Why Deny It?
I love the inexplicable relationship with an intelligent, capable female who knows, accepts and acknowledges she needs, maybe deserves even, to be controlled and humiliated. It came as a shock when I realized that this is who I am. And I spent years exploring my own deepest desires and needs.
I love the emotional and psychological control
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Where does the need to be owned come from?
Where does the need to be owned, used, controlled, exploited and degraded come from? Why would a female who seems to be the dictionary definition of accomplished and successful feminist want, no, need, such a life? Why aren't the conformist conclusions of intelligent, capable, strong-willed, etc feminist equaling dominant and unassailable true?
It is interesting to consider. The rational examination with scientific terms might make lots of interesting conversation, with you kneeling on all fours, ass up. But does it matter? your deepest nature, who you truly are, thirsts for degradation, victimization, to be taken, forced, reprogrammed to accept a life in which your inferiority is lived and no longer denied to yourself.
If you need a laugh I could send you pictures of all that stupid gear. A correspondent who never amounted to much was curious, so I took some. And IO Do shop at Wal-Mart. Doing so doesn't make me less dominant, intelligent or superior.
I definitely am someone you would not give the time of day to, certainly not respond to appreciatively while in your persona of high-and-mighty-feminist-bitch. But that isn't the life you want to live, haven't wanted to for a long time, have struggled with the dichotomy of that and the female who knows who and what she really is. I am old, mostly bald, unimpressive from the outside, selfish, use a facade of loud and irritating comments on the world to keep that world away from me and our of my business.
you crave abuse, in most forms,. I crave to abuse a "quality" female, to pull her inner self to the surface as one pulls hair to control her head, neck and body. This is not about sex, though I use sex to control and condition, and use her for pleasure. The physicality of control and ownership is awesome, but the real power is the emotional and psychological, for both of us.
Why are you this way? Why do you need to be slapped, bruised, kicked in your cunt, forced to clean and stimulate my ass, to be servile with dog-like devotion? Why do you need to be an ATM in both meanings of that abbreviation? I don't care, though we will discuss it and examine you over the years. Of course, assuming you intend to live your words and become my property-slave-meat.
Does it make the feminist you have been conditioned vomit to be and think of yourself as and to acknowledge your inferiority and desire to be someone's owned meat?
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Why deny it?
you need to be owned in ways you abhor - your beliefs are contrary to your own nature and what you need to be whole. you have struggled with the matter ~ anti-matter collision and you need to stop living as you are 'supposed" to be and live; time to begin the journey of living your truth.
