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I am looking for a maternal figure in my life. Fair warning, I am not very emotionally stable at the moment, but I am in therapy.
About myself, I am intelligent, insecure, and adventurous. Very kind, giving, and obedient, but I have a bit of a streak with reluctance/rebellion.
I am absolutely okay with a sadist, though I am not myself a masochist, at least not physically. Dacryphilia plays hand in hand with my main interests, which are emotional/psychological abuse (for instance making me feel insecure until I'm anorexic and then making me feel like a fat pig) intensity, and FEAR. Mmm <3
I'm also very scared and inexperienced with consensual, adult play. I would ideally like someone who can be sweet and take it slow. I do often revert to a sort of child-like emotional/mental state, especially when I'm afraid or in sexual situations. I do not play "little" and don't really color and all that, but I do just naturally like cute things, teddy bears, bows, flowers, that sort of thing. It's just a part of who I am.
I am interested in petplay as well as ageplay, though as I said, it's not something I do or have done. I am interested in it via sort of hypnosis or training where I'm made to be dependant on diapers. I suppose I take everything too far.
Physically, I am too fat right now, and bulimic. I would rather be anorexic again. My breasts are asymmetrical and I hate them. I cut myself and have scars and stretch marks. I need a lot of work. I'm VERY interested in a physically fit mommy who would demand of me high physical exertion. I just love the idea of food restriction, weight control, and forced exercise.
I. Love. Micromanagement.
I can be a good girl but I have a long way to go and a lot of life to get straight. I don't expect someone to want the mess that I am, but if you want to talk, I'd like that.
My limits are penetration and men. I would rather be kept in chastity actually. I am vaguely asexual. Pictures are not of me, just my ideal.
I wanted to add here what I believe I have to offer a dominant woman.
*I vow to be obedient and honest
*I vow to be dedicated and loyal
*I vow to do my best to communicate clearly and openly
*I vow to try to think for myself and not let my dependence be a burden
*I vow to try my harderst to grow in myself and together
*I vow to work hard and to be fully committed to my(Your) goals for me
*I vow to try to get to know you and anticipate your needs and to try to fulfill them
*I vow to try to be an asset for You and to take pride in being Yours
*I vow to be kind, considerate, and loving towards you always
NO MEN PLEASE
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