5/1/2022 3:08:02 PM: Part 2  So we moved to a new bigger house and soon I discovered the brothers that would start me down the path that turned me into what I am today. So the brothers slightly older were loud , bold and of course very dominate. For the first few months things were normal , but soon things took a decidedly darker turn.   Things started with them hazing me at school , and the long walk from the bus stop . On the bus they didn't know me but as soon as we got off at the end of the street they would start , and when the girls that lived next to their house were there they puffed up and would show off , having me carry all the books , and taunt me.. I was just happy for the attention... and I got a lot of it from them, especially when summer vacation came from school . That's when things became intense.  At first it was fantasy role play , but  there was always some excuse to tie me to a tree or tie me and lead me through the forest that was behind our houses . Within a few weeks,  the clothes were off when I was tied, and they would leave to go home and get lunch , but always return with something for me. that I had to eat without hands. Then around the middle of that first summer the boys got a tent and set it up in the woods by the house,  far enough away to be partially hidden , and keep curious parents from dropping in.   The tent is where my training really began. From simple ties.  To elaborate  ties , to whipping with branches , to inserting things in me , the summer flew by and I finally felt I belonged , I felt the brothers cared for me , and wanted me , and I wanted to please , I ed to nothing for fear I would again be alone if I did. I remember feeling it was wrong somehow, but I didn't care , I was wanted, and that was all that matter. As things continued to progress they seemed to take good of their roles and the pain became more intense as the whipping increased in both duration and force . The  s I was to take and hold inside became bigger. One day one brother had me tied over a stool  in the tent and was working a candle in me. After he had covered me with the hot wax  from the same candle. when the other brother came over pulled my hair to raise my head and stuck his crotch in my face I could feel his hard cock under the jeans as he rubbed across my face.. I moaned and bucked forward as the candle went deep , and I was pushed into those jeans ,I could feel the heat , and the dampness from his precum. That was to much I guess and before I knew it his pants were off and his hard cock was pushing against my lips I felt a sharp pain as a paddle came down hard on my ass,  and I opened my mouth to protest and it was immediately filled with a hard  cock.  It made me gag and my eyes tearup , but it felt good and he was holding my head , and telling me to relax and how good it felt , so me being the submissive I am, i relaxed into the feelings and took as much of him as I could . He held my head firm , and began to stroke my mouth Stopping occasionally so I could catch my breath , and he could make sure I was alright. It made me feel good , wanted and in my own way loved.  Upon seeing this the other brother started rubbing his hard cock on my ass and between my  cheeks. He took out the candle and put something cool over my hole and pushed his fingers in and moved them around to spread what he had applied , next I felt something hard and warm push against me and begin to slide in , it was about the size of the candlethat was just removed.  But softer , I felt him slide in until his body was hitting mine. It hurt not bad , but an exciting hurt . It was something crazy, and naughty , but felt so good . All at once  things began to flow ,and each alternated their thrusts so I was being bounced between the two hard cocks inside me I had two hands on my head , and two on my waist pulling me deep in each direction. I felt wonderful despite the pain,  I relaxed and began to not only enjoy it but make it better ,I used my tongue and lips on the hard cock in my mouth , and  I began to contract my muscles to squeeze the cock in my ass . To soon the brother fucking my ass began to come, I didn't want him to pull out so I ground back on his still hardcock , and kept him inside until the other brother came in my mouth. It was hot and tasted strange , both brothers fell back to the floor of the tent laughing , that laugh you have when you just finished a great orgasm . Me I was still bound to the stool  but I was squirming , holding my mouth open wanting more . I had changed during those  last few minutes , and became a sexual animal ,  lost my innocence, virginity and any dominance  that might have remained.  I felt more loved and wanted than I ever had before and I knew I was meant to serve and destined to be a toy for hard cocks , and much later wet pussies, but that's a story for another day .  So the brothers fucking me became a daily thing that summer , and would spend many nights camping out tied in someway usually covered on cum.  When school started things were different , I wasnt hazed,  the brothers treated me like a prized pet , taking care of me protecting me , making me feel I belonged.  Sex became more rare , only ocassionally away from the tent  and maybe on weekends as the brothers began to have other Activities and friends , we had several more summers , but none as intense as that first one when they brought me out . By the last summer with them I was insatiable. I was addicted and they knew it . They begin to have other freinds join our camp outs , and they would always have me pleasure their guests,  one time I time I remember they had several freinds over , I was made to jerk off in a bowl in front of all of them , then suck each one until they came each in turn adding their cum to bowl. Then I was made to lap the cum from the bowl and move on all fours  while they all talked and drank some liquor one of boys took from his home . Soon I was tied , and once again the center of attention as I was fucked, and whipped until everyone fell asleep . This was one of the last times we were together , they had both grown and had girlfriends , so I was not as important , they did have one more surprise for me before we were done . This starts another chapter in my life ... for next time . 

