My job is to serve. To belong, to worship, to obey, to be used, to make the life of my Owner better, happier, easier, more pleasant. But that should bring me a sense of a job well done, and being complete - to fill me up with pride, help get rid of the emptiness I have in me. It should give me a sense of purpose that I desire. It should will give me a sense of direction. To know that I belong, a place I belong, and who I belong to. I haven't never really had anyone to belong to in my life for any length of time - I seek a strong figure - sort of a Goddess figure, to guide me. for me to lean on, someone I can ABSOLUTELY count on. That's asking a LOT of some people....many Dominants and even subs are too selfish to understand that the role they need to fill in being there for me, in guiding and training and being the strong shoulder that I need. And it is not that I am not a capable person - I am- I have a job, I take care of myself and my responsibilities as a father (she lives with her mom) but inside, there is that kinda lost little guy who wants to please, to be guided, just to please and make someone happy, to give up control, to let someone else make the decisions, and to have some strength and stability around me.

I have to sort out the real from the fakes God knows the people that tries to get me sucked into their web of deceit and also sort through and figure out who I might truly be able to form a good bond with and want to be owned by. There is one who has me wrapped and I hope to prove myself one day to be a good choice.want to belong and feel as if I'm appreciated and not just a toy that is thrown to the dogs after the newness is worn off

Being owned and serving is serious stuff. I must make a real commitment to
the Owner, and the Owner to me, too. Even though I might only be with them half the year, they will still own me year round and have to guide and control me both when I am with them, and when I am away. It's a significant relationship, and needs to have a strong, lasting foundation that both parties can

That's why I insist on a long term commitment. I don't want to be treated that way either, or to treat anyone badly. I want a lasting relationship and lasting service.

Back a few months ago I wrote this from the creed to the spin I feel is me what do you think

I am a submissive man.
I find pleasure, joy and fulfillment from being submissive to a Superior Woman in a loving relationship.
I am not weak or stupid, but rather I am a strong man, with firm views and a clear concept of what I want out of my life. In no way do I desire to dominate Women, for there is no joy that comes from the idea of doing so.
I do not seek to serve out of shame or weakness, but rather out of pride and strength.
It takes a lot for person to admit to the fact that he wants to be dominated by a Powerful Woman, but when he does it is a relief.
I seek to look at my loving Mistress for guidance and protection, for I will never be more complete than when She is with me.
I will enjoy knowing that She will protect my body, my mind and my soul with Her strength and wisdom.
She will be everything to me, as I will hope I will be everything to Her.
Her gentle/firm touch will awaken me and Her thoughts will free me from the prison I am in. Only in serving Her will I find complete freedom and joy.
Her punishments will be harsh and swift, but I will gladly accept them thankfully, knowing that She has my best interests always foremost in Her mind.
If She desires my body for pleasure, I will without hesitation give it to Her, and take great pleasure in knowing that I have brought Her happiness.
However, the pleasure of the flesh is but one facet of any relationship.
The love, the trust and sharing, the words spoken and felt, those are all parts of this relationship.
My body will be Hers and if She says I am beautiful, then I am.
No matter what I look like to others, if I am beautiful in Her eyes, and because of that I will hold my head high knowing She has found me worthy to be beautiful in Her eyes.
For who can tell me that my Mistress is wrong in seeing the beauty in me?
If She says that I am Her prince, then I am that....regal and graceful, it is humbling to be called that.
And if I see laughter at me in the eyes of others, I do not recognize it, for who are they to call my Mistress wrong? If She says I am Her toy, Her slut, Her tramp, then I am that....
as wanton and dirty as She desires me to be, and if others do not see this, then it is they who are blind, not my future Mistress my mind will be Hers to expand, to explore, to know as only She can.
I will have no secrets from Her for if I did it would be like a house built on a beach without protection and a hurricane coming straight at it.
For secrets are a thing that would keep me from being more perfectly Hers. Secrets would put a wall up between my future Mistress and me. I do not want walls, but rather an open field.
Her lessons will not always be ones I would seek on my own, but they will be lessons She has decided upon her wisdom that I will need and so that I can learn them from Her.
My soul will be Hers alone, as bare to Her touch as ever my skin could be when I will kneel naked at Her feet for her to gaze upon me at her Leisure.
Never a moment goes by when I do not want to feel Her presence, be She miles away or standing before me in all Her Power.
If I ever were to displease Her, Her displeasures would be a blow to my soul, worse punishment than any lashes could be.
The anguish of my soul that I will feel when I disappoint Her will be like a dagger to my soul and will be harder to bear than the physical anguish I will feel when Her belt caresses me with fire.
I will spend my days knowing that the energy and the thoughts She will put into Our relationship is will be as much for my benefit as for Hers, and I will look forward to each lovingly crafted scene that We will do together when She desires.
Her part will be much harder than mine, and I know this and will be forever grateful and in Her debt to the fact that She cares enough about me to spend Her time and energy so freely on me.
I the submissive will have the easier job: to feel, to experience, to let myself go and abandon everything for Her glory.
I will be Her pleasure and responsibility, and She will take both seriously and I will surrender it whole hardheartedly and without hesitation.
I am a submissive man.
I am proud to call myself that.
My submission is a Gift that I do not take lightly, and can only be given to the One who can appreciate that Gift and return it ten fold.
Only She will have the ability and/or strength to tame me, and I will give myself fully, because I am strong and proud.
I am a submissive man and will not change as the wind, so please take me as I am.