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Photo #2(black latex doll) IS NOT ME, I have all my limbs:-) Photo #3(girl in a wheelchair) IS NOT ME, I have all my limbs. Photo #4 is of a homemade arm and leg bondage, created with non-stick bondage tape or electrical tape. These are women I consider extremely beautiful. If you do too, contact me. It is not realistic to expect we will ever meet if you live in other than Northern NJ or NYC area. I will correspond with you only if we have extremely similar interests, as well as welcome a meeting if you are in the area. If you write a one liner, it will be erased. Please read my journal and profile and respond only if these things appeal to you, not if you are the typical troll who just wants to beat up women or get a bj. I am a submissive female(36DD, size 8-10) interested in bondage, submission. My idea of a perfect lover is a man who is discreet, normal, educated, hopefully somewhat handsome, but who likes to manipulate physically and mentally. I am looking for someone who has some experience with bondage, medical fetishes, and is not scared of trying new(but safe) things. And finally someone who is not squeamish about body modification fetishes and fantasies. Safe and sane of course. It is all a fantasy... My ideas include: plugs, corsets, teasing, stockings, boots, restrictive or complete bondage, mummification, objectification, latex, gags, ear plugs, catheters, medical fetishes-body braces, leg braces, wheelchairs, humiliation, bandage, cast, crutches, amputee fetish, puppy or amputee play, etc. Not into anything messy, like spitting or such, but very curious about diapers and enema as a discipline or medical play. Not into pain inflicted by a sadist men(who only thing they are dominant), more into the element of anticipation and submission in different situations: being a sexual object; being bound for hours; being forced to crawl on all fours 24/7, wearing plugs and corsets 24/7, being treated as a patient-catheters, tubes, being physically modified by master(made into a human toy), being carried, placed, manipulated, washed, fed, etc...

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5/6/2013 9:38:08 PM
Finally got to use my toys. Life gets busy. Today I spent the day shopping, but as a special treat I wore a latex panty with an internal dildo. It was a bit uncomfortable, but overall I was very turned on. The way I was penetrated the whole day kept me on the edge and reminded me how much I love my holes plugged. Tonight I will sleep again with a dildo inside me.

3/5/2013 6:44:11 PM

After a very long wait, I have received both the anal stuffer and my latex dildo panties. So understated, simple. So I decided to wear the dildo underwear to movie theater, and although it was exciting, it was hard to get aroused with people around me. Of course soon it became uncomfortable, and I was glad to take it out after 3 hours...I guess it requires some training. Same with the anal stuffer. I try and then I take it out. I guess I wish I had someone who would insert it for me, make me turned on and make me wear it every day without exception. Discipline me with it, making sure I know that my holes are always plugged....


2/6/2013 5:18:10 PM

Checking out for the duration of snow storm...have fun everyone and be safe.


1/29/2013 7:13:38 PM

Not bad...

http://www.darkfetishnet.com/Monster/blog/7839/


1/22/2013 7:09:12 PM

Oh, I have FINALLY ordered some toys online...I can't believe I have waited this long. One of them is latex panty with internal dildo, which i plan to wear as often as possible. My idea is to dress up like I am going to work or shopping but wear these panties underneath and make myself feel like a naughty girl.

Another gift is a nice large anal plug, which should keep me entertained. I cannot wait for the mailman. Upon the delivery I will run to the bedroom, insert both of these and try them out. Hopefully I will get to wear them outside soon.

 

If you can't find a suitable partner to force you to wear the toys inside you, become your own master and make yourself wear them.


1/21/2013 1:26:58 PM

So...typed the whole entry on my mobile...pressed submit...and it never did. So I will type it all up again, but you gotta appreciate the double effort!

So, my fantasies of helplessness and submission have no end. They occur to me in the day, and at night, whether I am working or washing dishes, it keeps coming. How I wish to be forced to wear a plug around the house, or outdoors while I do my work...how I wish to wear an oppressive clothing like super tight tights, corset and a bra that makes my breasts either super pointy or way bigger than they are...

