Collarspace

Okay, so here goes nothing. i am divorced from a 20 year vanilla relationship. After 10 years in this lifestyle, i still feel new. There is so much still for me to learn and i continue to try to find my way. i will say i no longer wonder whether this is actually where i belong, i now know this is where i belong.

The first thing everyone wants to know is what i want. i have discovered so much about myself in these last few years, but i can honestly still say i have no definite blueprint for how i want my life to end up. i do know that i am enjoying the discovery and feel like i can finally be me with the group of folks i have found...i am excited for the future and what it holds for me.

Another thing i have discovered is that i want, no, i need to be in a relationship. i need people in my life that i can feel that connection with. i need to please, respect, serve and especially love. i also need to feel wanted, desired, appreciated, and yes, loved in return. This Persons would be respectful of my fears and concerns and will walk and talk through them with me instead of saying shut up slut and just do it. i am very sexual and love to please my partners but need to know that my fears and concerns are taken into account as well.

i am not looking for random hook ups at this time or to be Someones play toy that they bring out and let their friends enjoy and then forget about until the next party. i am not interested in any type of relationship where there is another party who is not fully aware of all persons in the relationship, i will not be Someones side piece. i also am not looking to support Someone financially. i dont have a problem doing my share in a relationship but i am not looking for Someone who is willing to do Their part...been there, done that and not going back. Am not looking for anything online or long distance unless folks travel easily and frequently. Real time, not just once every few months, is what im seeking.

When i am in a relationship, Ds or vanilla, i am 100 faithful, loyal and as obedient as i can be -) i love seeing the smile on that special Someones face when i have pleased HimHerThem and just adore hearing HimHerThem say how happy i have made HimHerThem. i also need regular contact with my Dominants. This doesnt have to always be physical contact but at least a text or call at regular intervals. i suppose thats me needing to know im not alone. If this is not the type of relationship that is of interest to You, i fully understand but please pass me by. i am still discovering me, but i am absolutely certain of what i dont want or need.