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I'm fairly new to the lifestyle though I have read a fair amount about it. In truth I'm not looking for anything serious right now, but more along the lines of information and perhaps tutorials.

3/4/2006 11:21:12 AM Duality.  Something I've been stuck on lately.  Thought about it at work the other night.  About how everyone has two sides to their nature.  Ying and yang.  Light and Dark.  Male and female.  However you want to look at it. Some of the emails I"ve gotten talk about how I contradict myself.  It's partially because of duality.  I acknowledged years ago that I am a walking contradiction.  Anyone who's ever met me would agree.  Straight/gay, butch/femme, dom/sub.  To me, I'm just me.  To others I tend to be confusing.  I don't do it on purpose.  It's the way I've always been.  Never settling on one side or the other, because I fit on neither. Duality.  I quite enjoy mine.  Take some time to enjoy yours.

2/26/2006 5:10:18 AM Wow, there are some really nice people here.  Of course there are the others, but I don't want to dwell on them right now. I've gotten some nice messages from different people offering information and guidance.  And not all of them were sleazy attempts for cybersex.  I'm glad that there are decent human beings out there. Thank you to everyone who sent true messages.  And if anyone has any links for more info, I would love if you would send it to me.

2/21/2006 9:22:03 PM Okay, I've spent the last half hour going through the different emails I've recieved since I joined.  Wow, some people have no tact and think that cheesy lines will work on me. It seems that some of the idiots out there (and there seems to be a lot of them) think that because I am new to this (only really in terms of actual experience) that I am naive and/or stupid.  I'm not a child, nor am I an imbecile.  I do have a mind and I have a tendancy to be very throughout about the different endeavours that I pledge myself to.  I refuse to blindly jump into anything, especially a relationship that requires trust and respect.  So, no I'm not going to be someone's online slave/pet/sub/whatever.  Right now I'm more looking for information and guidance.  Perhaps if there is someone in the area I would consider meeting with them, but I'm not rushing into anything.

2/19/2006 12:27:47 AM Sometimes the whole online thing gets to be so juvenile and so banal.  Yet here I am again, trying once more to find that someone, something.  It's somewhat pathetic that I'm here.  I've been all over the place trying to find a way to sate my cravings, but I've never found what I need, only what I think I want (and half the time not even that).  There seems to be an overabundace of people out there just looking for the quick thrill, easy satisfaction without stopping to savour what's presented to them.  Most of them aren't even getting what they want, changing their minds constantly, bouncing from one thing to another.  Like hyperactive children searching for ways to occupy their time. I know what I want, hell I'm pretty sure I know what I need.  But finding, getting and keeping it, that's a whole nother story.