11/16/2015 10:18:24 PM: Ok.... so I am posting this response to an email I received because I think it is super important.... I get this bullshit a lot... dommes who don't know how to take control of a person so they foist that upon others by making their submissives email every fucking one in a desperate attempt to find someone who CAN take control.... this is my response I am so sorry that you and your dominant didn't have enough respect... for you or me, to read my profile and see who it was you were messaging before sending out blanket emails. I would very much appreciate you sending this email to your 'owner' as, she is actually the one who bears the responsibility for your actions, having given someone who has devoted themself to another a task which is, argueably, offensive to a swathe of people she thinks she doesn't need to consider in her path of attempting to control, and pleasure. To the 'owner': the fact that you need to impose yourself upon others, not in a consensual circle of understanding of your relationship and your 'training' methods, to implement your 'dominance' is a big fucking red flag. The scope of your heart, the veracity of your being and the capability of being able to manifest who you are as a dominant should never impact a person who is an unwilling participant to your machination The very fact that you have to resort to parlor tricks and obvious ploys to try to get a person, who is genuinely looking to find someone strong enough and capable enough to take control of them, for whatever reason..., shows me that at the very LEAST, you are not up to the task, but more likely.... you are taking advantage. You do not deserve the mantle of responsibility of another person's devotion. Stop. Stop now...people will give you the means to hurt them, and that is not a game. Have a conscience, and have some responsibility... it is the burden of a dominant Jen

11/16/2015 4:47:36 PM: Your Penis is Not a Super Model Reconsider your dick pic. Honestly. I have tried to figure out the rationale of the overwhelming rash of dick pics here and elsewhere on the internet.Maybe you gentlemen are having one of these thought processes:1. Yeah... you know what... I probably should have given a donation to help children with cancer, but seeing how I passed that up... I think will do all the ladies of the world a favor and post a pic of my glorious rod of sexual happiness for the good of all, instead!2. I really want my profile to stand out, to be dynamic and unique.... Yes! I've got it! A cock shot! Keep up bitches, I’m setting the trends now!3. Fuck, my cock is so awesome it needs it’s own profile!4. If I put a picture of my face up...a) my wife will find me out and shut down my nefarious attempts at fucking women outside of my marriage/ b) all the chicks will see that I am not possessed of enough gumption to actually maximize my potential in terms of grooming to actually make me look less like a douche bag..........better put up a picture of my semi hard penis instead (fuck you, it’s semi hard because I am not going to waste a perfectly good Viagra on a non-fuck venture!)5. You are on a kink personals site... obviously all you want is to look at another cock... why not mine, yeah? Yeah!!!!!6. I am sure if I get the right angle, I can make this sucker look so awesome I will get laid by a stranger off the internet without even having to buy dinner. I get it.... you boys love your cock..... Hey, I am certainly not a cock hater (god forbid!).... but really.... you are not doing anything new, you are not doing anything sexy and you are not doing anything to disprove the notion that dudes in the kink community are just a bunch of sexual degenerates who can not get laid any other way than via a medium that ensures that no one will ever have to know or care about them.You are also, in the majority of the cases... doing yourself a serious disfavor by putting that pic up... most of them are not terribly flattering (yep, that's me being diplomatic!), let alone inviting... I know YOU love your cock... but um... your partner might very well need to love YOU little bit before becoming as fond of some of those suckers as are you....I think some of you might well have a skewed cock aesthetic, just saying....To further explore my personal mystification of this online wildfire..... I most especially do not understand dominant men posting dick pics willy nilly for all and sundry to view on the interwebs..... it just really doesn’t speak well to your self control, self respect, discretion and judgment...things people should probably take into account before submitting themselves to another in a power exchange relationship.Respect yourself...because if you don’t do that you are obviously incapable of respecting me.... and that is paramount in the success of any relationship.addendum:                                   Just an add on.... if you insisist upon posting a cock shot... maybe follow some of these helpful guidlines:1. Take off your fucking socks... it looks so dumb, you all semi-tumescent and naked...but for a glaringly white pair of ankle socks... jesus!!!!2. Clean up the area around you before taking the pic... nothing kills the moment quite as definitely as piles of dirty laundry, cigarette butts and burrito wrappers.3. Clean yourself... just don't be gross... take a shower and consider some superior grooming options.4. Maybe abort the idea of putting something next to your erection that will actually give clues as to it's real life dimensions.5. Suck in your damned gut.  

11/12/2015 4:56:18 PM: I was sick for so long, I forgot what normal felt like, except that... I couldn't do anything.. I would go up the stairs and faint.  I would pull the garbage out of the can to put in the bin an hemmorage, I would bend over to pick something up of the floor and the world would spin, and I was always so tired ....so so so tired.Little by little so many things went to ruin, myself included..My sweet, tidy little spinster cottage had become a ruin of itself, small projects I had intended to google to relearn how to fix turned into major problems, spider webs in the corners, pipes leaking, dust accumulating....My little house had become stricken by my cancer too.I finally had two days off in a row....and absolute terror laid over me like a mantle at the idea of remedying some of these eggregious wrongs...I took out little strongholds of sadness and worry, scrubbing and throwing away.  So much more to do, but at least I killed the inertia.

11/11/2015 1:16:39 PM: But more importantly today... Happy Veterans Day to all who have offered their service to our country. I hope you all feel the appreciation of the country you served. 

11/11/2015 1:09:40 PM: Where's Your Head At?A day off... much needed, but not something I can afford... but I have no choice in the matter at any rate.. god forbid they have to pay me time and a half, when I am making less money per hour than many teenagers trying to pick up some extra cash to afford the new iphone....I'd just like to buy some eggs this week...Humility.I get it.Laying low.I get it.My head...My peace is gone, my  heart is heavy....Ich finde sie nimmer und nimmer mehr.....But there is no Faust, Marguerite...you are you own devil's incarnation.It is only the weight of your silly hopes and dreams and the price to be paid out, ounce of flesh by ounce, of flesh and magic, for your poor choices and your indulgence in idealism.Your head is at frantic...as well it should be.