is any different today and I do not know what I am going to do with, this new found understanding of what makes me who I am. I guess the funniest thing is, when I am not successful with a potential slave it is truly her loss not mine.
If anyone who knows me wants to comment on what I have written, please feel free. I would appreciate any feedback.
"So into you" or why ob- ject -ification is not as flattering as some guys think it is
The subject today will be centered around ob- ject -ification, and how lack of the right actions is getting in the way of what you want.
Recently my day was spent prepping for Mom spending the night, which mostly meant me continuing to organize, clean and just generally improving the space in my sewing room, (the only real spare room) which has a futon, and most importantly, DOORS, so she can have privacy and quiet from my cats.
Now, being ADD, I work better with music and company, so I put music on that she and I can both enjoy- a Pandora station based on the Doobie Brothers I started just for her.
And being who I am, I tend to listen to lyrics, and then often find myself analyzing them.
Usually, I'm specifically analyzing the relationship failings described in them.
It doesn't always stop me enjoying the music, but sometimes I recognize the stalkery mindsets that filled our airwaves when I was young and impressionable. As were the guys who were listening. It's not surprising that we all grew up thinking these kinds of unhealthy behaviors and expectations were normal, and even romantic.
Songs like Boston's "Let me take you home tonight," where a guy is explaining to a woman he's never actually met before that he's basically been stalking her and built a strong fantasy and expectations about who she is, and now he feels that she should absolutely feel both flattered, and obligated to have sex with him.
"You must understand this, I've watched you for so long, that I feel I've known you, I know it can't be wrong," and goes on to say
"I'm dreamin of your sweet love tonight, let me take you home tonight."
So… he's been watching her for a long time without talking to her, decided who she was without ever having a single conversation, and, of course, imagining sex with her. A lot. And he tells her so, over and over and over. Let me do this thing I want. Let me do this thing I want. Let me do this thing because I want it.
Because that's always what is really going on there. Always the focus and end focus.
Nah... that's not creepy AT ALL. Geesh.
Today, it was "So Into You" by Atlanta Rhythm Section.
Different band, different song, same thought process - I saw you, I was attracted, I've decided who you must be, and I can't think about anything except sex with you - only this time, they seem to want to make it her fault.
Now, at first, what struck me was "could not catch your eyes" and "stand here helplessly hoping you get into me."
Which just makes me ask 'What did he actually try?' I end up envisioning Toothless in How to Train Your Dragon 2, dancing around like a lunatic and freaking out the of his affections. Let's hope it wasn't like that.
But honestly, it sounds like he really didn't try much. He admits that he's 'standing helplessly' rather than walking across the room and saying hello.
Which sounds a lot like complaints I've heard from guys before. "I don't know how to talk to women" and that's where it ends, rather than trying to solve that. I mean, there are classes, there are workshops, there is therapy, etc.
There are options. Why would someone not even try to fix the thing that keeps them from finding companionship if they are stating that they want it?
Passive is not a good look.
Or as has been said "faint heart ne'er won fair lady."
Unfortunately, the closer we look at the lyrics, the creepier it gets.
All this woman did was walk into a room. Suddenly, he's obsessed. He "can't think of nothing else." He says "Love the things you do" when so far, all she's done so far was exist in the same room. She's "driving him crazy," "thinking about how it's going to be" and he's "Gonna love her all over, over and over."
So he's not really thinking about getting to KNOW her. He's focused on this fantasy he has of who she is, and what he wants to do to her.
She's a beautiful woman.
But somehow, she's not really a person.
I mean, he's impressed by her, and he wants something from her. But not enough to make the effort to interact with her as human being.
So he's "helpless" and "driven crazy" and "captured" but is just standing around "hoping."
Worst part is that I really do like the song. Musically, and I like his voice, and the moody, kinda slow jazz feel to it.
Shame about the message.
I do get it - sometimes you see someone who just looks so cool it's hard to figure out how to approach so that they will be as impressed by you as you are by them. I was told that I'm intimidating... decades before I knew that Dominant was a thing. And the problem isn't that he thinks she's beautiful with "voodoo in the vibe."
It's that he's turning that into something SHE's doing - "driving him crazy," and turning his insecurity into "helpless."
And the entire thing is portrayed as flattering, and romantic, and a compliment to her.
Because isn't that what women are supposed to want? For men to desire them? For her beauty to give her power somehow? For her appearance to add to her value to men?
Because "The Male Gaze" is always supposed to be a woman's focus. And what a man feels when gazing is her responsibility. And anything a man might do because of that feeling when gazing at her is her fault.
And that is the message. In song after song.
"I saw you, I had a feeling, I have a want, I am thinking about you, I am having lots of thoughts about you, I'm having a fantacy about you, I'm deciding that the fantacy is a true representation of who you are, so now I'm building hopes, and I'm building expectations, and now I'm going to approach you , and you should share all my fantacies and fullfil the hopes and expecations rather than view me as some total stranger who's making weird sexual demands."
(We won't even START discussing murder ballads. That came up recently too...)
That is the message young guys get when they are first thinking about asking girls on a date. That this is how it happens. That this is normal. So when they do it, they are shocked and confused by the girl's reaction.
Then again, young girls get this too, so plenty of times when a guy is inappropriate, before they've learned to be afraid of guys and their reaction to rejection, they belive they are supposed to be flattered that a guy is paying attention to them. Even if she doesn't like him, having a guy want you is important, a measure of your value as a woman. So rather than seeing a red flag for later, more aggressive poor behavior, they see it through the lens of "romance." They feel pretty and special and don't recognize healthy behavior when they see it elsewhere because this is how it happens, and what is normal.
It's right up there with "he must like you if he punched you" in grade school turning into "he didnt mean it, you know he loves you" later when he beats her bloody later in life.
Hell, I literally had this just yesterday.
"Hello beautiful, I’ve always wanted to meet you , I love that hair , your so beautiful, I’m in (my town) until Jan 30th Love spoil you and finally get to actually meet you , I only been dreaming for years to do some sissy sessions with you "
Never read a single line of my profile in all those "years." So he literally only knows that I have a nice picture.
I point that out. (It's a thing for me...you may have noticed.)
He responds "I know I need proper training but I know you can teach me !"
Because of course, that would be my goal - to spend time and a lot of energy giving someone what they want when they couldn't spend 5 minutes reading my profile.
I point out that he STILL hasn't read it, or addressed my reply, and that it was kind of insulting.
He pushed on, though - "We can go get coffee or meet at a munch or anything your up for , I’m only here to next Sunday , but after we meet and greet , I know you would always enjoy my company"
Because obviously, women enjoy men who they feel have insulted them. Especially when it's the BDSM equivalent of a one night stand.
Yes, I blocked him. He obviously wasn't going to catch a clue, even when smacked with a clue-by-four, so there was no point letting him keep messaging me until he got nasty.
He told me I was beautiful, so it automatically followed in his mind that I would immediately want to be alone, up close and personal, providing him his desired gratification, in a session with him, a total stranger, on the first meeting.
And that his idea of "spoil" would be the same as mine. Or "proper training."
He belived knew me, what I'd want, what I enjoy from my company, etc, without having to read a word I wrote, because he'd looked at my picture and had a feeling and built a fantasy and then expecations.
And that who I was beyond my face (and hair) didn't matter.
Because I was not a person to him.
I was an object he desired... a fetish vending machine into which he felt he had put the appropriate coinage - a compliment on my looks. And he wasn't going to be desueded from that with reality or actual human interaction.
This is the world women live in. This is what "The Male Gaze" actually means. If we are attractive, we have value, but not humanity. If we are not attractive, we have no value, and are dehumanized.
You'd think men who want to be Dominated would behave at least slightly different, show at least surface respect to a Dominant Woman, but on average, they don't.
And yet, right now, in several groups, there are guys going on about how hard it is to find a Mistress, by guys with the same empty profiles and dick pic avatars and tons of 'do me' groups. The same complaints, the same confusion, the same helplessness and yet the same refusal to make the efforts that would make it possible for a Dominant Woman to want to interact with them.
They are standing helplessly... hoping... being driven crazy...
not understanding why we aren't "getting into" them. oh sissie's where to start. I will not allow a sissy to dress at MY house, they must arrive totally smooth, dressed and plugged. I have a room already set up for a sissy to stay in overnight or longer. if you are a sissy contacting ME, please introduce yourself with your sissy or femme name. a sissy is not a big boobed bimbp, maybe having budding breasts, large plump nipples. like a blossoming girl. a sissy should not have any stimulation to their penis, locked in a small chastity device is probably best. wearing a plug, not to stretch them out but train them to relax to allow the plug and other things to enter her loins and train her to grip onto it, toning her sissy pussy. FYI I already have a eoom set up for MY sissy with a bed, bondage table, cage and shelves of ropes, cuffs, collars, cuffs and toys. So its 2022 and I have been here a long while. Still no one claiming to be Dominant and willing to prove it has come my way in this time, will this be the year it happens, probably not. I think most people have given up on this site delivering them a submissive or slave that can fulfill their needs, as much as they fulfill theirs
Of course my needs are simple, I would like a Dominant man or couple, who want a relationship which can migrate from a one night stand, to many nights together, and days. But will it happen, I doubt it
I am fed up of having to be the assertive one, I am supposed to be asserted upon, Doms on here too afraid to approach someone because others have been such a let down, well, that concept is also felt by many subs and slaves who arrange to play with Dominants who aren't real.
So be assertive, sweep me off my feet, treat me with some respect, remember your goal is to want me to spend my time serving you, so if you come at me like a total moron, I'll treat you like one. before its asked or implied or suggested, no, i do not ignore my basic rules he knows i will not cause trouble or drama and i , do not go behind -MY R./T-bACK,lie to him, or disrespect him or shame my family in any way. Y'all only get this one warning and reminder and well, i have a really really button pushing finger that i do not want to be tempted into taking Last memo i promise. if ya are responding to me and i click open your mail and the first thing i see is a picture floating out of a close-up of your cock, you can pretty much accept your fate that you are instantly blocked and will not even exist on the same playing field as the others here regardless of their gender or energy level, or role identifier. so simple unforgettable notice for you... 1 dick pic+1 ignorance of my rules or warning = -alarm bells guard dogs, sharpshooters and everything else turn you into dust to be cleaned up and mixed into the sand never to be heard or seen of again. ---yes yes i know;...graphic and dramatic.. but pleads innocence since she is unsupervised currently with her other half in bed this fine dark night;I truly do look forward to any and all responses i might have to be honest.. you being there for me today just means the world to me as putting myself out there is terrifying for me in general. *can not help the impish excitement of how many right now pigging out will even read the whole note and the panic sets in. just as A team heads off for their camps.. in comes B team who makes the realization not much got accomplished and something had to have happened...? maybe?. Honor:
In days of old, when knights were bold,
Honor was their code, a story often told.
Chivalry and bravery, noble and true,
Their deeds inspired, in everything they'd do.
To uphold their word, to stand with pride,
Honor was their beacon, the light that could not hide.
In battles fierce and challenges grand,
Their honor shone bright throughout the land.
In modern times, the meaning still rings,
Honor is timeless, in all that it brings.
To act with integrity, to do what is right,
Honor is a virtue, a guiding light.
So let us strive, in all that we do,
To honor our word, and our values too.
For in honor lies strength and grace,
A timeless virtue, in every time and place I just had a so-called sub or slave, whatever he wants to call himself..... Tell me the reason he could not stay in contact with me is because of how much money he makes yearly, and how important his job is!
When I tell you that I want you to be in contact with me everyday even if it's just a simple hello, I don't think that's asking too much, but I am beginning to realize that there more fakes and flakes then there used to be!
