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I've been through my share of profiles. Some are very impressive while others are severely lacking. I do enjoy a good profile. Ironic considering the pathetic state of my own profile lately. What I seek first and foremost is good conversation. Something it seems is a luxury on this site.

I've been on collar a long time on and off. Found a really great sub here a long time ago and circumstances outside our control pulled us apart. As years pass circumstances now bring me back.

As I stated in my first paragraph, what I'm looking for first and foremost is good communication. I want to know your thoughts and what makes you tick. I'm looking for someone that is more than just 3 holes. I'm looking for someone that has more to offer than just her body because that will not impress me. Impress me with your actions. Impress me with your devotion. Impress me with your commitment. Impress me with your submission.

I enjoy talking and will always reply to every message. What I'm looking for wont happen over night nor do I expect it to. Patience is everything...
9/3/2014 5:05:18 PM
I wrote this for a sub I was talking to here last Novemeber.  I wrote it from the perspective of our first meeting.  Every couple days I would write a new chapter and send it to her. Then one day she stopped talking to me. The story ended as abruptly as our conversations.  

Jasmine’s Journey
 
Chapter  1
 
I knew this day was coming but now that it was here it was finally sinking in.  In less than 2 hours I would be meeting a man that up till now I have only known online.  I had been going through outfit after outfit trying to find that perfect one.  He has seen me through pictures but this was different and I wanted it to be memorable.  He told me that we were going out for dinner and a movie, something easy that would not put a lot of pressure on me.  It was also public so I would feel comfortable being with someone I’ve never been with before.  I looked at the clock and decided to jump in the shower.
I closed the shower curtain and got under the hot water.  It felt good to my skin and I just stood under it for a few minutes.  For some reason I thought back to when I couldn’t use hot water.  It was only for a couple days but he had told me that I was not allowed to use hot water for a week.  That was the worse and even though he stopped it after a couple days, I think I could have made the whole week.  Come to think of it, that was the last time he asked me to do anything for him.  I wonder why that was. 
I could stay in that water for hours but I finished up and got out.  I dried myself off and wrapped my hair.  I went and looked for a matching bra and panty.  I remembered he said that the first time we met he wanted me wearing sexy panties.  I know he said he would make me take them off for him.  My heart began to beat a little faster.  I know I said I would but will I?  I searched for some boy shorts. Those were his favorite he had told me.  I slid them on and I can feel myself getting wet at the thought of taking them off for him. I’m sure he would have liked to know that.  I found a cute skirt and top and laid them on the bed. I better start getting ready. I don’t want to be late.
Driving to the restaurant I looked at the time and tried to calm myself.  I was supposed to be meeting him in 15 minutes at this restaurant and I could feel my heart beating faster and faster.  As I came around the building I saw him!  He was standing outside by the door.  This was really happening.  I parked and checked myself one last time in the mirror before getting out of the car.  I started walking towards the restaurant and he saw me and I could see him smiling.  He looked just like his pictures so there were no surprises for me which I was thankful.
As I got close to him he extended his hand and I took it with my own as he helped me up the curb. He then came up close and gave me a kiss on the cheek and as he stepped back said “Wow”.  I could feel my face get red and I smiled at him.  He opened the door for me and we went inside. I had my arm around his as we waited to be seated.  When the waitress finally came we were escorted to our booth.  I wasn’t sure whether to sit next to him or across from him and I guess he could see it in my face and he motioned for me to sit across and I did.  For the first time we were right in front of each other.
“How are you feeling?” he asked me.  “Nervous” I replied.  He smiled a little bit then said “You shouldn’t be, I’m the same guy you have been talking to for over a month and I promise you I wont bite.”  Just then the waitress came by.
“Hey I’m Sarah, I’ll be your server this evening. Can I start you off with something to drink?” she told us.  “Yes let me get an Ice Tea with a…” He was looking at me quietly.  Just then I remembered his journals that he would write. “Umm actually, I’m not so sure what I would like right now but..”  He was still looking at me quietly.  It’s like he was waiting to see what I would do.  “Could you just give us a couple minutes please” I said with a smile. “Sure thing” Sarah said as she walked away.
“I’m sorry, I just..” He stopped me “Things aren’t the same when your around me are they?” he asked. “No, they are not” I replied.  He handed me the menu and we both looked through.  After a couple minutes he asked me if I knew what I wanted to eat and I told him.  When the waitress came back he ordered our meals and drinks. We talked and laughed and were having a good time.  The food came and we both began to eat.  He even gave me a piece of his food to try.  Things were going well and then out of nowhere, he asked the question that made me feel like I had just gotten kicked in the gut.
“Are you wearing your sexy panties?”   I knew that this would be coming. He even told me as much but now this was real life.  I nodded.  “Yes or no?” he asked. “Yes” I said.  There was a pause.   He was looking at me quietly again. “Yes Sir” I repeated.  “Show me” he said.  My heart was racing.  I didn’t have to do this.  We were in the middle of this restaurant and I felt like all eyes were on me. I looked around the restaurant and then back at him.  He had just put another bite of food in his mouth.  I was nervous but wet at the same time.  I took a couple deep breaths and then put my hands under my skirt and slowly began to slide them off.  I lifted my ass a little to get them around and I could see a little smile escape his lips. Someone walked by and my heart skipped a beat. I stopped.  He continued looking at me and after looking around the restaurant one more time I slowly began to slide them down again.  When they got around my knee they fell to the floor.  I took one leg out and then the other.  After looking around again I bent down under the table and picked them up. He put his hand open across the table and I placed them in his hands. He opened them, smiled, then balled them up and put them in his pocket.  “You remembered” he said with a smile.  I smiled back. We finished up our meals and we continued to talk.
“We should probably get going if we are going to make this movie” he said.  The waitress came with the check and he paid it and he got up and then extended his hand out to me. I grabbed it and carefully slid out of the booth as not to show the whole restaurant what I wasn’t wearing.  He walked me to my car and gave me another kiss on the cheek.  “I will meet you in front of the theater” he said and walked away.  I sat in the car with so many thoughts going through my head.
I walked up to the theater and he was standing in the front again.  He gave me another kiss on the cheek and took my hand as we walked towards the doors. “I already got the tickets.  Do you want any popcorn or anything like that?” he asked. “No I’m full from dinner” I told him. “Yeah me too” he said.  They took our tickets and we went to the theater.  We got our seats and sat down. There was still a few minutes before the movie started so we talked as people started to enter the theater and it filled up.  When the lights went down, everyone quieted and he sat back in his chair.  I wasn’t really sure what to do so I just sat there.  After a few minutes he raised the arm rest between us and I laid down on top of him with my head on his chest.  I can hear his heart beat and my head rose and fell with his breathing.  He placed his arm around me and I felt his hand on my thigh.  The feel of his touch for the first time tonight sent goose bumps up and down my body.  As his hand stroked my thigh, I could feel myself getting wetter.  A part of me wanted him to touch me right there.  The movie ended and we got up and left the theater.  He again walked me to my car.  When we got to my car he turned me around and gently pushed me up against my car.  He lifted my chin up with his hand and kissed my lips.  He looked at my face and then kissed me again and I kissed him back.  He leaned on my car, spun me around and pulled me towards him.  As my ass pressed up against him he wrapped his arms around me.
“I am happy that you decided to meet me tonight” He whispered into my ear.  I smiled. “I’m happy too” I told him.  I grinded my ass back on his groin and when I felt his cock jump, it excited me.  “What happens now?” I asked.  “This depends on you Jasmine.  This is the last choice you will make.” He told me. He turned me around to look me in the face. “If you don’t think this is what you want, then you can go home and not look back but if you want to take the next step in this journey, meet me at this hotel room tonight.”  He placed a card in my bra, kissed my lips, gave my ass a tight squeeze and walked away.
Thirty minutes later I was standing in front of room 314 trying to decide whether to knock or not.
 
