I am living full time as woman. I am much happier to find completeness in self being. I wish I would have knowledge and courage to proceed years ago. I wrote the following verse about my transition and why I feel so blessed to be a woman.

Jennifer Feels Very Blessed with Her Life.

Since my attendance at BE ALL Chicago – 2007 where I had opportunity to meet so many very nice gurls and have a great facial make over I had such high since of well being and confidence of myself and my femininity. I was inspired in June 2007 to compose the following commentary about my appreciation for “Jennifer” my better half.

Thank you all for describing me as very pretty. It helps make me feel even more like the woman I desire to be. I want others to accept me as real person and not something strange. I know I feel very feminine inside but it takes effort at times to look feminine to the world. When I think about all that I do I must really need this bad because it sure is a lot of effort at times to be female. But Oh it feels so good to be in touch with my femininity.

I see why GOD the CREATOR waited for a while before creating Eve. God needed to reflect upon creation of Adam and improve upon the first prototype. I am sure after the Creator finished with Eve, God had a special twinkle in HIS/HER eyes knowing God had refined and significantly refined the original prototype. Now the challenge for Adam and Eve would be for Adam to understand his short comings and for Eve to deal with those short comings, guide him, help him achieve his dreams, and help him acquire that which was left out in the original design.

That is why TG sisters have an edge over the other males because we have a slight head start. There was a little of the magic dust left over from creation and once in awhile accidentally falls into the male casting mold at birth. Maybe it is the angels having a little fun to spice things up here on earth or maybe we were possibly a second prototype prior to Eve.

I feel blessed. My cup is now half full while once I thought was half empty. I have just been holding the cup wrong and my earlier perception was looking down and now I am looking up. I firmly believe in HEAVEN there is no gender per say in Heaven. Since we have left our earthly bodies behind which distinguishes us apart. We are all an essence of love and love has no boundaries. Sexuality is an attribute of the body and not of the soul. That which is embodied in the essence of femininity and masculinity is far greater than the physical body. When I feel I am striving toward whole its is not an abandonment of my masculinity but a corporate meager of my femininity and my masculinity. Just as it is important for man to learn and understand what he lacks of his femininity, also it is important for Eve to know herself by what she sees is missing in ADAM. One cannot appreciate what one has without envisioning without.

I have begun to transcend beyond cross dressing and have embarked upon a depth of understanding what truly my humanity means to be whole. When I am Jennifer, I feel so much more whole as I can perceive what I am missing as a man.

What I do know for sure is LOVE is at the core of it all and is what makes us so beautiful and as that grows we truly become reconnected with our CREATOR. GOD Who is LOVE. This is the true essence of our femininity and that is why GOD embodied in females the beautiful task of recreation through birth. It is not by accident that the sexuality to conceive and to provide nurturing and protection of the young is embodied in the femininity of females who seem to understand love more clearly than males. It takes most males a life time to seem to grasp the concept that is such an integral feature in femininity.

That is why I feel so blessed that I have been given the gift I have of femininity. It is such beautiful state. I realize there is more than meets the eye why GOD choose to take on physical form as a man and not a woman. Yes, the times were harsh but if Jesus were to experience life as a human and truly guide men, he had to show man the way to love and that end is through EVE and learning and integrating her femininity.

I have never though of Jennifer as pretty but I hoped just to pass. My male Larry is just an average looking guy but with all the changes in my life and the love that radiates from within from Jennifer I noticed major changes in my appearance. When I look at the picture of Jennifer especially her eyes I see that the joy, peace, and love within being let out like genie from a bottle.

I hope this will provide a little insight into the person and soul that is Jennifer/larry. larry will always be apart of me. I do not hate my male side or do I wish to forget my male side. My life is some what a mirroring of culture and society. There is a power shift occurring from the impulsive and often violent nature of a male dominated society. We are hopefully moving toward a more compassionate and loving society despite all the evil and hatred we observe in our world. God has shown me that love and compassion are the way to my hope of finding happiness and lasting peace.

Hugs Jennifer