5/14/2022 4:45:53 AM: 1 year post gastric bypass I have lost approximately 80 pounds from December 2020-May 2022. I had gastric bypass on May 2021. What have I learned in the first year post gastric bypass: A bite or two of something is enough for a taste but you don’t need a ton. A single bite or two of something sweet but high in calories is usually enough. I was trained as a small child that anything you take you eat. Learning to stop when full and ask for a box or throw away/give away the remainder has been a huge success. Shopping in decreasing sizes doesn’t mean you have to purchase every size as you go down. I have gone from a 22/24 sometimes 26 down to a 12-16 depending on the store. I have gotten a lot of my clothes from friends at a clothing exchange. I have at times lost more inches than pounds so when i decide everything is too big I shop then i see a large jump from where i was to where I am. I’ve gone from an old navy xxl at my heaviest to a xl in bodycon dresses to a m in summer dresses. Which was a thrill. However, I don’t shop enough to purchase every size. In Jeans, I usually end up dropping 2 or 3 sizes when i shop since i wear them with a belt until they are insanely big. Weighing/measuring portions isn’t a bad thing. I actually want to upgrade my food scale to a nicer one. I use this daily. When I pack lunches for work I’m still packing too much. It is a shock to bring home half of what i pack. If i take a large back of something into my desk drawer I have to take a measuring device to portion it out or portion ahead of time. If not I fall into bad habits The scale isnt the only victory. If i lose inches and clothing fit better that is a win. Being able to take dresses from tunic tops to actually dresses with boots this winter has been fun. Regular knee-high boots not extra extended calf have been a thrill. Being able to handle heels regularly has been amazing. Going to the gym is fun with the right classes. Spend the extra for the gym with classes you might like. My family spends 86 per month on the YMCA instead of 40 for planet fitness locally. The Y has childcare and all the classes. I go to water aerobics, pure barre and body pump. I have a ton of fun at all 3. Plus as long as I go 12 times a month I get 20 back on membership. If my husband goes 12 times we get 20 back for him as well. SO it bring the Y down close to Planet fitness in cost plus it includes childcare and activities for my daughter as well. I can keep up with my co-workers who are almost half my age. I feel mentally sharper. I also can physically outdo some of them. I work in a department where we move some boxes of paperwork on a regular basis. As long as i’m not wearing a short skirt and the box isn’t over my head I can lift most. I have learned it is ok to ask for help with medical concerns. I am an insulin diabetic on a pump. I have had to reach out a few times for my data to be reviewed by my diabetic care team and be adjusted. My goals for year 2 are to: I plan to up my time at the Y. I currently go 2 times a week for me and then 2 times a week for my kid to use the pool. I want to get to 3 or 4 times a week for me and 2 times for my kid. Find someone to be accountable to forMonitoring the protein i get in daily- i should be getting between 60-90 grams of protein in dailyMy time spent at the gymMy food logs With my current partners consider adding those pieces into my dynamic with them. Not so much as to be babied by them but to know i’m being monitored. To Know i will be asked why i didnt do one of them some specific day. It is like the monitoring with my medications that we do currently. I want to get under 200 pounds. I have always been a BBW but i want to become closer to hwp. I want to be able to completely shop in straight sizes instead of still flipping between straight sizes and plus. I want to be able to get tied into more positions. In addition to being a masochist.

3/5/2017 6:42:33 PM: I got to play this weekend: here are my thoughts          sacred whore   There is something to be said for the whole concept of the sacred whore. There is a freedom that comes from embracing that persona. There is a peace that can come over the entire body. Sex is sex, of course, but when you have the chance to really look at what it is to hit subspace or to fly the reality of the sacred whore comes into play. Subspace/Domspace in my view of them can be a form of meditation. A uniting with the divine. The chance to receive new messages or bits of knowledge from beyond. I think that might, just may be the reason why people enjoy it. The body is built to want to interact with the divine, the universe. The bits and pieces that can be acquired from the universe allows us to correct/chart our paths. I'm sure there are vanilla girls who hit the same sort of 'space' from vanilla sex. It is simply I think the way and the reason humans have been able to procreate for kabillions of years. The kinky people, the tools enable us to reach the divine as easy or easier than the vanilla population. It becomes an addiction to many. Always chasing the next high. I think its why we as a community look at individuals without partners as needing a partner sometimes. Its why some communities are hard as singles to become a part of. There is always that bit missing. It may be wired into us. The question could then becomes could the whole sacred whore be gentic?

11/4/2015 7:44:25 PM: It's been 2 years, since I played. I e stayed active here mostly to keep in touch with friends I've meet. I'm now interested in finding a playpartner. Here are the very basics. I am seeking a poly person who is ok being a secondary partner. I am married and have a small child so sometimes I will have to cancel. I need to have someone where I am not mom but just me. Help me not loose myself please.

9/20/2013 9:07:32 PM: It is time for another rant... first off please dont take it personally if I cannot respond immediately. I have a bad habit of leaving my laptop or ipad connected to CM while I am at work. IF we start chatting and I am at work realize that I may not get to tell you that I will be right back. Also I work a TON so if we have been texting and I get quiet it is probably because I have eiher fallen asleep from exhaustion or I am running errands in the litle bit of free time I have between shifts. Yes, I work ALOT. I cannot remember my last pay check that did not have a boatload of over time. I will NOT support a grown man. I believe that You shouldn't havev to support me nor should I have to support you. I do though, believe that if we have agreed on more than just a play partner relationship, in public you need to treat me like a pincess. In private it is a different story. There are times that i do push the limits, and test the rules. i don't see issues with that. I move slow for a reason. I don't want to get hurt and I don't want you to get hurt. So, if you are local to me currently and are interested in getting together to play please let me know. I am looking for a playpartner where we can have fun but where I can also submit completely. Lets see what we can make happen!!

9/20/2013 9:07:31 PM: It is time for another rant... first off please dont take it personally if I cannot respond immediately. I have a bad habit of leaving my laptop or ipad connected to CM while I am at work. IF we start chatting and I am at work realize that I may not get to tell you that I will be right back. Also I work a TON so if we have been texting and I get quiet it is probably because I have eiher fallen asleep from exhaustion or I am running errands in the litle bit of free time I have between shifts. Yes, I work ALOT. I cannot remember my last pay check that did not have a boatload of over time. I will NOT support a grown man. I believe that You shouldn't havev to support me nor should I have to support you. I do though, believe that if we have agreed on more than just a play partner relationship, in public you need to treat me like a pincess. In private it is a different story. There are times that i do push the limits, and test the rules. i don't see issues with that. I move slow for a reason. I don't want to get hurt and I don't want you to get hurt. So, if you are local to me currently and are interested in getting together to play please let me know. I am looking for a playpartner where we can have fun but where I can also submit completely. Lets see what we can make happen!!