9/4/2023 3:23:33 PM: I lost someone this week.  No we weren't close lately.  We used to be.  Our relationship was never defined, it was loosely maintained, but we popped in and out of each other's lives over the period of several years.  He was my first introduction to bdsm and the only D type that I could truly call a close friend at any point.   He is the only one who ever took me to that amazing place that every sub reaches for, and when I used to write, I wrote about our times together.  Those are still some of my favorites to look back on.  He was also there to cradle me in his arms and comfort me when a scene with someone else went really bad.  He was there to help me figure out what I was and wanted without pressing himself on me, so that I would be safe in the future and make better choices about who I interacted with.  He served as my protector for a while, when I was feeling vulnerable but didn't know if I wanted to step back from the scene at that point.  He never made me feel like a burden.  He helped me in my kink life and he helped me equally in my vanilla life.  I knew he was sick but he didn't let on how bad it was. I found out on the book of faces.  He is gone now, and I wish I could have been there for him, but he didn't want anyone to know the extent of his illness.  That was his way. Goodbye SkyMaster.  You will always be loved, you will always be appreciated.  I have nothing but warmth in my heart and in my soul for you.  I can say that about VERY FEW people in my life.  You will always be missed.    

1/6/2023 6:08:43 PM: It occurs to me that I have a bad habit of leaving my computer logged in to CS and walking away from my computer for hours at a time, sometimes even leaving for the day when I am logged on.  So it may seem like i am on here all day and even all night. Really I'm not.  But I can see how it may seem like that.   

1/4/2023 6:22:33 PM: I found it soothing last night to rant and rave about an asshat in my profile journal.  So I think that I will start using it as a place to blow off steam.  It may make me sound like an angry witch, but if that is just here and not in real life, I'm good with that.

1/3/2023 6:06:41 PM: Dude messaging me giving me clues designed to make me think he has figured out where I live.    NOT COOL, ASSHAT.   This calls for some wining.  And no, that is not a typo.

1/1/2023 5:48:45 PM: The Sandman on Netflix...just gotten into it and it seems really intereseting, appealing to my proclivities for fantasy and supernatural horror.  Anyone else seen it?