Chapter 2
 
Nervously I knocked on the door.   I waited and heard nothing so I went to knock again but right before I did the door swung open.  He was standing there in front of me and upon seeing me, he smiled. “Come on in” he said as he opened the door wider.  I walked by him and entered the hotel room. It was clean and neat with nothing out of its place. He walked past me and sat in one of the chairs in the room.   I just stood there unsure of what would happen next.
“Do you want to be here Jasmine?” he asked. “If I didn’t I wouldn’t be here” I told him.  His expression didn’t change. I wasn’t sure if he liked that answer or not.  After an awkward silence he got up and went for the door. “I’m sorry that this was not what you wanted.” He opened the door.  “I want to be here!” I told him.  He turned and looked at me staring right into my eyes.   “Convince me” he said.  He was still holding the door open and I didn’t know what to say.  “I really want to be here” I said to him.  He continued to stand there with the door open.  “I really want to be here Sir” I said eagerly.  I saw no change in him.  After a couple minutes I had given up.  I started to walk towards the door and then I stopped.  Something clicked in me.  I took my shoes off and put them to the side.  Then I pulled my top off, folded it and placed it on my shoes.  I unclasped my bra and pulled it off places it on my top.  Then I pulled my skirt down and placed it on my bra.  Finally I got down on my knees and placed my hands behind my back.  I was kneeling there naked, in the middle of the room looking up at him standing there with the door still open.  He closed the door and walked towards me. A since of relief came over me.
He walked right up to me and stopped.  I was looking down towards the floor but I could feel that he was looking at me.  This was the first time that he had seen me naked.  He never once asked for naked pics of me and always treated me with respect.  He was not like the other Doms I had spoken with online.  Using his finger he lifted my chin.  I was looking at his face and he smiled.  He kissed my lips.  I loved his lips. 
He went into his bag and pulled out a thin cane.  My heart started to beat quicker when I saw it.  Was he about to hit me?  Is this what I really wanted? Even though I was on my knees, I was sitting on my feet.  He walked behind me and gently tapped my ass until it was no longer touching my feet and my weight was on my knees.  He then came in front of me and tapped my knees apart.  I spread them apart and he tapped them some more so I spread them until he said stop.  He then made sure my arms were behind my back with my hands as close to my elbows as I could get them.  He then tilted my head down till I was looking at the floor.
“When I tell you to get on your knees, this is the position I expect from you.  Do you understand?” he asked me. “Yes” I said.  Suddenly I felt a sharp pain on my ass as the cane hit. I let out a cry and moved my hands to my ass.  Using the cane he moved my hands back into position.  My ass hurt and was stinging.  He came close to my face and whispered “Yes what?” “Yes Sir” I said.  “Good” he replied walking around me.  Using the cane he guided my head to the floor until my face was touching the floor.  He then told me to grab my ankles from between my legs. He then tapped my ass until I lifted it higher.  “This is the position you will take when you are going to be punished. Is this understood?”  he said.  “Yes Sir” I said quickly not wanting to give him another reason to hit me with my ass out there like that.
“On your knees” he said and I quickly got into position the way he had showed me.  He walked around me briefly and was pleased with what he saw.  He dragged his cane across my ass, around to my stomach.  Then he placed it inside my knee and slowly dragged it up my thigh.  He rubbed it across my pussy and down my other thigh.  I could feel my pussy getting wet.  He then placed the cane between my pussy lips and gently moved it from side to side.  It felt really good.  I was really wet as he continued to play with my pussy with his cane.  Finally he took the cane away and brought it to my lips. I opened my mouth and he placed it inside and I licked the tip of the cane clean. He then pulled the cane out of my mouth and continued to walk around me.
“What is the purpose of a submissive?” He asked me.  “To do whatever you’re told Sir?” I answered.  The sting to my ass was quick and I let out another cry. “To serve” he replied.  “With mind, body, soul, to serve.” There was a pause and then he asked again “What is the purpose of a submissive?” “To serve Sir” I replied. “Good” he said. He placed the cane on my ass and instinctively I clenched my cheeks. He then moved it down my legs and across my feet.  “When not in public, you will crawl. Is that understood?” he asked “Yes sir” I replied.  He then walked over to a chair across the room and sat. “Come here” he commanded.  I got on all fours and crawled over to him. When I got to where he was I got back into my kneeling position.  He smiled at me.
“Your going to serve me with those beautiful lips of yours.” I heard him say.  I smiled to myself.  I crawled up to him and undid his belt. I then unbuttoned his pants.  I opened them up and pulled his boxer briefs down.  His cock was hard and whether I wanted to admit it or not, I wanted it in my mouth.  I grabbed it and went to stick it in my mouth and I got another swat on my ass. Those hurt and I yelped. “No hands Jasmine.  If I wanted hands on my cock, I would use my own.” He scolded. I didn’t know what else to do with my hands so I placed them back behind my back.  I opened my mouth and took the head of his cock in.  I wanted so bad to please him.  I let my tongue drag across the bottom of his cock and around the head. I could taste his pre-cum and it was delicious.  I looked into his eyes and went down on his cock.  I felt it hit the back of my throat.  I came back up towards the head and I heard him say  “All the way down.”  I went down again and felt the tip at the back of my throat.  I felt his hand on the back of my head as he began to push me down.  I felt it slip past my throat and fought the urge to gag. My lips touched the base of his cock “Good girl” he said releasing my head.  I opened my mouth letting his cock fall out and I felt a sharp pain in my ass.  It is such a shock and the pain was immediate.  “When my cock is in your mouth, it doesn’t come out until I cum, or I take it out. Is that understood?”  “Yes Sir I said placing my lips back around his cock.  “Again” he said and I went back down his cock.  I pushed it past my throat and I could see him close his eyes.  I came back up moving my tongue all around his cock up to the tip being careful not to let it fall out of my mouth, then back down again forcing it down my throat.  I continued this for several minutes and I can feel his breathing getting heavier.  I knew he was enjoying this and that made me even wetter.  I pumped his cock with my mouth faster and faster taking it all the way in and keeping my eyes on him.  He would open his eyes and look down at me and smile.  Occasionally he would run his hands through my hair but for the most part he just let me do this and I could tell he was starting to get close.  Out of nowhere though he grabbed my head with both hands. “Don’t swallow yet” he said as I felt the first load hit the back f my mouth.  Shot after shot exploded in my mouth.  When he was done he let go of my head.  He then got up and walked to the center of the room.  “Follow” he commanded and I crawled behind him with his cum in my mouth.  When we got to the center of the room he told me to kneel and I got into my kneeling position.  He then told me to stay.  He walked away and I could hear the shower starting.  I then heard him get in it.  He left me kneeling there in the center of the room, with a mouthful of his cum in my mouth.  I loved the taste. I was happy.
 
