After a long period of low libido i find i now have a craving to submit to a more dominant - almost sadistic man.    Want to move forward - accepting pain, humiliation, bondage etc.      Providing sexual release.   Not looking for 24/7

although for the most part i am submissive there is another part of me re emerging I love to  be in control of a man.   Love to spank, flog, paddle them.   Love tt cbt and more men i do this with are in shape or muscular - 30 to 50    Color does not matter have to be masculine men not in dresses

After another relationship has ended by me i have finally realized that the issue is that i am meant to be single.  Cannot seem to give up contro.   Maybe i have not met the right Man/Master but am perfectly content to be single.  Meeting someone once or twice is about all i want right now

i find the profile of male sadists very arousing.   The control, power and discipline they write about is what i need - but afraid of.  i imagine those Sadists in control of me and i get so turned on.  frustrating

feeling the strong need for discipline humiliation but still so afraid have not met a Dominant Man to push me