Please don't be silly and send me a friend request without knowing me.
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True submission starts where the own liking ends.
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Yes, I know my place. I know that I can't be in a relationship where I am not in a development and dressage as a slave. I have made my experiences to know that, be confident with my submissive nature and I know also that there is more to it to make it work. It is also about the connection between two humans, intimacy, honesty, allowing to feel vulnerable (both) and much more.
Yes I still see me as a human. As a slave and human and not a slave and . But...yes, I also know that I will be treated and maybe also trained to be an . There is a difference and we can talk about that.
I am very obedient because I want to see my owner happy. I can also enjoy pain, but I am not a normal masochist. Pain is still pain for me and it is simply the fact when I know that my owner enjoys something that it becomes also enjoyable for me (till a certain point). I can also find meaning in my dressage and development as a slave. I do have many fetish but I do belief that true submission starts behind my own liking (I can explain that a bit more in a conversation). The deeper the relationship goes the more dependent I will become. Also my own happiness will become dependent to the happiness of my owner. This feeling of dependence is nothing that feels strange for me. It feels normal and natural that there will come a point where I start to develop a dependence.
This is also a very important part. That both parts are aware of the responsibility and the change which come by walking on the path of a true and honest BDSM relationship.
I am aware that my owner will rule how I experience reality. I do believe that there are three parts of it.
1. The mental aspects
2. The psychological aspects
3. The physical aspects
I have experienced how all the aspects can also help me to overcome or show resistances. I have written a journal entry about sensory deprivation and to less sleep. It do believe that both parts can find new levels of experiencing life, joy, service and feeling connected.
Yes, I am open to find my way back into dependence to the lifestyle and my owner. Feeling this dependence feel right and normal. I feel about it as simply one part of my normal.
Thank your for your time and reading my profile.
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