I have to say that I love my new Master with all my heart. He owns me heart, body, soul. It is as if we are meant to be together. He is the first Master that has ever been able to just give me a look that will stop me in my tracks. He makes me feel like I am loved, wanted and needed. I have never had a Master that love me for being me. He understands that I am scared to death of being hurt that some of my reactions I can not always control. He understands that I am still learning and trying to remember all his rules and takes that into consideration when choosing on how he wants to punish me. I want so bad to find us a playmate, it has been a long time since I have been with another woman. I think I want the playmate more then Master does. We both really want it though. Coming here was my idea.

As Jay walked to the front door, he wondered what kind of birthday surprise awaited him.  He already knew his friend Tina was flying in to help celebrate other than that he was clueless.  Tina and he had been good friends since high school and his girlfriend Mandy had asked her to come spend the weekend with them.  He walked in to find the two of them sitting in the living room talking away.  Both got up as he entered the door and gave him a big hug and kiss. Nice way to start his birthday weekend he thought.  “Why don’t you go grab a shower before we head out to get something to eat. “  Mandy said as she gave him another hug and kiss.  “We girls will sit out here and talk some more until you get done, do rush on our account. We are having fun sharing stories.”  Tina chimed in. 

As he walked back to the bedroom he could her girls giggle and whisper.  This can’t be good he thought to himself as he shut the door to the bathroom and turned the water on.  As he undressed he could still hear them giggling oh well he thought as he stepped into the hot water.   His thought got the best of him as he showered.  Once he was done he got out of the shower, something is not right it was to quiet he thought as he toweled off and got dressed quickly. He quietly opened the bedroom door and walked down the hallway.  As he neared the living room he noticed that the lights were out and that candle light flickered off the celling.  His eyes widened as he entered the room both girls were naked on a blowup mattress and in the 69 position, he closed his eyes and pinched himself and reopened his eyes. This was not a dream this was for real.  He knew Mandy was bi but she had not found a female she liked since she moved back into the state and he never knew Tina was bisexual. He stood there and watched for a bit before the urge to join in the fun overcame him.  He stripped his clothes off and went over to the girls.  He then grabbed Mandy’s ass that was sticking up in the air. 

The girls stopped and said in unison Happy Birthday, then told him that he could only watch for now and that they would let him know when he could join in on the fun.  Jay not being able nor wanting to wait grabbed Mandy’s ass once again.  The girls stopped what they were doing.  “If you do not want to be a good boy then you will have to be punished they giggled.  They each took one of his arms and led him to a chair, Pushed him down and then tied him to the chair. Jay had not noticed the chair or the ropes earlier. “Since you want to be naughty and not listen then we are going to punish you.”  Mandy giggled. Tina went over and had turned on the stereo and as AC/DC’s;” You Shook Me All Night Long” began to play Mandy began to give him a lap dance.  Her hips gyrated to the beat her tit in his face.  Tina climbed on his lap next.  If only his hands were free to touch those tits that were in his face but not close enough to even lick.  He could feel the heat and wetness of each girls mound as they rocked and gyrated on his lap. When the one was on his lap the other was playing with the others tits. Sometimes they would kiss and other times they would take a lick at the others mound.  Okay maybe this was not so bad after all he thought, until Mandy took her knee and wrapped them around his neck and put her mound so close to his face he could smell her sweet cum and Tina came over and began to stick her fingers inside as she licked away.  “Your girlfriend tastes real good and sweet, but I am sure you knew that;” Tina whispered in his ear.  She then kissed him allowing him a taste. When she was done they traded places and Mandy did the same thing only she did not allow him a taste.  After Mandy was done playing with Tina; she asked him if he was ready to be a good boy and play by their rules.  “Yes I am.”  The girls untied him and led him back to the mattress where they once again went at each other.  By this time his member was so hard and ready to explode at any moment.  “Okay big boy you can come play now. Just remember to pay attention to both of us. 

