I have copied & pasted one of my spanking accounts from my journal...{below} It gives a good idea of what I am into lol...
My Christmas "Thrashing"...12/12/07
Sub space...
Current mood: blissful
{{{sighs}}}...Mmmmm!...I would describe myself as in "Ectasy"...
Yes Sir just left lol...After giving me a REALLY thorough thrashing...
Life at the moment...feels..."Fantastic"...
Gawd...I sound like a druggy lol...Well...I suppose endorphines are a sort of drug...Because when your body...brain...what ever...are soaked in them...THAT much...you are floating...
I had a really unsettled night...One minute I was awake...tossing & turning...Then I was asleep...dreaming about what I was thinking about when I was awake...then I woke up again...& carried on thinking...lol...Very confusing...
Because of my unsettled night...I woke up feeling grumpy...Of course John was at the recieving end of my grumpiness...
Sooo we had a row before Sir got here...I had a face...like a slapped back side {{{grins}}}...I managed to put on a smile for Sir...when he arrived...after all...it is not his fault lol...
We had our usual cup of tea & chat...Then I told him..."I need a really...really...REALLY hard thrashing"...Sir said something about aiming to please...Ohhh he certainly did lol...
Sir then got the wooden hair brush...Sat down on the settee...I then went over his lap...For a very long...HARD hand & hair brush spanking...Mmmm!...
After that I was very warm...relaxed...& tingly...Sir decided that it was time for the cane...I made "Ohhh nooo" subbie noises...which really mean...Mmmm! yeeessss!...
This time I was in the very lady like dignified position...of...Kneeling on the settee...bent over the arm...bottom in the air...elbows on the seat of the other settee...which sir had pulled up...
He then caned me very HARD...I must have resigned myself...to wanting the pain...because I found I could cope with the pain...even though Sir was thrashing me harder then usual...Mind over mater...I suppose...
Even when he caned me rapidly...which I usually find difficult to cope with...I took it in my stride...
Anyway...I was going off into sub space...{endorphine rush}...& on the edge of tears...when Sir decided it was time for a break..."Ohhh"...{{{pouts}}}...
We had another cup of tea & chat...
Because...you are doing something you get pleasure from...I get very Mmmm after effects from pain...but not when I stub my toe...or some other indury...
Anyway...we had a indepth conversation about spanking...etc...Which helped me get things back into perspective...on a personal level...
Sir was going home before 1pm...so at 12:06pm...I dropped a big hint...as in..."It is 12:06"...That hint did work lol...He asked me what I wanted to do next...Usually he decides...but he prolly knew what I wanted...so wanted me to actually say it...
Of course I said I wanted to be thrashed again...He asked me..."What with?"...I said..."The cane"...he said..."Ok...what cane?"...I said..."All of them"...he said..."How many strokes with each"...I said "12"...soooo I had just asked Sir for 48 strokes of the cane...
Then he said..."Where do you want me to do it?"...as in which position...I chose the same position as before...so I would not full over lol...
Ohhh "Wow"...Sir caned me really REALLY HARD...a lot harder then usual...I went right into sub space...& cried a little...Pain does not usually make me cry...If I cry during a thrashing...it is because I feel emotional...
Towards the end when I was right in sub space...all I could manage was a moan...when the cane hit me...Apparently I didn't even flinch...so I was absorbing all the pain...as Sir put it...
At one point...about half way I think...Sir asked me..."Is this hurting?"...I managed a subbie pain induced..."Yes Sir"...He spoke to me a few times...but I can not remember everything...I just remember the effect his words had on me...
Whilst I was still in position...Sir rubbed lots of cream into my very hot stripey bottom...{{{sighs}}}...After a while...I managed to prise myself out of that position...{not easy when you are nearly 40 lol}...
Then...I went straight back over Sirs knee...for more lotion...Mmmm!...Whilst over Sirs lap...we also had a chat lol...He told me how I had gone very quiet... at the end & how I just gave a little moan...but did not even flinch...so had absorbed all the pain...I told him that I could have gone on for longer...
Sir told me that there is that temptation...but...my bottom could not have taken more...
I am going to grovel now...Has anyone got a bucket lol...I think my Dom is the best Dom...Because he is very aware of his subs feelings...emotions...what she wants...He does not realise that he is actually Domming me lol...but it is subtle Domming...
He left me feeling totally relaxed...satisfied...sore lol...but...I do not have any feelings of confusion...He gave me exactly what I asked for...& he never went too far...
I asked for the severe thrashing...told him what to use...& how many...even the position lol...Oh & the fact that I want it harder then usual...On the way to the kitchen...to make our 2nd cup of tea...Sir said something...about how he knows I could take it a lot harder...but he doesn't think my bottom could take it...I agreed...but pointed out...that he could do it even harder sometimes...{or words to that effect}...
I will stop rambling now...& wriggling about on my desk chair...{{{heehee}}}
Will continue later.................................
