well here we are...i woke up this morning with a lot on my mind. i have had a pretty rough 2 months and i see a better future coming from it no doubt. As i go through my emails here i notice that a lot of the inquiry's are asking the same questions so i thought perhaps i should write a bit more about myself so that people have a better understanding of me when they read.
where to start where to start....lets start with the mundane every day kinda stuff. i am 33 years old i have been in the lifestyle for almost 12 years now. i have no children, and at this age i know its probably a silly thing to think about but perhaps one day i could adopt. i would love to be a mommy. Right now, not a good time for children. i am a full time student studying pre med. my original plan was to attend PA school for my Masters in Medicine and be a Physicians Assistant. That is when i was in a hurry to get done with school. Life changes and now i am thinking about going to med school. I haven't made my mind up yet though. i study a lot so i don't have much of a social life. What i do in my free time usually is study. i don't have many friends here in this area because i haven't been out much to make any. i do like to meet new people but in actuality i am a shy girl and feel intimidated with the thought of getting out and getting to know people, crowds make me nervous, something i have to over come.
Right now i am working on putting my heart back together. Part of the reason i haven't been out much is that the last 5 years outside of school my life has been dedicated to the perfect women. The one that i would spend the rest of my life with......In November my Mistress decided that our lives would be better spend seperately. Needless to say its been very hard for me to accept, although i have now accepted it. It's hard when you picture your future forever with someone and then they are gone. It takes time to imagine a life without them and gather your strength to move on. There wasn't really a reason besides distance that ended our relationship. Visiting for the summers and returning to school became to hard for Her to live with and a failed attempt for Her to move to America was the start of the end for us. That being said i am not willing to re locate at this time. School is the most important thing in my life. i wasn't willing to change that for Her and i wont be for anyone else either. School comes first, it's for my future and i am the only person on earth that can secure my future, so the quest to do that has begun. My heart is healing now and while i move on day to day i begin to feel healing. I don't think it is fair for me to try to give my heart away broken so i will continue to work on getting better before i move into something serious again.
Another thing about me that could be important to You is that i am not sexy in any sense of the word. i don't ever feel sexy it's just not something i do very well. However, i am cute. i do cute a lot easier it comes more naturally to me and natural works well. i always say never try to be something you aren't, be true to yourself. That's what happiness is. i am confident in myself as a submissive and i know that i am NOT a slave. im not slave material. i am obedient, but im have a babygirl personality. i am silly and love to laugh. i try not to take things too seriously, however i can be serious when i have to be. Most people in the community that know me call me brat. Im not a brat in the sense that im mouth and disrespectful. Those things im not. But! i am playful and a bit cheeky, and perhaps a bit of a trouble maker...and i will keep the Dominants around me on their toes. Always thinking and always looking for those loopholes while remaining obedient and respectful. i am not looking to be part of a family of submissives. i might consider serving a couple, but i prefer a one on one relationship. i want to be in love with my Dominant and i want them to be in love with me. i want to be cherished and cared for in return. i've tried the sharing thing and im not very good at it.
The bad things...things i need work on. You might as well know these upfront! i struggle with issues of abandonment and trust. i move slowly and it takes me a long time to really trust that i won't be hurt. i have a bad temper....it doesn't show its self often and i am very patient and kind for the most part. But when i feel hurt or done wrong by my temper often gets the best of me and i end up begging mercy and forgivness for my actions (or my mouth). Sometimes, my playfulness can go a bit too far, nothing that hasn't been able to be corrected with a stern look or a sharp swat to remind me of my place. When i am searching more seriously for a Dominant i need one who is strict, strong, but loving and playful too. i will attempt to wrap You around my little finger........i just do, it just happens...PLEASE don't let me! no matter how hard i try or how hard i beg...wrapped around my finger is NOT where a Dominant belongs..of course You already know that! but do remember that as a Dominant, it is ok to be loving....*winks*
i hope this lil post helps everyone get to know me a little better it saves having to go through it a million times in each email...THANKS!!
kisses
da brat