Lying down on the mattress between both girls he filled his hand with a tit from each girl suck first one then the other.  He worked his hand down each girl and kissed his way down there bodies. His mind on overload; which girl should he do first.  Before he could pick Mandy went over to Tina and stuck her mound in Lisa’s face, so his face went down to Tina’s mound.  As he began to lick Tina, Tina began to lick Mandy. The girls began to moan and quiver getting louder and louder. He licked faster and harder and so did Lisa.  Lisa began to cum all over him and Mandy came all over Lisa and he shot both of them with his cum.  The girls giggled as they helped each other up.  “Can you pour us some wine while we go clean up a bit, the night is just starting.” Mandy said as they disappeared around the corner.   He got up and poured three glasses of wine then headed back to wash up his face.  Mandy and Lisa were giggling as he walked into the bath room.  They kissed again as he washed up his face.  Once he was done the three of them walked out into living room together.  The girls picked up there wine glasses so he picked up his, “Here’s to the birthday boy;” they said together as the three of them clinked glasses.   The girls chugged down their glass of wine and before he could finish his they pulled him to the mattress and shoved him down. Mandy pulled a bag from behind the sofa where she pulled out a strap on and put it on while Tina climbed on top of him. Once she was in position Mandy slipped the strap on inside of Lisa. The two kept in rhythm with each other; Tina riding him hard and deep and Mandy matching her. The two of them began to moan again each one seeming to try and out do the other.  “Cum for us baby;” Lisa moaned.  “Yes cum for us baby Mandy replied.  It was he could take before he could stop himself he filled Lisa with his cum.  Mandy pulled out of Lisa and Lisa got off of him. Mandy took her place on top of his still very hard member.  Lisa pulled out and put on her strap on; once Mandy was in place she entered Mandy. Again the two of them drove him over the edge. 

Once they were done this time they said that they needed a break and wanted to clean up.  They went down the hall and into the bathroom.  He refilled the wine glasses and headed back to the bathroom to find both girls in the shower together.  The girls asked him if he wanted to join them.  He got into the shower with him and the two of them began to wash his body; once they were done washing him they washed each other.  The shower ended and the girls got out of the shower and dried off and then dried him off.  With the towels wrapped around them they headed back out into the living room.  “We are not done yet.  We are still super horny.”  The girls giggled; as they headed to the kitchen to grab a bite to eat.  They pulled out a tray of cheese fruit and crackers.  He grabbed the glasses of wine and followed them into the kitchen.  They ate and drank wine.  Once they were full the girls went back to the mattress and waited for him to get done.  While they waited Mandy lay down on her back and pulled out a double sided dildo and put the one end inside her, Tina straddled Mandy as she put the other end inside of herself and then lowered herself on top of Mandy.  The two of them began to go at it.  Jay no longer hungry went over to get a better view.  Tina handed him a bottle of lube as he lubed himself Mandy pulled Lisa’s ass cheeks apart for him.  Once inside of her ass; and began to pump; Tina matched his rhythm.  Mandy began to moan and Tina soon followed.  Mandy told him to fill Tina’s ass with his cum.  Tina told Mandy to cum for her. He told Tina to cum for him.  One after the other once again they came.  The girls switched places, as they got into position he washed up.  He put more lube on his member which was still hard as a rock and bigger than he had ever seen it and he came up behind Mandy; Lisa holding her ass cheeks apart for him and entered Mandy’s sweet and very tight ass.  Mandy moaned in pleasure as he began to move inside her slowly at first, “Fuck that ass, fuck it good;” Lisa told him. He began to move faster and deeper. Mandy picked up her pace and Lisa hers. The three of them; matching pace and rhythm going fast then slow then fast again. Lisa screamed she was going to cum, and then Mandy screamed she was going to cum, exciting him causing him to go faster and deeper inside of Mandy. The girls moaned and screamed until finally they screamed together that they were cumming; Mandy squirted all over Lisa, Lisa squirted all over Mandy and him. With one final deep thrust inside of Mandy he let go himself filling Mandy’s ass with his own cum.  Once he was done he pulled out of Mandy’s ass. The girls squirt again as they removed the dildo from themselves. Mandy lie down next to Lisa as both girls bodies shook.  He went to clean up as the girls waited for their legs to stop feeling rubbery so that they could move.  A few minutes later the girls joined him in the bathroom and began to wash up. Once they were done they both climbed into the king sized bed and patted at the spot between them. He climbed into the bed and no sooner lies down between them and they were out.  He kissed each one of them on the lips softly. His last thoughts before he fell asleep were that he was one of the luckiest guys in the world.

Okay a little more about me. I am probally the most stubborn when I am sick. Didn't even like it when my mom would try and take care of me. Not sure why I am this way but I am. Sometimes I wish I knew why I was this way or maybe it is because others never really tried to make me accept the help. Well my mom did, I was just more stubborn then she was. I'll fight going to sleep. I hate giving in.  I'll wait until I can no longer deal with what ever it is that has me down to go see a Dr. Probally not the smartest way to do things, but I cannot help it.

