I am excited to be here, but also a little embarrassed. I saw some stuff onling which excited me and got my boyfriend to try some of it and was really aroused by it. Unfortunately, I wanted to go farther and farther, but he wanted to stop. So, I am here looking to at least talk to people who know much more about this than I do. Definitely ready to discuss things, maybe meet IRL, but no promises. 

What excites me is being helpless and punished and used without choice. Punishment really turns me on. I don't want to be really hurt or badly beaten or used by strangers, but I like playing with this. I want to be punished, degraded and shamed. I am very excited by this. 

I am not interested in doing anything that would actually get me really hurt or interefere with my daily, normal life. I have a good job and a good life. Just want certain kinds of excitement occasionally. 

I have actually never been with a woman sexually, but I am very aroused by the idea of a certain kind of woman dominating and punishing me. I am open to trying this.