Chapter 3
 
As he showered I knelt there with my thoughts.  Here I was naked, kneeling in the middle of this hotel room with the cum of a man I met for the first time today in my mouth.  I twirled my tongue in his cum and tried my best not to swallow it.  After a few minutes the water stopped and I could hear him getting out.  I got a little nervous which was surprising since I had already had this man’s cock down my throat and God did I love his cock.  He came out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist and walked right up to me and I looked up at him.  “Open your mouth” he said and I did. “Wider.” I opened my mouth wider and he looked inside it.  “Swallow” was his next command and I did it instantly.  He made me open my mouth again to show him that it was all gone. 
He told me to get on the bed and I crawled up there.  He told me to lay on my back with my legs spread and I obeyed.  “What is the purpose of a submissive?” he asked me.  “To serve Sir” I replied. “Does service require reward?” he then asked. “No Sir” I told him.  “You serve to please others, not yourself” he said.  “Start playing with yourself.  I want you to rock your hips as you slide your fingers into your pussy.” He ordered. “Yes Sir” I responded.  I rubbed my fingers across my clit and into my pussy sliding in and out.  I’ve never been so wet in my life and I’ve never been so excited in my life.  I rocked my hips fucking my own fingers. He sat back and smiled. “You will never cum without permission. Is that understood?” he asked.  “Yes Sir” I said with a moan.  It was starting to feel really good. “Faster” I heard him say and I moved my fingers obediently.  I rubbed my clit which was hard and on fire.  I could feel myself building. I was breathing heavier, my heart was beating fast.  I was laying there masturbating for this man.  “Can I cum Sir” I asked him.  He shook his head. “That doesn’t sound very convincing” he told me.  “Can I please cum Sir” I said out of breath.  “No, I’m not feeling it Jasmine.  You’re not making me feel like you want this.”  “Please Sir, please let your slave cum Sir. Please!” I stated loudly.  He sat back in his chair. “Stop” he ordered and I stop moving my hand.  My pussy was aching I wanted to cum so badly.  “Clean your fingers” “Yes Sir” I said as I licked my fingers clean.
“Come here and service me” he said and I crawled off the bed and towards him.  I opened his towel and using only my tongue and lips, placed his cock in my mouth.  I sucked on the tip of his cock and slid down his shaft.  I could feel his cock coming to life in my mouth and as it grew I could feel it pressing against the back of my mouth.  It excited me knowing that I was pleasing him.  His cock belonged in my mouth. I wish it could stay there.  I looked up at him as I should and pushed myself down on his cock.  I felt it push past my throat and I heard him gasp as his cock felt the tightness of my throat.  I tried my best to move my tongue under his cock as I felt his cock pulsing in my mouth.  I pumped my head up and down his cock. I listened to him breath and continued to look up at him.  Each time his cock slide down my throat I could feel a tingle in my pussy.  I needed to cum badly.  “You will never swallow without permission” he whispered. “Yes Sir” I mumbled with his cock still in my mouth.  I placed my hands on his balls and played with them. I could feel them moving and tensing and I knew he was getting ready to cum.  He let out a small grunt as the first jet shot into my mouth. I massaged his balls as he continued to cum. When he was done I got into my kneeling position and opened my mouth showing him the reward he gave me for doing so well.  “Swallow” he ordered and I did opening my mouth again to show him that it was all gone. 
He told me to get back on the bed in the same position I was and that I was to play with myself again.  I slid my fingers back down between my legs and it felt very good.  He sat there watching me and that made it all the better.  As I rubbed my clit and pumped my pussy I kept my eyes on him. He watched my hips rocking as I fucked myself and I could see his cock starting to get hard again.  That drove me crazy and it wasn’t long before I felt myself about to go.  This time  I didn’t waste any time. “Please Sir, Your slave begs you to let her cum please” I said.  He didn’t respond so I repeated “Please Sir, I beg you to let your slave cum for you please.”  To my frustration he ordered me to stop.  I licked my fingers as commanded and once again I was crawling to him.  I felt like my pussy was dripping as I crawled.
“Using just your tongue, lick my cock and balls.  Show them how much you love them” He said to me.  I crawled between his legs again and started to lick him.  I started at his balls and licked under his shaft and back around to the top. I licked across the top of his shaft and back down to his balls.  I kept my eyes on him the whole time and he watched me intently.  I did this for several minutes and when I licked the tip of his cock, I could taste the pre-cum that was beginning to flow.  “Take it in now” he ordered and I took his cock in my mouth and down my throat again.  I put my hands behind my back and pumped my head up and down working my tongue on his cock.  After some time, it was taking him longer to cum each time, I felt his hands behind my head and he said “swallow it” as he forced his cock down my throat and began to cum.  When he was done he let go of my head and I slowly lifted off his cock sucking on the tip to get the last couple drops.
He had me crawl back to the bed and lay back down again.  He sat there and watched me as once again I began to play with myself.  I have never needed to cum so badly in my life, every touch was electric.  It was building in me fast and I barely got the words out “Please Sir can I….”  my body shook. It hit me hard all over my body as I came.  It lasted a while and when I looked at him, I could tell he was not happy. He got up out of his chair. “I’m sorry I didn’t….” “Punishment position” he said calmly.  I immediately got into the position he had taught me earlier.  My face was on the bed, my arms were between my legs grabbing my ankles and my ass was in the air.
Within moments I heard the swish through the air and the sting on my ass.  It was harder than he had hit me before and it hurt, “Apologize for being selfish” he ordered. “I’m sorry Sir for being selfish” As soon as I said it I heard the swish and the sting on my ass.  “I didn’t hear anything” he said as I felt another lash on my ass. “I’m sorry sir for being selfish, for cuming without permission!” Another hit and I was crying.  “I’m sorry Sir for being selfish…” Another hit, another……another.  Each time I apologized.  He hit me ten times total across my ass.  It hurt and I sobbed into the sheets. 
“Kneeling position” I heard him say and I got into position.  I still had tears and was sobbing.  He came close to me and kissed my lips. I kissed him back. “I’m sorry Sir” I said.  “I know” he replied as he wiped my tears.  “It’s late” he said. “Why don’t you go wash up and get ready for bed.”  I crawled off the bed and to the bathroom.  I washed my face and used the bathroom.  I looked at myself in the mirror and then turned around to look at my ass.  It had red welts crisscrossed across both cheeks.  It felt warm to the touch.  I got back on all fours and crawled back to the bed. He was already under the sheets and he motioned for me to join him.  I got under the sheets and laid my head on his chest.  “Good night” I heard him say. “Good night Sir” I replied and closed my eyes.
 