But the repetitive thought is of being slowly transformed into a toy. I imagine going out with someone(someone that shares my fantasies), and on the first meeting, he gives me a plug, a vibrating dildo and a diaper...send me to a restaurant restroom, and makes me insert these and wear the diaper. We will proceed to have a lovely date, where he will excite me with the vibrator, and touch my diapered ass in public.

Later on he insists that I am only wheeled in a wheelchair. So he comes and pick me up with a wheelchair, and from now on, he will refuse to meet me unless I am willing to be pushed around. He takes me to a restroom, on the wheelchair, and inside the stall, he inserts the plug, the dildo, and puts a diaper on me. He than seats me back, and we have a day out.

Later on, when I visit his place, he insist I be pushed around on a wheelchair, but he also decides to take this away, and plugged and gagged, he now makes me crawl on all fours, wherever he goes. If I am good he gets me a gift, a rubber suits, that encloses my limbs in a way that I can only crawl on my knees and elbows, like an amputee.

He amuses himself, by seeing me this helpless, and chooses to use me on a table, dresser, floor. I am now not allowed on a sofa or chair, only my wheelchair and other spots where i am exposed and displayed.

Next time, when we go out, he prepares me to look like a true amputee. He puts on my rubber suit, and additionally bondages my limbs into tight stumps. He then inserts a vibrator inside my pussy, and inserts a laxative suppository in my ass. He puts on my diaper, extra thick and large. He puts me in a shirt with long sleeves, that remain empty, and puts on tight pants that accentuate my waist as well as outline my hips so it is obvious I am wearing a big diaper. The pants, will hand down from my knees, since I have no legs to fill them.

He wheels me to the car, than places me on the back seat. Once we arrive at the shopping center, he takes me out, puts me in the wheelchair, and we go shopping. He has few surprises for me though. We go to the restroom, and he puts a new wig on my head. A nice, dark long hair with bangs. He then inserts ear plugs into both my ears and also inserts blurring contact lenses into my eyes. I cannot do much about it, since my arms and legs are bound inside my clothes. In the meantime, I am feeling the effects of laxative building up. He knows that, and turns on his vibrator inside me. He wrties me a note...since I cannot really hear, which says: Just let go...I want you to use your diaper now. And I do, helpless, diapered creature, pushed around on a wheelchair. He then takes me out for hours, takes me to a restaurant, and hand feeds me the items he picked. He also takes me to a lingerie store and picks some sexy bras out for me for later.

At home, he has another surprise for me. After he frees me from my bondage, he takes me to bathe me, cleans me well, dries me and applies lotion and powder on me. Than he places a brand new medical corset on the bed...the harsh kind made of brown leather and plastic, with metal supports. He opens it and places me on it. As I am laying down, he proceeds to lace up and buckle up all openings, tightly, so once he is done I cannot sit up on my own. I am not encased in a rigid medical brace from between my shoulder blades, down to my tailbone. My breasts are lifted above the edge, and he dresses them in a new pushup bra, which makes them look quite huge. He then proceeds to finger my clean pussy and ass. When I am dripping wet, he places me on my wheelchair, and takes me to the kitchen. He lifts me up, and places me on a kitchen table, fastens my ankles to the legs, I am spread open for him to see, and he explores more, pushing his hand inside me, and when I am very turned on, he starts pounding me. I end up dripping wet, his and my cum between my legs, on the table. He proceeds to insert a plug and dildo and dresses me in diaper again, and covers it with large, tight, latex panties. He helps me get dressed, and send me home. I do not yet have to use my wheelchair when I am on my own, but this time, I am forced to wear his corset 24/7(besides bath time), and be plugged and have vibrator inside me 24/7 too. While I go to work or shopping, or when I am doing house work, I will be oppressed by this medical corset, and as I lay there in bed at night, I will be thinking of him, and how amazing this control of his over my life is. I will get wet, and turn on the vibrator, and fall asleep wet. When I wake, the corset still on, I start my day, trying to get up from my bed, turning on my side first, lifting myself of the bad painstakingly.

 


1/14/2013 9:07:13 PM

So...interestingly, I had a doctor's exam today...the kind that every woman dreads.

