I need to write more than I started back with.   I was here a long  time ago.  I see names I remember well.  I found her.  And I lived a life.  I submitted and was owned.  I reveled in its pleasures.  And in its pain - both physical and emotional.  I learned more of what I am.  

But then the thing thought to have been gone reappeared.  Cancer. It tokk the pleasure and turned it to dispair.  She left me and everyone else in our lives.  

So, after a time.  A time to decide what is what I need and what she would want.  I am back to search.  Not that I did not look.  I did. But maybe I need to look within the world that understand.  I found her not among the lifestlye. I found her like my first owner in life in general. 

So, I am here.  To see if an old man can find it againl  Maybe not another IRONMAN>.. but maybe another chance at being what I need to be.  

So, let us all relish the time we have. Let us try to be what we want to be.  And to accept those who want to be.  

I am sad to see some of the same old names.  I always hope to sign in and see some gone. They need tofind that ONE - or two - who stop them from needing to loolk... 

I found it.. and lost it.. and hope to one last time.