Chapter 4
 
I woke up and looked around.  A part of me thought the last 12 hours were all a dream but here I was, laying in a bed, my head on his chest, my leg wrapped around his.  He was still sleeping and I enjoyed the rise and fall of his chest.  This was still so surreal but I’ve enjoyed every minute of it.  Well not the whipping I got. My ass was still sore to the touch. I tried to stay still. I didn’t want to wake him up, My mind replaying the events of last night. Walking up to a hotel room and knocking on the door.  Stripping and kneeling for a man I just met.  Swallowing load after load of cum and loving every drop of it. I laid there thinking about everything that’s happen and wondered what today would bring. Suddenly I felt his cock move against my leg.  I peeked under the sheets and saw his cock growing slowly.  I thought for a moment, and then I went under the sheets. 
Careful not to touch it with my hands, I open my mouth and placed the tip of his cock between my lips.  When my lips touched his cock, it jumped and I almost lost it.  I made sure to get my lips around it completely and then moved my head so that I could get it all in my mouth.  It wasn’t really hard when I started but now it was really getting there.  How many times has this cock been in my mouth?  How many more times will it be in my mouth?  I moved up to the tip and sucked on it over and over again before taking it all back down my throat.  I could hear him breathing heavier.  I continued to blow him and then I heard him say ”Good Morning” as he opened his eyes and looked down at me.  “Good morning Sir” I mumbled around his cock.  He smiled and I continued to love his cock with my mouth.  I pumped my head faster and faster on his cock and he laid his head back and closed his eyes.  I cupped his balls with my free hand and massaged them as I deep throated his cock. I could feel his balls moving, his thighs tensed and the first shot hit the back of my mouth. 
I kept my lips locked on his cock as he emptied himself in my mouth.  I took his cock all the way down and tighten my lips as I lifted my head making sure to squeeze out every last drop.   I got into the kneeling position and opened my mouth.  He smiled and told me to swallow. I eagerly swallowed my first meal of the day and opened wide to show him the proof.  He grabbed me and pulled me down to him laying me down on my back.  He kissed me deeply. Then he kissed my neck and I felt his hands move down my body.  He slowly moved down kissing as he went. I felt his lips on my nipple and his tongue licked and played with it.  He then moved to my other nipple and did the same.  I was getting wetter with each passing moment as he made his way further down kissing my stomach his hands pressed against the inside of my thighs spreading them.  He gave my pussy lips a kiss and then smiling he stuck out his tongue and flicked my clit.  Instant goose bumps.  His tongue slid between my lips and I felt it enter me.  His tongue was like magic between my legs. I began rocking my hips as he went down on me.  He moved his arms under my legs and then back around holding me in place as he continued to work my pussy.  The pleasure was incredible and it kept building.  I ran my fingers through his hair as my heart raced.  “Please Sir may your slave cum for you” I moaned desperately.  
He lifted his head and got on his knees between my legs.  He was holding his rock hard cock in his hand and I wanted it.  “You will always thank me when I enter you. Is that understood?” He said.  “Yes Sir”.  He placed the tip of his cock at my entrance and slowly pushed forward. As it entered me I said “Thank You Sir”.  He smiled and pushed further in.  His cock filled me and felt so good.  He pushed until every inch was inside me.  When he was I squeezed his cock and he smiled.  He pulled out slowly almost completely and then pushed back in just as slowly. He pulled back out completely leaving my pussy. I wanted it back badly.  He pushed it back in and I said “Thank you Sir” and he smiled pushing it all the way in.  He kissed me as he rode me slowly.  Then he placed both his hands on my hips and started to pick up his pace.  He started to ride me hard and my orgasm was coming at full speed.   “Your slave begs you to let her cum Sir.” There was no answer. He kept pumping into me.  I was trying to hold it. I didn’t want to upset him again but this was getting very hard.  I placed my hand around his head and whispered in his ear “Please Master,  your slave begs to cum for you….”  There was a short pause and then I heard “Cum for me…” I wrapped my legs around him and dug my nails in his back.  I squeezed his cock with my pussy as my orgasm took over. My body shook and shook and he didn’t let up.  He kept pounding my pussy as wave after wave of pleasure hit my body.  After a few more moments he pulled out and snapped his fingers.  I quickly got on all fours placing his cock in my mouth and I felt his hands on my head just as his cock exploded filling me with the combination of his and my own taste.  I knelt and opened my mouth.  He looked inside and told me to swallow and I did.  Then he had me lick his cock clean.  He got off the bed and he told me to kneel on the floor. I crawled off the bed to the middle of room and got into the kneeling position.  He stood in front of me with his phone and took a picture.  “When you call me, this is the picture that will come up on my phone” he told me.  I smiled a little at that thought.  
He told me to join him and I crawled to him as we entered the bathroom.  He turned on the shower and let the water get hot.  “Get in” he said and I stood up and entered the shower.  He followed behind me and he got under the water wetting his hair.  He got some shampoo and was washing his hair. When he was done he rinsed it off.  He then told me to bath him.  I grabbed the body wash and the rag and soaped it up.  I then started at his neck and started to scrub his body.  His chest, his arms, his stomach.  I went down one leg and I could see his cock getting hard again. I did the other leg and I was hesitant to touch his cock with my hands.   “In the shower its ok” he said and I grabbed it and cleaned it.  Then I went behind him and scrubbed his back and ass and back of his legs.  When I finished he got under the water and rinsed the soap off.
He took the rag from me and soaped it up.  Careful not to get my hair wet, he scrubbed my neck and back.  He moved to my arms scrubbing my shoulders down to my fingers.  He scrubbed my chest and stomach making his way down both legs to my toes.  I felt the rag between my legs as he washed my pussy and went around to my back and ass.  He then pulled me under the water and he rinsed the soap off me.  When it was all off he pulled me close to him. I could feel his hard cock behind me as he kissed my neck.  He turned me around so that I faced him and he kissed me.  I didn’t want this to end. 
He walked out of the bathroom and I crawled behind him.  He grabbed my cloths and handed them to me.  “I’m heading back to Tampa today but I would like to take you to breakfast before I do. There are things we need to talk about.”  I took my cloths and crawled to the door and began to get dressed.  He got dressed and when he saw me he smiled. “Still look beautiful.”  He reached under my skirt and gave my bare ass a squeeze.  Then he opened the door and we walked out.  
 
