Thought it was time to update this.

Basically, Im fat, ugly and worthless but on the road to recovery. My mental health was clearly not where it should've been. Went to hospital for a few weeks to get me restablised. I was given a diagnosis of Bipolar previously, but not sure if that's what I'm being treated for. Just looking for people to chat to and or game with. I really miss gaming with people and feeling quite isolated at the moment. Not really sure what else to put on here, I have alot of random theories/silly little thoughts on why I'm not really the type that men seek out/choose to be with and propose to. Not that I'm looking for that as I think being collared has a more special and specific meaning and basically the same thing in my opinion. Sorry, to all the nice seeming gentleman that have messaged me, reaching out to try and offer your support is something that I'm grateful for. I can only hope that you're intentions were for those reasons. Bare with me as I didn't realise how much I struggle with being social even online and that I did also have a diagnosis of ADHD and think I might also possibly be Autistic but not sure if it's worth trying to get tested at my age. 

Im not looking to be saved or rescued, just maybe a man who can give me some advice, someone who I can build trust with and see where things go.

If it wasnt for all these fucked up issues, I know I could make the right man happy because his approval is what I crave most and want to work for.