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Death to my heart but the wound continues to bleed. I feel lost. My spirit is trapped. The curse continues to play out, to roam alone... A piece searching to feel whole. I bow down and bare my soul but the gates are closed for me. No forgiveness, only regret, forever to burn in the fiery abyss... 12-11-15 I do not know why... But I'm getting an influx of people from every state but mine... Let me make something abundantly clear... NOT LOCAL = NOT INTERESTED ---Update---
Sometimes the greatest mystery is ones own self... That seems to be my puzzle as of late. I'm slowly putting the pieces back into place and finding what the big picture is. I've both gone through and am still going through quite a few head space changes. I'm open to talk to whoever about whatever. Just don't be overly presumptuous. Maybe I'll get things right one day? Until then I'm simply me. Without being so cryptic now let me clarify a few things. Yes I used to be Dominant but that is no longer who I am. I've switched teams for now but that does NOT mean I am a switch. Nothing feels more right for my then to simply "let go". I can't be who I was anymore. It was not working. I have little to no desire to Top for anyone. I'm more interested in the bottom role, for now at least. It comes more natural to me and is far more of a release than anything else.

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9/8/2010 6:52:55 PM

So for those of you that have have been paying attention, or even those that care, I've been going through something of an identity crisis. Recently I've  been best describing myself as a sadomasochist. This I feel was somewhat more accurate than my previous standings. I'm not sure that even puts into words what I need to though.

For more than the past year or so I've been experimenting on occasion with being submissive, bottoming, or whatever label you would like for it. I've told a few people that long ago, beginning into the lifestyle, I actually was a sub.

Recently the stress of life has been building around me. With school, work, home, and anything extra it all seems too much to balance. I simply can't continue the way that I am. I feel broken, damaged, and defeated. With that in mind I feel one final change to my profile is necessary.

I simply can't be Dominant anymore nor do I even want to at this time. That includes any Top position or even the sadistic desires I once felt. For anyone that knows me, this is huge for me to say. I'm not sure I want to be classified as a submissive yet again either. That wouldn't be 100% accurate. For now I simply think masochist is the best term. All of the stress in my life is causing me pain and rather than succumb to it I'm going to embrace it.

I'm not sure what possible implications this will bring on. Domme play partners? Not sure... A potential Mistress? Possible... Maybe I'll just snap back to my "old self"? I doubt that... All I can surely say is that I am a different person for the time being. Things within me have been changing and I'm finally ready to accept them.

Nothing feels as right for me at this time than simply "letting go". I can't phrase it any better. I would appreciate any input or advice to all of my rambling from those that care to do so. Although not new altogether for me, this is something strange and different. I'm just not my same sure footed self.


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TiffanyPlease
 
 Age: 24
 Chicago, Illinois