WOW!!!! Nothing has really been right. Though realistic to know that can't provide. Hence would only really fit into relationships that are LTR resulting in ownership or some kind. Its like men who get married that stay home as the so called house husbands. Not really a person who likes to travel. Female Led Relationships are even in the Manga that will cover or gravitate towards. Around 2K thought things might work out with Miss Kriss. Though she lapsed into cocaine problem again causint schisms or issues. Really it was wanting to pierce or hang from hooks or things that don't really work with somebody having Anemia.
Finding somebody whose interests are realistic is probably best. Really the type of person who will gravitate towards whta the other person is into. Feet was something that noticed at an early age where would not be into Heels or Boots or Stockings in the least. Though as got older Shoes or Boots especially certain types could be interesting if somebody is into that. So can't really enjoy anything unless the other person is. Its like feed on that energy. Not into anything related to food or feeces hehe. Puking or Piercing among other things I probably listed in the profile.
Really don't think things will work out for me or most in life. Those who have wealth really are who should be owning people instead of finding somebody to provide. As its a clear difference in class or standing. Glad they least brought back journlas.
Wish LittleReaper would give me another chance to speak to again. Things were pretty complicated was having issues with medication reaction and phone ;). Femdom should be about finding joy and pleasure in a dynamic that suits you and your partner(s). Not about fixing a sub's sexism- not that it would work anyways.
Most people I've talked to say that their desire for femdom predates knowledge of femdom, or of sexual arousal. While some people may have a more concrete "I'm into femdom because of a specific reason" most people I interact with like it because they like it. Vanilla people don't have to have reasons to like vanilla sex. All relationships start somewhere. In the complicated connection made between individuals both come with some kind of internal evolution taking place. If both waited until that evolution totally complimented each other, I doubt many connections would be made.
Come as you are. Bring your desire. Feel it grow or not during the time I have allotted for trial. Feel your internal response to the experience of being totally owned. Then decide if you are free to give. Be assured, I am free to take.
Master James In my new found enthusiasm for the Journal function, I have taken the liberty of borrowing the following from Master Scoollink's site which struck me as very interesting. After training, He writes,
"slave will have the ability to prepare a "USERS MANUAL." A document that identifies what slave is good for. The goal of this document is to describe how to best interact with slave to achieve desired response. It is a manual that could be handed to a stranger to provide the tools to better provide any Dominant a satisfying experience with slave. The "Manual" can also serve as a foundation for a future Dominant.
I love the thought of preparing a document like that - not least because it would provide my current Master with an excellent diagnostic tool for the mind-set of His slave. It might be that the slave thought its utility was best described in one way whereas the Master's view was otherwise - in whcih case some retraining would be indicated to get slave reoriented in th eright direction.
LovesCanes and CropsGenital PunishmentHumiliationObedienceObjectificationOrgasm ControlOrgasm DenialHer Mind
To clear up some answers before you reach out.
I am a Bigger Person. I am around 290 in weight and have put a lot of energy, time, and effort into myself. I go to a nutritionist every other week, stick to my meds, and have no issue with my size.
If you are not into me at 290 (about 30 pounds lighter than earlier this year), then I will not be into YOU when I am lighter than 290.
I am biologically female, Assigned Female At Birth, and identify as non-binary.
I am no longer in a power dynamic.
I am looking for people interested in a non-traditional service submissive with particular specialties.
I have realized I am more of an alpha personality because if there is too much drama/ multiple alphas, I will back off and do my own thing. I am loyal as fuck but independent as well.
I am looking for Sadists who enjoy physical, emotional, and psychological play while being aware of their mental and physical health. I am aware of my mental health; I expect you to be mindful of yours.
I need to be a bimbo fucktoy. I need an dom/domme to obey and make me a sissy bimbo doll and would be willing to do almost anything in order to make it happen and be sealed in a latex doll suit and chastity forever if I need to. I am going insane with this need and its getting worse and worse as the time goes on and only getting more people who want to chat but don't want to lift a finger when I am ready. I will take anyone, but if my owner turned out to be Egyptian, Black, Asian, or not white it would be a major plus and my inferior sissy mind will be yours forever. So, after the crap over the weekend, and the years long crap with this site not working properly anymore, I have decided to stick with Fetlife only. Those who I have talked to, and still talk to, I have either given the option of Fetlife or some chat outside of this format. This site has not been the same, or worked properly since it was CollarMe. Sad to say. But, good luck to all who are trying to hang on to this obsolete dinosaur that the creator who got it in the divorce no longer cares for.
Fallenangel out! Ghosting sucks. Especially when I was really enjoying the conversation and then bam. Radio silence.
I respect your right to end contact at any time, for any or no reason at all. I won't guilt trip you. If I was really enjoying the conversation I might message you again asking if everything is okay. But essentially, if I send you a message and you don't reply, then I will assume you are going ghost and leave you to it
That doesn't mean I won't wonder what I said or did wrong that you couldn't let me know about. But I won't nag you about it.
Having said that, it's funny the things that I say that seem to change great conversationalists into ghosts. __Do I Want A Sub or Slave?__There are many definitions of what is a sub and what is a slave, not are wrong, it's just a matter of personal opinion. I state that I'm looking for a slave, but what to me is a slave?Slavery to me isn't about having a servant without question, a punching bag, or a doormat. Slavery is a state of mind. In my mind, a sub is someone who likes to submit, but ultimately, through limiting what they submit to retain ultimate control. A slave gives over that control. It does not mean they don't have opinion, in fact they should have opinion, and those opinions should be listened to, but the ultimate control should sit with the Master. A Slave can live without constant control, but knows that with a look, or a call, they will submit to the one they call Master. A slave and a Master should move forward together, there relationship should be a balance between BDSM and 'vanilla' life. Following a heavy session, a slave should be held close, talked to, cared for, as at all times. Heavy play doesn't just have to mean a heavy spanking, but more importantly after forcing a strong psychological response from the slave. In public, and at work, a slave should always be seen as a 'vanilla' member of society, but underneath always know what they are owned. Sometimes they may receive a call, or a txt, or an email, telling them to carry out a task. It could be as simple as going to the toilet and removing their underwear, or only drinking one sort of drink in particular, but it would remind them of there ownership. Having behind there eyes that pearl of knowledge that they were owned, cared for, and controlled. A slave should be held close, cared for, and always listened to. Slavery is not being told what to do, it is giving the final decision as to what to do to the Master your trust. Many think limits need to be set in tone, but to me, slavery is without limits, or at least truly defined ones, HOWEVER, the trust control given over to the Master by the slave, means that to go beyond the limits of the slave and then to keep going without taking there opinion into consideration, is a breakdown in that trust. While a slave allows a Master control, it does not mean the master has to use it all. It is the ability to truly understand the limitations of the slave, and not over extend them, that makes one a Master, not just a bully. Let us play the Let's Pretend game. (I love the Let's Pretend game!)
Let's pretend that the people typing these profiles and journals and adding pictures and stuff are REAL PEOPLE. Yup, that might be a bigger ask than is possible. But let's pretend that is the truth. It certainly must be for some of us, yes?
Let's further pretend that those who can be defined as real people have been on this site or the predecessor for a while. Some might have met someone and then UNmet that someone and are back. Some of those are people who come here lurking but never connecting. Let's even pretend that some people here are downright serious about all of this but are just having problems connecting with someone they feel is truly compatible.
At the end of the day, however, there is something that we cannot pretend about. Those of us who are, are real people, with real feelings, and real ambition to eventually find what we want so we don't have to be here any more. Please take some time to consider others. Show some respect. Don't make assumptions about who we are or why we are here. It can be hard enough without the background noise.
None of us are perfect, and we all have one or two or dozens of flaws. There is no pretending in the world that can make that not true. We also have preferences. Those preferences might very well exclude some these same people who are trying so hard to be right for SOMEONE. I cannot ask anyone to turn their back on their beliefs or their flaws or their preferences, but what I CAN ask is that we show some kindness, some human dignity. If anything from the past few years should have taught us is that not only are there trolls online, but many of them started being trolls in real life as well. People have learned how not to be their best selves.
Be kind. Be friendly. MAYBE pretend to think outside the box a little bit. MAYBE be a little more inclusive, or forgiving those flaws in others that seemed intolerable to you yesterday. Make someone happy.
I don't want to be the last one here. Do you? I believe some people need to be reeducated.
A female switch.
a female switch who is taking instruction from their dominant is and always shall be submissive, let's not kid ourselves, it is submission.
a male switch?
ha. Truly deluded. Once a man kneels, he is less, less than her, less that his male superiors, less than all that breath.
know the truth. Know your place and accept reality.
too harsh?? So is having to read inane spouting from something that has no choice, no rights, no place.
have a wonderful day.
xan Alaska is a beautiful Lady, she is a deadly bitch and She will kill you in a heartbeat. If you don't understand what I'm going to say about Alaska, ask and I will explain. What I'm looking for is life long commitment . What I expect. you will respond to My voice. you will let my voice control your mind. I will plant my words to trigger you. My triggers will cause your body to react as conditioned. I'm not hard core abusive but you will walk a fine line of constant excitement. Open your mind to me and I WILL put your pussy outside your body. It's so tempting maintaining control. Giving your will to another is scary. Planting myself in your mind and triggering you where and when I want, such a rewarding experience. You'll slowly surrender to my voice. You never know when you're going to submit. When the proverbial rug of sanity will disappear under your foot, just it will happen. My voice is stronger than you desire to disobey. When I speak, you wait expecting. Your body will tremble. Weather is getting cold here in Alaska. Almost time for subbies and slaves taken to the Mountains. Have your body stripped of warm clothing. Its so enjoyable to watch your face as your warm pussy is placed on a large rock at 40 below. Should I bring some ice cubes to help the spreading of cold slowly clawing its way into your pussy. Alaskan winters offer so much enjoyment. I hope to enjoy this winter, how about you? These are serious things to think about. I'm telling you now what your end results with me look like. Can you handle knowing what you will look like when I finish playing with your mind Can you live in that terror. Always expecting. Do I terrify you. Are you willing to give it all Excerpt from Training Journal:
I hesitated. Mistress ordered me to lick clean Her shoes. Only for a moment, but I did hesitate. I thought I saw dried mud on Her shoes that She had stepped in outside. Turns out it was chocolate. A test...and I failed. Mistress didn't say anything at the time, but after licking clean Her shoes, I saw the change in Her demeanor. I asked permission to speak, which She granted. I begged forgiveness. She very quietly explained that even licking mud off of Her shoes was a privilege. I felt so crestfallen and ashamed that I had failed Her.
Master's WritingsCategorizing Levels of SubmissionOthers, in an attempt to categorize submissives, have described submissives by the levels of their submission, moving from role play to slave, while others suggest there are distinct categories of submission, where the motivation behind one’s submission drives their role such as for fantasy, relationship and/or fetish. Acknowledging that all submissives are different and any such categories could only apply in the loosest of terms, I find both model instructive in its own way, yet somehow missing the mark in some aspaspaspects.The creators of both models clearly identified that each individual submissive is unique and comes to their submission and depth of submission in their own way for their own purpose. And to this, I completely agree. Yet we are humans and we live to label things, so I will offer my own model, recognizing full well that mine too will fall short of describing all submissives and their motivations. I would also note that what I suggest here may have already been put forth. If so, I offer this only as my own ideas without the knowledge of their contribution to our body of knowledge. Thus I would offer a third model for consideration and discussion.I see it more a kin to the structure of Maslow‘s hierarchy of needs, Where Maslow identifies our most basic needs, moving from basic survival to self-actualization, I see submissions moving from role play to self-realization. The model I put forth is as follows:
Role play. A connection to the role based on whatever preconceptions or second hand knowledge they may have. While one might act the part, they have no emotional or mental connection to the role
Exploration. The beginning stages of submissive awareness where thru trial and error or training, real experiences begin the development of a connection to a submissive’s awareness and one's submissive self. This level usually includes an over indulgence or over compensation of doing what they think a sub "should do".
