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| Pan Female, 38, Houston, Texas
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Female
Houston Texas 5' 4"
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Multicultural
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I am the owned property of a man who delights in my displays of submission.
He requires me to be pleasing to any man he doesnt find contemptible, though hes been surprised at how many manage that.
What does pleasing look like? He has a fuller set of rules I can share with those who are interested. But the quick version would be
Respectful conversation. Seeking ways to be pleasing and flirtatious in my responses. Being accommodating with most pictures that dont include my face. Following most requests that dont harm or risk his property.
In person, with those who are local enough, it means having no control of my clothing, offering my holes to please, enduring most things that dont leave me heavily marked or bleeding.
I am a masochist. I enjoy obeying orders that hurt. He limits the degree to which I can be hurt by those he doesnt know well but my body is here to suffer within that.
Lowering myself to be inferior to *all* men here on CS, to you dear reader, is hard for me. (Not all of you approach with decorum) He knows its hard. He knows there are times I hate it. That I do it anyway, to show my devotion to him, just pleases him all the more.
My owner owns my heart. I wont belong to you but, within that, he is most generous.
A little about me as a girl Im an extroverted introvert (yes, its possible). I believe in the goodness of humanity, which some find laughable and others find uplifting. If you need help, I will do my best. Im an empathetic, intuitive girl who loves a good discussion.
Ive been highly involved in BDSM since I was 22 this is hardly my first experience of the scene. There isnt much I havent at least tried. I have run local groups. I have known awesome people. When my owner takes pride in how pleasing I can be, its because he knows Ive been there and earned that pride
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11/15/2014 8:57:22 AM: Aaaaannnndddd... time for a new life update! Intermind and I are engaged, and I am collared! I am happier than I've been in a very long time, and life just feels right.
4/20/2014 5:19:02 PM: Somehow it seems that people don't notice the dates on journal entries, so I'm updating to quit having the divorce entry be the top entry. :)
Here's a poem:
Joy by Lisel Mueller
“Don’t cry, its only music,”someone’s voice is saying.“No one you love is dying.”
It’s only music. And it was only spring,the world’s unreasoning bodyrun amok, like a saint’s, with glory,that overwhelmed a young girlinto unreasoning sadness.“Crazy,” she told herself,“I should be dancing with happiness.”
But it happened again. It happenswhen we make bottomless love—there follows a bottomless sadnesswhich is not despairbut its nameless opposite.It has nothing to do with the passing of time.It’s not about loss. It’s abouttwo seemingly parallel linessuddenly coming togetherinside us, in some placethat is still wilderness.
Joy, joy, the sopranos sing,reaching for the shimmering noteswhile our eyes fill with tears.
8/16/2012 6:01:25 PM: Well, I write here every time something significant happens. Meantoys and I are divorcing and ending our relationship. This breaks my heart, I do not want it, but he says he sees no other choice for himself, and I have to respect his decision. I respect his decision not because I was once his slave but because I respect him, and at some point, you have no choice but to believe what someone tells you is their truth.
8/22/2010 9:27:02 PM: This is Stephen's account. I am blissfully happy!
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Standing in the crumbled remnants of my kitchen, surrounded by shattered brick and mortar, my girl covered in dusty blue paint, I realized this was the most us, where we were most of all who we are.
I said
'I want more'
'I want your name'
'I want your hair'
'I want your money'
'I want your children'
'I want everything you have'
'I want the rest of your life'
'I want you to marry me'
She said
'yes sir'
12/6/2008 7:52:10 AM: I seem to write an entry every time something significant happens in my life. Well, this morning marked something extremely significant and life-changing! I've been seeing a man in a D/s relationship for the last 15 months or so. He's taken the time to learn about all of my me-ness. He's found ways to make me feel comfortable as a submissive or even a slave. He loves me unconditionally, and I love him in return. :)The only sadness I've felt recently was the lack of anything actually official about his possession of me. Every time he told me I was his, I felt a pang of sadness because there was no collar. I knew it wasn't time yet, that he was taking his time... to be absolutely sure. This morning, the morning of my birthday no less, he put his collar on me. It's the absolute best present ever!! :) Oh and never mind that it's made out of gold and diamonds. *grin* Pictures are forthcoming, no worries. :) Plus, the one that's posted now was from about 65 pounds ago. Yes, he's even helped me lose weight. I've finally found a home where I can be me, continue to grow, and just relax!
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