Chapter 5
 
He held my hand as we walked out of the hotel. “I’ll drive us. Be easier” He said.  “Yes Sir” I said.  We walked to his car.  Little silver four dour.  He opened the door for me and I got in.  He got in the driver’s side and sat down.  “Are you ok?” he asked me. “I am Sir” I replied.  “What do you feel like eating” he asked me turning the car on. “I’m down for anything Sir”.  We drove around and found a diner and pulled in.  He held the door open for me and I stepped inside.  They escorted us to a booth and he motioned me to the other side and I slid in and he sat across from me. The waiter gave us our menus and asked if we wanted anything to drink.  I sat quietly and he smiled. “Order whatever you want” he told me.  I explain my order and he did the same and walked off with the menus. 
“Take off your shoes” he ordered.  I kicked them off and waited patiently. “Give me your right foot” he commanded and I lifted my leg and placed my foot on his lap.  He grabbed my foot in his hands and began to massage it.  It felt good. Everything he touches just feels good.  “I’m at a crossroads Jasmine…”  I was looking into his eyes as he spoke. “I don’t understand Sir” I replied.  “Did you enjoy yourself last night?” “Yes Sir, very much I did.”  He continued to rub my foot.  “I can honestly say I’ve been waiting for this for a while and now that it’s happened” He paused for a moment.  “I’m not looking for a fling, or some casual ass or some part time booty call.”  “I understand” I told him.  “That’s not what I’m looking for either.”  He let my foot down and grabbed the other one.  His hands moved around my root rubbing underneath, his fingers gently rubbing between my toes.
The waiter returned with our drinks. “Is everything ok?” He asked.  “Everything is fine, thank you” he replied and the waiter than turned and walked away.  He continued to massage my feet as we talked.  “You live here, I live in Tampa. Even if you wanted to come back with me today, I’m not in a position to be able to take you in.  Not now.” He said.  He looked around the restaurant and then back at me.  “I understand that Sir” I told him.  “Long distance relationships take A LOT of work and if we want this to work than both of us are going to have to put 110% in or it will fail” he said sipping on his drink. “I don’t want this to fail Sir” I replied. He smiled and then placed my foot down.  The waiter had returned with our food and we were starved.  We had worked up an appetite over the night.
The food was laid out and we began to eat. He had ordered a big meal, eggs, French toast, bacon, toast.  “Do you know that before you took your clothes off and knelt before me, I still had doubts whether this was really what you wanted.” He asked. “No I did not Sir.” I replied as I ate my food.  “Do you think you’ve done everything you can to make me feel otherwise?”  I looked at him puzzled. “I thought that last night…” He interrupted me “No I mean before last night.  Before I came here, before you kneelt, were you doing everything you could to make me feel that this is what you wanted?”  I sat there and thought for a moment and said “No Sir, I have not.”
He cut a piece of his French toast and dipped it in some syrup. “Open your mouth he said” as he brought it to my lips. I did and he placed it in my mouth and waited.  He smiled again and told me to swallow and I did.  I enjoyed making him smile.  I raised my foot and pressed it against his crotch. He was about to take a bite of his food and paused.  I gently rubbed in circular motions; I could feel his cock beneath my toes.  When I pushed on it, it would grow. He got up and moved to my side of the table and slid next to me.  He moved his plates over to him and continued to eat.  He reached over and kissed me.  Then he put his hand on my thigh.  My body tensed up at his touch.  He started to slowly move his hand up my thigh and I paused. “Don’t stop what you’re doing” he ordered.  I continued to eat as if nothing was going on. I looked around the restaurant nervously as he pulled my skirt up.  My heart was racing as he pulled it higher.  He continued to eat as he put his hand between my knees and pushed them apart.  I held my position as I ate with my knees apart.  His hands moved between my legs again and he pulled my skirt higher and I knew my pussy was showing.  Just then the waiter came by the table “Is everything ok with the food, can I get you anything else?” My heart skipped a beat, I was so nervous but he calmly told the waiter that we were fine and he walked away.  I did not know if he could see what was happening or not.  I felt his finger between my lips and against my clit.  My pussy was dripping and I was breathing heavy.  He slid his finger down, turned his hand and inserted his finger inside me. I gasped.
“Who else can do this to you” he asked me.  “No one Sir” I said as he moved his finger in and out of my pussy.  He moved his finger and began to rub my clit. It felt good.  I kept looking around in fear/excitement.  “If this is going to work Jasmine,  you will have to put a lot more effort when we are apart. Do you understand this” he asked pressing hard against my clit.  “Yes Sir” I moaned as my leg began to shake.  “You are going to have to make me feel like I am who you want to serve, that I am your world. Do you understand this?” he asked again rubbing my clit harder.  “Sir, yes I understand” I replied breathing heavily.  He took his hand from between my legs and raised his finger to my lips.  I opened my mouth and sucked his finger clean.  “Good girl” he told me taking his last bite of food. I kept my position as I ate with my knees apart and my skirt raised up.  When we were done eating he motioned for the check and the waiter brought it.  He placed the money down and we got up.  When we did he looked at the booth we were sitting at and pointed to it.  I looked at saw the wet spot I had left.  “Clean it up” he ordered.  I went to grab some napkins and he stopped me. “Don’t embarrass me” he said.  I looked at him puzzled and he stared at me in silence.  I looked around the restaurant and then quickly bent down and licked it up.
We walked back to the car and he opened the door for me and I sat and put my seatbelt on.  He then got inside turning the car on.  “How was your breakfast?” he asked and I told him that it was good.  As we drove back to the hotel we continued to talk about the events leading up till now.  How I felt about everything that has happened.  How I felt about him and how he felt about me. I knew in my heart and that he was committed to me and I can only hope to continue to please him the way that he deserved to be.  We had become closer in the last 24 hours than we had in the weeks and months of talking and I only wish that he didn’t have to leave today.
We pulled into the hotel and he turned the car off.  He got out and opened the door for me and I stepped out of the car.  He pushed me up against the car and kissed my lips.  He then grabbed my hand and began to walk back towards the hotel.  “Come, I still have 35 minutes before I have to turn the key in.” he said.  I smiled.
 