Connection. The birth of inner connectedness to one’s submissive self, and the realization of what it feels like to give of one’s self to another. Hallmarked by a greater sense of self awareness, a growing identity as a submissive and a struggling to reconcile their submissive life with their vanilla life.
Identity and Belonging. The inner awareness and shift of self-identity as a submissive or having submissive side (as in a switch), as a genuine and acknowledged part of their persona. While they may not share this openly with others, inwardly there is a growing conviction that being a submissive is core to their being. While connection can occur at any stage, at this stage, connection to a Dominant becomes more essential to allow for further growth.
Confidence. As identity as a submissive grows and self-esteem relating to the role increases, their confidence of self grows. The focus can now be more inward to understand their submissive needs, who they are as a submissive, and the beginning of blending their submissive self into their vanilla life and identity.
Self-Realization and Connectedness to their Id. Full acceptance of their new identity, as submission is fully integrated into their sense of self. Submission can now fuel their lives and relationships with greater meaning and richer experiences as they fully integrate their submissive-self into their vanilla life. Not every submissive will reach or choose to reach this level.
I would welcome comments and ideas for the improvement of this model if others see value in it. hello I feel the need to write a post. I have been on here trying to seek someone to help me maybe come out of my shell. Yet I get messages from so called men or Doms on here that think that a woman should bow down to them. Act there kings when there not. Some one here can't act like slave Masters, well slavery days have been long gone. Some on here want to just act out storie, if I wanted that I would read a book, or wat h a movie. I have brains and a strong willed femal. I know what I want and don't want. I will not be talked to like I'm less then a woma. yes I came on here to meet someone to help me come out of my shell. Yes I stated I wanted to try anal play, I have never had anal but open to trying tha. No o don't want bruised or have my boobs tied up for what pain, or marks on my boobs no, do you want you dick tied up and bruised?? Well done might but still. Just maybe I'm on the wrong sit. uggg this is frustratin!!!!!!! Why I do NOT want My bags carried.
Those who know Me well, know I have gone on quite the health journey in the last 4 years. I understand much more than I once did. Due to this, I carry My own heavy cameras and camera bags, I will pick up purchases in the store that are heavy and not allow a male with Me to carry them for Me, and any attempt or offer to do so, is firmly rejected.
So, why do I do that? It is simple, staying healthy means picking up heavy things, pushing the body. Yes, I go to the gym and lift weights, use resistance machines, etc. But, I absolutely embrace when LIFE brings the chances to do so, without special time set aside, etc.
Grins, I will admit when the male is being looked at by others, as though he is not doing his job, I find his discomfort and embarassment, quite entertaining. One time, I was out photographing, with the same cameras you see on My profile, and another male chastised the male with Me, for not carrying My gear. I laughed and made it VERY clear, he was not allowed to do so, as it did not suit My purposes. Of course, it was MY decision!! I have not been writing much in this journal but hoping it might just perk someone's interest. I just moved back from Texas and now living in Northwest Indiana. About 20 minutes from downtown chicago and live in Schererville just across the Illinois border. I have been on this site for many years unsuccessfully and still hold out hope to finally achieve my goal of serving a strong, Dominant Woman. I can assure You am for real and today the first of Decmember once again spending another birthday allone. I am not evil, and have met some off the site which has not amounted to anything . I am on Fetlife under subndyer and started to branch to other sites. I still hold out hope on this site. Am a single submissive which can be molded into a slave who has been off and on in the lifestyle for about 20 years. I have no children , no wife , girlfriend, hell dont even have a dog. But can assure You my loyality, respect, obedience, and You happiness is first priority. If I perk Your interest please drop me a line would not disappoint Entranceways are funny things. It's easy to look at a door, and assume you know what lies behind it. But, just as it's never a good idea to judge a book by its cover, it's unwise to judge a place by its portal. Likewise, when we're going through a time of transition, we need to remember not to confuse the journey with the eventual destination. I am beginning a new phase of my life. Although ,it might feel a bit uncomfortable at the moment, i know I'm going in the right direction and will very much like where i end up. Owned an collared. Not Looking At All! Just Friends Please Respect For all the MAGA folks out there, something to consider -
If you are on here, even if you don't string any letters in your identity?
They will dump you in the same camp with all the pink triangles.
Make no mistake.
They want us ALL gone. And they absolutely will not hesitate to supena the membership records on all of these pages and groups to get names.
As Carlin said- they're all in one big club, and you aren't a member. I was up in the Seattle area recently, and although Seattle has many more opportunities to engage in kink, being there once again gave me a newfound appreciation for Ashland (where I currently reside, not the coast as noted in my profile). I mean, most of the gay and bi-sexual men in the area are married to women and refer to themselves as "heteroflexible," even though they engage in actual sex with men, but that's their closet, not mine. Nor do I have to submit to being their, as Blondie puts it, "Sugar on the Side." I wrote in my profile that I would respond to all messages promptly, but I received over 30 messages in the first couple of hours my profile was active, that is now over 50 messages. I am sorry, but I don’t have the time to reply every message, for now at least.
I am sorry, but I will only be able to reply to messages that arouse my interest. The number of messages I get will obviously decline quickly and give me more time to reply.
Thank you to everyone who has contacted me.
Brunette Submissive And yet another lovely entry on another lovely day...
I never thought that a pretty blue dress could look so good… Watching the sweat bead up on your back, you become a slippery mess that requires extra sturdiness. With the hem of your pretty dress bunched up into my palms, I let the lubed glass piece that is strapped around my body slide into you. Gripping the fabric tighter, securing my stance due to the hold your walls have on my glass, I slip in so slowly I can feel the vibration of the whimpering. Letting one side of your dress fall, my fingers dig into the fold of your hip, guiding the glass in and out as slowly as ticks sound behind us. Every time the clock ticks, another inch finds it way deeper, until I’m buried in your hole. Then every time the clock ticks while the glass has vanished in you, an inch is taken away.
Listening to the pleads of being used, I watch you salivate with fire behind those dark hues. You’re fighting the need to slide back into me, knowing that it will result in a sexless rest of the week. The fight that you are having with yourself is enough distraction you’ve caused yourself. Releasing your skin, my fingers find that sweet spot of your lovely area - freshly hairless. Rubbing you into a slobberfest, the glass slides into you again, quicker this time. The time clicks away, my fingers that hold your oh so pretty dress grip your hair as well, turning your head sideways to watch me fuck you. I see the begging in your eyes, the unvoiced pleads of need for fireworks.
Just as I feel you squeeze my piece, damn near in place, my fingers find the front of you again, gently sending you over the edge with kisses down your spine. I hold you in place against me - stabilizing you until you’ve come down. The murmurs of how well you did for me, letting you squirm and twitch with your happy ending.
But should I keep going? Continuing to please you until you just don’t have it in you to continue? NO male doms = In case folks on here have forgotten I am solely interested in Slaves and Submissives so only reply to that demographic. Club Pedestal , Cruel Huntress Hunt and Club o&I in Kent are the three fetish venues I talk to Dominant Women as well. The Mawney munch I talk to everyone with good manners who are pleasant to laugh with for the evening.
All Goals Done = I have had a week where I planned to ease up my workload. Key pieces are now complete so I will take my week end a little slower.
SERVICE SUBS = Today is cooler so I may think about opening up applications for service subs to cut my lawn - though a first few meets at the Mawney are key prior to me accepting that person. I met someone recently who was so different than any experience here to date. I felt seen. It's truly a scary thing, when you hide between what you put to paper and what you keep to yourself. You don't really think anyone will notice, but you sort of hope someone does, but maybe from a safe distance. He noticed. He read everything I ever wrote here, told me his thoughts and speculations, shared some of his writing. He got goofy with me. It was just about the best everything someone could do in my book. He shared vulnerabilities with me, too. I felt valued. I felt comfortable. It made me want to be brave, at least a little. But things can change quickly. I don't know if he took it for more than it was or if something else happened, but he's gone. Maybe I said the wrong thing. Maybe he was moody. Whatever it was, we were not in sync that day. Part of me feels like one not-so-great conversation shouldn't outweigh the rest, especially in the beginning. The other part remembers that what is meant to be will always find me. He was pretty wonderful. Maybe he will find me again, and maybe we will hold patience for each other enough to find out. Maybe someone else is waiting around the proverbial corner. There is never a shortage of men. But good men, those are harder to come by. I needed some time after the liar. I think I'm ready again. I remember the last time I was asked if I would participate in a threesome.
I enthusiastically exclaimed, Yes! After which I followed, that I found it extremely heady to consider more than one man paying Me attention at the same time.
For some reason, he didn't understand the appeal. lol
Last night was tuned into KPR Retro Cocktail hour, a 2 hour program focused on post WW2 Popular Exotica, Islands, and really the worldwide impact of various musics in diverse cultures that the WW2 Soldiers were in contact with throughout the world and when returned Popular Music, Lounge (Clubbing today) Music and on the radio reflected their experiences with Hawaiian & other south Pacific influences, as well as, Latino Jazz or even Africa influence. Exotica, Space Age Bachelor Pad Musics and the list is endless. Actually lots of fun though the music a bit uneven in quality over all fun stuff. Been in correspondence with a few Sub's giving me some hopefulness that something real may in time develop between myself and one of them or another eventually. All Night Jazz followed, and had a couple of Rum & Dew cocktails while listening to some first rate jazz ensembles of this generation and going back to the old masters. Turned in, and realized mild depression of the other day has lifted. This morning woke up feeling a bit optimistic and feeling good about, if not already met, still meeting on this site a prospective submissive that will be a good fit for me and for her. Listening to some Baroque Music in background and since house work need be done and I'm the only one here might actually sweep up some if not all of the basement floor today. Plus do some organizing. Mostly was organized tool shop area, Landscape materials and gear in another area, Holiday decorations for inside & outside of house and other types of stuff stored in specific areas on basement shelves. Due, to having installed decorative gravel around the house and constructing a back patio, front yard twin garden plots and other such landscaping a lot of that stuff is on the floor off their shelf space and need to put all that stuff away as well as tools such as hammers, scrapers screwdriver, pliers, drill etc back into their proper locations within their specific areas. Would be pleasant must admit, now this morning, having a submissive wife doing this along side me, after having coffee together and myself taking a break to watch her busy and cleaning and ordering these matters as directed by myself. Do need to resume composing the set of Short String Quartets stopped work on a year ago, finished the first 60 but the total set will take another 10 to 12 weeks to finish, a total of 1,095. 1 for every day of the Pandemic over a 3 year period. However sweeping the basement also needs doing too.
Four Steps... A recent miscommunication has inspired me to write on the STEPS towards D/s service and/or "D/s dating", as I see it.
1. We text to see if we want to talk.
2. We talk to tell if we want to meet. Note: I prefer local gents because it helps keep this step simple, without significant investment (time, emotional, financial). However, each step has flexibility for individual situations.
3. We meet to find out if we are drawn to each other and want to spend time together, both vanilla and D/s time.
4. Once dating, we would enjoy each other while we find our mutual understanding. Do we want monthly "dates", something more or something less? All these things unfold ONE STEP at a time, with good communication and each person making the right choice for themselves. (See my journal entry "The Depths of the Garage")
I understand that the submissive thrall might cause you to want to give yourself totally. Your mind might race ahead to total ownership. YOU must manage your own urges. I hope you learn to enjoy submission for an afternoon or a weekend. That is D/s dating as I define it.
NOTE: Weeks into my widowhood, I am interested in "D/s dating". It is simply not the right time for me to even consider ANY long term relationship. At a different time I will feel a different way. I look forward to it. A trip to the vending machine
I'd like to share this little experience I recently had the honor of partaking in with a willing local masochist friend. If she happens to read this and recognize herself in the story, knowing her, she would love the extra humiliation :)
We were spending some time in a hotel room together when I informed my friend that I have an exciting and cruel ordeal planned for her today.