5/1/2022 2:16:53 PM:   My story  Where to start ? I like many Tgs, I started at a very young age , i was treated different , family members dressed me in effeminate clothes,  and taught me domestic skills , sewing cooking,  cleaning , serving food and beverage to others. Already trained as a feminine physical submisive by the time I was 6 . I had my first encounter with 2 sisters that lived across the street.  We were playing in their back yard , and they had me get  in a big cardboard box.. Where I grew up backyards were very large and acre or 2 so a backyard seemed immense, and you could be isolated yet still be in the yard . Amy way  they started telling me a story about giant would challange their pray , before they devoured it. As they told the story , they had me strip , to show the spiders I would follow the orders , soon I was in a box naked with the girls holding my clothes . My last test to prove to the spider I should not be devoured would be to stay in the box until they returned . I stayed in the box the rest of the day until it got dark . Then the oldest sister came out and dropped my clothes in the box and told me I could go and one day would make someone very happy. I got dressed and hurried home as fast as I could , but i had missed dinner and it was dark , two rules icouldn't break.  I walked into the house to the waiting belt of my father and the screams and swats of my mother for being late . Though the pain was intense I was used to it , to me this is how parents showed theoir love.  And unknown to me at the time  was about to come next in the new house . Sometimes  I still wonder what happened to the sisters  they moved a few weeks later , and my family  moved a  months later.  

11/26/2021 8:49:51 AM: It's been such a long time that I have made an entry in my journal.  But yes I'm still here , still on Hormones and trying to schedule some surgeries to make me better . I have let my hair grow its past my shoulders now , and for those who love heels I wear them daily , I am well dressed and for the most part accepted as I present , female . During covid I have lost touch with many of my freinds and yes  lovers. My life has continued to evoke and as I mentioned,  trying to make those last steps to become a desired man maid women. Things were going well until this panic swot the world . I've mostly tried to keep out of the endless debate on governments , politics and religion , so I'd rather talk about sex and all that .   I hope everyone is looking forward to the holidays and renewal of a new year , I know I am 

1/23/2017 12:59:43 AM: This will be short, I just want to apologize if I am delayed in replying to anyone. If you have been following the weather we have experienced torrential rainfall and wind gusts in the area I live, my back yard, pool and garage have been Flooded, a covered storage area has had the cover dropped off,and it's contents damaged, and plants,trees and debris liters the yard n pool . I expect to be spending a lot of time trying to recover from these storms and take some actions to minimize damage in the storms on the horizon that might hit late next week. So please forgive me if I'm slow to respond, I will be extremely busy. So have patience with me.

11/26/2016 3:25:09 AM: Well yesterday was thanksgiving, started cong and prepping on Wednesday, cooked n cleaned dishes all day thanksgiving, except to watch the Macy's parade. I'm recovering from a really bad cold and bronchial infection, I was living on day .night caplets. Still have a bad ćough, but getting better. I've been bad lately and messed up my injection schedule. But that just goes with everything else...lol I know there is a light switch in this tunnel and I'm determined to find it. I have decided I've been alone long enough and with a bit of encouragement from a very smart woman, I have decided to get out there more, and learn to not worry what people think about the way i look. She reminded me that it is a difficult path and doesn't happen over night. I have just always had low self esteem, and not happy with who i was , but lately I haven't been happy with who I am becoming, but as I venture out Im discovering I'm far more critical in myself than are others. I am a bar maid for a few functions here in la, and have found it very rewarding, to the point I am feeling confidante and actually get excited at the though of having great makeup and a sexy outfit and serving a club full of supportive people. You can't believe how great it feels when you get feedback from the club owner that one of the regulars thought I was pretty hot. .. I know I'm not a glamorous model, but I'm working with what I was given,and what the hormones has given me, and like those models I'm totally open to all the cosmetic enhancements available today.from injections to surgery. Now if I just had the money , when it's meant to be it will. (a funny thing about me I enter every contest that shows up in my in box, I know but you got to dream right) I guess I'm becoming comfortable in my skin again, and will make the best of however it is perfect or not. I sincerely hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. sindee