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babygirltrixii
| Pan Female, 43, Erie, Pennsylvania
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Currently a Mess..Not looking for ownership The life is something i enjoy and crave..but as life has its ups and downs..i currently am only looking for friends..and not a Master..i have issues (baggage) to resolve within my own psyche that is going to take time..i intend to continue my friendships and hopefully become more active than i have been lately with the munches..and maybe one day...when i am healed and ready..i will want to be owned again..
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Ok , Now for those people interested in knowing the inner me..hmm..i am a mom first and for most..student and survivor of a 21y crappy marriage..so lets see..i am a natural giver and nurturer..but also a bit of a brat..i do know my worth and have high expectations in a Master..just as he would me..but as any good slave would i can adapt to any style the Master chooses..should He wish for the babygirl..or the Brat..i can be the slut He desires or the diamond He keeps for Himself..my training is from the old Guard..i do not know of safe words..i dont understand the need for them..does the slave not know its Master well enough to trust Him with its life.Hmmm about me..naturally submissive..but i am not sub .i am slave... i have the extreme hunger in me to serve 24/7 and to find my One..
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Ok...look..to weed out some of the online guys..i dont do online play...i have a job as a phone sex/cam operator...i am not looking for clients or to give it free...i am searching for my One...i understand that many enjoy caming ..and such i no way wish to disrespect those that do..but i just wish to make it clear...i dont do it...unless of course ,He desires it of me..
*****Reguarding Poly*******
i have great respect for those that desire to live the life of poly, but since i have recieved many inquirys..it has come to my attention that my wording in my profile is a bit vague..the sharing part of my profile..(later worded) is more of the swinging type...not living Poly..i am sorry for the confusion...and truly wish those that desire that lifestyle all the luck in the world finding their perfect house...oh yes, and i see i now have to add this... regarding D/D couples...even though it is only one slave in the house to me...that is still living poly..and i have lived in a D/D house before and it can be very stressful for the slave...i am not saying it can not be done, but at my age i am not well suited for it...i wish You luck....*************************************************************
being a slave i love to please and with that comes my huge desire...so i have somewhat replaced the loss of a Master with swinging..those of you that want a monogamous relationship..i am loyal to whatever my Master wishes..i do not stray..so dont worry..but on the same note..for those that wish to share me..i have no objections to either..so basically as a true slave should, what ever Master desires goes..
Sex to me is a gift to be givin freely and passionately..I love everything about it..the touch of skin on skin, a Passionate kiss, the erotic smell, and finally that wonderful look on Master's face as he releases and gives me his pleasure..
I am looking for a long term relationship in the lifestyle and attraction is a must..I have been working very hard to get into shape to be a prize for my future Master to show..and of course it will be His choice on the eventual perfection for him..should i be perfect now..or with more toning.. He doesnt have to be Mr. Universe or have 6 pack abs..but healthy..hey and if he has a few extra pounds we can work it off together..grin..if he wishes..I show my pics and update as my progress continues..they are all current pics..and yes they are all me..
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12/27/2012 7:39:53 PM: So i made one weightloss goal...199..yippee..can't believe i lost weight over the holidays..but i did it..and Christmas was wonderful..even though i am not Christian..i still love the holiday..and i still squeeze in my winter solstice celebrating..blessed be..my reasoning for being unavailable right now..:
People do not attract that which they want, but that which they are. To put it another way: when you stop working on what it is you are trying to get and start working on you, only then will you get what it is you want. - James Allenng
May the New Year bring peace and harmony to everyone's lives..and my He find His way to me...when i am ready..
12/17/2012 10:37:32 PM: Stressed out...ahh yes the holidays..lolz..was up making choc chip cookies for the neighbors..they are really starting to love my diet..(i tend to bake when i am stressed) but they are an old couple and it is nice to see their smiling faces when i come to the door with baked goods..lol..figured i would write while i can't sleep..maybe it will tire me some..I have gotten many kind words and friendships on here..and i thank you..my journey has been bumpy..(who's hasn't) ..and the encouraging words of many wise Dom's on here give me hope that one day..when i am healed..i will find an owner again.Soo .my weight loss has come to a crashing halt..but i am hoping it is because i am going to the gym..and gaining muscle..soo close to my goal..i see the doc's at the end of January..and i really want to be under 200..Well my Cat is pawing at me..telling me its time for bed...good night all...xoxo
11/29/2012 8:00:20 AM: Another fan of mine that doesn't like to be turned down...::
Phony as the day is long too, you're nothing more than a timewaster here, a WANNABE.
And you're right, your life IS a mess, because you try to make decisions and don't do as you're told, you're simply a major fuckup, aren't you. Had you listened to
me and done as you were told a long time ago, your life would be fine today kept safe and protected and completely enslaved to me, but you're simply a wannabe fuckup that knows better, aren't you, LOL. DUMBAZZ!!!!!!
11/26/2012 6:44:00 AM: got on the scale this morning !! 75 lbs lost..so currently i am 5'10 and 205..yippee..doc's put my goal at 180..not sure if i will stop there..but its nice to know i am sooo close..and talk about celebrate when i break 200..havent been under since i was in my 20's...just thought i would announce my happiness...bring on summer...bikini's here i come !!
11/23/2012 6:40:36 AM: Hope everyone had a good Turkey Day yesterday..Sorry I havent been on ..but well with family arrival, its a bit difficult to sneak away and read my emails..;) .. Mine was Great! I did tons of Baking, (of course i can't eat it) but I do love to cook and enjoy it when others enjoy it also :) ..Apple Pie , Pumpkin Pie, Strawberry Cheese Cake, Choc Chip Cheesecake, along with tons of food and snacks...i all hand make..:) .. Momma always said a way to a man's heart is through his stomach...now if only that were true ...lol...
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