Today i went inside his mind again while we were together.  I love the way he holds on to me to fuck me and really have become quite the pain slut(am not lol).  He is my world and i cant live without him.  I intend to live life to the fullest with him and look forward to our journey together.  Not to much longer and i will be in his bed everynight and day.  I love you!!!!!

Time for bed.  I have a big date with my Master tomorrow i have come to live for the days i am to go to him.  I cant wait to sit upon his lap and give him kisses for even 1 day is to long to go without seeing him.  Good night I will dream of you and our life as it will be soon.

I have thought of nothing more than my Master all day.  There are so many things to do but i cant concentrate when i am away from him, all i do is think about our past time togeterh and what the next time will hold for us.  Tomorrow cant get get here any faster.  i love thinking about all the changes i am about to go through.  My excitement runs through my veins i know our life together is going to be full of adventure and pleasure.

I awoke several times last night and reached for him.  He isnt here and it hurts me so.  I am getting things ready so that i can be with him 24/7 when this happens i will truly be the happiest ever.  I find myself looking for his smile his touch all day long.  I grow even closer to him each day.  He is everything to me, i dont know how i live all the days of my life before i met him for now i would just wilt away if anything ever happened to him.  I know that life without him in it isnt worth living.  I love you Daddy.  I cant wait until tomorrow so that i can feel you against my body again.

Today was incredible. I went to subspace and he took me there.  I have never cum so hard as i did when he was looking me in my eyes and tellin gme to give it all t him I did and i am so happy.  I will always be by his side.  My purpose in this life is to please him and i know i did that today because he said so.  I await the day for my 24/7 service there are such good things to come for the both of us.  I am only complete when i am with him.  When he is inside me i feel him inside my heart mind body and soul.  I am such a lucky girl because he chose me to be his and to love me as much as i love him.  I have no choice for now i am a part of him and he is a part of me.

Tonight as I talked to my Daddy/master he told me to expect great things tomorrow.  I cant sleep thinking about what is to come.  I know when i leave him tomorrow i will be trans formed still more thatn i am all ready.  I love him so much.  I trust him so i will give myself to him wholely and he can do as he wishes to me for i knowhegets his pleasure from watching me strive to please him and go over the edge as far as he will take me.  i cant wait to update me journal after tomorrow.

There have been many men i played with.  I called most of them Daddy.  I told a few that I surrender to them and that they had every part of me.  I truly believed that i meant what I said to them.  But until yesterday i had no clue what it meant to be truly cherished and owned by a Master.  I went to places i have never been before .  I felt him inside my mind inside my heart and then it was incredible i felt him with my soul.  I have never experineced anything like that.  It was  such a spritual connection i was inside of him also.  Iam  truly happier than i have ever been.  I have never known such a great man and wonderful Daddy.  I love him mor than my own life.  I will strive everyday of my life to make sure that My Master is always happy and pleased, i love his smile and the way his eyes light up when i come in the room.  I want that to be forever more.  Today ilook at the bruises on my ass and i relish in the fact that when i was in subspace they helped me get there.  I love you Master and you are the only one that has every owned every piece of me. I know that i was made for you and i have been searching for you for what seems a lifetime, i am so glad that my search is over and look so forward to what the future holds for us.