5/25/2022 9:28:59 AM: Last Night i Needed Daddy!   What are we called? This day and age we often worry about what pronouns we use, but for years people would give me a look for my reaction to being called Mrs when i never took that on. Maybe i appear rude when i'd not so kindly say, 'Ms; Mrs was my mother' but…   Is this any different than how we are addressed in our personal lives or in this life? When i first met one i call Master, we sat down for coffee and talked for over 2 hours a lot about our own perceptions of this life. In some ways it was very different and in other ways very much the same. It came down to titles. Never have i felt right calling anyone Sir outside of play, meaning anyone i was personally involved with. To me Sir or Ma'am is as appropriate for play in the Dungeon or talking with someone in a grocery store. Very impersonal. You don't  just call someone Master after coffee and a 2 hour talk even it progressed to 3-4 hours of… for me Daddy was where to start until learned more of where this dynamic would progress and to trust.   There have been many ups and DOWNS in our dynamic and right now it feels right. The trust, willingness to let go and be owned feels right. When last night i admitted to Master,  'i almost said Daddy… doll needs Daddy.' Master knew i needed Daddy and that was who was there.

1/15/2018 7:43:28 PM: I don't feel comfortable when made to feel like your sneaking around to meet with them. When you feel like they can't be real with you and you are being made to feel like you are part of an unrealistic fantasy and all you long to be is real and honest... And that is what I am.

10/15/2017 6:11:42 PM: I can't wait any longer. Gave it a go... But if You planned to be part of a power exchange, you have give to get... Not sit and wait with no communication or expectation.

8/25/2017 10:35:29 AM: Disappointment... Beautiful day but.

8/1/2017 6:41:59 PM: Need to put this back on top... Reminder of what to think about. For anyone in my position, trust is paramount. Right now the only one I can trust is myself. A lot has happened over past few years and it changed me. I am only one who can make changes to reverse anything and get back on track. That is primary focus. Anything else is secondary until this routine kicks in. That includes trying to build back trust in a relationship where trust was once broken. It isn't about being selfish it's about making myself whole or full; then I might be worthy of M/s relationship.