So I a guy friend of mine told me about the three day rule. So that explains my encounter on Valentines day. I find that rule a bit funny. I get it to a point however women like to know that she and the guy are on the same page sooner. We tend to over think things. We start to think that the guy was not intrested and that we need to contiue to look elsewhere. Maybe we are jumping the gun for thinking that way, but it is just how at least my brain is programed. Okay now that I have that out of my system I feel  better.

If we should met I will have the curtsey to send you an email when I return home. Hopefully I will hear back from you as well. This way we will both know what the other thought. How is one supposed to know if there is or not farther intrest. I understand that you may not be able to respond right away but at the same time after so much time passes without response I will take it as you are not intrested and also at the same time feel I have been played. At least have the curtesy to tell me you are not intres, I can accept that. I will move on and contiue my search.

Today is a new day and my search for a D contiues. I know I will find him. I have receiced a lot of email on here. When I read them I take the time to read each person's profile. Takes time but it helps me to see if we have anything in common and if so what that may be. If I get email for those who have clearly not read my profile then I just delete the email, why waste my time. If you are not going to bother reading what I have to say then you won't be able to seduce my mind and therefore not be able to get to me to submit. If I feel that we may be albe to make a connection I will write back. If I am not intrested I will let you know. If your email is rude and degrading I delete it as well. So me respect and I will return it. I have my mail controls in place so if you end up in my bulk mail which I don't check often then I will not be getting back to you either because you are not what I am seeking.

Getting asked a lot about my desires so I am going to add them here.

 I desire a Dom that is caring and yet knows when I need to be punish me. I want him to talk to me not put me down when something is wrong. I need him to accept me for who I am. Changes come naturally if the relationship is meant to be. He can not be abusive. I desire someone who will encourage me to fulfill my dreams and tell in turn I will help him fulfill his. I need for him to understand I am human and I have feelings. I want him to get to know me on a personal level and allow ourD/s relationship to blosom. I need to know that I can trust him. If he takes the time to get to know me, he will know when to add new things into the relationship. I desire not only a D but a lover and a friend. If he wants me to give then he too must be willing to give. Respect my hard limit. When teaching me new things or even when I am getting used to your rules please remember it has been a long time for me. We all make mistakes. Getting to know me on a presonal level before asking me to submit will benefit you. If you are the person for me I will give you my heart and my soul. Allow me to surender my mind when I know I must and again he will not be sorry. Treat me as a human and not a puppet. I desire one that will be loyal and not cheat on me and not lie to me.

  Here is a little more about me. If you stimulate my mind my body will follow. Leaving my mind to wonder about what could or could will benefit both of us. If you say I am going to be punished for something follow through. I like testing the waters seeing just how much I can get away with but also enjoy it when my limits are tested.  When I am testing my limits I do have enough respect to do it when we are alone and not out in public. Maybe I shouldn't do that but it is part of who I am. Trust is very important to me. Betray my trust and even if you stimulate my mind my body will not follow. When I have made you proud tell me and show me you mean it. Actions speak louder then words. Family is and always will be important. I am a mom and that cannot be turned off.

Took the day to sit down and reflect back on things that have happened to me over the past several years. I am secure enough with myself when it comes to my past and tings that have happened in it. So when I am really nervous I talk a lot and I bite my lip. What I not longer do is avoid eye contact with people any more. I used to and that was because I was scared shitless of them seeing into my eyes and discovering the pain that I had buried deep inside of me. The ugly secrets that I worked very hard to keep hidden. The things that happened to me in my past has made me stronger. I know what I want and what I will not tolerate. An encounter I had on Valentine's day only served as proof to myself that I still desire to be submissive. There is something to be said about the mental and physical coming together that makes the imitancy much more intense. It also reminded me of how much I missed having a dom. I owe this person and give this person a heartfelt thank you. I still have things I need to work on when it comes to meeting new people but I have come a long way.

Just a shorty story I wrote titled A Slave's Story. I hope you enjoy.

He heard her in the shower, he knew it was the perfect time to set thing in motion to punish her. He pulled out the things he would need and placed them near where he would be laying so she would see them, and he could easily get to them. He then thought about how he would use each item and how he was going to get to her. Then it came to him. He decided to join her in the shower. He grabbed her by her hair, she started to resist him so he whispered in her ear, you have been a very bad girl and you are going to be punished. He took his free hand and slid it her thigh and began to finger her warm wet spot. He asked her if she was done with her shower and she told him she was almost done. He let her hair go so she could finish washing up her body. When she went to rinse off he grabbed her hair and aging as a reminder to her that she had been bad and that she was going to have to pay for it.

