4/4/2011 10:33:15 AM: Been having a very good time in my 'switchyness'....I know that isn't a real word....but threw it in there anyway.  *grins*  Still learning and growing in the r/l side of my dominant nature.  And working on getting a toy bag together....though it is slow going since I am in school and not working so money can be tight.  But, it is going to be a work in progress.....which is fine.  Still searching for r/l partners to play with at local community gatherings.  It can be hard to do at times, but I am enjoying it when I do get the chance.  Hopefully, I will be able to find a steady play partner to switch with.  That is my hope anyway.  But, it will happen when it happens and that is fine.  I don't want to rush into anything with anyone.

9/19/2010 12:37:11 PM: Alright...update.  I am now a switch.  Well...always was really...but, decided that I would allow that side of me to be shown now.  Why?  Because while I love being a submissive....part of me is a Dominant as well.  Two sides of the same coin.  Will see what happens.  I think many people in my local community will have a hard time believing in this change.  *chuckles*

9/9/2008 7:25:19 PM: long time since girl spoke.  not alot going on really.  enjoying going to see F/friends in lifestyle in r/l.  great P/people in local community and that is always something girl can depend on finding when girl has chance to go.  no possibilities of ownership for girl yet.  but no big deal.....not desperate at any rate.  girl will wait....seems it gets easier now.  no longer this huge hurry in girl to find 'One' Master......which is nice.  girl is online and offline (when girl can)....just enjoying learning and growing within her own skin.

4/14/2008 12:55:53 AM: ok...this one lied....to self if nothing else.  this one has been going on line.....mostly because r/l is proving to be very very quiet on BDSM front.  this one also misses Gor....so....is trying out places in Gor.  seems though, this one just gets caught up in drama.  why does there always have to drama?  this one just wants to find Dom/Master to serve and please....is that asking for to much?  this one doesn't want to fight with other kajira for Masters attentions.  life is to short to get all this drama going and not enjoy what is there to be had.  what should this one do then.  sometimes this one gets so tired of being true to self....because O/others want ALL attention from E/everyone around T/them.  drama Q/queens and K/kings.....can't live with T/them....can't shoot T/them.....lol

1/13/2008 10:09:59 PM: this one hopes A/all had wonderously happy new year and holidays.  this one has been thinking alot about this lifestyle and what she wants out of it.  her r/l life is still without BDSM influences for most part.  no Dominant to be seen with possibilities for this one.  but this one was not so upset about that this past holiday season....perhaps because this one was to busy with vanilla issues.  this one wonders though.....if this lifestyle will ever produce Dominant that this one can relate to and relates to this one.  when this one first started in r/l lifestyle....there was joke going around with some of us new r/l submissives.  seemed every sub that we talked to.....stated it took them three years to find the "One".  well......it is coming up on three years for this one.  and while it would be great to find the "One"....this one is not holding her breath anymore.  this one is resigned to being alone......or maybe with vanilla.  does that mean this one is giving up?  maybe.....maybe not.....this one is unsure.  this one is still contemplating.....and still going to as many BDSM functions in r/l that this one can go to.  this one is NOT going online much anymore....because it seems that all she gets online is false promises and players that only want sex.  there is so much more to this lifestyle then just sex.....at least....that is this one's thoughts.....