Chapter 6
 
I opened my eyes looking at the ceiling.  It had been two weeks since we had last seen each other in person.  I don't think I will ever forget our first meeting.  I reached for my phone, smiled and took a picture of my face and sent him his "Good Morning" text.  It was a little something I did every morning just to let him know I was thinking of him. Most mornings I would smile, sometimes I would make a silly face or stick my tongue out. I try and change it up for him.  One time I got brave and I sent him a picture of my pussy but he told me not to.  He didn’t want me to feel like I was just a free source of porn.  My phone went off and it was a text from him.  He said good morning and that he was thinking of me.  I smiled. I rolled out of bed and went into the bathroom to take a shower. Something I do every morning that wakes me up for the day.  
I turned on the water and got inside. The hot water felt good to my skin.  I would spend the first 5 to 10 minutes just standing in the water and thinking of him. I would think back to our first time and the shower we took together.  How he bathed me, held me, kissed me. He made me feel cherished and I wish he was here right now.  The thought of him made me wet.  I moved my hand down to my pussy.  It felt good as I rubbed my clit and would move my hand up and down my pussy.  I imagined his tongue licking me.  He felt so good between my legs. It was building again and I stopped and licking my fingers I reached for my phone.   I texted him can your slave please cum this morning and I anxiously waited.  Within a few moments he responded with pleasure.  I quickly texted thank you and put the phone down and closed the curtain and my fingers were back in my pussy.  It didn’t take long for it to hit me.  It was a good orgasm and I stood under the water as I recovered.  I licked my fingers like I know he would want.  I took a quick shower and also shaved.  He told me he like knowing that I was shaving my pussy every morning. It made the routine all the better.
After I was done in the bathroom I grabbed some cloths to get dressed.  I had a short sleeve top, bra, jeans and shoes. I hadn't worn panties since he left. I wasn't allowed to and knowing that this was what he wanted made me happy. I got dressed and went to the kitchen to eat.  I made myself a little breakfast and sat down to eat.  As I ate I texted him Sitting here eating wishing I was putting something else in my mouth.  It didn’t take long for my phone to go off and I smiled.  His text read No meal is complete without dessert.  Mmmmm I really did want his cock in my mouth but more than that I wanted his cum.   I finished up my meal and washed up my dishes.  As I went to go to the living room there was a knock at the door.  I walked up to the door and opened it.  It was a delivery guy and he had a bouquet of flowers.  “I’m looking for Jasmine” he said.  I told him that it was me and he had me sign some paperwork and then handed me the flowers.  I closed the door and brought the flowers into the kitchen.  There was a card and I pulled it and read it.
Jasmine,
Not a day goes by that you are not in my thoughts.  Our time together showed me what being happy was really all about and I hope that I can make you as happy as I am every time I think of you.
I couldn’t stop smiling.  I got a vase and filled it with water and put them in it. I took them to my room and set them up by the window.  Then I grabbed my phone and called him. “Hey mama” he said.  “I love them Sir” I replied.  “I’m glad that you do.  It makes me feel good knowing they brought a smile to your face” he told me.  “I’m still smiling Sir” I told him.  “Take a picture with them and send it to me” he ordered.  “One sec Sir.”  I grabbed the vase in my hand and smiled into my phone as I took the pic and then I texted it to him.  “You get it Sir?” I asked.  “Yes I’m looking at it now.  You look so beautiful and when you smile…. It was worth a bouquet of flowers” He told me.  I couldn’t stop smiling.  “Thank you Sir” I said to him.  “Listen, I just got to this house so we are about to start working, I’ll text you when I get a break.” He told me.  “Ok Sir, Have a good day” I replied.  “You too ma and by the way, when it comes to cumming, today is a freebie” he said and hung up.  I put the flowers back by the window.  Then I laid down on the bed and slid my hand between my legs.
The rest of the day was uneventful.  I spent the day running some errands and then coming home and cooking dinner for the family.  We ate together and I had washed up the dishes.  He wants me to do more housework so I do whatever I can. He had texted me during dinner and told me he would be home within the hour and that he wanted to Skype with me.  We normally Skype for a few minutes each night and I look forward to it as at least for a few minutes, we pretend we are right next to each other.  I wish it wasn’t pretend.  I long to be held in his arms again and the thought of his hands on my body gives me goose bumps.  Sometimes I wonder if he thinks about me the same way but then there are days like today where he surprises me and lets me know that I am his world.  I was sitting in front of my mirror putting on my makeup. I know he tells me all the time that I don’t need it. That I’m naturally beautiful but I still want to look my best for him.  I want him to know that I will always be the best I can for him.
I finished my makeup and logged into Skype on my phone.  I sat in the bed and waited patiently.  Within a few minutes my Skype started ringing.  It was him and I got a tingle over my body.  I picked it up excitedly and within minutes I was looking into his eyes.   “Hey mama” he said as he normally says when he first sees me.  “I missed you Sir” I replied.  He smiled and said “I miss you too.” “How did you do it ma?”  “How did I do what Sir?” I asked. “How did you make yourself look even more beautiful?” I smiled again and so did he. He told me about his day and the new kitchen they had put in.  He sent me pics and it was very pretty but then, they all come out like that.  I told him about my own day and he listened eagerly.  He always showed genuine interest in what I was doing.  “Hey something came up and I just wanted to run it by you and see what you thought” he said.  “What is it Sir” I asked.  Well I’m going to be going to visit my brother for a few days and I was thinking that I could come see you for a few days but….I wasn’t sure if you would like that or not.”  I had a smile from ear to ear. “Sir I would love that more than anything you have no idea!”  I replied.  He was smiling too.  He told me that he would be coming this weekend and that he would get the hotel room and we would hang out the entire weekend.  I was so excited.
We ended up talking for a few hours.  I put the phone down so I could get ready for bed.  I took of my cloths and slid under the sheets and then picked up the phone.  He didn’t want to see me naked and sometimes I really couldn’t understand that.  My body was his. If anybody had the right to look at it is was him but it was what he wanted and so I obeyed. While I was getting ready, he had jumped in the shower and so I patiently waited for him to return.  When he did he was laying in his bed. We talked some more and laughed.  He said he was excited to be coming to see me and I believe him. I could barely control my excitement. 
It was getting late though and so we said our goodnights.  I blew him a kiss and he smiled and then he logged off.  I laid there under the sheets and thought about the upcoming weekend.  I thought about the things that could happen and most of all I thought about his cock and how often I would have it between my lips.  My pussy was wet and getting wetter.  Ten minutes to midnight.  Ten minutes left of my freebie.  I slipped my hands between my legs….


