1/10/2023 12:25:29 PM: I know your out there I feel your breathing I sense your need to be controlled. I have been looking for you for several years now I’ve seen you in my mind bound, struggling with the chain that binds you. The need to be used kept. You need even the decision of who to belong to taken from you. You only want someone to come and take you give you a home and a purpose. You don’t want to play at being a slave you want to be a slave. Even if I never find you I will still know you’re out there denying to yourself that this is truly what you wish for. I have denied that this is who I truly am what I need and want for to long wearing the guise of the gentle patient Master when the sadistic black side of me hides within. I want to feel your fear your need for my uses of your mind and body. I ache to feel your hair wrapped in my fist my hand at your throat the fear and need in your eyes.

5/8/2016 7:13:31 PM: I never understand those that just block you rather than just say hey this isnt working out for me.

7/15/2009 11:22:24 AM: Love alone is capable of uniting living beings in such a way as to complete and fulfill them, for it alone takes them and joins them by what is deepest in themselves.                           Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

1/11/2009 2:00:48 PM: There is no more lively sensation than that of pain; its impressions are certain and dependable, they never deceive as may those of the pleasure women perpetually feign and almost never experience. Marquis de Sade

6/15/2005: I received an email the other night it simply stated “I'm not sure if your profile is too vague or simply to the point.  You give no guidelines for us to look at and determine if we should contact you or not.”   After looking back at my profile I had to admit it was very sparse so I thought perhaps I would start my journal with my reply to her   I have never thought of myself as vague to the point. Perhaps best I am the road less traveled a dark unknown path with many things still to be discovered on it. I had one who shared that path for 20 years till fate cut short her time here. Now I seek another who wishes to learn, who wants to please and has no preconceived notions as to what lies upon that path. I know when one needs a good attention getter and will not shirk doing just that if needed. I am not one who spends much truck on clubs or groups I am pretty much a one on one but have been known to try a little poly in the past although I don’t think it ever works out well. I never add animals, kids, blood, scat or sharp objects to my play I’m too busy with other things to need to add those in. I have a life out side my private play and require strict separation of one from the other. In the last year I have learned a deeper meaning to what I seek. Putting it into words perhaps will clarify it in my mind also I shall on occasion attempt to do that here.