I am almost to the point where I am tempted to make one of those 'you come to me, rent a hotel room for a weekend and I will sign a release form and you can spend as much time as you want doing whatever you want (within reason) with me and pushing my boundaries' offers... Fortunately (or unfortunately) I know exactly how stupid and unsafe an offer like that would be and that for every rational dom/domme I'd find, there would be one of questionable sanity who might take things too far. And unfortunately there's no one I've been talking to consistently that I would trust THAT much to make an offer that stupid. It makes for good fantasy, but not a healthy reality. And so the frustration continues.

Let me tell you something, folks. Covid is not a joke. If you're one of those conspiracy folks or an anti vaxxer, I want nothing to do with you. It is brutal.

There are a few things I feel I must clarify. When I say that sex and sexuality are a huge part of service/submission, I mean as a tool used to control me...to humiliate me. I do NOT mean for my gratification. It was very much a large part of my initial exposure to BDSM, sexual humiliation...and it has stayed with me through the years, but has never been about me being sated. It is purely about my dom/domme's pleasure. I serve at their discretion. Sex and sexuality are a tool. There are a lot of folks for whom it's about their orgasm. That is not me.

I am less and less impressed with doms on this site. I keep seeing all these profiles about 'there are so many game players!!!' and 'I'm looking for something REAL!!!'...'I don't tolerate LIARS!!!' So ok...you're intolerant of game players, sick of liars. I tell you the truth. I am right up front with the good, the bad, the ugly. You can read through my journal and see that. I understand I am not anyone's idea of physical perfection. I've stated that over and over again. So we get to a certain point, you're impressed with how much I seem to understand the role of a sub/slave...and then...despite this, boom...you suddenly ghost. No explanation, no response...just. ghost. I understand that you're playing the role of the big bad dom and you have to maintain this BS, including a first email saying something like 'KNEEL SLAVE!!' right off the bat instead of a 'hey...how are you? Nice profile...etc.' However, it's simple human decency...'I'm sorry, you're very cool, but I don't feel like you're something I'm looking for.' Especially after a slew of messages back and forth.If you're tired of liars and game players, then don't be one of the fools lying or playing games and wasting peoples' time and emotions.

Let the next ghoster step forward!