First I ordered her on all 4 on the floor at my feet and removed her butt plug before placing it in her mouth. Next a hose and with a funnel was placed in her ass and I emptied my full bladder completely in her rectum. This warm piss enema was plugged with an inflatable plug and her ass inflated. Next I ordered her to stand and clamped her nipples painfully, finally a humming dildo slid into her pussy which was already dripping wet. I began to dress her slowly, soaking up her discomfort as the bra went over her clamped nipples and the jeans zipped up in place over the dildo and butt plug. Her eyes never left me the whole time, the butt plug still in her mouth where I had left it, I saw her pupils widening as I finally began to apply the face mask over her mouth and nose and it dawned on her that not only is she leaving the hotel room retaining a piss enema, double plugged and clamped, but she'll also be sucking on her used butt plug the whole time.
"Here are your instructions, fucktoy, now that you're properly outfitted for a walk. I am thirsty and I would like a soda from the vending machine. The bad news I have for you is that there aren't any on this floor, so be a good girl and walk up the stairs, grab me a coke and yourself a drink, then hurry back-here is my card. I don't want you using the elevator, only stairs, and when you are back kneel at the door, knock and wait to be let in" She nods quickly in the affirmative as she begins to shuffle towards the door trying to reconcile the various sources of ovetstimulation.
I watch her with excitement as she disappears slowly down the hallway towards the stairs, each step full of anguish for my sadistic pleasure. When she returns and I see her waiting for me obediently kneeling at the hotel door, a huge smile spreads across my face as I step aside holding the door for her to crawl in with our sodas.
I lean forward and pick her up in my arms, whispering "good girl", as I set her on the bed, pulled her jeans down and placed my tongue directly on her twitching clit, licking and sucking until she exploded under me. First meet with the potential slave went well. I took her to a steak place to see how she would do in such an environment with me. She did well but that isn't really a big surprise considering her corporate career. We talked at length about what her enslavement would look like. I began to feel that old tingle I get when I speak to someone who actually *gets it*. Someone who understands that this lifestyle is more then looking pretty in a cage or on a cross. Someone that wants the structure and discipline I'm offering. Of course we have much to discuss and a collar offer will take time. But I know that I am speaking to an authentic slave and my time won't be wasted. Submission Without a Name
If someone asks me how, as a little, I can be so submissive… so devoted…I’ll tell them this:
I’ve been devoted to my Daddy for 19 years—without a name, a face, or a single word of recognition.Through dangerous seasons, through heartbreak, through loneliness that cracked my chest open,I’ve held onto the quiet knowing that he exists. That he’s real. That he’s out there,becoming the man who can claim me.
I’ve never stopped looking. I’ve never shut the door.Even when my heart was heavy. Even when the world told me to give up.My devotion didn’t begin when I met him—it began when I realized what I was born to give.
That’s the depth I bring to this lifestyle. That’s the weight of my submission.Not play. Not a phase. Not a game.A spiritual path. A sacred promise. A longing that became a practice.
So when he finally arrives, I’ll already be ready.Because I’ve been his for years—long before he ever knew I existed. Seduced by the similarities, but buggered by the differences
This was a phrase I coined while leading a business initiative for an Australian company trying to bring their product into the UK. It ended up being one of the most stressful chapters of my career.
At first glance, everything looked aligned:
The same (or at least similar) language
A shared business need
Comparable economic environments
And so on
But as we got deeper into the work, the differences began to surface:
Cultural and attitudinal mismatches between the people involved
Regulatory goals that didn’t quite line up
Different interpretations of seemingly simple terms like “independent”
Very different ways of handling conflict
And more little surprises
The stress built, and eventually the whole thing collapsed—not with a dramatic bang, but with the slow, weary “death by a thousand cuts” that happens when one key player refuses to acknowledge problems that have become impossible to ignore.
Why bring this up here? Because there’s a striking parallel in the world of trying to find a compatible partner in BDSM. It’s incredibly easy to see a profile—someone calling themselves a submissive or a slave, someone listing their likes and dislikes—and think, “Ah, promising match!” We assume we know what they mean. We assume they know what they mean. But that’s not always the case. Something that feels wonderful at the start can hit speed bumps quickly as tiny cracks appear and widen. Tension rises, misunderstandings multiply, and… well, you can guess the rest.
Finding a truly compatible, sustainable partner can feel a bit like throwing a dart blindfolded from 100 yards away and hoping to hit the bullseye.
And yet, we’re all still here trying. So on some level, we must believe the effort is worth it.
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The me in the cage pic was taken at a all dungeon play space that I have been frequenting lately, I go back again next month. The pic was taken by my Cuddle Buddy (yes it's a thing, and I'm blessed to meet and cuddle with someone who actually gets it, as many do not) seeing as he was sweet to accompany me that day and I was giving him a tour and decided to ask him to a pic of me inside. Smiles
That pic was taken on St. Patrick's Day of this year 2024 hence my wearing green. Lol
I didn't play that day due to my designated play partner not attending (due a prior engagement) so I and my Cuddle Buddy just socialized, ate on some provided snacks and beverages and quietly observed scenes that were happening around us and of course we cuddled up on a nearby sofa.
He isn't a Kinkster but he is comfortable knowing that I am and doesn't mind attending kink parties with me if ask him too. He's a great a cuddler and a good friend.
Smiles and hugs,
Katota Yoinks ago I was exchanging DMs online with a local guy who was into chastity, but who asked me if I had a chastity device to lock him in. I've spent enough time on chastity forums to know not to buy some random one without doing measurements, so ... NO.
It recently occurred to me that Oxballs makes fairly imposing cock-rings, so I did some research and found that they also make "full cover chastity" in silicone. So now I have a stand-by chastity device for early play.
And it's hot pink! YAY! I had some lovely intro messages today, was nice to be introduced to the civil side of this site.
I did notice in the wave of change one message that is still behind the times.
Instead of introducing, or building rapport they offered a time stamped plan which included several hours of satisfying their one-sided fantasy.
The itemised itinerary marked 4pm you do this to me 5pm you do this to me 8pm you do this to me.
I do 6 hrs of unpaid overtime a week to help members of the public and now you want me in my 1 day off on my weekend to spend hours milking your fantasy. In the great words of Elton John will you F-off.
C
3/21/26 Happy Spring........................
I have been reflecting lately on the people I have met within this community. I deeply respect the honesty this lifestyle can bring when it is genuine, but with time comes the clarity to recognize the difference between surface-level energy and meaningful connection.
For me, this has never been solely about the physical. It is about presence, trust, and an energy that transcends the moment. When you truly understand your desires, you stop trying to fit where you do not belong and stop reshaping yourself for acceptance. Once you experience an authentic connection where you can show up fully, you realize you can no longer settle for anything less.
I am grateful for the experiences and the people who have shaped my perspective. I feel more grounded now in what I will and will not accept moving forward. Real connection is rare, and I have decided to no longer entertain anything that doesn't meet that standard.
For a long time, I was simply pushing forward, always waiting for "someday." Lately, however, I have been sitting with a different truth. While I do not have a perfect life, I am envisioning a version of life that is perfect for me. We all have things that need to be healed or figured out, and many of us feel like we don't quite fit the ordinary mold. We think differently and require different ways of being seen—yearning for the specific types of love and service that only those within this community truly understand.
There is something honest about that realization. It is about recognizing that even in the middle of life's messy moments, there are still people worth meeting and experiences worth having. You don't have to be perfect to find what is perfect for you.
Take the risk of being volunerable, take the risk of being seen or even hurt..... We have less years in front of us then we do behind us.. Risk the chance before you regret it..
Hugs, bumps and grinds my naughty kinsters........ xox
slave rules
slave must only use the 3rd person to refer to itself
slave must confess that is is just an or garbage
slave must always be honest
slave may not have dignity or respect of any kind
slave must show total respect for Master or any humans
slave may not speak without permission
slave make not look at its Master without permission or look at other humans
slave is always wrong if its Master or another human tells it so
slave may not use a human name
slave must always accept punishment, abuse, or a beating if it pleases its Owner Master
slave may only live if it pleases her Owner Master
slave must never close its legs, they always must be apart
its holes must be available to its Master any time or any place
it must use every part of its body to please Master
slave must always be nude when it pleases its Masters
slave must be chained or tie up any time it pleases Master
slave must dress any way its Master orders it to dress
slave may never talk back or say "NO" to her Master
slave must always speak in a low sweet voice
slave may never own anything
slave may never use big words or else it must be punished
slave Master has complete control of how it moves: walk, crawl, speak, breaths, kneel, etc
slave must worship its Master’s cock and all of his body
slaves Master pleasure matters, its pleaser means nothing
slave must never edge its self without permission or take any sexual pleasure without permission
slave dignity or feelings are worthless
slave must not sit or use human furniture unless it is given permission
slave must ask to enter or leave a room
slave must ask to poo or pee
slave must whip, cane, or abuse its body when ordered to
slave must drink piss, cum, spit when it is ordered to
slave may not remove spit, cum, or piss from its body unless it is ordered to
slave must not sleep unless order to
slave must use degrading names when it refers to its self, for example: piss pot, cunt, inferior human, cum bucket, ugly, pig, whore, sick o, tits, ass hole, cunt hole, slave, fuck toy,
slave may never speak to another human without permission
slave must thank Master for using it, for allowing it to cum
slave must clean off Master's great cock after he is done using it
slave must perform any sexual act that it is ordered to do, no matter how degrading, painful or humiliating
slave must write down every single thought is has for its Owner Master's review
slave must sleep on the floor, or in its cage, cell when it is not serving its Master
slave must eat on the floor and its food must be cold with little taste unless it is given permission to eat people's food. its hands must always be behind its back
slave must now beg for anything it needs, food, water, etc, it must beg to be punished, abuse, beaten also
***slave may be punished or abuse or beaten because it deserves it because it is inferior, stupid, weak, and worthless cunt
***slave must repeat its rules over and over every day
BDSM:
It’s beyond chemistry, multiple psychological needs draw people into BDSM. Power exchange and Control includes:
For Dominants
. Deep satisfaction of being trusted with Ownership and control.
. Creative expression in directing and controlling scene's and expectations.
. Nurturing through structure and care
. A fulfilling responsibility taken seriously with the ability to develop and evolve.
For submissive's:
. Relieved from constant decision making through surrender.
. Freedom in surrender
. Driven to be completely focused on by another.
The most potent sex organ is the mind.
Control the mind and the body will follow.
Making the ordinary and mundane the most extraordinary
The Democratic Dom: While it might sound like an oxymoron this Dominant is one who controls by agreement. Limitations, conditions, safe words, and times & places are all agreed upon beforehand and strictly adhered to. Discussions between the Dom and sub are the norm and written contracts are not unheard of.
Punishment is both a training tool and very often a reward. It is dispensed by the Dom to achieve or reinforce a certain behavior in his sub and at the same time as a pleasurable (sexual) stimulation for the sub. While both punishment and reward may be two distinct areas in the relationship, many times the lines .
Submissives who are attracted to these situations are those who want the same agreed condition and especially the limitations. They can be called feisty, bad little girls, spoiled, hard to tame, because they like to challenge the limits and/or rules. Or because they have certain fears.
This can be a game area where fun supersedes the Dominant/submissive operative. The Dominant and submissive like the actual and varied activities and enjoy each other when participating in them. In many cases the submissive does not actually want to surrender but likes playing as if she does.
These relationships seem to be less long term, as this is the area where “thrill seekers” usually reside. Many like this type of situation since it is a convenient and safe way to play with D/s. It is fun and it makes it easy to feel like they are indeed practicing D/s. These same people while enjoying D/s related scenes are not as into the emotional side of dominance and submission as are others.
