MAKE ME GO AWAY - sub who wants to be a slave, to lose her identity completely, make me go away, make me someone new.

Please see my journal below - old account NEW user as of Dec. 16 2017

Really into Relyfe Programming - if you are are too that would be good. i like it when someone takes my mind away completely with, makes me into something else. Its been done to me for almost a week at a time and i love just being something else, not me.
i enjoy furniture restrictions, and eye contract restrictions, vaginal oral and anal play. i enjoy moderate to severe corporal punishment, corner time (with or without other people seeing the there), being slapped and being publicly and privately degraded.

i am leaning towards enjoy pain and want to move slowly into the more extreme but im not quite there yet.

i will not jump in my car tomorrow and rush to serve you forever without spending at least a little time here or chatting online, then on the phone, then casual meetings in person making sure we are compatible with each other. i want to lose my personality to a new slaves life of service, i dont want to surrender to a homicidal maniac and wake up dead the next day, so please be patient with me. More photos available upon request.

i am a good cook and housekeeper, im very domestic and very much a homebody.

i am financially comfortable and dont have to work now and can carry my own financially...even if you dont want me to work outside the home.
Might consider Daddydaughter or bring a little for the right Man.

123017 1238pm..
Just asked what has been done to me with erotic hypnosis and Relyfe. This comes up a lot and then people seem to lose interest. So i guess ill repeat what i answered here to help filter out people who dont want a changed girl.
What has Relyfe dont to me Its hard to explain but i can try. i think i was remade into the usually happy submission seeking girl i am today. Its hard to tell because all of my memories seem to support that i have always been this way, but my extended family (no immediate family) say that i used to be super assertive and, well, was something of a miserable always wanting everyone else miserable too bitch.
Then 3 weeks with my former owner and i was someonen else. And i dont think anyone would honestly accuse me of being a bitch today... Sometimes, maybe, just a little catty with other girls, but not a bitch.
My aunt and cousins DO NOT know the sexual parts of the change.
Additionally, i do know that certain trigger words, irresistible commands, were put in place that work VERY well.
The two biggest things for me are that its been used to take my identity away - for a whole week once - i cant explain why thats so important to me or how insanely addictive it is to me, addictive and attractive to me, how much i need not to be me and that its been used for age play with me which is incredible. Believing, knowing im x age and having no other accessible memories beyond that age, only knowing that i am that age, a slave to my Master and having to serve Him (or Her i suspect) totally or be punished.. Even being punished at X age, no recollection of sexual acts or adult control over my body and its very adult responses... OMG its the most INSANE experience imaginable. Thats what Relyfe programming and erotic hypnosis are for me.
i explained this to one guy here who rejected me because he says its too much like rape, but its not that way, not in MY head anyway.