When she was done she turned off the water and stepped out of the shower, grabbed her towel and began to dry off, before she could finish her master stepped closer and began to lead her to the bed. He pushed her down over the side of the bed. With his free hand he removed the towel and with his legs he pushed her legs apart. "Please Master I will be good" she said. It is too late he whispered in her ear.” I want you to tell me that you need to be punished.” Her body quivered and her mouth got dry and her pussy got wet. Before she could say anything he slipped a blindfold over her eyes. She felt his hard shaft against her legs he whispered in her ear I am waiting, she knew what he wanted to hear so she said “Sir I have been bad and need to be punished.” She felt his free hand move and then she felt it against her thigh and slowly he moved it upwards. He held her hair and whispered in her ear “spread your legs my bad girl” as he tugged her hair once again. She slowly did as she was told. The object moved up again to her backside. She wanted to say no please don’t but she knew better. All of her holes were his to do with as he pleased. He let go of her hair and his hands roved all over her bottom half. She remembered that he knew where all of her toys were she quivered at that thought. He told her to get on the bed and to get on her knees. “I am not done with you” he whispered in her ear once she was on the bed in the manner he had told her. She felt the vibrator once again on her thigh, it took everything she had not to move and he slowly moved it up her thigh and between her legs. He moved it up along her butt cheek. Her body quivered once again. He then slowly began to insert it into her ass. Her body shook from but pleasure and fear. She knew she had pushed him so he was pushing her. Master began to move the vibrator slowly pushing it deeper in once it was deep inside her ass he turned it on, her pussy got wetter. He then climbed up on the bed behind and began to rub his hard member along her wet warm pussy. Her body responded to him by getting even wetter. Master leaned forward and whispered, “See how I can make your body do just what I want it to do? You are my slave and I know every single inch of your body and know every secret about how to make you squirm and cum.” Before she could stop herself the words “No please don’t” slipped from her lips.” “What? Who are you to tell me no! I can do anything I want to you Slave!” can her Master’s reply along with him grabbing the back of her hair in a quick tug. With that he shoved his hard member inside her wet pussy. Master was proving to her that she was his slave to do with as he pleased. He began to thrust his member inside her while the vibrator moved with him inside her ass. With each movement her body shivered and responded in kind until she felt herself ready to cum.

Her Master felt this and told her that she could not cum until he told her to do so. This was going to be hard because it was building up quickly. She tried to do as her Master asked but hit subspace and could not control herself. Her body shook with pleasure at the release. Before she had finished she felt her Master cum inside her warm wet and now very tight pussy. She felt the grip on her hair get a bit tighter and the vibrator go a bit deeper in her ass. “ I am not done with you yet Slave since you came without my permission I am going to keep this vibrator in your ass going until I am ready to go inside you again, but this time I am going to fill your ass with my cum.” Her body began to rock in sync with the thrusts her Master was using on her ass with the vibrator as yet another climax built. Her pussy was sopping wet and both she and her Master’s cum were running down her thighs. Just as she was ready to cum once again the vibrator was removed from her ass and was replaced by her Master’s very hard member. He began to thrust slowly driving her beyond crazy. Before she could wrap her thoughts on what was happening he began to thrust hard and fast pushing her over the crest into deep subspace and causing her to lose all control. Just before she could not take it anymore she felt Her Master’s body quiver, and she felt the release of his cum deep inside her ass. They both had cum together. As they both began to come back to their senses, he kissed her on the back of her neck. They both lay down side by side until they felt their legs again. Master got up and removed her blind fold. He then helped her out of the bed so that they could clean up. “Next time I will not be so easy on you. I am sure you are in need of some rest and so am I but I reserve the right to finish this off later if I so choose, but for now I am done.” After cleaning up they both lay in the bed and before she knew it she was fast asleep.

I find myself wondering if I will ever find the right Master. Deep down I know he is out there somewhere and I will find him when the timing is right. I just have to be patient, not easy for me. He will know how to and when to push my limits. He will introduce me to new things or when I read about something I have never tried he will be openminded. He will love my vivid imagination and use it to our advantage to bring us both pleasure. I know he is out there somewhere we just need to find each other.

He calls her name and she goes, with a smile on her face and love in her heart.

She takes her place at his feet and waits for his instructions. She belongs to him after all.

There is no place else she would rather be at this moment in time then where she is right now.

She trusts him with her life, heart and soul, knowing he only wants what is best for her.

Where he leads she will follow, for she belongs to him heart body and soul.  She accepts her punishments knowing that she deserved them. She accepts his praise knowing she earned that too.

After all she is his Submissive and he her  Master.