On the other hand this type also serves a very good purpose, acting as a safe passage into other variations of D/s, or for learning, especially among those who are doing this for the first time with someone new, or they are trying it for the first time ever. After some experience is gained in D/s activities these people begin to learn the “rules of the road”, so to speak. Sometimes leading to a more intimate and stronger D/s relationship.
Deep Space:
In the vast expanse where stars do gleam,
A cosmic dance, a mesmerizing dream.
Planets and moons in orbits twirl,
Amidst the void, a cosmic swirl.
Nebulas swirl in vibrant hue,
Galaxies stretch in endless view.
Black holes lurking, mysterious and deep,
A celestial wonder, secrets to keep.
In this realm of infinite grace,
Mysteries abound in deep space.
Exploring the cosmos, we seek to find,
The wonders that expand the mind.
So let us gaze at the stars above,
And ponder the mysteries we still haven't solved.
For in the depths of space so grand,
Lies the beauty of the unknown, waiting to be fanned. For those who ask me this is the sort of Domination I enjoy and practice. from www.cyberbazzar.com waay back in the day!
The Equalitarian Dom: Is one who controls by teaching, mentoring, and leading. This Dominant knows that when he finds a comparable submissive that things will happen as a natural progression of the interaction. Usually just a short learning phase is required to receive the correct response from the submissive. Both the Dom and the sub “get it”, there is very little need for so called “training” and they naturally know what the other needs and seeks.
The Dominant does not like the situation of constantly repeating and forcing a particular behavior (submission) to occur. Besides the activities (sexual and others) it is the surrender as a result of the Domination that is the enjoyment. Creativity is an important part of this situation. They tend to intellectualize and be more into the philosophical and psychological mechanisms of this life style. They understand the concepts and resultant interactions and can put it into real life. They do not need many rules like the Democratic type, nor do they like the heavy S&M activities of the Authoritarian, preferring submission to occur as a result of an instilled desire in the submissive to surrender. She “wants” to submit as a result of the Dominant’s knowledge and skill in dominating her.
Sensuousness is the rule. Pain is given and received as a form of sensuous stimulation. Light pain as opposed to severe. Sensuous torture is a popular activity in this area. Both the Dominant and the submissive must naturally be this way. These are the people who will claim to be “born that way”. They fully understand the concept of D/s, it comes to them naturally and easily. They attract a submissive that truly and naturally desires to please and who will observe and sense what it is that the Dominant is communicating;
and be able to translate that into the right thing to do. The “doing or saying without having to be told” type. The submissive begs easily and surrenders sweetly. They understand the concept of respect and surrender and can make it happen after initial learning with little or no additional instructions. They embrace the surrender gratefully and lovingly.
These individuals usually form very intimate relationships. There is not much downside to these relationships, because they not only gr the concepts, but can make it happen as well, and their attraction is based on a strong mutual respect. Their strong relationship is not readily apparent to the unobservant, but they are always subtly in the 24/7 mode. The fact that these things come forth naturally and without the need for orders is a great source of pride, satisfaction, and loving. They are the opposite side of the coin from the Authoritarian. Whose pride, satisfaction, and love come from strictness and forbearance. Roe v Wade
This has nothing to do with babies. If it was about babies, we'd have free healthcare. If it was about babies, you wouldn't have to pay to give birth. If it was about babies, we'd have months of paid leave. If it was about human babies, we wouldn't force mothers to have to choose to keep their job, or put their baby in daycare AT 6 WEEKS. It's ILLEGAL to take nursing kittens and puppy's from their mothers before 8 weeks. Why don't I have the same rights?
This has NOTHING to do with babies. And EVERYTHING to do with suppressing a Woman's RIGHT to autonomy over her own body. Coming to, you blink trying to get a grasp on your surroundings. Your vision is obstructed and when you blink, all you see is darkness. Moving your head, you feel that your head is placed on a softness that can easily be identified as a pillow. Panic alerts the hair on your arms and your heart starts to race. You try to reach for whatever fabric is covering your eyes, just for your arms to not move when instructed. Jerking again, you realize that your arms have been tied together and stretched out just enough for you to be safely propped up on them. Tugging roughly, you can hear the rope slide across the metal of a bed frame. Frantically struggling again, you try to kick your feet, also strapped down and you realize you cannot move them apart or lay down. Your ass is in the air and just as a breeze kisses the skin of your ass, you realize how quiet it is. You haven’t heard a single movement that you didn’t create.
You thank your lucky stars that has blessed you with the chance to escape.
With the knowledge of your bare asshole in the air and unprotected, your arms bound and inescapable, you test your feet again. There is a bar extender that has your feet cuffed and spread perfectly. If you extend your toes just enough, you can feel the edge of a footboard. Sweat is beading at your hairline now, but for some reason, you’re starting to grow. Cold metal wraps around your cock like your hand does every Friday and your nuts are sent to your stomach.
You can’t believe it… Chastity.
You’ve been bound, blindfolded, spread open and locked up. Adrenaline spikes your blood flow and you rack your brain with the best possible way to escape before the inevitable. Fighting against the rope and trying to free your hands, you’re panting, trying your hardest to not make noise. But how can you be quiet when trying to escape?
You feel the breath on your ear before you hear her.
Hmm, yeah! Well...I forgot while in the hospital getting my foot amputated I lost one of my storages. Unfortunately in that unit was ŕt other things 😕 my toy boxes with all my gear... so I guess it is time to start collecting new gear. So if you know where to get quality gear at low prices, please let me know.
Also currently looking for a new place preferably in Orange county... He drops his head to his chest, but then slowly nods.
"Thank you for your honesty, baby."
I continue to explain how, just because of the pandemic I had not deviated from my desire of finding someone else and that now that people are comfortable meeting again, I would resume my search. He kept looking at the floor between his legs and I had to keep telling him to look me in the eye. This was the moment I had been holding back on for too long. I could feel my anticipation building in my chest, bursting to be heard. It took all of my strength to stop me from just ting out what I wanted to say, but I understood the gravity of what we were discussing and knew that was not the way to go about it. A good Dominant wants her submissive to be on the same page as her, not only willing to have his limits pushed, but wanting it. I find the psychology involved in convincing M that this is what he wants, intoxicating. It is what I consider the true essence of behavior modification.
I compose myself and everything starts to flow out naturally, I feel my power. This is the moment of truth. M and I have discussed cuckolding quite a bit and he is granted sex very infrequently and has learned not to even ask, but this is the first time I am going to extiguish any hope he may have of it happening again. I know this is a big deal. I explain in a very sweet and delicate tone how I love him dearly with all my heart, but that he would never have sex with me in the traditional sense again, ever. He stares up at me unblinking. I repeat it so that it would sink in, "M, we have arrived at this point, please understand that you will never, ever have sex with me again." He looks heartbroken, I want to scoop him up and hold him, but I must continue. I tell him how I know he could never satisfy me and in a way, I didn't want him to. I tell him what he already knows, which is that I have been driving this lifestyle because this is what I want. I tell him that there may have been a time when I saw him as a toy to be used sexually, but I just can't even picture that anymore. I tell him how I have always loved the dynamic we have and especially now more than at any other time in the past.
"M, this has always been my goal, you must have always known that." he nods with sad eyes.
I love the control, I love completely owning him in a mothering sense, I love his submission and most of all his helpless obedience and emasculation. I tell him he could never go back, that this was how I want him and how I love him. I can see my words sinking in as he stares at me. The shield of his pacifier gag is rather big and I can't tell if I see anger, fear, or acceptance in his face as he sits there quietly. I continue.
"I love you M...but we committed to this lifestyle a long time ago TOGETHER and I just cannot keep indulging you sex when I get nothing out of it. Indulging you in such a way is not good for your headspace and I know you know that. I’m in need of the feelings that I used to get from men who were not my little boy. Yes, our dynamic has me almost constantly aroused...the power ugh..., but masturbation no longer satisfies me and the idea of having sex with what we've helped you become just ruins my powerful headspace."
He looks very sad and is pleading with his eyes, but at the same time I can see he is rocking on his butt slightly fidgeting (he thinks he's being discreet but the crinkle of his diaper is unmistakable). He rocks in his diaper like that when he is aroused and trying to get some feeling to his chaste bits; it's his “poker tell.” This rocking is the final indication I need that I am making the right decision. I stand up, get very close to his side and have him hug my leg while I rub the top of his head.
I tell him that I can tell by his rocking that he must accept everything I'm saying and that a verbal response wasn't needed. He looked up at me suddenly, still rocking and holding my legs, with big eyes, pleading eyes.
I smile, "accept it baby, it will be easier, you don't even need to speak. Just nod your head and show me you accept what I've said."
Still looking at me, he closed his eyes and drops his chin to his chest.
With a little more force I say, "M, open your eyes, look at me and nod your head." I am a feminist, not a misandrist. I don't hate men, they just prove to be misogynistic or just plain emotionally dumb most of the time. I didn't say ALL MEN before someone messages me with some violent diatribe about how I need to be put in my place for thinking all men are like that. I am a human being first before anything else. If you cannot treat me as such then I will not treat you as such. It's very simple. You get the energy you give with me. That's why compatibility is so absolutely 💯 vital and should never be overlooked or diminished. Anyone who tries to convince you otherwise is a predator plain and simple. Do better, be better, or block me. Read the next passage for more about who and what I am in this lifestyle. When I say I want local people to serve, I mean it. If you write to Me and don't meet My requirements, I do not OWE you a response. My profile clearly states what I want, and ANYTHING other than that goes in the trash can. I get stood up, and I do not expect a WHY. I get ghosted, and rather than be some stalker, I never write them again. It is easy to move on if YOU want to move on!
Wow, talk about a powerful dream.
I was cuffed with my hands behind my back, hands upwards (which is not something I can normally do and is uncomfortable for me) and cuffs on my ankles. I think there was some additional metal hardware on me. I couldn't move much. And my domme was putting some sort of "fur suit" over me (though I'm not into furry play at all) to prepare me for a trip to the local dungeon.)
In the dream I was so turned on, I was nearly bursting out of my cage and ready to orgasm, but of course knew I'd be in trouble. Then I woke up. BOOM!
Dignity and Grace for our aging Elders in the new term, over corporate greed and SELF INTERESTED narcissistic dictating fascists!
I am an Independent and have voted equally for Republicans and Democrates.
In My lifetime, I have never voted for a liar or a thief or a convicted felon or an insurrectionist.
Team work makes the dream work.
No one ever lost because they helped another. ~ Leave the sorting to God and get busy helping your fellow man.
I know WHAT I am voting for and who I shall surround Me. Are you part of the problem or part of the solution? hooray! My edited profile has been accepted! I didn't see email announcing this, I simply logged today and noticed.
So, the forum is gone. That's too bad: I never got the hang of random chat, and preferred the forums for structured communication with random people around the world.
I'm re-learning the system. When viewing folks who've viewed me, I'm uncertain if there's a way to check someone's location on the mobile app without clicking on their profile: I know that I can do it if they have a photo, but I don't think a phone app has a "mouse over"-type feature as the regular website does.
I really wish that email would filter for distance the way that member searches do. If I'm not looking for folks over a certain number of miles away from me, why would I want mail from them to show up anywhere other than my Bulk mailbox?
Still, with the rumors I've been reading elsewhere about how long it was taking for profiles to get approved, I'm surprised that my account got reinstated so quickly.I took a break from CollarSpace in 2019. If nothing else, this site was good for the occasional coffee date: more likely than not, the person would actually show up. I'm uncertain if things will change, but I'm curious to give it another go. In a perfect world, He would be someone who might not have even thought about a non-cis "gurl", but He would definitely be tired of all the headaches He has experienced dating real women.