 
Chapter 7
 
I got up wet again. It really was no surprise.  I haven’t been allowed to cum since he told me he was coming to visit but each morning and night before going to sleep, I had to play with myself till I was about to cum and then stop.  I spread my legs and slid my hand down between them my fingers entering me easily as wet as I was.  I think I haven’t stopped dripping in days.  It my fingers felt good in my pussy and I alternated between moving inside me and rubbing my swollen clit.  I closed my eyes and thought of him, his cock between my legs fucking me brutally.  Me squeezing him the way he wanted, my pussy taking every inch of him. I felt my orgasm building. I wasn’t allowed to stop until  I as on the verge of cuming. I pressed hard on my clit and rubbed it furiously.  My orgasm built and built and then when I couldn’t  hold it I stopped.  My breathing was heavy. My pussy was on fire and I needed to cum.  I wanted to so badly.  I pulled my fingers out of my pussy and brought them to my lips.  I licked them till there wasn’t a drop of my pussy juice on them.  I let my hand fall to the bed and just stared into the ceiling.  I grabbed my phone and took a picture of my face. I knew it looked like a mess but it’s what he wanted and that’s what I will give him.  Good Morning Master, your slave’s pussy  aches for you.  A couple seconds later I received a text that read soon. I smiled but I was very frustrated.  I went into the bathroom to shower.
It was about 1pm when I got an email from him.  It read:
Jasmine, I got us a hotel for the weekend.  The information is in the attachment.  I will be there at 3pm. They have your name and I want you to go to the front desk and get a key and be in the room by 2pm.  I want you naked and kneeling in the middle of that room starting from 2pm and I want you to slowly play with yourself the whole time.  You will not cum.  I want your pussy dripping when I enter that room and you will not say a word or stop playing with yourself unless I tell you to.
See you soon….
P.S.
Bring one pair of stilettos J
I couldn’t sum up the emotions I was feeling.  I quickly opened the attachment and read the information.  Then I grabbed some cloths and put them in a bag.  I decided I would just go now and get ready there.  I told my parents I would be gone all weekend and if they needed me to just call my cell.  Then I got in my car and drove to the hotel.
 It didn’t take that long to get to and it was a nice hotel.  I walked up to the counter and told them my name and that there should be a room there for me.  They gave me the key and told me my room number. I grabbed my bag and headed for the elevator.  The room was nice and I put my things on the bed.  I decided that I wanted to take another shower and make sure I was perfect for him.  I took my clothes off and put them in my bag and didn’t even bother taking the new ones out.  I walked into the bathroom and started the shower.  The water was hot and it felt good on my body.  My pussy was so sensitive that the water running across it felt good. God I was going crazy.  I took a shower and dried myself off and then got to work on my makeup. I was so excited I could barely contain myself.  It had been a while since we have seen each other. I didn’t think it would be this hard to not be with him.  When I was done getting ready it was twenty till so I laid down on the bed and turn the TV on.  I would look at the time on my phone as it crept along to 2pm.  When there was about two minutes left, I crawled to the center of the room and positioned myself so that I was facing the door.  I wanted to be the first thing he saw when he came in.  I got into the kneeling position.  This part I wasn’t really looking forward to.  My pussy was so sensitive, it ached and I knew I would cum at any moment. It wouldn’t take much.  The room clock hit 2pm and I moved my hand down between my legs.  I felt my fingers brush up against my clit and slide into me.  I was wet in seconds.  I kept a slow pace like he wanted and just gently played with myself.  The minutes seemed like hours and I couldn’t help but rock my hips as I slowly fucked myself.
After what seemed like an eternity, I heard something at the door that spooked me from the sexual daze.  I straightened up my back and made sure I was in a good kneeling position and continued to move my hand between my legs.  The door swung open and when it did he was standing there.  He say me kneeling, stroking my pussy and he smiled.  He stepped into the room leaving the door open and watched me for what seemed like forever.  He then closed the door and came inside.  He walked right up to me and put his finger under my chin lifting my head. He then kissed me passionately. His tongue in my mouth, his hands in my hair as I knelt there, it had been too long.  He walked away from me taking his shirt off, his shoes and pants and then his underwear.  His cock was hard and my eyes fixated on it.  He sat down on the bed and then motioned to his cock. I took my fingers out of my pussy and licked them clean, then got on all fours and crawled to him.  When I got to him I knelt and placed my mouth around the head of his cock.  It jumped as my tongue touched it and as I took it down my throat; I slid my own fingers back inside my pussy.
As much as my own orgasm continuously grew, my priorities were on pleasing him.  My fingers continued to slowly rub my pussy as my throat massaged my Master’s cock.  I used my free hand to massage his balls.  He groaned as the head of his cock pushed in and out of my throat. I forced myself to take every inch of his cock and dutifully licked and sucked.  His pre-cum was dripping into my mouth and my mouth watered.  I began to pick up the pace on his cock as I kept my eyes focused on his.  He would open them and look at me and smile and it only made me work harder.  He would pick up my hair as it fell on my face and hold it all in a ponytail.  He would tell me how he loved the sight of his cock disappearing into my mouth.  As I continued to deep throat him I could feel his balls in my hand as they began to get swollen.  I tighten my lips around his cock milking it with my lips and gently rubbed my clit.  His breathing was getting very heavy and his grip on my hair was tightening.  He then placed both hands on my head and pushed me down till his cock was completely in my mouth.  “Swallow” he said as the first jet went straight down my throat. He grunted as he shot his loads down my throat. I swallowed quickly to keep up and there was a lot. When he eased his grip on my head I slowly lifted my head up squeezing my lips tightly, sucking on the last drops of cum and right when I was about to pull his cock from my mouth he held my head.  “I’m not done with you yet.” He said as he pushed my head back down his cock.  He laid back in the chair and I took his semi-hard cock back in my mouth.  I continued to slowly play with myself as I licked and sucked on his cock.  It took a couple minutes but it slowly began to come back to life in my mouth.  I could feel it growing again and sucked on it eagerly as it stiffened and filled my mouth.  I took it down my throat a few times and then he told me to get on all fours on the bed. 
I kissed his cock and then licked my fingers and crawled to the bed.  I got on all fours and was about to put my fingers in my pussy when he told me not to.  He came up behind me. My heart was beating.  He placed the head of his cock at my entrance. He didn’t enter me he just held it there and rubbed gently.  I was going crazy.  He then rubbed his shaft between my pussy lips and across my clit.  My pussy was dripping and his cock was soaked in my spit and pussy juice.  “Do you want to cum? He asked me as he continued to rub his shaft on my pussy. “Yes Sir, Please your slave begs you to let her cum. Please Master.” I begged as I rocked my hips.  He then whispered in my ear.  “Today, you’re going to have to earn it.” He said as I felt the tip of his cock push against my tight anus…
 
