Thinking today that perhaps what I need is a worthless little girl...someone who's utterly useless that I can give purpose to. Maybe that's a given and I'm just slow to realize it.

Then again, I would enjoy someone with whom I can enjoy a vanilla lifestyle with a dark private life.

I'm torn, it would seem. What I know for certain, however, is that I need a girl or two that I can put to work...doing something vanilla. My ideal slave will be glad to work hard all day only to come home and have master take her money away, then make her strip and degrade her while using her domestically and sexually. What I need is a girl craving a dark double life.

Unfortunately, it seems I can't find a good pussy to use and control just yet. Waiting makes me angry, which seems to fuel more aggressive fantasies during my ample down-time.

I've seen a profile or two themed around racial degradation. While not typically racist, I do find it quite exciting to think about. To have a black or Hispanic slave working hard for me then coming home and being put in their place at my feet. I think I might enjoy that quite a lot.

Though, were that the case, I feel I would definitely need a white slave as well just to establish an interesting dynamic within the household.

Then again, I can't seem to find anyone interested in me thusfar. I haven't had my profile up here that long, though...I guess I'm just impatient.

Or perhaps submissives just don't want to be workpets as I envision them. Hmm...

I seem to notice a number of people posting images of models and such to their profile. I'd read about fakers on other peoples' profiles/journals before but thought it was just a preemptive callout or something. For a very specific interest site like this, it's hard to imagine what goes through one's mind when they decide to do such things.

Aside from that, I find myself increasingly impatient lately.  I tend to be that way, impatient in the short-term but more than willing to wait for bigger things. For example, if I give a command...even if it's just something simple or via email or something, I expect a response immediately. But when it comes to meeting someone or whatever in-person, I can wait years. I guess I'm just odd that way.

Initially, I expect to...I guess run a trial on any would-be slaves or pets. Online, of course, until such a time as we can unite in-person.

How might I do that, however? Hmm...initially just talking, I suppose. Preferably via yahoo messenger or email (yourmastercs@yahoo.com

). Maybe giving you a list of tasks to complete once or twice and having you tell me via email how you felt and what you thought about while completing each task.

I would have you buy me something...for yourself or for me. A toy, perhaps, or a collar. For myself, I'm not sure what I'd have you buy me. Perhaps just a Visa gift card now and again.

Like I've said over and over, my slave needs to be a work-horse and preferably financially stable already so I wouldn't expect much resistance here after we'd come to know each other fairly well.

I would have you take some personalized pictures for me. Only for me. I would be angry if anyone else saw my pet's body. It's a shame I probably won't be able to find a busty, little working virgin to give herself to me.

Hm...I suppose that's enough from me for now. I will add, though, that I'd rather not have a pet older than thirty. Ideally, you would be twenty-five and under, but depending on your appearance, I can accept an older woman. Forty is my limit, however. I need a girl who can serve me as long as possible.

I've never been all that good at verbally expressing myself, though I expect that to change promptly after finding a suitable workpet. That is, if I find one. I do find myself quite aroused by force and verbal abuse.

To be honest, the only physical abuse or humiliation I'm interested in dealing would be:

-Smacks to the face, breasts, ass, pussy and thighs.

-Paddling or flogging to the same areas.

-Mild to intense choking with my hands or some tool(collar, scarf, etc..).

-Gagging on my cock or some toy, possibly to the point of vomit(still on the fence about that).

-Anal stretching via plugs or other toys.

-Hair or arm pulling...or other forms of manhandling.

-Pissing on your face or in your mouth(very rarely, if ever...unless coaxed otherwise).

-Clips, weighted or otherwise on your nipples, clit, labia and perhaps other areas. Nothing sharp, though.

-Verbal abuse(name-calling and otherwise treating you as inferior or an animal).

-Make you eat like an animal from a plate or bowl on the floor(though perhaps not too often).

-Lock you in a kennel for the night(not often, I would much prefer fondling you in bed each night).

-Tie you to a bench in the basement with a magic wand pressed against your cunt, forcing you to cum over and over throughout the night.

There's other things I can't quite think of at the moment.

Now for some things I'd prefer never doing or doing extremely rarely:

-Anything involving feces, mine or yours.

-Making you touch or lick my ass. I could warm up to it, but it's unlikely.

-Letting you touch or be touched by another male.

-Anything involving blood. I'm just not comfortable with it.

-Wax play. Causing the pain to you would be exciting, but the appearance leaves much to be desired.

-Abuse that would leave marks, even bruises. I just don't fancy looking at a battered or scarred girl, though the fear would indeed be arousing.

-Death. I see people putting this as a hard limit on occasion...though I'm not sure why. Who would willingly kill an obedient slave? Not to mention it's a crime.

-Anything particularly illegal. Some things we can keep secret, but some things would simply be best to avoid.

-Excessive rope-play. I much prefer simple, quick, leather straps.

There's undoubtedly things I'm forgetting for this category as well.