From periods to mood swings to "not being in the mood" or taking 50% of their life when they left...whatever it is. Hoping He would want a fresh start with someone who WANTS to be sexy in dress and actions, someone who wants Him inside her all the time, someone who wants to papmper HIM, feed Him, care for Him.
But, there is His "other" side too...and it needs to be fed and nourished. So "she" would be His blank canvas for whatever kink He wanted to try, now and down the road as the years pass.
All the time, progressing more and more into a female form and making Him never regret His decision.
Tonight
Im sitting here typing remembering the past.This used to be my main life.It was not on fetlife but another bdsm site. Hours turned into years as I sat and waited for my first Master. . It was more than online but He kept me online . I was trained to wait. He was a Dragon.There have been other Dragons. They seem to find me or me find them. I rarely drink but I'm drinking and I'm in a mood but Im not drunk. I need to back up and say at least they name themselves Dragon. I have my own ideas of what Dragons really are. Im not being disrespectful. I just need to get things out before I explode.
One is hardly ever here online. One does write and I want to write back and say more but I just cant. Im just going through so much stuff. I start therapy tomorrow. Yay * sarcastic tone* a vanilla therapist trying to help me with relationships etc when I know that they will have no fucking idea what bdsm really is.
I have knot been here in forever just dropped in to see if there was anybody hogtied and gagged waiting for me here. Nope empty sighss. I am still addicted to bound and gagged sweatergirls and miss the "Damsels in Distress" that are hidden just around the bend. Been so long since I saw anybody gagged for me that i would more than likely jump out of my chair and yell if anyone send me a pic of them elfs gagged wearing a sweater!! But I can always hope. Any "Damsels" out there need hogtying err I mean rescuing let me know. "When there is trouble I am KNOT slow I hogtie the tight and away I go!! The Yearning for Grounding: Finding Purpose in a Dominant Dynamic..
We all possess hidden desires, yearnings that often simmer beneath the surface of our carefully constructed personas. One such yearning, perhaps more common than we readily admit, is the desire to be truly seen, and subsequently, guided, challenged, and even, in a sense, controlled. This isn't necessarily about literal ownership, but rather a deep craving for structure, direction, and the secure boundaries offered by a strong, assertive presence.The idea of being objectified, used for amusement, might sound unsettling at first glance. But on deeper reflection, it can be interpreted as a desire to be a source of light and joy for someone else. To be valued, appreciated, even celebrated for what you bring to their life, even if that role is perceived as subservient. This isn't about self-degradation, but rather about finding fulfillment in serving a purpose, in bringing happiness to another.The reality of a superior mentor, a "Guiding Lady" as it were, nurturing and shaping your path, speaks to a fundamental human need for guidance and direction. In a world often characterized by ambiguity and overwhelming choices, the prospect of surrendering to a trusted individual who can provide clarity and purpose can be incredibly appealing. It's a desire to be molded, refined, and ultimately, helped to reach one's full potential. Finding such a person provides a safe haven, a space where vulnerability is not a weakness, but an opportunity for growth.The cornerstone of any such dynamic is trust. It's not merely about submission, but about placing your faith in someone who will act in your best interest, even if that means pushing you beyond your comfort zone. The hope lies in finding a true, committed partner who understands the nuances of this dynamic and can navigate it with integrity and respect. This requires open communication, clear boundaries, and a shared understanding of expectations and limitations.Ultimately, the yearning for a dominant guiding force speaks to a deeper desire for purpose and commitment. It's a search for meaning, for a role that feels authentic and fulfilling. It's about finding someone who can not only appreciate your offerings, but also help you to become the best version of yourself. This journey may involve vulnerability, introspection, and a willingness to surrender control, but the potential reward is a profound sense of belonging, purpose, and unwavering connection. The key lies in finding that "true trusted superior person" who can provide not just direction, but also unwavering support and unwavering faith in your potential.
I again don't know why I am writing this, except for the fact it lets me get some thoughts on [digital] paper and prevent me from doing something else im *supposed* to be doing.
So in 7 days, Andrea should be getting dressed to go to a girls night out. That sentence should not be as scary as it feels now that I've said it.
I want to go out for the night as a woman. I know I am going to have my stockings and bodysuit under my jeans and sweatshirt, changing at an undisclosed location before the party. Probably going to pack my pumps but still am undecided on that. Choices. Choices cloud my brain. I know Andy is an awkward dirty old man who can enter most conversations. I dont know who Andi is. Does she lead with jokes? Does she put her hair up, or keep it down? Necklace? Earrings?
I want to do this but as the 168 hours start counting down, more and more mental stress starts to slip in. I dont know if i should pack some stockings to make my boobs look bigger, or if i should go as is?
How do you girls do this daily? Listening to Saturday Morning Classical KC,KS public radio. Sipping Coffee and mildly depressed. Solitude and lack of femal companion in this house is after 7 years really getting tougher with every day. Still, after a long period of absence from my original CollarSpace account from long ago decided to try this site again and see what's happening. Maybe some Lady will show serious interest and respond. Getting tired of all the house chores, leaves little time, none really, for authoring new Symphonies or Concerti or Chamber works. Understatement.
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How many of us find the treasure we've sought for so long? How many of us give up and just accept what is in front of us? How many of us are truly sincere and willing to kiss a few frogs while trying to find our kinky slave or the pearl.
Someone suggested I should put up a picture and that My feed would blow up. That's not what I want. Let's be real, the one or two or three I want may not be here, it’s like finding a needle in a haystack. Lol I'm sure there is a more up to date analogy.
Yet we persevere hopeful for a meaningful connection. They are few and far between, but on ocassion we meet someone, strike up a conversation and even a friendship.
Where is the boy you want to beat when frustration is high? Where is the slave You want to kneel and do whatever You command? Where is the man you want to rub Your back and have a meaningful conversation with? it's a dichotomy, can you find both in the same individual or do You have a stable of eager boys ready to serve? Time to find what's right for Me! The search continues. Goddess I am looking for a LTR with a very rarified type of woman. I would like to offer you the world, and everything that comes with it. In the mean time, I am interested in meeting people, learning what's out there, and coming out of my shell a bit. That's hard for me, as I am a giant nerd. I'd like to cook an excellent meal, watch some anime, and have some sexy cuddling. That sounds like my perfect day. a Master told me his views on human toilets. He told me, once any human willingly tastes someone elses waste, they cease to be human, they will always be a toilet, becoming nothing more than a living toilet, no different than a ceramic toilet.
a ceramic toilet doesnt get to choose who uses it,gender, sexuality, ethnicity doesnt matter.
a ceramic toilet doesnt make decisions.
a ceramic toilet doesnt have orgasms.
so a living toilet doesnt either, just because a toilet used to be human makes no difference.
so once i taste someone elses waste i will cease to be human, nothing more than a toilet unable to refuse anyone who wants to use my mouth as such forever. Okay, what is with mens profiles on here? Is this a matter of the Collar Gods not updating mens profiles or journals? Is it a matter of too many of them to approve?
I dont recall engaging with one man here whose age is accurate lol And we are not talking a year or two off, but typically a DECADE or more some times! lol
At least if your profile is not accurate, the least one can do is update in the first contact email. I should think this provides the appropriate degree of honesty upfront, while also reducing time wasted for you if the person does not like your stats.
As for Me, I could care less how old or young you are, with the exception of 20 year differences. Those kind of differences need a wee bit more considering to the extreme differences/challenges these may pose).
Also, what is with dominant men contacting Me and telling Me they are submissive/slave types, but they have no such information in their profile? Make another profile or have something prepared to share in your first email.
DEMONSTRATE SOME BLOODY EFFORT, YA LOUSE!
Facts are, I have gone to considerable lengths to share quite a bit about My motivation and vision. Still that is not enough for the energy hoards. Send pics they say. lol How about you tell Me what it is that I have written which speaks to YOU about Me and how you see YOURSELF SERVING ME. How about you lay out all the mundane shit you are just dying to do in order to get a wiff. Instead many begin with pics! I get it. Yet if we don't even have the makings of something which will work in the REAL WORLD, how come we need to see one another?
I'm54, Rubenesque, full figured, strong like bull. What else? Height? Weight? I'm a little above the average on both and stronger than any women I've known. I have good teeth, wear glasses, have allergies, am quite fair, and am letting My long strawberry dirty blondish grey grow out. I've hazel eyes and freckles, size 9.5 shoe, D cup and a large ass. I've never had a surgery or broken bone. Type O positive lol I'm shaved or hairy all depending on mood and My shit stinks lol The list of things could go on and on and it doesn't matter one fig in the long run.
What matters is that I get you and you get Me and we want to get IT together. This is discovered by YOU DOING WHAT I REQUEST and Me honoring what you have to share with Me. From there we both get to determine our suitability.
Oh yes, and what is with the supposed slaves offering theirself for ALL? I really don't get it. If you offer all, you should be here already not phone-finger fucking Me.
I'll tell you how My first introduced himself, got a picture, every alais I've got and is on speed dial on My phone.... wait for it.... in his FIRST email, he quoted My profile, commented on it and said why HE LIKED ME. Wow! There it is folks, the slave told Me what he liked from My profile! LOL
When he asked how to proceed, I told him we move to another chat venue (NOT PERSONAL PHONE LINES). He moved so fast I got whiplash!
We typed some words and after a few minutes things started getting convoluted -as TYPING THOUGHTS OFTEN DOES. I told him it wasn't working for Me and it wasn't going to work for Me if we didn't speak by telephone. BAM! - he said I could call him ASAP. I called him and the rest is, literally, history.
IF YOU CANNOT SPEAK BY PHONE I AM NOT INTERESTED. No where to go and time is a ticking!
Newsflash, I am not going to work overmuch to get you to submit yourself to Me. I am not a salmon or a trout. If you can't take the heat, get out of the kitchen and if you cant come off the porch, you can't play with the big dogs.
And don't get your hopes up, My tongue is worse than My lash...unless you are beloved and then you will get your just desserts! lol I've been dating a married slave lately, her very Vanilla husband has given her full permission to explore her Kinks and sexuality which I personally know takes a lot of faith and trust in his wife and I deeply Respect her husband for the gift he has given her. So this starts something very new to me being in an relationship with a woman in an ENM relationship, which in turn I guess makes me poly/ENM.
But as she is married there are obvious limitations on our relationship so I continue to seek the Kinky woman to spend the rest of my life with that will be OK with me continuing to see my married slave or even having the slave join us. Very open to dicussion and possibilities. Sadly my iMac has crashed causing loss of all the unsaved data. I have taken my iMac to a recovery. They took a nominal fee up front, but, told me there would be a $2,800.00 fee if they recovered the data, but, no fee if they failed. I had them go ahead. They turned out to be a front, agency. I told them to proceed with the recovery.They kept it for a while then wanted an additional $500.00, over and above the amount they promised to not exceed, to continue with the rescue effort. I told them to return my hard drive to me. Now I am looking for an honest data recovery service. Does anybody know of a reliable honest data recovery service? Wow! Got a lot of postive feedback from my last journal entry. So here's a follow-up with more stuff about me...
Here are some of the questions I have gotten:
Before we get started, as directed by my dom, I am required to tell you that as I write this, I, subMeghan, am completely naked, except for my dog collar...
Do I have a job? Yes, I have a regular 8 to 5 job. Boring stuff. Basically it's data entry kinda job. Not going to say to much more about that. There are no sexy stories to tell here...
Have I ever been raped? Yes, but I don't think I'm going to talk about this...
How did I get into this "lifestyle"? I suspect that I've always had a desire to be dominated in some way. (see my previous journal entries about my fantasies.) However, I'm going to have to say that one of my early boyfriends was the one who officially got me into bondage. Prior to him, everything was just in my head. He was the first person to tie me up during sex...