 
 
Chapter 8
 
It hurt. I felt the head of his cock pushing deeper into my ass. He grabbed my hair pulling my head back until he got the last of his cock in my ass.  I felt his hips pressed tightly against my checks as I whispered “Thank You” like I had been trained but more because I meant it. He pulled out slowly and the pushed back in. He was thick but as he continued to pump slowly, my ass became more accepting of him. He pulled my hips back into his as he began to fuck me harder and faster.  “Whose ass is this?” he asked as he slammed into me. “It’s yours Sir” I said as I braced myself for each impalement. “Again” he said. “Its your ass Sir” I replied. He again and I repeated myself. I kept repeating myself as he fucked my ass until he pulled out completely. I spun around wrapping my lips around his cock as he began to shoot his precious load into my mouth.  I felt his hands on each side of my head as he came. He must have been saving it up because it was a lot. He slowly pulled his cock from my lips and I gave the tip of his cock a kiss and then opened my mouth to show him the gift he gave me.  He laid back on the bed and motioned for me to go to the end of the bed. “I want you to kneel with your legs spread and play with yourself.”  I moved slowly into  position making sure not to spill any of his cum that was still filing my mouth.  I slowly placed my hand between my legs and started to play with myself. He smiled at what he saw. He then got off the bed but told me to keep my eyes straight forward.  I continued to play with myself slowly. My…no…His pussy was on fire.  I closed my eyes and tilted my head back in ecstasy.  The sting of the cane on my ass brought me back instantly. It took everything I had to not spill his cum, I knew that would make it much worse. “Eyes front” he said sternly and I obeyed.
I felt the cane as he dragged it across my skin.  He dragged it slowly across my stomach and my nipples as I continued to play with myself slowly. Then it was gone.  Moments later I felt the sting on my ass. It hurt but I kept my position.  The strokes came randomly. The combination of pleasure and pain was intoxicating. “Please Sir, may your slave cum?” I mumbled still holding his cum in my mouth. Another stroke on my ass. “Sir please may your slave cum for you?” I begged.  “Stop” was all I heard and my hands instantly went behind my back.  He laid down on the bed and told me to climb on top of him. I straddled him guiding his cock into my pussy. “Thank You” I mumbled as I lowered myself fully on top of him.  Keeping my hands behind me I slowly lifted myself up and down on him.  He moaned in pleasure and I liked that. I liked that I made him feel good. That I was what he wanted.  The position was awkward considering I still had my mouth open trying not to spill as I rode him. I felt his hands on my breast as he squeezed them. They traveled across my body squeezing my ass and finally resting on my hips as I continued to give him pleasure.  It didn’t take long for me to begin begging again. “Please can you slave cum Master?” There was a short pause and then he smiled saying “Cum for me” and I did.  It came from deep inside and echoed throughout my body.  In the mist of all of that I heard “Swallow” and I did just that swallowing my Master’s load as I had the biggest orgasm of my life.  I tried to keep my position on top of him but I felt like passing out.  He pulled me down on him, his cock still inside me and he held me tight.  I closed my eyes, safe and secure in his arms.
 
Chapter 9
 
We were in the car heading to dinner. Another great day with Master. “How are you feeling?” he asked me. “Blessed” I replied. He smiled and then asked me to get something in the backseat. It was a gift wrapped envelope. “Open it” he ordered. I tore the end open and out came a pair of dog tags.  “These are mine. I know we don’t spend a lot of time together right now. That wont always be like that but until then I wanted you to have a little piece of me when I’m not here.”  I smiled and put them on.  They feel into my cleavage and when he saw that he said “I’m jealous” and we both laughed.  Dinner was great. He is very funny and is constantly making me laugh. He says he loves my smile. As we were walking out of the restaurant I asked him if we could take a picture together and he said “Of course” and we both smiled as my camera phone’s flash went off.  We got into the car and headed back to the hotel.  “You make me happy.” He said and I smiled.  Then there was a big bang and everything went black.
I woke up in a room. I was in pain. A nurse came in and asked how I was feeling.  I was still groggy but tried to get up.  “Don’t try and move” the nurse said pushing me back down.  “You were in a bad accident. Drunk driver ran the red light. You are lucky to be here.” She told me.  “I was with someone” I said but she quieted me down.  “He is here but he is in critical condition. He took the blunt of the hit.”  I tried to get up again “I need to see him!”  The nurse called for help and more nurses came into the room. I felt the needle and the world went black again.
When I woke again I wasn’t in much pain.  I don’t know how long I was out for.  I got out of bed and walked to the door and the same nurse from before approached me.  “I want to see him” I said.  I could see the sadness in her face. “I’m so very sorry.” She said.  “He passed away last night.”  My legs gave out and the nurse grabbed me and guided me to the floor.  The pain I felt. Like my heart being ripped from my chest. I cried and couldn’t stop. I couldn’t stop…
 
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It has been 8 months since he was buried but the pain never really leaves you. I still think of him.  I sat in front of my computer looking at the collarme website.  I played with the dog tags still around my neck and stare at the photo of us in front of the restaurant.  Without him, I never would have experienced what I did. He opened things inside me I didn’t know were there. He will always be a part of me.  He would want me to be happy, to continue my journey.  Would I find another like him, I doubt it but he would want me to try. I moved my mouse over the red “New Messages” and clicked.
 
4/30/2014 10:47:27 AM
Profile after profile you read with people complaining about 1 sentence messages or a simple Hello, how are you? I find it ironic that with how many profiles complain of this, just as many will not respond at all to a message that obviously took the sender more than 10 seconds to write. I am beginning to understand why some resort to a copy paste message in order to spark an initial conversation or to show interest. So when your complaining about all the copy paste messages, thank your peer group. It's the sane reason some men stop opening doors. Like its been said, If chivalry is dead, women killed it...
2/14/2014 9:14:30 PM

Valentine's Day is over.  I hope it was enjoyable for all.

slavecheryl2012
 
 Age: 38
 Peoria, Illinois