2/25/2018 9:21:19 PM: I want to be used and abused. I want to be raped, bloody and broken, in the most savage ways imaginable, until in the back of my mind I think it can’t possibly get any worse, and then be shown just how wrong I was.I want it beaten into that I am idiotic, gross, ugly, pathetic, and unlovable. That I should get on your knees and thank god that a man, any man, would waste his time on a pitiful piece of shit as wretched and worthless as me. I want to be humiliated, ified, and dehumanized, having my humanity complete stripped away until all that is left is a collection of holes and the useless skin that keeps them attached. I want to be repeatedly hate fucked by strange men, as they laugh at me and tell me this is all I will ever be good for.  I want to serve and live the life of a mindless, chattel slave. My rights rescinded, my dignity destroyed, my dreams dashed, my hopes obliterated, my individuality eradicated, along with anything else that prevents me from serving to your fullest capability. I want to suck cock, eat ass, get raped, guzzle cum, drink piss, and perform any disgusting, deviant, and depraved sex act any man could ever require of me. This is what I was born for and why I exist. I want to please whoever will have me, whenever they want me, and however they prefer to take me. No is never an option and should it come out of my mouth I deserve whatever happens to me. I want to be denied any and all personal forms of pleasure and have my cunt made off limits. Service is its own reward and far more than any cunt could ask for. I want to be cuckqueaned. Forced to watch as a man completely ignores me in favor of a superior piece of fuck meat, has his fun with it, points out my numerous flaws, and explains why it is far better than I could ever possibly hope to be.  I want to be covered, toe to head in, and pumped full of, cum, constantly. Without it dripping down my face our out of my fuckholes I feel naked, disgusting, and wrong. I want to be fisted and gaped until my holes resemble something only seen in specialty porn.  I want to be shared and passed around between groups of men, the larger and more vicious, the better. To have my exposed and sensitive body brutally violated and victimized until there is nothing left, in gang bangs and groups rapes, because more is always merrier.  I want to make men happy, to put a smile on their face, and enrich their lives by being everything and anything they need me to be with zero regard to my own personal safety, sanity, or general well being. This is the least of what I owe to them. I want to belong, feel, special, and be loved, which will never happen, because I am less than shit. At least this way my worthless little life will have some meaning and I can contribute to the greater good.