So, how to word my profile without offending anyone… About 15 years ago I had a profile on here and  met a number of really interesting and cool people.  I also met my absolutely amazing husband!  We met in 2008, married in 2009 and traveled an interesting road together. 

     We found God in our time together and it made us look at a lot of things in our life.  We decided what we did as consenting married adults within our marriage for the most part, in the way of a little hanky panky was fine.  We were not interested in having others involved in our relationship, or in anything outside of our relationship.  We discovered porn had actually and significantly ruined reality in many ways and that we didn’t care to think about each other looking at other people.  When we decided to quit porn we realized what an addiction it really was.  We did both eventually quit it though, even now I cover the side bars of this site.
 
      I am super strong in my faith and walk with the Lord, active in my church, etc.  My relationship with the Lord will always be above all others.  In 2020 I was widowed after my husband spent years in a battle with his health.  After three years single I am missing companionship.  After many years of nursing him I am missing intimacy and the fun hanky panky relationship we had. 

     Before finding the Lord I was involved pretty deeply in the local KC BDSM scene and thus, when I say hanky panky, I am not talking typical housewife stuff. 
    
     I have no interest in hook-ups or premarital sex.   Am interested in forming a solid and lasting relationship.  Naturally don’t expect that instantly but it is my long term goal.  I have to say, I was amused to recognize profile pictures I saw on here 15 years ago… Those would be the sort I am probably going to be avoiding lol.  I am seeking more commitment that someone who resides on a dating site.

     So, about me besides my faith and that I am a widow… I lean towards introvert, but handle myself in a crowd just fine, no anxiety issues or anything.  I can be playing Billiards in a pool hall one night, at a black-tie charity event the next, and then hanging out at home in my pajamas playing a video game the next.  Speaking of video games… I play World of Warcraft in my free time, in fact I play it in my not free time lol, when I should probably be doing other things.  I have been playing it since before the last time I got married and have made long time friends there that are now real world friends.  We travel to see each other periodically. 

      So, what brings me to a site like this?  (Now I am blushing.)  I know there are groups out there that feel it is biblical, I don’t feel that way at all.  I can be honest and admit, I find it arousing, and nothing that I get that kind of response from should be twisted into something that is part of religion.  I can call it what it is, arousing kink I enjoy.  What do I enjoy?  I’d say my likes, desires, wants, etc. fall into three categories really: First I will explain why I should have listed as a switch.  No, I do not ever want to dominate my spouse.  I absolutely need someone who can handle me all the time.  However, I have a strong personality and I am used to running the show.  I run a group in my video game, I lead groups in my church, when stuck in a room of people I will often end up leading things… That is just my personality.  However, that part of my personality stresses me out!  I need relief from that side of me.  I was raised that way, to always make sure everyone is happy, everything is in order, everything is taken care of, etc.  Once all is said and done I am emotionally and physically drained from it all sometimes.  It leaves me grumpy, sassy, snotty, etc.  Sometimes I just want to be made to let go, made to submit, made to endure the unpleasantness, in order to recalibrate and recenter myself.  Usually in the moment this isn’t erotic for me, but later to be able to look back on you doing that for me, and the aftercare, is very much so.   

    By the way, if you have actually taken the time to read my profile, I want to thank you and take the time to read your email.  Let me know you read this far by addressing the email to just Grace instead of TulipGrace... Thanks! Nowback to my profile...  

        Second: I may have had something upsetting happen in life, nothing that would be deserving up punishment, nothing that would be a time one would usually think is for play of this kind… I may ask for pain, again, not an erotic time in the moment typically.  Depending on the upsetting thing that happened, the memories of it may never be erotic either.

        Third: Genuine fun and play, giggly sassy fun, complete with safe words, willingness to maybe try new things, erotic exotic, bedroom play.  Not so heavy it requires aftercare so that it can progress into something more…     

       Why don’t I give details of what kinks these things involve?  Well, then what would we chat about lol?  Well, I do hope we talk more than about just kinks of course, because like I said most the time I live a very average vanilla life and as much as porn and site like this make it seem possible to live otherwise, for me it isn’t.