The doctor was actually quite handsome and very kind and welcoming. So I got immediately nervous, thinking that I might actually get turned on, as he probes me. And I did...partially because of being ashamed about my legs being wide open for a stranger, but more so, because I knew, I like this stuff(medical devices,etc). I was trying to hide this fact, but how do you hide an excitement.... so I acted all uncomfortable, as he gently pushed my knees apart again, or as he pushed my arms up while he examined my body.

I am still ashamed of this encounter, and could not look him in the eye after the exam.

 


Secretly I wish, he knew of my desires, and used his tools and expertise to shame me even more...and now I can't stop thinking about him...or the medical equipment.


12/27/2012 7:59:51 PM

Happy Holidays!

 

So I have been stuck in a boring and oppressive family atmosphere over the holidays.

I cannot stop thinking about being made into a toy by bondage and played with. I saw many people in wheelchairs over the holidays at airports and events, but all of them had limbs.

I imagined myself being even more disabled than them, not being able to push myself or feed myself, my master pushing me to a concert or dinner, a limbless, sexy toy...


12/4/2012 1:09:07 PM

So, just realized, that some "masters" think that having an amputee toy would mean they can feed her a dog food, keep it in cage, not bathe it or dress it or take her out regularly, remove all of its useful organs like voice box or clitoris, and still be considered a master.

 

You are mistaken, calling yourself a master. You are merely a sadists. Slave owners belong to history.

 

Here is what a real master should be to an amputee(whether pretender or real):

He should be a true lover of amputees and therefore stumps, not a lover of inability of an amputee to protect herself so he can abuse her. He should proclaim his love to her regularly and in many ways. Take her out for a stroll in a wheelchair, go for vacations, go shopping together, buy her clothes and sexy lingerie to keep her alluring, take care of her hair and body and invest in some make up classes. An amputee should be truly beautiful, if in some way unattractive to regular people, at least her face and body should be made appealing. Whatever kinks master and the toy may have, they should be mutually agreed on. The master can of course have his amputee toy for himself anytime he pleases, and do humiliating things in terms of sexual play, but not in ways of neglect, abuse, etc.

 

There, suck it, loosers/fake/ignorant masters...


11/20/2012 4:44:49 PM

To the ones I have been neglecting, I am sorry, life has been just nuts lately. The truth is, I would love to unwind from the daily grind with an intelligent, normal, sweet, yet terribly kinky man, but there is no chance to actually do it.

My dream scenario is, after long day, to come to a warm, cozy place, and than to be taken over by a sensible yet extremely imaginative master. He would take control, so I won't have to make any more decisions that day, whether small stuff or important, he will decide what I will do or what will be done to me. I will be placed on a strategic spot, like a kitchen table or coffee table, completely bound, wide open, and then for hours, I will not be in control of anything. I will be fed, preferably through a funnel, I will be cleaned, and explored, probed, plugged by hands, objects, anything, my ass will be plugged and probed, my eyes will be covered and my ears will be plugged, so I can only feel with my body.

I will be used to capacity, and then bound into a compact bundle, my pussy and ass plugged once again, with vibrating plugs, and I will be placed like an object on the floor bound, gagged, only my holes filled, and I will be left there to my pleasure and torture, watched by my master, as my body flows with sweet and painful torture.

After few hours, he will pick me up, just to place me higher, and to use me once again. Then maybe he will take me to clean me up and massage my sore body....


8/11/2012 4:12:57 PM

Oh, wow, the journal, I guess I never gave it a thought. But now I feel like sharing some thoughts. 

Recently I have realized I really really want a proper corset. Somehow I managed to only go online and never buy-they seem mostly an imitation of a real corsets. I guess I now really have to bite the bullet and just do it and find a one that will be nice and restricting.

Another realization is that the few people that are into same things that I am are either thousand miles away or turn out to be fakes somehow. Dudes, don't be fake! What's the point of coming on this very forbidden website if you still pretend to be someone else? Just be yourself-that is the way to find a kindred spirit. 

Lastly, why is it so hard to be an amputee devotee/pretender-will we ever find someone willing to play dress up with us?


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Mistressmkd
 
 Age: 24
 St. Paul, Minnesota