Finally, here's some other ways in which I will control you on a daily basis:

-Dressing you and determining what makeup you can use.

-Controlling your vanilla/public persona.

-Make you work for me at one or more common, legitimate professions.

-Have you clean our house and cook our meals.

-Use you sexually(a bit obvious).

-Have you wake me up each morning by sucking or stroking my cock.

-Make you watch shows or movies with me, probably sitting on my lap while I play with your body.

-Play games with me(and our other slave if we have one) or otherwise indulge in various personal hobbies.. You'll be quite busy every day, but it will be nice to share my hobbies with my pet(s).

-Check in on you throughout the day, via text, call or email. Perhaps on a schedule.

Of course, there's probably things I'm missing in that list as well.

Essentially, you will need to submit to my will, as I would expect a slave to do regardless.

As I've said before, I am quite new to this type of lifestyle but don't mistake my lack of experience for lack of enthusiasm. I definitely need a good slave or two to serve me for the rest of my life.

The more I think about this lifestyle, the more aroused I get just thinking about controlling some tight, young girl's life. I am still looking exclusively for a work-horse, though. Someone who will gladly go out and earn money for her master then come home and serve as my eager housepet and companion.

I'm not, however, looking for a slave who wants to be publicly used or exploited. My first household rule would be that my slave(s) would belong only to me. No other man will even be allowed to see my girl(s) naked. Unless, perhaps, it's a doctor.

I may be a freak with strange desires, but I prefer that side of me to be private. Thus, the need for a vanilla public appearance while pulling your strings and controlling your mind from the background.

Fortunately, I'm not a social person at all, therefore most of our time would be spent with you at my feet, begging for orders like a good girl.

This entry shall be about my general preferences when it comes to women.

I tend to be quite shallow when it comes to women. I have very specific tastes, though when it comes to owning a slave...I can be a little lenient in some areas.

I prefer cute looking white girls, the more pale you are, the better. In-fact, I wouldn't allow you much time in the sun, if any. To see an extremely pale girl with dark eyeliner really turns me on. Hair I'm mostly indifferent to, as long as it's not too short.

I prefer women with an athletic body, but being too thin is less attractive than being too chubby...and if you happen to be a bit chubby, I can always make you work out until you're more presentable for your master ;)

I suppose the same can be said for women that're too thin, as well. I could always make my little pig eat to be more attractive for master..

I've always had a certain lust for black women, but I find that I'm much less attracted to them over time. Though if I could find a black woman with a figure like Tyra Banks, I'd be one happy camper.

To add to my shallow preferences, I tend to fancy busty women. It can be quite difficult to find a slender woman with D or larger breasts, but it's common enough in this day and age that I shouldn't rule it out entirely. I suppose round breasts are more important to me than size, now that I think about it. Though I do much prefer upper Bs and larger. Something I can grab onto and knead like dough~

I've never had much interest in Asian women, though Japanese women can be very cute at times. The way their torsos usually look, though...just not my type.

The most important facet of a woman for me, however, is obedience. I won't tolerate a woman who's capable of saying no to me. You can refuse anything from anyone else(and many things I will force you to) but you must never deny a request from your master, no matter what it might be.

Granted, I have no interest in making you do certain things...but we'd have to talk about those things another time. Perhaps another long-winded journal entry featuring my limits or things I'm just not interested in.

Before I forget, I don't much like tattoos or piercings. I just don't find them attractive...I even find them to be a tad repulsive at times. I much prefer the look of soft, smooth flesh, perhaps a bit reddened by a bit of spanking, paddling or flogging.

There's more I could probably add but...I type too much as it is. Odd considering I'm much, much more...reserved in-person.

I may as well write a journal entry or two, to give people a better look into my personality. Or something like that.

I've always thought about this type of lifestyle but I've always been a bit...awkward, let's say. I don't typically do well in social situations, which is a large part of why I need a slave who can be a career woman.

Additionally, I just like the image of a strong looking businesswoman coming home and immediately stripping and crawling straight to me for her evening commands.

I also like the thought of shaping a younger woman's interests to fit my own. That, I think, turns me on more than simply making a woman work for me. Of course, that makes sense, as I'd mold that young slave into a seemingly independent career woman.

I may be younger than the average master, but make no mistake, I've definitely got big plans and a wild passion for control.

I would have you check in from work as frequently as possible just to ensure that you were thinking about your beloved owner...via text or email or whatever you were capable of.

I would make you wear unflattering clothes because your body belongs exclusively to me...and when you got home, I'd make you wear nothing but a collar...or very little otherwise.

I would also make you partake in my hobbies on occasion, which some people may not enjoy...but it's not really your place as a slave to enjoy yourself, is it? Aside from the utter bliss you feel from being used and controlled, that is ;)

My hobbies include very basic things...watching movies or television, playing video games and will expand to other things depending on my slave's salary.

I do honestly hope that I can find a girl to exploit....but I don't expect to find one~