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Somewhere in the middle of 2017 I started taking Zoloft for anxiety. After I got used to the drugs, they dramatically improved my mental wellbeing and I finally realized something about myself.
Im ok with me, and its time I embrace it.
Because of my job at the time I was in a different city every week. Fast forward 6 months and now Ive played all over the country with 12 amazing life changing Pro Doms, and 4 dumpster fire sessions where the Doms thought subspace was a Star Trek thing.
As for what Im into and what Im really not into, well get comfy cause its story time. Ive always thought that a little context makes a personality come off the page instead of just 1s and 0s.
Bondage I like bondage either physical or psychological in all my sessions. The only issue is that I have a dangerous job and have broken more bones then I know the names of. I love to be restrained but not in stress positions or so tight that I cant adjust a little.
Sensory Deprivation Overload This one was a nasty surprise. (Long possibly pointless side story, skip to the to avoid it) my whole life people have been telling me I have amazing reactions. Not because I could move out of the way of stuff but because I could stand still and not flinch. Like waiting at a bus stop with people and the bus backfires and everybody jumps a mile but me. The way I always experienced those moments was me hearing the sound, time slowing down, and me figuring out what happened or was about to happen before I got scared. So, it appears that when Im unable to hear anything around me and something touches me, I freak the fuck out. But I fucking love blindfolds, go figure.
Electro Play Firstly. If you want to use a cattle prod on me you can take a running leap into a fucKING VALCANO! (deep breath) Sorry about that had a bad experience with a cattle prod once. It did teach me not to be blindfolded on a first date though, Dumpster Fire. Violet wands and that thing that makes the Tops touch zap you with their fingers or their fucking hair! (he says in one breath), I like. Also, I have had E-stim both on my penis and my prostate (stares into distance for a little while) and I enjoyed them both.
Prostate Pegging Oh, I fucking like it!
Gags Right after the prostate section is a good time to talk about gags. You see, with the meds Im on, my prostate and asshole are just about the only consistently pleasurable part of my body. So. (looks down and twirls right foot in the dirt) Im really loud when someone is working my ass. So, if you want to hear yourself think Im fine with gags. However, Ive got a lot of dental work so it has to be soft and smallish.
Chastity and Tease Denial I have tried solo chastity twice now. The first one was a 3D printed one off Amazon, the second was a CB series. And you know the damn things just dont work on me, I mean physically. Im pretty average in both penis length and ball size but these things just work their ways off me. Like ill wake up and its off, or it falls to the floor when Im toweling after a shower. So ya, I think chastity is just out for me.
As for tease and denial, I really like it. I learned to masturbate by edging myself until I just couldnt take it anymore. These days I have low sensitivity in my penis due to medication. So it takes a hell of a long time to get me close the first time.
HARD LIMITS scat, urine, blood, CATTLEPRODS, and anything that leaves a mark longer then a few days. Anything that goes in my body I get to see before it goes in, and after its lubed.
SOFT LIMITS Right now, its sounding. Deep in a session with a very sadistic Dom whom I adore. I was down in the bottom level of subspace and pulling out a sounding rod quickly almost made me throw up and did make me brown out. So, I dont know if that was my Mistress doing something ill-advised or if its just not going to work for me. The thing is I do want to try it again because I want that mythical prostrate, urethra, E-stim thing before I die. So, this would have to be with someone I really trust, possibly even in a peer to peer session. Also, men in the session with me. I have certain conditions on which that would be aright but they are on a case by case basis.
My Stats think tall chubby nerd.
I used to be tall fat nerd but have since lost about 200 pounds in the last 6 years. So I do have some saggy skin and saggy tits. But think, so much more real estate for clothes pins.
Hight 63
Weight 220
Eyes Blue
Physical Limitations I have a bad left knee, if Im kneeling, a soft surface is fine but I will need help getting up if Im down there for longer the 15 minutes. If I have something else to lean on like the edge of a bed for example for no particular reason, I would be able to go longer
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