Do I live in a cage/dungeon? No, I live in a normal house. We kinda use our garage as a makeshift "dungeon". (Not really a dungeon, more of a playroom). Nothing very wild, just a few eyebolts in one of the overhead beams for bondage purposes...
Am I a whore/prostitute? No, I am not. That said, in my "wild" high school days, I did kinda trade sex for help on some homework assignments. It was with a fellow student and we sorta dated for awhile. But mostly it was a relationship of convenience. My reputation in high school was way worse than my actual life...
Well that's all for now. I hope you all have a great weekend. I look forward to hearing from you. Until next time, this is subMeghan signing off. There is a catch in her throat, a dampness between her legs; her skin prickles. Is it the early tease of spring, its warmth just beneath the surface of a brisk wind, or the return of his words, rich and raw, that shake her back to life, and desire? I can't think of many mornings that I am happy about being up before the sun. Today is really no exception. Took the little miss outside so I could watch her do everything except her business. She sits down and looks at me like, now what? But that's another story. We went through our weekend morning routine and now I'm back in bed. The room is dark, the windows are starting to brighten, the air is crisp on my shoulders, my legs are warm under blankets, and the world is still. The whole day is ahead of me. Oh, pardon me, ahead of us. She's at my feet. Even if the rest is full of laundry and chores, this moment right now is pretty great. == Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Submissive
94% Pet
87% Degradee
86% Rope bunny
83% Exhibitionist
81% Experimentalist
71% Slave
59% Boy/Girl
57% Voyeur
48% Vanilla
44% Brat
44% Non-monogamist
40% Ageplayer
28% Masochist
23% Primal (Prey)
18% Owner
7% Switch Just got some more x5 latex hoods with Purple, Red, Blonde, Black Braided pigtails and a slave hood with double buckled collar from Rubber55 in the UK.
Another action camera Insta 360 S3 smallest 4k camera arrived.
Two pairs of thigh high boots from amazon.
Have another week till my order from bright and shiny arrives from Ukraine with a replacement black latex catsuit, purple latex catsuit with a purple latex cat hood, Smoky black latex catsuit with a smoky black latex cat hood.
Awaiting arrival from Moanspeak of 3 gags.
Awaiting the arrival from breathplayfactory of fuck sleeve gas mask, Alien gas mask with a Led bubbler bottle with holder.
Still waiting for a order from Oddia Black Bondage corset, Black Bondage belt variation 1, Black Bondage belt variation 2, Black
short latex gloves, Black latex toe socks.
All Christmas presents for producing great content. Things I need - i.e.- things you can offer
It comes up a lot that subs write me with their list of wants. Usually, they don't bother to ask what I want.
Occasionally, there will be a subbie that realizes that in a sea of "gimmie gimmie" they may actually have to offer to GIVE something in return.
The brightest of them (very rare) offer before they ask to receive. They look for a way to make themselves useful, to offset the cost of the time they want me to give them.
Because let's face it - if I'm spending X hours talking to them, getting to know them, negotiating their interests and limits, prepping for activities, tying/spanking/torturing/disciplining/yada yada,.... that's X hours out of my own life that I'm not getting stuff done around here. While it can be fun to do the doing part, it hardly ever actually happens, so all the time I invest in it was wasted unless they are reciprocating something.
In the spirit of making it easy for the hopeful sub with a clue, here's a few things I need done or help doing that would ingratiate them to me.
I need basic general housekeeping for my crazy chaotic house- dishes washed, litterboxes scooped, laundry put away, kitchen cleaned and organized... Yes, all of this could be done nude or in a maid's costume if that tickles you.
I always need deep tissue therapeutic massage. Non-sexy kind. Neck, shoulders, hips, feet... I do a lot of stuff, and I wear myself out a lot. It hurts.
I need someone who is good working on a roof - I need help getting the roof itself painted with a white radiant barrier. (No, that CAN'T be done nude or in a maid's costume. Nothing outside can. We don't involve the neighbors or advertise our kink. You can cross-dress for it, but it has to be appropriate to the task and setting.)
I need assistance getting cinderblock pillars built on the edge of my yard, covered in molded cement stones, and the faux wrought iron fence sections installed between them.
I need garden and landscape help.
I need help figuring out how to lower the temperature upstairs in my sister's part of the house in summer.
I could use some help working on my truck. Occasionally I reach the limits of my abilities with it, and finding a decent mechanic is rare.
I need to organize my garage and my basement.
I need to dig out my basement and move the dirt to a specific
I need to finish the drywall in the upstairs bedroom.
I plan to renovate my bathroom. Anyone with plumbing experience or skills laying marble tile would be welcome.
I always have a project or ten in the works on top of everything else. Feel free to ask about them. Even if you just ask, it shows me that you at least read, and that you are considering the balance of effort. That sets you ahead of 90% of the messages I get.
And yes, if you are too far away to come do any of these things in person, but want to have something to offer, I do have an Amazon Wishlist, which I can share with you by request. Master does not chat with prospective slave property before inspection.
Exception: I will offer a picture of Master and the opportunity to ask limited questions to potential slave property that completely fill out My questionnaire. it may request the opportunity to complete the questionnaire any time after a firm date and time for inspection has been established.
Some slaves may find the questionnaire too invasive. In the process of taking a slave property into My domain I will sooner or later know everything about it. It is just a matter of timing: tell Me now or tell Me later.
Send its email address when requesting questionnaire. I prefer to use email for this exchange.
Reading all the material Master has here on offer will divulge much about what slave may expect as property. Apology to Mahatma Ghandi for my small change to his quote but I feel it applies to my own role here.
The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of another.
In D/s world this quote might sound to close to being over-dependent or clingy. But as it's originally intended, to me it's about self-awareness, personal growth and embracing my natural submissive tendency. So, maybe I lack vision? I am real, totally real, and wanting real, totally real... Why do people from across the country, or even other countries message me and want to like, just chat? I am not looking to supply fantasies for some married man. That is not my game here. Local man, messages local woman, message back and forth a few times, move off site, message a few more times, (We can chat on the phone, but I will be honest, I hate phones, I use it to conduct business, and avoid it even at that, I even just emailed a doctor to avoid a phone call… I read body language and facial expressions, and without them, I am lost in the conversation. Voice inflection and pitch etc are lost on me.) We meet for a quick coffee or something, so that if it is horrible it isn’t drug into a long awkward thing, and it if is wonderful we can sit and order a second coffee and sit for hours, or even get it to go, and find a park or someplace quieter to talk… Then maybe progress to a meal, lunch, dinner, whatever schedules allow, and then progress from there… If you are in London, and I am in Kansas… are you planning to fly in for coffee? Planning to relocate? If so, cool, we can start chatting. Otherwise… this is not the woman you are looking for… (waves Jedi hand and you pass on to the next profile…) NO You Star Wars nerd! You did not just find the one if you are not local! Go back to the begining and read again! Facepalm... lol cardiology follow up this morning, doc says I'm doing okay, function closer to 35% than 20... so I assume that's good... I mean I know it is but still ugh... he says with all these lovely new meds (5 I think... maybe more) I should be much more improved with in 6 months... only time will tell
sometimes I just feel like giving up cause I feel like it's hopeless, I've lost friends and a boyfriend to this fucking condition and it does take a toll, it's not just physically painful and exhausting it's mentally as well... however my desire to beat this is greater than my ability to resign so I think I'll torment this mud ball for a few decades more... I got some feed back on my last journal entry and thouht I should try to clear up some points.The topic of "collar of consideration or under consideration collars" is one that has been discussed among Masters and slaves.Our houser believes that the Master who has placed a slave under consideration is either having trouble deciding whether they want the slave to be a part of their house, or they want the pleasure of controlling and using the slave without committing to the responsibility of ownership.Both actions are fundamentally wrong. If the Master is unsure if the slave is worthy of wearing their collar, they should communicate with the slave and discuss any concerns they may have.Collaring a slave is a serious commitment that should not be taken lightly. A Master should reveal to the slave what is expected of them if they wear the Master's collar and what their boundaries and duties will be. The slave has a simple, yet complex duty, to please the desires and will of the Master. In reality, it is the slave who should offer themselves to the Master for enslavement and collaring, not the other way around.The goal of the Master is to help the slave become the best slave it can be and to guide them to that end. My house has never personally offered a collar to a slave, but has learned from more experienced couples in the lifestyle to wait until it is asked for.
MasterG Dallas was… worthwhile.
Now I’m back in Columbus and I’ve been thinking.
Tomorrow, I may allow one of you to be lucky.
Not for attention. Not for conversation. But for something a bit more intentional.
If you’ve been watching quietly, if you understand how to approach properly, and if you know how to present yourself without needing to be guided every step…
then maybe you’ll be worth considering.
Most won’t be.
But one might.
— Mistress Nikki Vixen The Gift.
One thing I didn't anticipate about being in a 24/7 bdsm relationship was experiencing different types of play outside my kinks. It never occurred to me there were things my Domme liked to do that pleased her. During our courtship if you will, we only talked about mutual interests. Over time I became a willing victim to her desires.
You see, when I was 10, my fantasies involved me enduring being tortured on the rack or being suspended. I imagined some hulky henchmen or evil Queen presiding over my torment. I never fully thought out what happened to me after the scene. When I got older and having sex that's what I thought about.
So when I moved in with my Domme, we just did suspension and rack play. All the time.
Things between us began to change pretty quickly. We started used clamps. Then it was gags. Impact play was added. We added roleplay. Now our scenes involved everything we could think of. This blew my mind. I had no idea how fun and sexy a sadistic mind could be!
We were invited to the West Texas group one weekend and had a blast. I stayed in the home of a female sub friend of ours who was hosting the event. People came from all over Texas to this event. People were playing in the house and things spilled out to the private yard in the back. My Domme flogged this cute femsub in this large shed which attracted some attention.
During this event we met two married couples. A femdom couple and a male Dom couple. They heard about me and asked if I was going to be suspended that day. They wanted to watch. So later that day I was strung up in that shed. I was only wearing a white bikini bottom. I was left there on display. That's what my Domme wanted. One by one, people came by to take a peek of me hanging in there.
About 6 months later my Domme and that femdom we met arranged a visit to their house in Abilene. We had already spent a weekend at their place once before. They had a big detached garage perfect for playing in but it was full of model trains. The male sub worked for the railroad and he collected model trains. He had them all set up in the garage so playing in there was tight.
So we headed to Abilene on a Friday. I figured we were going to party a while with them and get some playtime afterward. My Domme told me to bring a full length mirror this time. I thought to myself, yippee, I get to watch myself this time. We arrived early evening and talked about the lifestyle and got high. I was feeling good. If we didn't play I was ok with it because I felt terrific.
At around 10pm, the dommes were chatting and they decided they wanted to play. I was told to go into the bedroom and get ready. I wasn't really sure what we were going to do because I remembered the garage didn't have much room but we would figure it out. So the two dommes and the husband headed to the garage and I went to the bedroom. I took off my clothes and put on my suspension cuffs and ankle cuffs. I oiled myself up. After about 10 minutes I was ready.
I walked to the garage carrying the toy bag and the mirror. I opened the door and went inside. This is what I saw.
The first thing I noticed was the husband was strung up to my left and facing the wall while being flogged my both dommes. He was naked and spread eagle. I slipped by and put down the toy bag and leaned the mirror on the wall. He was yelling out and begging to be let go. They took him down and he was led away. Their scene didn't seem to last very long.
Then it hit me. All the trains were gone. Before we got there, they moved all of the tracks, buildings and sets that were mounted on multiple pieces of plywood over to the back and were now stacked against the back wall. It must've taken a long time. Not only that, they installed multiple black lights in the ceiling. There were eyebolts all over now. It was a torture room built just for me!
My Domme chained me up with my arms overhead and spread wide and left on my tiptoes. She kissed me and walked away leaving me alone. WTF I thought. Where was she going? After a short time, the host domme came in. She looked at me and smiled.
You're probably wondering what's going on. She said. I gave her my husband to play with and she gave you to me. Think of it as a gift exchange.
She went to the wall and flipped the switch and the black lights came on. She positioned a chair and a small table in front of me. Then she took the mirror and leaned it against the table so I could see myself. She adjusted the mirror slightly to make sure I could see my entire body. She stood behind me and saw that the mirror reflected me fully. Then she sat in the chair facing me. Pleased with my predicament she watched me in my bondage and sat there silently.
I could feel her lustfully watching me but I didn't want to look her in the eyes. I tried to concentrate on ignoring the growing pain in my wrists and the full pain growing in my calves. I glanced at my bonds and down at my body. I could see my reflection in the mirror. The black lights made my oiled body shine like glass and my neon pink bikini glowed like coals. I kept my eyes lowered and stared at the floor.
If my Domme were here her hands would be all over me. She would be whipping me or doing something to torture me. This was new to me. I didn't know what to do or how to react. So I just hung there quietly suffering.
She lit a cigarette and watched me. Slowly drawing the smoke and watching my body she exhaled and I saw this white cloud of smoke waft through the area. Time slowed down and I hung there waiting for something to happen.
After awhile she got up and stood behind me. I could feel her hands slowly glide over my body from my arms to my hips. I moaned at her touch. Then with both hands she placed them on my hips and pushed me forward. I This site seems to have become the website of nothing happening. No one wants to chat, no one wants to interact at all. I understand if you aren't interested in meeting a person or maybe they are too far away, but since you are here, why not chat a bit, exchange a message or two? You might make a friend. On fitness...
Having a partner who's physically active and fit has always been important. I want someone who is full of energy and excitement and can keep up, lol. In the past, I've never really been attracted to guys who spend all of their time at the gym. For one thing, there's just more to life but second, I'm generally not attracted to huge muscle, gorilla types.
I recently spent several months with a retired firefighter-turned-chemist. Since he's retired, he wasn't nearly as bulky as he was in old photos--thank goodness. But clearly he still took care of himself. In bed one night, in a playful, flirty moment, he reached his arm over and wrapped it around My waist and in seconds I found Myself on top of him. I was almost a foot away from him but at 6ft+ tall, he definitely had a decent wing span. As I said, it was a playful moment but My word...it was also really fucking sexy. Obviously, I had to stick around for a few months to see what else he could do. ;)
I don't know what exercises you need to do at the gym to be able to lift 135lbs with one arm, but do those, lol. Don't do them until you don't have a neck anymore, because that's overkill. We're going for actual strength not just what strength looks like. If you get lost I apologize the inbox gets a bit full and it's not on purpose please understand.
If you get ignored and I haven't ever replied it's likely you didn't bother to read at all and just replied to a picture! I usually try to explain as alot of you are not within the age range I'm comfortable with but sometimes I run out of spoons dealing with the disrespect of ignoring the work I put into my profile. automatic dishwasher
Ingrid Bellemare from her book "Owning and Training a Male Slave".
“Having a slave is like having an automatic dishwasher: set it up and make it do the work. It is there to serve your needs. If something is not working right take corrective action until it's fixed”
Random ficlet:
I gleefully stood, naked, and allowed my my hands to be bound together by a man who I knew wanted nothing more than to devour me. I grinned in anticipation as he guided my bound hands above my head and looped to tail of the rope through a chain hanging from the rafters above us. Once the rope was looped through the chain, I noticed him smirk as he pulled the rope tight and my arms were stretched further over my head until I had to rest mostly on the balls of my feet, leaving me in an unsteady stance.
I was so wet that I felt like my slick was dripping down my thighs and my pussy was clenching in anticipation and nervousness. I couldn't help but shift around in my eagerness and groaned as I felt my naked thighs sliding wetly against each each other as my pussy practically drips with want.
My eyes were wide as you faced me and pulled my right leg up to expose my pussy. You clutched your throbbing dick in your hand. I felt you take a moment to rub your cock along my wet slit, I hear you groan when your dick meets the warm and wet folds of my pussy lips. I feel your grip on my thigh tighten right as you slide your dick easily into my wet, slutty hole.
I groaned, and before I even had time to register the intrusion, you were pumping into me, eager to feel more of my slick, clenching hole.
This didn't last long, though, as it wasn't nearly all that you wanted. You pulled out, much to my displeasure, my pussy was throbbing and needed much more. I saw you retrieve the leather belt from your discard pants and knew my ass and thighs were about to be on fire and I shuddered in a combination of trepidation and want.
I watched you loop the belt in half and pull it taught, making the leather snap delightfully. When our eyes met, I watched your face turn predatory when you met my playful and challenging look. I grinned, and hoping to sound more confident than I was in that moment, I looked up at you said "Do not bore me.”
I watched as you shook your head and gave me a sly grin as you casually walked behind me. I heard your shifting movements, so the crack of the belt on my ass didn't come as a surprise, but the intensity was.
Normally I have to coax a man into being comfortable taking what he wants, I habitually challenge Doms, as it's the only way I can get close to what I need. I often end up still feeling like im in charge and having to teach someone to be a Dom.
The cocky challenge to not bore me wasn't needed here. I shrieked and rose up on my toes at the HARD initial strike. Before I even had time to process the pain, you were in front of me and grasping my face in your hand, fingers and thumb digging into my cheeks and forcing me to look up at you.
"I'm going to whip you until you cry, and then I'm going to keep whipping you until you can't hold yourself up anymore and are begging me.."
While you were talking, you forced two fingers into my mouth while holding my face still, clearly making a point. You pushed them in until I gagged and held them there while I tried to keep from dry heaving
"Pleading with me to breed you like a desperate bitch in heat..."
It's the down days, with the beating sun and the drawn shades, keeping the outside out and the inside in...the days where the tears finally grab hold and the tissues are everywhere. It's the days where one pm could be 10 am or 730pm and none would know, for i remain alone, always alone. My friends are few and far between. My heart landed on the curb and i keep waiting for someone to pick it up and hand it back, though i know better. It was stolen and now it doesn't fit in my chest anymore. So whenever i breathe the sound is like an empty drum for the beat does not even echo. The hurt is like a neon glow in the dark super ball that just bounces from surface to surface, so i can't quite steady it, or myself. It's still light outside. My watch never made it to my wrist. And luck flew like a hummingbird, out of sight. And the man i love...cannot love me. So i sit and pretend that once upon time i was happy and once upon a time i will be, again.
zamarra/aka eslavegirl
7/14/24 In the bustling aisles of the crowded store, a familiar presence halted her steps. There, amidst the sea of faces, she glimpsed him once more. He pulled a bottle of whiskey from the shelf, his eyes caught hers, and a smile appeared on his face. His eyes deepens like a predator on the prowl. Their life unfolded in fleeting scenes, in the intimate cocoon of their shared space, they found solace on the plush leather couch, bathed in the soft glow of dimmed lights. The air carried the delicate fragrance of roses and vanilla, an intoxicating blend that clung to her skin. As they nestled together, the subtle scent added a layer of warmth to the cozy atmosphere.
Her skin, soft as the gentle caress of a summer breeze, invited him closer. The curves of her form molded against the cushions, creating a haven of comfort. Long, brown, and curly, her hair cascaded with a wild and untamed beauty, echoing the free-spirited nature that danced within her.
His hand roamed around her body, exploring its entirety. His other hand held his favorite leash its leather warm and worn from his hand working the leather over the years of wear. He started letting the leash work through his hand pulling her head down slowly, further in to his lap.She turned her head to catch his eyes as she adjusted her body.“May I please?” Her sweet voice called to him like a sirens call, as his lip lifted in a half smile.“May you sir?” He said as he pulled on the leash making her head pull forward her nose pushing in to his cock.She looked up at him, “May I please suck your cock sir?” Her voice called up to hîm her hands running up his thighs.“Mmmm of course.” His voice growled.
Hi, my name is Infinite Arms and I’m a masochist. I mean let’s be honest, you’ve got to be to keep attempting to navigate this shit hoping for a decent outcome.
I’m a physical masochist - being hit / given physical pain makes me happy (read very wet) but I’m also a massive emotional and psychological masochist.
The physical bit is easy enough - plenty of people will hit you with hitty things, less people with hit you with fisty things, even less people will cut you, break the occasional rib, but there are people.
The emotional and psychological masochism is the difficult part I’m finding, but my circumstances are probably a big factor in that. I’m married - we met through kink and we still do kink when life allows. But we both have other facets we indulge outside our relationship. I won’t tell you his, he can do that, but mine is very much focussed on someone being mean to me.
There are lots of levels of mean, physical pain is just one of them (a very fun one), but my masochism also leans a lot towards more emotional and psychological aspects and this is the bit I struggle to get in the extracurricular stuff.
So I prefer to play with people who are poly, or not looking for a full time relationship, because I have one of those and he’s wonderful and irreplaceable. I also don’t really like people who are doing it all behind their partners back, because that’s just hard work and it feels pretty crappy to be the one being cheated on so there’s that.
But - and here’s the unicorse poo part - I do need to have some kind of connection / dynamic / relationship for the emotional psychological stuff to be meaningful.
ification and degradation and just general worthlessness is one of my biggest kinks. And, maybe it’s just for me, but that doesn’t work if I have no level of connection with the person who’s making me that low. I like (well love to hate) to be told I can’t touch, or orgasm, in between play sessions. Admittedly I’m sometimes utterly shit at that but I’m working on it. And that doesn’t work if there’s not some sort of friendship or mutual appreciation going on.
In short, I don’t want to marry you, or have any detrimental impact on any relationship you are in. But I cannot promise I won’t be fond of you, because, for me at least, that tends to be a byproduct of having someone be mean to me in the aforementioned ways.
No real reason for this post other than a handy th The Matron
Some parts of this story are true and actually took place. Many parts have been added to dramatise a fantasy.
Real names have been changed to protect identity.
After arriving in this country (U.K) in the late 70’s, I found a part time job at a large nursing home in West Sussex.
I had just turned 18 and I was extremely naive due to my upbringing and not at all experience in the matters of opposite sex.
I was employed as a handyman, there were two other handyman there, who were in their late sixties.
After a few months of working there, I got to know most of the staff.
Wendy, who worked in the kitchen, asked me if I could look at the cooker switch as the element was not heating up.
I lost my voice a week ago, and am still recovering from it.
I attended a street fair yesterday with a friend: between gesturing, my smartphone, and her I managed to communicate with others when necessary, but I agree: if this keeps up for much longer, I may need to learn sign language.Still, it was lovely to just have a last minute adventure. It's been a while. It appears part of our profile is missing our instructions for applying to be our slave so here is the first step again
TO BE CONSIDERED THE FIRST STEP IS TO GIVE A LITTLE INFORMATION ABOUT YOURSELF SO ANSWER THE FOLLOWING
WHAT PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE DO YOU HAVE IN THE LIFESTYLE?
WHAT SKILLS DO YOU HAVE TO BRING TO THE HOUSEHOLD?
ARE YOU EMPLOYED? IF NOT YOU WILL GET A JOB.
DO YOU HAVE ANY HEALTH ISSUES?
WHAT ARE YOUR VANILLA INTERESTS?
WHAT ARE YOUR KINKS?
DO YOU HAVE AN ISSUE WITH SERVING IN A POLY HOUSE WITH MULTIPLE SLAVES BOTH FEMALE AND MALE?
DO YOU HAVE ANY LEGAL ISSUES TO SORT OUT?
ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AND ONCE YOU DO WE WILL GO FROM THERE ANSWERING NONE TO Q1 OR YES TO Q4 DOES NOT HINDER YOUR ABILITY TO BE OUR SLAVE IT IS JUST THINGS WE NEED TO KNOW FOR YOUR SAFETY AND WELLBEING |
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